**A Failed Attempt at Drawing Davy Jones**

As I sat on my floor, surrounded by papers and pens, I couldn't help but feel a sense of trepidation. My task for the day was to draw Daisy Jones, but I knew it wouldn't be easy. In fact, I was pretty sure I wasn't going to get it right. The instructions for this challenge had been simple: open a random page in the book, point to the name on the page, and try to draw whoever that person was. Sounds easy enough, right? But as I looked around my cluttered space, I realized that I might not have fully understood the rules.

I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and pointed to the first name I saw on the page - Daisy. With a sense of excitement, I grabbed my pen and paper, ready to start drawing. Or so I thought. As I began to sketch, I quickly realized that this wasn't going to be as easy as I had hoped. My lines were wobbly, my proportions were off, and my attempt at capturing Daisy's likeness was laughable. She looked more like a kindergartener's drawing of her than the actual person I was trying to draw.

**The Struggle is Real**

As I worked on my drawing, I couldn't help but feel a sense of frustration. This wasn't going as planned, and I was starting to get anxious. My eyes were scanning the page frantically, looking for some inspiration or guidance, but it just didn't come. The timer had already started ticking away, and I knew I was running out of time. I tried to push through my doubts and keep going, but it seemed like no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't get it right.

**A Failing Attempt**

The minutes ticked by, and my drawing only got worse. I had managed to capture Daisy's hoop earrings okay, but everything else was a mess. Her tank top was stretched out of all proportion, her jeans were on backwards, and her face looked more like a cartoon character than the actual person I was trying to draw. I couldn't help but laugh at my own failed attempt. It was clear that I needed some serious practice if I wanted to get this right.

**The Aftermath**

As I finished my drawing, I let out a deep sigh of relief. The timer had finally gone off, and I could move on with the rest of my day. But as I looked at my creation, I couldn't help but feel a sense of disappointment. This wasn't what I had expected, and I knew that it wouldn't be the best representation of Daisy Jones. I decided to just own up to my failure and move on.

**A Note from the Author**

As I sit down to write this article, I realize that I need to apologize for the lack of quality in my drawing attempt. It wasn't pretty, folks. But despite my struggles with drawing, I have to say that it was a fun challenge to take on. And who knows? Maybe one day I'll be able to draw like a pro. Until then, I'm just going to keep practicing and trying new things. Thanks for reading along with me on this failed attempt at drawing Davy Jones.

**The Rest of the Day**

After finishing my drawing, I decided to take a break and focus on editing my video for the day. It had been a long day, and I was feeling exhausted. But as I sat in front of my computer, listening to my audiobook, I felt a sense of calm wash over me. The rest of the day was going to be spent reading, relaxing, and recharging for the challenges ahead.

**A Quick Update**

As I sit here writing this article, I realize that I might not have finished reading as much of the book as I had hoped. But don't worry, I'm still getting there! With nine hours left on my audiobook, I'm confident that I'll be able to finish it off before bedtime. And who knows? Maybe tomorrow will be a more productive day in terms of reading. Only time will tell.

**The Future**

As I look to the future, I can feel excitement building up inside me. The rest of this week is going to be filled with new challenges and adventures. Whether it's group day or just regular old reading, I know that I'm ready for whatever comes my way. Bring it on!

