I'm Not 100% Sure About Upcoming Projects and I'm Still Working on a Shell for a Custom Order

I haven't been entirely sure about some upcoming projects, but I do know that I'll have to start working on them soon. One of those projects is a shell for a custom order, which is a snail with a blue color scheme. The good news is that the first half of the shell has already been attached, and all that's left to do is attach the second half and work on the body. Once that's complete, I'll have to sew it all together.

In addition to this project, I've also started working on a custom order for another customer. The design is similar to the one I mentioned earlier, but with some changes to make it unique. While it's still in progress, I'm excited about how it's turning out and hope that it will be finished soon.

On the other hand, I have made several items recently, including a dragon that I'm absolutely obsessed with. The dragon is not only adorable, but also has intricate details such as sparkly eyes and rainbow-colored wings. I'm so happy with how it turned out that I'm already planning to make more of them in the future.

The Dragon Video

As you can see from my screen, I've been working on this video for a while now, and I'm excited to finally finish editing it. The goal is to show all of these items, including the ones I mentioned earlier, as well as some new ones that I'll be listing soon on Etsy. Since it's lunchtime now, I'll try to post everything there instead.

The Items Listed

Speaking of which, let me show you what I've been working on lately. First up is a whale shark, which was made for Shark Week. While the color didn't turn out perfectly due to some issues with my tension or perhaps using yarn over and under differently than the designer intended, it's still an adorable piece that I'm happy with. The other side turned out just fine, so I'll be offering this one at a discounted price.

Next is a blue shark with sparkly eyes, which was my first attempt at making a shark. It turned out well, and I'm not sure why I didn't make more of them in the future, but I do enjoy it nonetheless. Then there's a giraffe that looks like Humpty Dumpty, which is indeed adorable despite its short neck.

I also made a sloth that resembles an egg blob with a perfect sitting position for bookshelves. It was fun to work on this one because it allowed me to experiment with different yarns and techniques.

Moving on, I started following a pattern for a koala but ended up going my own way instead. While it might not have been the most traditional design, I'm happy with how it turned out and can't wait to make more of them in the future.

The Koala Pattern

I think what makes this koala design so special is that the yarn has a fuzzy texture that adds an extra layer of depth to the piece. The overall shape of the koala is cute, but I'm most drawn to its expressive face and the way it seems to be looking at you.

Next up is a puffer fish, which turned out to be quick and fun to make. With intricate details such as sparkly eyes, this one is an absolute favorite of mine. The combination of colors and textures really brings the piece together.

Then there's an elephant with fuzzy yarn that I think adds a nice touch. It's not always easy working with different fibers and techniques, but when it all comes together, the result is something truly special.

Last but certainly not least is this adorable cat, which bears a striking resemblance to my real-life cat Ella at home. The color choices were intentional, as I wanted to capture her spirit in this piece.

And That's All for Today

Well, that concludes today's video and article. As you can see, it was all over the place, but that's kind of what life has been like lately for me. Despite not being entirely sure about some projects or having a few issues along the way, I'm happy to have had this chance to share everything with you.

I hope this gave you an idea of where I've been and what's been going on in my world. If you're still watching after all this, thank you for that!

