book shopping in nyc + reading fourth wing + life reset _ mini vlog

**A Trip to New York and a Come-to-Jesus Moment**

I don't think I have footage of this trip, but I'm sure it was just thrilling to see Taylor Swift's original vinyl. It's always exciting to meet fans, and it sounds like one of our friends who is local to New York joined us on the trip. We went out for some Korean food with them after we finished visiting Taylor's album, and overall, it was a pretty good trip. I guess we're losing a friend, but that's okay - sometimes you have to let people go.

I'm at a bit of an impasse with this book, Fourth Wing by Taylor Swift. I'm 50 pages into the fourth wing, and I feel like I'm almost at a loss for words. This is some of the corniest, most cringeworthy stuff that I've ever read in my life. My expectations were not adjusted accordingly, which is why I'm still a little astounded by what I've been reading.

**SPOILER ALERT!**

I don't know how much more of this I can take, but I think I'll just have to spoil the rest of the book for you. Not only is the protagonist completely untalented and terrible at being a dragon writer or attempting to become one, but she somehow gains the ability to stop time and bonds with two dragons. This is something that no one has ever done before, and it's just not believable. Hearing her talk to the dragons was another level of cringeworthy that I wasn't expecting.

I'm genuinely at a loss for words, and I don't know how much more of this book I want to read. It's fast-paced, but in a way that's almost annoyingly so - it feels like people got sucked in by the idea of dragons and celebrity relationships, and decided that this was a good book just because of that.

I'm questioning everything about my friends' taste in books now. I don't have a single friend on Goodreads who has rated this book five stars, which is making me wonder if there's something wrong with my social circle. Maybe they're all just masochists or something.

**A Vlog Update**

I want to leave this vlog on a cliffhanger because I'm feeling so inclined right now. It was a fun and zesty little vlog, but I feel like I need to warn you all that things are about to get serious. I actually had a panic attack today, and I'm still feeling some anxiety. I don't know what triggered it yet, but I'll be talking about it in the next vlog.

For now, let's just say that I cleaned my house and read Fourth Wing. That's about all I can promise for this week. The next vlog is going to be wild and hot - I don't want to promise too much, because I feel like I'm setting myself up for disappointment. But let's just say that it'll be interesting, and you should stay tuned.

I've decided to finish this book and talk about some really honestly sad and depressing things that are happening in my life right now. You know how nosy some of your friends can be - well, I'm sure yours are too. They're going to want to hear all the juicy details about what's going on with me, and I'm happy to oblige.

I also have some exciting news: I'm going on a vacation with my little sister soon! We're heading to Rosemary Beach in Florida for the third week of June, and I'll be bringing my trusty mics with me. If you're there, please say hi - I'd love to meet some new people. But let's just say that things are going to get real on this vacation...