"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enhello everybody.welcome it is the start of my reading rush vlogs as I mentioned in my reading rush TBR video I have decided to do daily vlogs or at least attempt try my best to do them I did this like two years ago when I participated in the reading rush and I think I made it six days I just couldn't do the seventh day but yeah I really really wanted to try doing daily vlogs again so I am going to try my very very best to do a vlog every single day of this week and we'll see how it goes but the reading rush officially starts in about six minutes it is 11:54 currently for me right now you can't see the time at all but it says 1154 I just wanted to start the clip a few minutes early just so I could do my intro and stuff but I am just so excited for this week to begin I am like not prepared whatsoever but I'm still really excited about it like I mentioned I already have done my reading rush TBR video so if you want to know what books I'm planning to read throughout this week you can go ahead and watch that video I'll link it on the screen so you can go and check it out but I will say I have changed that TBR around a little bit I know are we surprised I actually ended up reading one of the books that was on my TBR already I finished it yesterday the nightingale'd by Kristen Hanna so that's no longer on my TBR basically I decided to switch a couple things around because I did want to make some books fit the categories or the challenges a bit better so I did change stuff around a little bit and I will go into my updated TBR a bit later in probably today's vlog but for now I just wanted to kind of talk about what I plan on reading tonight before I go to bed or this morning I guess since it's almost midnight I'm not planning on staying up too late like I do have to do stuff tomorrow and I do want to be able to like wake up at a decent time so like I don't think I'm gonna stay up past like one but I do want to talk about what I plan on reading first book I'm planning on reading tonight is actually the graphic novel that I have which is are you listening by Tilly Walden this is the one that I was using to complete the challenge of reading a book in the same spot so I'm literally just going to lie in my bed and read it which I know is not exciting whatsoever but that's what I want to do and I will get one book and one challenge completed in probably like an hour which is great what time is it Oh 11:58 we still got two minutes so yeah in like two minutes I'm gonna start reading this and I'm really really excited I really don't know what to expect because I have absolutely no idea what this is about so I think it'll be a fun one to start my week off with also being able to finish something early on in the week always gives me like momentum and motivation to like continue to read throughout the week which is why I chose to start with the graphic novel okay I'm just looking at my phone right now okay it's 12 now it's 12 you still cannot see I think you might be able to see there we go it's 12 they're reading rush has officially started and I'm gonna go and read my book now so I will update you guys once I finished it it's too hot I'm putting my hair up Oh better all right hello update um I'm a bit emotional I finished reading are you listening by Tilly Walden and oh my god like I said I knew nothing about this before I went into it and I am just like in all like it started off a bit slow for me I think I was a little bit confused at the beginning about like where the story was going to go and then it really just like came into its own and it's just such a beautiful heartwarming devastating important story it's realistic but it also has some magic mixed into it so there's like a small fantasy aspect to it as well which you all know I really really love that any time that's in a story and I was not expecting that in here at all but it was so good it's basically about these two girls ones eighteen ones 27 and they end up meeting and the 18 year old girl is like running away from home and they kind of like go on this road trip together essentially um and mostly just like talk about life and the experiences they've had it deals with like a lot of heavy themes like death and grief and sexual assaults and coming out so definitely like be aware of like the content in here but it was just so beautiful like I I'm in awe I loved it it was so good so yeah I started my reading rush off really really well it's currently 12:48 p.m. so I finished it in about like 40 minutes because I was also like vlogging in the middle of that and like vlogging always takes so much time so yeah it didn't take me long at all to finish it and it's actually a lot longer than I thought it was it's like 300 pages or a little bit more than 300 pages yeah it's 305 pages so it's like a decent length for a graphic novel but yeah I'm gonna give this like a 4.5 5 star rating it's gonna be 5 stars on Goodreads but yeah I really really loved this and I'm so glad that I decided to read and I completed the challenge of reading a book in the same place sat here the whole time for 40 minutes and read a whole book okay but now since it is nearly 1:00 I am and I do have things I need to do tomorrow and I want to have energy and time to