"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: engood morning everyone and welcome to a new Vlog today I just kind of wanted to take you guys along with me for a little day in the life because I just kind of thought that would be fun so I am getting an early start to the day I'm getting done some work for my small business my crochet small business uh if you guys didn't know I talked about it in my last video but I have started a small business which definitely was not on my 2024 bingo card but you know we are enjoying it so it is called stuffed managerie and I'll have it linked down below but basically I have just been really getting into making crochet plushies it has just been helping me out a lot with like my mental health so I can't possibly keep everything that I make so I am selling them on Etsy and I'll have it linked down down below if you guys wanted to check out like the Etsy page or even just the Instagram to give it a follow so that's really weird there's just artwork cuz we have a frame TV but it's very strange that we just have a random uh postal man but anyways I have been working on a custom order this morning so it's for a butterfly I got the body done a couple days ago and now I have done one of the Wings this morning I'm working with jumbo yarn so this one's taking me a little bit longer than usual because I have to take breaks because it is quite a bit harder on like my hands and my wrist and everything but that is what I am presently working on I'm hoping to make maybe get that done today but I definitely don't want to push myself too hard to use that yarn for too long and then I also have a custom order with that jumbo yarn for a snail like this but in blue so I need to start with that one I have quite a few custom orders to do and to be honest I'm not 100% sure if I'm going to continue to do custom orders right now I have them closed because I have quite a few but I feel like I might kind of keep them closed for a little bit because I don't want to burn myself out basically like I love making things and I love doing the Customs but at the same time I kind of want to not get too overwhelmed and have more of the opportunity to kind of like stick with just making whatever I feel like so I'm not really sure what I'm going to do with that right now but I have quite a few that I'm going to get done first and then I'll kind of see how I'm feeling or maybe I'll do like two a month or something I'm not entirely sure yet I have a couple things here actually that I've made recently that I'll show you I made this sea turtle which I am so freaking obsessed with this was originally going to be for the store but this is another one that I'm going to be keeping I've only kept one other thing which is this snail that I just showed you other than that everything that I've made like with the intention to sell even if they're things that I end up really loving I have ended up selling them because I just know I can't keep everything but there's just something about this Turtle honestly I am just completely obsessed with so I will make another one for the store though but like I'm so happy with this one it was a lot of fun to make too but it's definitely like the biggest thing that I've made so far other than this butterfly I feel like it's going to be even bigger but I have a couple things that I finished yesterday too so I finished this penguin yesterday and then I also finished this frog yesterday and this is kind of the combination of a couple of patterns because the original pattern for this one it had just like tiny little feet and I just kind of wanted I don't know I wasn't the biggest fan of the for that so I ended up combining a couple of patterns to give it like actual arms and legs and I think it turned out really cute I like the colors on it and I like the eyes so yeah I need to take photos for these ones and videos and get their Etsy listing setup because at the moment I'm doing a launch every other Friday on Etsy like I'm currently sold out which is so crazy to me and I'm so so grateful for it honestly like I cannot express enough how grateful I am for it but all of that is to say that I have a restock coming this Friday July is it the 19th I think it's the 19th but basically I'm going to be restocking every other Friday at 10:00 a.m. eastern time if you wanted to keep up with that then you can follow my Instagram page for stuffed managerie and I always like that week will kind of show you what's coming and I will also set up a reminder so then you can be reminded from Instagram about it but yeah I am surprised like things sell out quite quickly so if there was something that you're interested in I would recommend kind of jumping on it sooner rather than later because I've had quite a few messages where people were disappointed which makes me feel so bad but things are just selling out way quicker than I expected like it's kind of crazy but I do like take real pride in making sure everything is of good quality and is really nice and because of that like I'm only able to produce so much like I'm only one person person but I do try my best you know but to that point a lot of these things it's probably going to be like the only one I make of it because that's just kind of how my brain works I kind of want to make something some things like some things I will make multiples of but chances are there's only going to be one of that item in a drop and maybe I'll make it again in the future but there's no guarantees so just to kind of like let you know everything is kind of oneof a kind and I can't guarantee that it will come back again if it does come back it probably will be like different colors and different you know it will be different but similar if it does come back anyways I'm going to get started on kind of some admin work this morning I'm going to tidy up a little bit actually you guys can see in the background we got a new couch which is super exciting so it is like it's a little bit messy right now but we got some new furniture let me show you so our couch had kind of seen better days it wasn't really in like it was kind of a less expensive couch that my fiance had gotten when he was by himself and it just was starting to pill and like even though we had one of those things to get rid of that it just wasn't really working anymore so we ended up getting a really good deal on this couch which I really enjoy and we actually ended up getting a new dining set too which is really exciting so I had always hated our dining room table to be honest I just found it was very like masculine not my style but now we have this little dining set here with all new chairs and everything the chairs really needed to be replaced and then it also was like a super good deal it came with a buffet so now we have a buffet here which we clearly don't really have room for in the dining room so we ended up using it under the TV instead and it has honestly been such a godsend like I didn't really realize part of the reason that things always felt kind of cluttered and not exactly I don't know not really organized in this main area was because the only thing we really had for closed storage other than obviously like the kitchen and everything is this cabinet right here which isn't very big and half of it has glass where like you kind of want to make it look nice so we didn't really have anything else because this is what we had under the TV originally so we had the baskets on the bottom and that was about it but now like having this is so helpful because when I'm done with my crochet stuff I just will put it in here and I can easily have it up here here like this is another thing that I'm working on I'm working on a dragon but it is just so handy to have this basket which I used to just kind of keep sitting out on the dining room table now it actually has a home which is really nice I keep accidentally touching the screen so it's not focusing on my face sorry but originally we were just going to be bringing this little shelving unit downstairs but we have to have the ramp for the dogs so I knew we had to have something going on here so then the ramp wouldn't just be a tripping Hazard it still is a little bit of a tripping Hazard but it's not like as bad and then I realized when we were moving it that it's the exact same size as the couch like that side of the couch because basically what we got for the couch is a floor model so we couldn't like switch the side that the long part is on so I was kind of like not disappointed but I was like oh I guess if we had it on the other side it would kind of cover the window which would annoy me but here it was just kind of like a big thing of gray because there was nothing there like it was just kind of wall of the couch but I really like actually having this shelving unit down here we were just kind of trying it out but I am very happy with how it looks I think it looks very good I still want to kind of like play around with what's going on in there but for the most part I do like it and I like what's going on on top like we have this mushroom lamp this I have random yarn here but this is the cutest thing it's a little mushroom with a snail on it I'm obsessed with it but yeah that is kind of the new furniture and the knew everything I am super super happy with it I am just loving like honestly since moving this space has kind of felt like a work in progress and it always has like the furniture never really felt like things that were my taste in particular so it all just felt very like masculine more so and I don't know I just wanted to bring like more of myself and more life and more color to everything and I feel like I've done that like I still only have the artwork just like taped up there I would like to get frames eventually but that's something that we're saving up for I have some artwork here also the recycling needs to be emptied please don't judge me all of that is to say that it feels like it's really coming together like this is a space that I feel like I can now kind of easily reset at the end of the day which is making a huge difference and it just feels like somewhere where I am happy to spend all my time and that kind of started last year when I started adding some like fake plants and everything around like that started to make it feel more like Myspace but now having the furniture all changed like I am really really happy with all of it and it just it feels more like mine and more like home so yeah uh all of that is to say that I am going to get to work now this was a really long intro to the Vlog but oh well so I'm going to get started on Wing number two before I move on to the two smaller wings so this is the color for the smaller wings and then this is for the bigger ones so I'm going to finish with the bigger ones which are the ones that go on top I'm going to finish with them first before I move on to the smaller ones and then all I have to do is add two antenna which are just surface crocheted on and then I'll have to sew everything together but that will probably be a project for later I find that a lot of times the sewing is what hurts my hands the most my hands are in very rough shape now because I just get you know I get really into it but I find that the sewing does does hurt my hands the most cuz like you have to go through thick yarn and stuffing and it's just it's really hard to push the needle through sometimes but I will at least get everything crocheted and then maybe I'll start on the snail we'll see because that is a lot of like bulky yarn and I find my hands don't usually like they'll bother me a little bit on the day of but usually it's the day after that they start to bother me and I kind of need to take a day off so I'm trying to kind of prevent that but I have not been in in audio book mood I haven't been reading um I don't know I just haven't really felt like it haven't wanted to I'm sure I'll get back to it but it has just not been what I've been wanting to do so instead I've been for the past couple of days on a major like docu series kick I always have been interested in that sort of thing but for some reason I just go through phases like usually I'll go through phases of just watching and rewatching stuff on YouTube just to kind of have background noise is more what it is than anything and lately it's been a U series kick like I it feels embarrassing to say I watched four entire docu series from start to finish yesterday alone the day before I watched two like it was just a lot so now I'm starting another one so I'm watching what is it called it's twin flame something I don't know it only tells me the episode title but it's something twin flames I don't really know anything about it so that is going to be interesting oh I washed five yesterday I knew I washed five I knew I watched five but I forgot what the fifth one was the day before I watched a new one that came out about Jim Jones and Jonestown which was absolutely horrifying like all of these are horrifying in some capacity but that one especially I was like it really really horrified me and then I watched a random one about Montreal then yesterday I watched one about Ashley Madison the whole like leak and everything uh one about the Tik Tok dance cult thing 7M that whole thing then one about The Disappearance of the Malaysia um mh7 uh 30 one about um fdls I think is what it is and then what was the other one that I watched is that five I feel like I'm forgetting one again there seems to always be one that just slips through the cracks that I can't remember I don't know but my point is if you have any recommendations please leave them down below I'm generally not a huge True Crime person because cuz I'm just very easily scared like after watching the Jonestown one I had a hard time sleeping that night if you have any that like maybe aren't too gory like I'm not really interested in anything about like serial killers or anything like that that would just freak me out way too much so if you have anything else any other like interesting docy series they can be history like whatever like I have one on Stonehenge that I think I want to watch but if you have any recommendations for anything like that please let me know but yeah that has been my latest hyper fixation well while I'm like crocheting and while I'm working that is what I will do I am going to get to kind of tidying up the house a little bit later because I just have some areas of the house that I've kind of like neglected not been the best about like putting away laundry and stuff like that and I'll maybe kind of chat to you guys about why I feel like that's happening can I just leave the camera there is that going to be fine it might shake a little bit let me get started on crocheting actually and I will talk and crochet oh my God this strand coming up is crap this is what happens sometimes with Michael's yarn like I haven't even gotten there and look at that well well I'll have to work in a new piece once I get to that point but anyways I haven't really been posting as much as I would like to and I don't know I feel like it's been a really weird few months I started off the year like really gung-ho ready to go like yes woohoo and I had been feeling really good I was kind of coming off of last year where I had been doing really well and I had really big like goals and Ambitions I was getting into all sorts of different hobbies and then it kind of just became that like I became really hyperfixated on crochet obviously so that's kind of been the only hobby that I have really been doing but the one thing that I kind of like wanted to talk about and part