read I think I'm just going to go to sleep now I'm going to mark this book as read on Goodreads actually that's what I'm gonna do first probably also check Twitter for a while and maybe update my reading rush profile and mark the book as read because I want to see how the website works and stuff because that'll be exciting but yeah it's been a good start to the day so I'll check in with you guys in the morning um and let you know what I'm planning on reading for the rest of the day I have no idea yet I don't really know what I'm in the mood for I just knew I wanted to start with this one but I'm gonna figure that out tomorrow so good night and I will see you in the morning good morning everybody so it is now the morning as you can clearly tell I'm still kind of waking up but I ended up falling asleep at like 2:00 a.m. last night instead of one when I wanted to go to bed cuz I just could not fall asleep so I did actually end up listening to some of my audio book of pee wicked Fox I just started that one I'm not sure how far I am into it because I fell asleep so we're gonna have to go back and check but I did want to let you guys know that I did start reading something else just didn't film it because it was 2:00 a.m. and I really was trying to go to bed but right now um I'm just going to brush my teeth and wash my face and then go downstairs and have some breakfast um but yeah I don't really know why I've hurt you guys in the bathroom with me to wash me brush my teeth but I need some content for this vlog so I'll put on my cookie headband and pull my hair back so I can wash my face and do all the things and then we're gonna go get some food and also get some reading done I will also let you guys know what my TBR is and tell you what my plans though they are after I do all of this and wake up a little all right so my face is all fresh and clean now but before I get a start on the rest of my day or anything I kind of just wanted to go through my TBR with you all for the week because like I said I did make some changes to my original TBR for the most part the books are pretty much the same but I just added a couple like new ones in here and there and took a couple out let me go get the books because I put them over here alright so like I mentioned yesterday and like you saw me read yesterday or today I guess technically early this morning I read are you listening by Tilly Walden which was the book that I was using to complete the challenge of reading a book in the same place which I did so this was the first book on my TBR and then I don't remember the order of the challenges so this is gonna be kind of like random cuz I'm unprepared sorry then I had when the moon was ours by Anna Marie McLean more for a book that has five or more words in the title and then I've got a very large expansive sea by Tahereh Mafi which is the one that I'm using for the challenge of a book you wanted to read last year then I've got wicked Fox by cat show which I'm now using to complete the challenge of a book with a nonhuman main character then I ended up switching out the Fountains of silence by rudest Petty's for her other book between shades of grey because that one has a movie adaptation so I don't have a physical book I'm gonna listen to that one on audiobook and then watch the movie adaptation I am also considering reading The Great Gatsby or rereading The Great Gatsby and then watching the movie for that one too but we'll see which one I end up doing I don't know it's a little bit open-ended so I have like both of those options for read a book that has a movie adaptation and then watch the movie adaptation but then lastly I made a super last-minute decision that I want to read Wilder girls because everyone's been talking about it recently and I really want to read that book and it sounds like creepy everyone says it's really creepy and I want something kind of creepy right now I think that would be fun and I'm gonna use that one for the challenge of reading an author's first book I'm like a 99% sure that's her first book if not like it's fine I still want to read it and I think that's all of the challenges oh no there's one more and in the last challenge which i think is technically the first challenge um is to read a book with purple on the cover which I chose spinning by Tilly Walden which is other graphic novel that I wanted to read but I don't have a physical copy of that one either I have to go pick that one up from the bookstore at some point this week or maybe the library maybe I'll go to the library I don't know we'll see but that's definitely like a later book for later on in the week so yeah that's my updated TBR I've got two graphic novels three audiobooks oh I think I have three audiobooks now I don't know I might change one of those out because I don't think I want to listen to three audiobooks I think two is enough and then I do have these other two physical novels so yeah you know me you know it's gonna be pretty open-ended and that it could change at any point in time depending on what my mood is and what I feel like reading or don't feel like reading but for now at the start of this week those are my reading plans and hopefully I'm able to no matter what happens at least get through like a decent number of books I really do want to