of the reason why I feel like I have been crocheting way more than I've been reading and why I haven't really wanted to read as much is because I have kind of been struggling with dissociating for the past like I feel like it started in like around March and that's something that I've never really dealt with never experienced and is very scary like I don't like it at all I feel like over the past couple of weeks I've started to get a little bit better but it's just not fun and because it's something that I've never really like experienced before I didn't really know how to to snap myself out of it or like get out of it or cope with it and it's just it's a very strange feeling and it does not feel good like it just feels absolutely awful so I think because of that like doing something with my hands and doing something like crochet was keeping me kind of present and in the moment because I would have to count I would have to be kind of like paying attention to what I was doing and it would just keep me I don't know grounded almost and reading is like kind of the complete opposite right so at first when I was crocheting I would be listening to audiobooks quite a bit but then I kind of started to experience like dissociating and I will say like I am obviously trying to seek professional help with that um but this is just kind of like to explain what is going on but it is really hard for me to get a doctor in Quebec I'm unable to get a therapist like I haven't been able to find anyone so it's kind of like we've been doing everything we can but it's really hard so I have a psychiatrist who has been helping with the medication and all these medication changes and everything but I was actually supposed to have an appointment on Monday but he had called in sick so now I'm supposed to they're supposed to call back to book another appointment but I haven't heard back yet but I really don't need to be resetting my uh counter now but alas that's what I decided to do anyways I need to actually go and grab my stitch marker so one second but reading is obviously like you're kind of trying to escape almost or like you're entering a new world you're imagining different things even if it's like you're not reading fantasy you're still entering like that character's version of the world so it just hasn't really been something because of that that like because of where my brain has been and because I've been having a hard time staying present and feeling like myself I really haven't wanted to do something where that's kind of like the whole point of it you know the whole point of reading is you're experiencing someone else and someone else's worldview so I don't know if that really makes sense but it's not like I'm never going to read again it's just kind of I haven't really felt the desire to do that in a little bit because of where my head has been at and yeah that's been kind of difficult because obviously like it's something that I love and continue to love but it just hasn't been what I have been interested in because it's just been kind of a struggle so I don't know if any of that makes sense and I apologize if it doesn't but I just kind of wanted to give you guys an explanation for where I'm at and what's been going on and all of that it's something that's kind of hard for me to explain because it's something that I don't really fully understand myself I can only like tell you my experience with it and I don't know I don't want to get into too much detail just because it feels like really scary to me and it's not something that's exactly fun but it just feels like for the past few months like the most basic things have felt really difficult because I feel like nothing is real and nothing is like consequential and it's really weird it's really awful like I can't even make to describe it because it wasn't even something that I realized was happening for a while and then I was like oh I guess this like I don't know it it's just really weird I know I just like cut myself off mid-sentence but it's just like this very very strange thing that I've been dealing with that I don't fully think I am able to comprehend and don't really like understand but yeah um that is kind of what has been going on so I'm going to get to crocheting my butterfly wing and uh I'm starting work soon so I will get to that but I just kind of wanted to start off the video saying that and that sometimes it might be a little bit harder for me to post but I'm doing my best because I do still love making videos like whether they're about books or whatever it's something that I still do really enjoy so I do want to continue doing it but genuinely like thank you guys so much for supporting me with this new venture and crocheting because it has been super helpful for me to like actually be able to do something like this and stay present and feel like I'm progressing even though my brain has kind of been struggling lately so yeah hello it's a few days later I have been having stomach issues so I have not been updating you guys I apologize uh but I did really want to get a video up like I just I want to get back to vlogging I'm just having such a hard time like actually committing myself to it but we're just going to finish this one even though it might be a little bit all over the place okay so I have still been deep in my docu series watches I did realize that the one day that I said that I watched four I did indeed watch five and the one that I was forgetting to tell you guys about I think was the man with th kids won which was also very interesting and horrifying like all of these are just horrifying but I keep watching them I feel like I mean a lot of people that I know they go through this phase where they're like just fascinated by Cults and stuff like that and I never thought that would be me but here we are I am very fascinated by it right now so I watched a couple more yesterday forget what I watched yesterday oh I watched the fire Festival documentary yesterday too which was very interesting but yeah that was my day yesterday I did that and then work was also really busy just ignore the fact that the bedroom behind me is very messy but work was very busy so I was just working and watching docu series but I'm trying to get back to like one of the things that I did last year that was really beneficial for me was actually like getting ready for the day every day even though I stay at home and I work from home getting ready for the day was really helpful so I'm trying to do that even if it means I'm just like putting on a different t-shirt just making sure that I am actually kind of doing some things that might help to you know boost my mood a little bit if you will I don't think the camera was on me at all at that point but whatever I'm just going to get changed and then I'll show you what I've been making because I've crocheted a little bit I haven't done a lot because as expected whenever I use the very bulky yarn I wake up the next day and my hands are tingling so I ended up taking a break yesterday I didn't really do very much so I'll show you what I did do though okay so here's everything that I did so I did end up finishing with all of the wings for my little butterfly here so now I just need to do I need to surface crochet the antenna on top and then I need to sew these on but like I said my hands were hurting so I just haven't done that yet but I will be doing that in the next little bit maybe I'll do that today I'm not 100% sure and then I also started on the shell for a custom order that I had for a snail like this but in blue so I have the one half of the shell is attached already and then I just need to attach the other half and then do the body so that should be done soon too I'll then have to sew it together but yeah the only thing that I've made other than