try and get through seven but I don't know if that's gonna be possible if I do three audiobooks I think it'll definitely be possible but still we shall see hopefully it all works out but my plans for the rest of the day are also somewhat open-ended right now I think I just want to plan out like what books I'm planning on reading for the day and I know I'm gonna continue listening to my audiobook of the wicked fox or wicked Fox is it the wicked fox or wicked fox I think it's just wicked Fox but apart from that I also do want to start reading a physical book as well so I think I'm going to start with when the moon was ours this also works for the challenge of reading a book that you wanted to read last year because both of these I wanted to read last year also both of them have more than five words in the title so it's great but this is what I've been wanting to read for a really really long time so I think that this is the one I'm gonna focus on today and for the rest of the day right now I'm gonna go downstairs and get some breakfast and then I think I'm probably gonna go swimming we have an indoor swimming pool in the house which is like honestly the greatest treasure of my life because I don't have to go outside in the 95 degree heat and burn to death or deal with mosquitoes and it's like private so I don't have to deal with other people like I just can't stand public pools I love swimming so much but I just don't like being around that many people in one single body of water unless it's the ocean so yeah I think that's one thing I'm gonna do today for sure I woke up this morning and I was like why are my shoulders and my arms so sore it's because I went swimming yesterday and I'm really weak so hopefully doing some more swimming gets my body used to it again and then later on in the day I do have to go to group therapy I don't think this is a thing I've mentioned on my channel and like I don't know what better time than 9 a.m. to start talking about it but I've gone back into treatment for my eating disorder and I'm basically in like an intensive outpatient program I know I've gotten like a lot of questions about like what I did for treatment and like what it was like which is something I can definitely talk about some more if you guys want me to UM but yeah for the past month or so I've been back in treatment for my eating disorder in this program which means I have group therapy for 3 hours a day 3 days a week plus like my individual therapy sessions so I'm gonna be like really busy for like 4 hours a day for like 3 days of this week which is gonna be like a lot of time that I could be using for reading and vlogging and editing and stuff so that's gonna be interesting to balance that with the reading rush but we'll see how it goes but yeah I have not mentioned that I've been back in treatment at all anywhere so yeah there you go it's not like a very easy thing to talk about but I know it's something that like I need to talk about and it could be helpful for other people so I can't like bring you guys with me obviously but I can talk about my experience a little bit so if that is something you guys want me to talk about some more I can definitely do that I will say that every time I come back I'm very very exhausted so I don't know how much a reading I'm gonna be able to get done because like I'm there until like 8 p.m. and then I get home by like 9:00 8:30 9 and I'm just like wiped out so I may just like lay down and listen to my audio book I think that'll be like the only thing I'll be capable of doing so yeah my basic general plans for the day are to listen to some more of the audio book and start reading when the moon was ours and go swimming and then go to group therapy in between Matt we'll see how much reading I get done we'll see if there's anything else I want to do I do have to clean my room a little bit it's kind of a disaster so I may do that as well but for now let's get some breakfast to get the day started and we'll see where the day goes hey baby why is your over you can't see them in the shop that I have some flowers right here and they make me so happy alright everybody let me introduce you to the dogs because I don't think I've ever done that so let's meet the dogs here we have Rufus he is the baby boy he is so innocent he has a lot of anxiety issues relatable and a lot of attachment issues he gets very sad and scared if you leave him alone he's terrified of wind rain and thunder and he'll come sit on your lap even though he doesn't really fit because he's scared and I love him with my whole heart he's also very sleepy right now and not energetic but usually he's super energetic here we have lucky hi lucky you respond to your name because you're the best I love you yeah she's gentle she's the mom she's also a grumpy old woman who gets really annoyed when the children play and all she wants to do is sleep and be calm but they don't let her rest and lastly we have Aria whom you cannot see too well in the Sun there we go hi baby she's a baby puppy she's like seven months old and she's a Rottweiler and she's adorable and I love her with my whole heart she's super hyper but she's also really gentle and she looks like the puppy is puppy ever and I love her and she's really good at doing tricks she also always low-key looks like she's broken because her limbs are too long for her body and it's cute I love her she also kind of looks like a dragon do you look like a dragon baby I love you and that was my dog tour hello everyone as you can tell my bed is made I cleaned my room a little bit I had breakfast did some reading got a few things to update you on I had breakfast and I made a bit of progress in when the moon was ours I only read about like five or six pages honestly because it's really hard for me to eat while I'm reading it's actually really helpful for me to listen to audio books while I'm reading but for some reason reading physical books like while I'm trying to eat is a stressful time for me so I can't really do it unless I'm like in the middle of a book at like a climactic point or something and like there's a lot of momentum going but starting off a new book while I'm also trying to have breakfast is not an easy time so yeah didn't make too much progress but I definitely do want to continue with the book today so as you just saw I did clean my room so that's good I like having a clean space it helps my headspace a lot too but right now I'm also warming up the pool a little bit cuz I do want to go swimming soon but in the current moment I have been listening to my audiobook a wicked Fox while I am doing some rough cut edits on today's vlog because I have to get ahead of editing otherwise I will genuinely never be able to get this vlog up and already I didn't check the actual like raw footage but I have like 41 minutes of vlog footage I need a little bit early 10:42 a.m. on the first day so yeah I definitely have to like go through this and like cut some stuff I know a lot of it is just like montage footage so it'll be like sped up so it'll be a lot shorter anyway but still like there's a lot of work to do and I really got to get ahead so I'm listening to my audio book while I do my rough cut edits and that's been good and productive so I think I'm just gonna sit here for like maybe 15 more minutes I'll wait until 11:00 do some more editing and then go swimming so I'll update you guys once I have finished this and I'm heading to the pool it's time for swimming I'm at the pool it's warmed up a little bit it's still pretty cold but like I don't care we just want to swim I've got my speaker got my audiobook setup I'm all good and I'm really excited it's still cold also it's kind of loud in here to listen to my audio books I'm gonna listen to music is this a reading blog not really so much closer than I anticipated I don't think I'm gonna be able to stay in here for very long but it's okay it's even fun for a little bit hello everyone so as you can clearly tell I'm finished swimming I took a shower changed my clothes so with swimming I didn't end up listening to any of the audiobook because it was like too loud in there would like the fan and stuff on to like properly hear the audiobook so I just listened to BTS instead and I was in the pool for about like an hourish and then take a shower and stuff so and now it is 1217 right now I am just going to continue to edit some more of the vlog and listen to my audio book while I do that and in probably like 15-20 minutes I'm gonna go have lunch so yeah for now I'm just gonna sit here and edit for a little while and listen to my book and make some more progress on that but yeah so far it's been a good day it's like only noon and I feel like I've done a lot of productive things so yeah I'm having a good day hello friends it's a lot later it's currently 322 p.m. I've basically just been sitting here editing my vlog and I listen to some of the audiobook but then I got to a point where like I had to start listening to the vlog so I couldn't like listen to the audiobook so I haven't made that much progress but I'm just feeling like a bit overwhelmed at the moment I was editing some clips and I started having just like some negative thoughts and I just I'm not feeling too great about things myself I guess at the moment I know I have group later tonight and I'm kind of like stressing about that I feel stressed out because I feel like I've read nothing today even though I technically finished one book and I started two more which I know should make me feel productive but I don't I'm just trying really really hard not to like shut down right now um and I don't really know what to do to prevent that from happening I think I just need to like slow down a bit I feel like I have to do like everything all at once and that's not the way things have to be I can take things one step at a time I do not have to be reading a hundred percent of the day I don't have to be vlogging a hundred percent of the day and editing all day yeah I just like me to slow down a little bit I do also have to go and get my snack um so yeah there's just like a lot going through my head at the moment I got chocolate-covered pretzels basically I don't want to be eating this snack um I don't feel like going to group tonight and I just like I'm feeling super super stressed and overwhelmed for quite literally no reason I've expressed this before but I just have a very difficult time being like comfortable and like in a good place and in a happy place I just like don't really know how to function in that space or in that environment