that is I made this Dragon which I am absolutely obsessed with like I need to show you guys in the light because its eyes and everything are so cool wow so glad you can see in the light it's not at all washed out there we go it has like little sparkly eyes it's got the rainbow wings and everything and I am just so happy with how this turned out it's definitely the first of many dragons that I'm going to be making but when you're seeing this video everything will be live on my Etsy because it's lunch time now and I'm actually going to try and like finish up editing this and get it posted so if you guys were interested then you can do go and check out the link down below because I have posted everything on there I have 12 new items for you guys and I'm very excited about all of them so I hope that you guys like them too ignore the state things behind me I'm sorry uh but I somehow neglected to actually show you all the things that I was listing this go around so I actually have some footage from like a false start of this Vlog that I'm just going to insert here so you guys can see everything but anyways so first of all we have this whale shark and this one's actually going to be a little bit different so the color changes on this one didn't turn out 100% so I'm going to be offering it at a discounted price and kind of saying that it's a little bit imperfect but it's just the color changes didn't turn out 100 % I think because of my tension I'm not 100% sure because I haven't really had that issue or the designer might actually do yarn over and I do yarn under so that might be why but on the one side they just turned out a little bit different but I wanted to make some sharks for shark week so I did this whale shark which I think is still so adorable really happy with it but this is actually the first shark that I made so I made this little one which is just this bright blue shark with sparkly eyes which I quite enjoy I'm not really going in order I'm just kind of showing you random things so we have this giraffe here which is so adorable I love this one even though it doesn't really like have a long neck I think it's so cute honestly then we have this sloth with like my mom was like this looks like Humpty Dumpty and it absolutely does it's just like a little egg Blobby sloth but the way that he sits like it's perfect for a bookshelf he just would sit right on the bookshelf which is super fun I have this koala which I started following a pattern but then I ended up completely going on my own and I am really happy with how it turned out so that's good then we have this dog which is super cute he has like the little puppy dog eyes and I think he turned out very adorable as well with his little tail I have this puffer fish which I for sure will be making more of these because this was very quick and it was a lot of fun too I really enjoyed this one I love the eyes on it and I'm just so happy with him I think he's adorable and then I have the elephant which is nice and like the yarn is kind of fuzzy which is cool but I think he's fun as well and then finally I actually finished this this morning but it is this cat which it looks kind of like my cat Ella at home so yeah I went for another CAT which I thought was fun but that's going to be all for today's video I know this was kind of a quick one maybe a little bit all over the place but honestly that is what I'm able to give you right now and that's just what we're going to be sticking with I hope that's okay with you guys but I just really want to get back into the swing of things and this is helping me to do it so I hope that maybe this video helped you guys to kind of understand where I've been at what's been going on a little bit and all of that uh I hope you still enjoyed it so thank you guys so much for watching thank you for all your support as always and thank you for sticking with me and I will see you guys in another new video very soon byegood morning everyone and welcome to a new Vlog today I just kind of wanted to take you guys along with me for a little day in the life because I just kind of thought that would be fun so I am getting an early start to the day I'm getting done some work for my small business my crochet small business uh if you guys didn't know I talked about it in my last video but I have started a small business which definitely was not on my 2024 bingo card but you know we are enjoying it so it is called stuffed managerie and I'll have it linked down below but basically I have just been really getting into making crochet plushies it has just been helping me out a lot with like my mental health so I can't possibly keep everything that I make so I am selling them on Etsy and I'll have it linked down down below if you guys wanted to check out like the Etsy page or even just the Instagram to give it a follow so that's really weird there's just artwork cuz we have a frame TV but it's very strange that we just have a random uh postal man but anyways I have been working on a custom order this morning so it's for a butterfly I got the body done a couple days ago and now I have done one of the Wings this morning I'm working with jumbo yarn so this one's taking me a little bit longer than usual because I have to take breaks because it is quite a bit harder on like my hands and my wrist and everything but that is what I am presently working on I'm hoping to make maybe get that done today but I definitely don't want to push myself too hard to use that yarn for too long and then I also have a custom order with that jumbo yarn for a snail like this but in blue so I need to start with that one I have quite a few custom orders to do and to be honest I'm not 100% sure if I'm going to continue to do custom orders right now I have them closed because I have quite a few but I feel like I might kind of keep them closed for a little bit because I don't want to burn myself out basically like I love making things and I love doing the Customs but at the same time I kind of want to not get too overwhelmed and have more of the opportunity to kind of like stick with just making whatever I feel like so I'm not really sure what I'm going to do with that right now but I have quite a few that I'm going to get done first and then I'll kind of see how I'm feeling or maybe I'll do like two a month or something I'm not entirely sure yet I have a couple things here actually that I've made recently that I'll show you I made this sea turtle which I am so freaking obsessed with this was originally going to be for the store but this is another one that I'm going to be keeping I've only kept one other thing which is this snail that I just showed you other than that everything that I've made like with the intention to sell even if they're things that I end up really loving I have ended up selling them because I just know I can't keep everything but there's just something about this Turtle honestly I am just completely obsessed with so I will make another one for the store though but like I'm so happy with this one it was a lot of fun to make too but it's definitely like the biggest thing that I've made so far other than this butterfly I feel like it's going to be even bigger but I have a couple things that I finished yesterday too so I finished this penguin yesterday and then I also finished this frog yesterday and this is kind of the combination of a couple of patterns because the original pattern for this one it had just like tiny little feet and I just kind of wanted I don't know I wasn't the biggest fan of the for that so I ended up combining a couple of patterns to give it like actual arms and legs and I think it turned out really cute I like the colors on it and I like the eyes so yeah I need to take photos for these ones and videos and get their Etsy listing setup because at the moment