and so when things are going well or when I'm having a good day it's sometimes hard for me to like genuinely take it in and accept it and go with it like I feel like I should be upset or I should be stressed or I should be anxious or something so then I just like become anxious or stressed and that's kind of like where I'm at today my brain just decides to fixate on something and tell me that that thing is bad or wrong or I'm not good enough or something like that um that's kind of like what's happening at the moment um and I don't really know what saying this out loud is going to do maybe just vocalizing it will be helpful for me to just recognize that I do this and just like acknowledge that this is where my brain has gone it doesn't mean it's the truth it doesn't mean I have to do anything about it I just got to do what I got to do I got to eat my snack um and sit here and relax I'm just gonna eat my chocolate covered pretzels and not worry about the vlog just listen to some more of my audiobook and literally just sit here and chill not think about things just listen and be calm so I'm gonna try that out and hopefully it helps me to do stress a little bit and hopefully some of what I said made a little bit of sense I'm trying to speak from like a logical place where my mind is not an ideological place so I'm sorry if it's coming out jumbled but I'm gonna go do that now and I will update you guys probably before I leave for group because I have to leave in about half an hour you hello so it is time for me to head to group so I will not be back until like 8 p.m. it's for right now so I won't be able to check in for a while but when I get back I'm going to do the video challenge for the day and also continue listening to my audiobook because I have made some progress now which is good so yeah I'm gonna head to group and I will check in with you guys in a few hours oh hello I am home so I just got back from group and I am very tired today was really good I don't feel as emotionally drained or even physically drained as I do some days when I get back which is a good thing that means I have more energy tonight to continue reading and editing and vlogging which I'm happy about but even though I'm not as drained as I usually am I am still so exhausted group just takes so much out of me so I know that I'm just gonna need the rest of this night to just sit down and listen to my audio book and do absolutely nothing else I am though before this day ends going to do the video challenge for the day which is to basically I think you're supposed to like pick a book off of your bookshelf and then turn to a random page like a book that you've read turn to a random page and then draw the first character whose name you see and then like if you don't know what they look like you can turn to a different page and find me like the next character that you do know what they look like I'm gonna do that so let's prepare for that let's do that before I do anything else alright so here is my bookshelf I'm just gonna focus on these top two shelves cuz these are the shelves that like actually have my books on them and like the ones I've read on them for the most part mostly gonna pick from this middle shelf because this has like most of the books that I have read and most of my favorite books of all time so we have a lot of good choices I could pick the seven husbands of Evelyn Hugo could also pick Daisy Jones could also pick the Night Circus or an ember in the ashes but I don't know which one to do like which one would be the most entertaining I'm like leaning towards the Night Circus but at the same time there are like so many characters in the Night Circus where I'm like I have no idea like how I could even begin to draw you um so I think I kind of want to go with Daisy Jones yeah that's what I'm gonna do this one's gonna be kind of interesting because since it's written in an interview format like every character's name is on every single page well like almost every character's name is on almost every page so like finding character names and this is gonna be super super easy it's just a matter of who I find first so let's do it all right I've got the book I'm gonna open to a random page close my eyes and like point and then we'll see which name I'm closest to all right my eyes are closed I promise who is that nobody Daisy okay Daisy is the first name that I see on this page time to draw Daisy Jo all right hello I'm sitting on my floor cuz I can't think of a better way to do this but I have my paper and my pen and I think I'm supposed to do this in 30 seconds I don't know I like did not fully watch the video and I'm also like way too tired right now to go back and watch it but I'm pretty sure you're supposed to do it in 30 seconds I'm gonna do it in 30 seconds it's fine I make my own rules so I have my timer I've got my paper I'm gonna attempt to draw Daisy Jones I'm not looking at the cover also it's like over there on my bed so okay Ready Set start oh this is already so bad oh my god how does one draw people oh my god oh my god oh my god why is this so bad oh my god this is this is the worst this is the how to draw people please don't judge my drawing skills based on this alone wait she doesn't wear denim shoot jeans she wears cutoff shorts why is this