I'm doing a launch every other Friday on Etsy like I'm currently sold out which is so crazy to me and I'm so so grateful for it honestly like I cannot express enough how grateful I am for it but all of that is to say that I have a restock coming this Friday July is it the 19th I think it's the 19th but basically I'm going to be restocking every other Friday at 10:00 a.m. eastern time if you wanted to keep up with that then you can follow my Instagram page for stuffed managerie and I always like that week will kind of show you what's coming and I will also set up a reminder so then you can be reminded from Instagram about it but yeah I am surprised like things sell out quite quickly so if there was something that you're interested in I would recommend kind of jumping on it sooner rather than later because I've had quite a few messages where people were disappointed which makes me feel so bad but things are just selling out way quicker than I expected like it's kind of crazy but I do like take real pride in making sure everything is of good quality and is really nice and because of that like I'm only able to produce so much like I'm only one person person but I do try my best you know but to that point a lot of these things it's probably going to be like the only one I make of it because that's just kind of how my brain works I kind of want to make something some things like some things I will make multiples of but chances are there's only going to be one of that item in a drop and maybe I'll make it again in the future but there's no guarantees so just to kind of like let you know everything is kind of oneof a kind and I can't guarantee that it will come back again if it does come back it probably will be like different colors and different you know it will be different but similar if it does come back anyways I'm going to get started on kind of some admin work this morning I'm going to tidy up a little bit actually you guys can see in the background we got a new couch which is super exciting so it is like it's a little bit messy right now but we got some new furniture let me show you so our couch had kind of seen better days it wasn't really in like it was kind of a less expensive couch that my fiance had gotten when he was by himself and it just was starting to pill and like even though we had one of those things to get rid of that it just wasn't really working anymore so we ended up getting a really good deal on this couch which I really enjoy and we actually ended up getting a new dining set too which is really exciting so I had always hated our dining room table to be honest I just found it was very like masculine not my style but now we have this little dining set here with all new chairs and everything the chairs really needed to be replaced and then it also was like a super good deal it came with a buffet so now we have a buffet here which we clearly don't really have room for in the dining room so we ended up using it under the TV instead and it has honestly been such a godsend like I didn't really realize part of the reason that things always felt kind of cluttered and not exactly I don't know not really organized in this main area was because the only thing we really had for closed storage other than obviously like the kitchen and everything is this cabinet right here which isn't very big and half of it has glass where like you kind of want to make it look nice so we didn't really have anything else because this is what we had under the TV originally so we had the baskets on the bottom and that was about it but now like having this is so helpful because when I'm done with my crochet stuff I just will put it in here and I can easily have it up here here like this is another thing that I'm working on I'm working on a dragon but it is just so handy to have this basket which I used to just kind of keep sitting out on the dining room table now it actually has a home which is really nice I keep accidentally touching the screen so it's not focusing on my face sorry but originally we were just going to be bringing this little shelving unit downstairs but we have to have the ramp for the dogs so I knew we had to have something going on here so then the ramp wouldn't just be a tripping Hazard it still is a little bit of a tripping Hazard but it's not like as bad and then I realized when we were moving it that it's the exact same size as the couch like that side of the couch because basically what we got for the couch is a floor model so we couldn't like switch the side that the long part is on so I was kind of like not disappointed but I was like oh I guess if we had it on the other side it would kind of cover the window which would annoy me but here it was just kind of like a big thing of gray because there was nothing there like it was just kind of wall of the couch but I really like actually having this shelving unit down here we were just kind of trying it out but I am very happy with how it looks I think it looks very good I still want to kind of like play around with what's going on in there but for the most part I do like it and I like what's going on on top like we have this mushroom lamp this I have random yarn here but this is the cutest thing it's a little mushroom with a snail on it I'm obsessed with it but yeah that is kind of the new furniture and the knew everything I am super super happy with it I am just loving like honestly since moving this space has kind of felt like a work in progress and it always has like the furniture never really felt like things that were my taste in particular so it all just felt very like masculine more so and I don't know I just wanted to bring like more of myself and more life and more color to everything and I feel like I've done that like I still only have the artwork just like taped up there I would like to get frames eventually but that's something that we're saving up for I have some artwork here also the recycling needs to be emptied please don't judge me all of that is to say that it feels like it's really coming together like this is a space that I feel like I can now kind of easily reset at the end of the day which is making a huge difference and it just feels like somewhere where I am happy to spend all my time and that kind of started last year when I started adding some like fake plants and everything around like that started to make it feel more like Myspace but now having the furniture all changed like I am really really happy with all of it and it just it feels more like mine and more like home so yeah uh all of that is to say that I am going to get to work now this was a really long intro to the Vlog but oh well so I'm going to get started on Wing number two before I move on to the two smaller wings so this is the color for the smaller wings and then this is for the bigger ones so I'm going to finish with the bigger ones which are the ones that go on top I'm going to finish with them first before I move on to the smaller ones and then all I have to do is add two antenna which are just surface crocheted on and then I'll have to sew everything together but that will probably be a project for later I find that a lot of times the sewing is what hurts my hands the most my hands are in very rough shape now because I just get you know I get really into it but I find that the sewing does does hurt my hands the most cuz like you have to go through thick yarn and stuffing and it's just it's really hard to push the needle through sometimes but I will at least get everything crocheted and then maybe I'll start on the snail we'll see because that is a lot of like bulky yarn and I find my hands don't usually like they'll bother me a little bit on the day of but usually it's the day after that they start to bother me and I kind of need to take a day off so I'm trying to kind of prevent that but I have not been in in audio book mood I haven't been reading um I don't know I just haven't really felt like it haven't wanted to I'm sure I'll get back to it but it has just not been what I've been wanting to do so instead I've been for the past couple of days on a major like docu series kick I always have been interested in that sort of thing but for some reason I just go through phases like usually I'll go through phases of just watching and rewatching stuff on YouTube just to kind of have background noise is more what it is than anything and lately it's been a U series kick like I it feels embarrassing to say I watched four entire docu series from start to finish yesterday alone the day before I watched two like it was just a lot so now I'm starting another one so I'm watching what is it called it's twin flame something I don't know it only tells me the episode title but it's something twin flames I don't really know anything about it so that is going to be interesting oh I washed five yesterday I knew I washed five I knew I watched five but I forgot what the fifth one was the day before I watched a new one that came out about Jim Jones and Jonestown which was absolutely horrifying like all of these are horrifying in some capacity but that one especially I was like it really really horrified me and then I watched a random one about Montreal then yesterday I watched one about Ashley Madison the whole like leak and everything uh one about the Tik Tok dance cult thing 7M that whole thing then one about The Disappearance of the Malaysia um mh7 uh 30 one about um fdls I think is what it is and then what was the other one that I watched is that five I feel like I'm forgetting one again there seems to always be one that just slips through the cracks that I can't remember I don't know but my point is if you have any recommendations please leave them down below I'm generally not a huge True Crime person because cuz I'm just very easily scared like after watching the Jonestown one I had a hard time sleeping that night if you have any that like maybe aren't too gory like I'm not really interested in anything about like serial killers or anything like that that would just freak me out way too much so if you have anything else any other like interesting docy series they can be history like whatever like I have one on Stonehenge that I think I want to watch but if you have any recommendations for anything like that please let me know but yeah that has been my latest hyper fixation well while I'm like crocheting and while I'm working that is what I will do I am going to get to kind of tidying up the house a little bit later because I just have some areas of the house that I've kind of like neglected not been the best about like putting away laundry and stuff like that and I'll maybe kind of chat to you guys about why I feel like that's happening can I just leave the camera there is that going to be fine it might shake a little bit let me get started on crocheting actually and I will talk and crochet oh my God this strand coming up is crap this is what happens sometimes with Michael's yarn like I haven't even gotten there and look at that well well I'll have to work in a new piece once I get to that point but anyways I haven't really been posting as much as I would like to and I don't know I feel like it's been a really weird few months I started off the year like really gung-ho ready to go like yes woohoo and I had been feeling really good I was kind of coming off of last year where I had been doing really well and I had really big like goals and Ambitions I was getting into all sorts of different hobbies and then it kind of just became that like I became really hyperfixated on crochet obviously so that's kind of been the only hobby that I have really been doing but the one thing that I kind of like wanted to talk about and part of the reason why I feel like I have been crocheting way more than I've been reading and why I haven't really wanted to read as much is because I have kind of been struggling with dissociating for the past like I feel like it started in like around March and that's something that I've never really dealt with never experienced and is very scary like I don't like it at all I feel like over the past couple of weeks I've started to get a little bit better but it's just not fun and because it's something that I've never really like experienced before I didn't really know how to to snap myself out of it or like get out of it or cope with it and it's just it's a very strange feeling and it does not feel good like it just feels absolutely awful so I think because of that like doing something with my hands and doing something like crochet was keeping me kind of present and in the moment because I would have to count I would have to be kind of like paying attention to what I was doing and it would just keep me I don't know grounded almost and reading is like kind of the complete opposite right so at first when I was crocheting I would be listening to audiobooks quite a bit but then I kind of started to experience like dissociating and I will say like I am obviously trying to seek professional help with that um but this is just kind of like to explain what is going on but it is really hard for me to get a doctor in Quebec I'm unable to get a therapist like I haven't been able to find anyone so it's kind of like we've been doing everything we can but it's really hard so I have a psychiatrist who has been helping with the medication and all these medication changes and everything but I was actually supposed to have an appointment on Monday but he had called in sick so now I'm supposed to they're supposed to call back to book another appointment but I haven't heard back yet but I really don't need to be resetting my uh counter now but alas that's what I decided to do anyways I need to actually go and grab my stitch marker so one second but reading is obviously like you're kind of trying to escape almost or like you're entering a new world you're imagining different things even if it's like you're not reading fantasy you're still entering like that character's version of the world so it just hasn't really been something because of that that like because of where my brain has been and because I've been having a hard time staying present and feeling like myself I really haven't wanted to do something where that's kind of like the whole point of it you know the whole point of reading is you're experiencing someone else and someone else's worldview so I don't know if that really makes sense but it's not like I'm never going to read again it's just kind of I haven't really felt the desire to do that in a little bit because of where my head has been at and yeah that's been kind of difficult because obviously like it's something that I love and continue to love but it just hasn't been what I have been interested in because it's just been kind of a struggle so I don't know if any of that makes sense and I apologize if it doesn't but I just kind of wanted to give you guys an explanation for where I'm at and what's been going on and all of that it's something that's kind of hard for me to explain because it's something that I don't really fully understand myself I can only like tell you my experience with it and I don't know I don't want to get into too much detail just because it feels like really scary to me and it's not something that's exactly fun but it just feels like for the past few months like the most basic things have felt really difficult because I feel like nothing is real and nothing is like consequential and it's really weird it's really awful like I can't even make to describe it because it wasn't even something that I realized was happening for a while and then I was like oh I guess this like I don't