so bad oh my god oh my god oh my god I'm dying why is she so uh I'm so sorry Daisy you deserve better than this is thirty-seconds taking so long oh my god oh my god oh my god did I not press the timer I swear oh whatever I don't care like I decided I make my own rules and that took forever but this is my drawing of Davy Jones you can see her hoop earrings she's supposed to be wearing cutoff shorts but I accidentally drew jeans um and you can't tell that she's wearing a white tank top that she is wearing a white tank top so there you have it that's the easy choice and my failed attempt at this challenge I don't really tired guys all right so there you all have it that is my failed attempt at today's video challenge but for the rest of the night I am just going to get into my pajamas brush my teeth wash my face lie down and listen to my audio book until I pass out actually that's a lie because I have to finish editing my video so I'm gonna listen to my audio book as I edit my video and then pass out I'm just totally wiped out I feel like I just did a lot today and I was just on all day which takes a lot out of me as well and then group always takes a lot out of me too so it's just been an emotionally exhausting day but in a very positive way however I am pretty much logged out so I think I'm actually gonna end this vlog here I made do like a quick update after I read some more of the book if I'm like still awake let you guys know like where I'm at with it how many more pages I've read not pages since it's an audiobook how many hours I have left I think right now I have like nine hours left but yeah I might update you guys I might just fall asleep I don't know but just in case I'm gonna end the vlog here I hope you all enjoyed my day 1 vlog I'm very excited for the rest of this week I know I didn't do like too much reading today like I mostly just finished my graphic novel like last night and then read a little bit today hopefully tomorrow is more of a productive reading day I don't know group tomorrow so I'm basically free all day and I think I'm just gonna sit and try and read maybe two books hopefully finish two books that's my goal yeah thank you all so much for watching this video if you would like to follow me on any of my social media keep up with like my reading rush updates in real time you can follow me on Instagram or Twitter at clockwerk underscore reads you can update me on how you're reading rush is going but yeah I'm very excited for the rest of this week I'm excited for tomorrow but I definitely need to get some rest I'm gonna go do that now but thank you all so much for watching this video I hope you enjoyed and I will see you tomorrow in my next video Ihello everybody.welcome it is the start of my reading rush vlogs as I mentioned in my reading rush TBR video I have decided to do daily vlogs or at least attempt try my best to do them I did this like two years ago when I participated in the reading rush and I think I made it six days I just couldn't do the seventh day but yeah I really really wanted to try doing daily vlogs again so I am going to try my very very best to do a vlog every single day of this week and we'll see how it goes but the reading rush officially starts in about six minutes it is 11:54 currently for me right now you can't see the time at all but it says 1154 I just wanted to start the clip a few minutes early just so I could do my intro and stuff but I am just so excited for this week to begin I am like not prepared whatsoever but I'm still really excited about it like I mentioned I already have done my reading rush TBR video so if you want to know what books I'm planning to read throughout this week you can go ahead and watch that video I'll link it on the screen so you can go and check it out but I will say I have changed that TBR around a little bit I know are we surprised I actually ended up reading one of the books that was on my TBR already I finished it yesterday the nightingale'd by Kristen Hanna so that's no longer on my TBR basically I decided to switch a couple things around because I did want to make some books fit the categories or the challenges a bit better so I did change stuff around a little bit and I will go into my updated TBR a bit later in probably today's vlog but for now I just wanted to kind of talk about what I plan on reading tonight before I go to bed or this morning I guess since it's almost midnight I'm not planning on staying up too late like I do have to do stuff tomorrow and I do want to be able to like wake up at a decent time so like I don't think I'm gonna stay up past like one but I do want to talk about what I plan on reading first book I'm planning on reading tonight is actually the graphic novel that I have which is are you listening by Tilly Walden this is the one that I was using to complete the challenge of reading a book in the same spot so I'm literally just going to lie in my bed and read it which I know is not exciting whatsoever but that's what I want to do and I will get one book and one challenge completed in probably like an hour which is great what time is it Oh 11:58 we still got two minutes so yeah in like two minutes I'm gonna start reading this and I'm really really excited I really don't know what to expect because I have absolutely no