know it it's just really weird I know I just like cut myself off mid-sentence but it's just like this very very strange thing that I've been dealing with that I don't fully think I am able to comprehend and don't really like understand but yeah um that is kind of what has been going on so I'm going to get to crocheting my butterfly wing and uh I'm starting work soon so I will get to that but I just kind of wanted to start off the video saying that and that sometimes it might be a little bit harder for me to post but I'm doing my best because I do still love making videos like whether they're about books or whatever it's something that I still do really enjoy so I do want to continue doing it but genuinely like thank you guys so much for supporting me with this new venture and crocheting because it has been super helpful for me to like actually be able to do something like this and stay present and feel like I'm progressing even though my brain has kind of been struggling lately so yeah hello it's a few days later I have been having stomach issues so I have not been updating you guys I apologize uh but I did really want to get a video up like I just I want to get back to vlogging I'm just having such a hard time like actually committing myself to it but we're just going to finish this one even though it might be a little bit all over the place okay so I have still been deep in my docu series watches I did realize that the one day that I said that I watched four I did indeed watch five and the one that I was forgetting to tell you guys about I think was the man with th kids won which was also very interesting and horrifying like all of these are just horrifying but I keep watching them I feel like I mean a lot of people that I know they go through this phase where they're like just fascinated by Cults and stuff like that and I never thought that would be me but here we are I am very fascinated by it right now so I watched a couple more yesterday forget what I watched yesterday oh I watched the fire Festival documentary yesterday too which was very interesting but yeah that was my day yesterday I did that and then work was also really busy just ignore the fact that the bedroom behind me is very messy but work was very busy so I was just working and watching docu series but I'm trying to get back to like one of the things that I did last year that was really beneficial for me was actually like getting ready for the day every day even though I stay at home and I work from home getting ready for the day was really helpful so I'm trying to do that even if it means I'm just like putting on a different t-shirt just making sure that I am actually kind of doing some things that might help to you know boost my mood a little bit if you will I don't think the camera was on me at all at that point but whatever I'm just going to get changed and then I'll show you what I've been making because I've crocheted a little bit I haven't done a lot because as expected whenever I use the very bulky yarn I wake up the next day and my hands are tingling so I ended up taking a break yesterday I didn't really do very much so I'll show you what I did do though okay so here's everything that I did so I did end up finishing with all of the wings for my little butterfly here so now I just need to do I need to surface crochet the antenna on top and then I need to sew these on but like I said my hands were hurting so I just haven't done that yet but I will be doing that in the next little bit maybe I'll do that today I'm not 100% sure and then I also started on the shell for a custom order that I had for a snail like this but in blue so I have the one half of the shell is attached already and then I just need to attach the other half and then do the body so that should be done soon too I'll then have to sew it together but yeah the only thing that I've made other than that is I made this Dragon which I am absolutely obsessed with like I need to show you guys in the light because its eyes and everything are so cool wow so glad you can see in the light it's not at all washed out there we go it has like little sparkly eyes it's got the rainbow wings and everything and I am just so happy with how this turned out it's definitely the first of many dragons that I'm going to be making but when you're seeing this video everything will be live on my Etsy because it's lunch time now and I'm actually going to try and like finish up editing this and get it posted so if you guys were interested then you can do go and check out the link down below because I have posted everything on there I have 12 new items for you guys and I'm very excited about all of them so I hope that you guys like them too ignore the state things behind me I'm sorry uh but I somehow neglected to actually show you all the things that I was listing this go around so I actually have some footage from like a false start of this Vlog that I'm just going to insert here so you guys can see everything but anyways so first of all we have this whale shark and this one's actually going to be a little bit different so the color changes on this one didn't turn out 100% so I'm going to be offering it at a discounted price and kind of saying that it's a little bit imperfect but it's just the color changes didn't turn out 100 % I think because of my tension I'm not 100% sure because I haven't really had that issue or the designer might actually do yarn over and I do yarn under so that might be why but on the one side they just turned out a little bit different but I wanted to make some sharks for shark week so I did this whale shark which I think is still so adorable really happy with it but this is actually the first shark that I made so I made this little one which is just this bright blue shark with sparkly eyes which I quite enjoy I'm not really going in order I'm just kind of showing you random things so we have this giraffe here which is so adorable I love this one even though it doesn't really like have a long neck I think it's so cute honestly then we have this sloth with like my mom was like this looks like Humpty Dumpty and it absolutely does it's just like a little egg Blobby sloth but the way that he sits like it's perfect for a bookshelf he just would sit right on the bookshelf which is super fun I have this koala which I started following a pattern but then I ended up completely going on my own and I am really happy with how it turned out so that's good then we have this dog which is super cute he has like the little puppy dog eyes and I think he turned out very adorable as well with his little tail I have this puffer fish which I for sure will be making more of these because this was very quick and it was a lot of fun too I really enjoyed this one I love the eyes on it and I'm just so happy with him I think he's adorable and then I have the elephant which is nice and like the yarn is kind of fuzzy which is cool but I think he's fun as well and then finally I actually finished this this morning but it is this cat which it looks kind of like my cat Ella at home so yeah I went for another CAT which I thought was fun but that's going to be all for today's video I know this was kind of a quick one maybe a little bit all over the place but honestly that is what I'm able to give you right now and that's just what we're going to be sticking with I hope that's okay with you guys but I just really want to get back into the swing of things and this is helping me to do it so I hope that maybe this video helped you guys to kind of understand where I've been at what's been going on a little bit and all of that uh I hope you still enjoyed it so thank you guys so much for watching thank you for all your support as always and thank you for sticking with me and I will see you guys in another new video very soon bye\n"