idea what this is about so I think it'll be a fun one to start my week off with also being able to finish something early on in the week always gives me like momentum and motivation to like continue to read throughout the week which is why I chose to start with the graphic novel okay I'm just looking at my phone right now okay it's 12 now it's 12 you still cannot see I think you might be able to see there we go it's 12 they're reading rush has officially started and I'm gonna go and read my book now so I will update you guys once I finished it it's too hot I'm putting my hair up Oh better all right hello update um I'm a bit emotional I finished reading are you listening by Tilly Walden and oh my god like I said I knew nothing about this before I went into it and I am just like in all like it started off a bit slow for me I think I was a little bit confused at the beginning about like where the story was going to go and then it really just like came into its own and it's just such a beautiful heartwarming devastating important story it's realistic but it also has some magic mixed into it so there's like a small fantasy aspect to it as well which you all know I really really love that any time that's in a story and I was not expecting that in here at all but it was so good it's basically about these two girls ones eighteen ones 27 and they end up meeting and the 18 year old girl is like running away from home and they kind of like go on this road trip together essentially um and mostly just like talk about life and the experiences they've had it deals with like a lot of heavy themes like death and grief and sexual assaults and coming out so definitely like be aware of like the content in here but it was just so beautiful like I I'm in awe I loved it it was so good so yeah I started my reading rush off really really well it's currently 12:48 p.m. so I finished it in about like 40 minutes because I was also like vlogging in the middle of that and like vlogging always takes so much time so yeah it didn't take me long at all to finish it and it's actually a lot longer than I thought it was it's like 300 pages or a little bit more than 300 pages yeah it's 305 pages so it's like a decent length for a graphic novel but yeah I'm gonna give this like a 4.5 5 star rating it's gonna be 5 stars on Goodreads but yeah I really really loved this and I'm so glad that I decided to read and I completed the challenge of reading a book in the same place sat here the whole time for 40 minutes and read a whole book okay but now since it is nearly 1:00 I am and I do have things I need to do tomorrow and I want to have energy and time to read I think I'm just going to go to sleep now I'm going to mark this book as read on Goodreads actually that's what I'm gonna do first probably also check Twitter for a while and maybe update my reading rush profile and mark the book as read because I want to see how the website works and stuff because that'll be exciting but yeah it's been a good start to the day so I'll check in with you guys in the morning um and let you know what I'm planning on reading for the rest of the day I have no idea yet I don't really know what I'm in the mood for I just knew I wanted to start with this one but I'm gonna figure that out tomorrow so good night and I will see you in the morning good morning everybody so it is now the morning as you can clearly tell I'm still kind of waking up but I ended up falling asleep at like 2:00 a.m. last night instead of one when I wanted to go to bed cuz I just could not fall asleep so I did actually end up listening to some of my audio book of pee wicked Fox I just started that one I'm not sure how far I am into it because I fell asleep so we're gonna have to go back and check but I did want to let you guys know that I did start reading something else just didn't film it because it was 2:00 a.m. and I really was trying to go to bed but right now um I'm just going to brush my teeth and wash my face and then go downstairs and have some breakfast um but yeah I don't really know why I've hurt you guys in the bathroom with me to wash me brush my teeth but I need some content for this vlog so I'll put on my cookie headband and pull my hair back so I can wash my face and do all the things and then we're gonna go get some food and also get some reading done I will also let you guys know what my TBR is and tell you what my plans though they are after I do all of this and wake up a little all right so my face is all fresh and clean now but before I get a start on the rest of my day or anything I kind of just wanted to go through my TBR with you all for the week because like I said I did make some changes to my original TBR for the most part the books are pretty much the same but I just added a couple like new ones in here and there and took a couple out let me go get the books because I put them over here alright so like I mentioned yesterday and like you saw me read yesterday or today I guess technically early this morning I read are you listening by Tilly Walden which was the book that I was using to complete the challenge of reading a book in the same place which I did so this was the first book on my TBR and then I don't remember the order of the challenges so this is gonna be kind of like random cuz I'm unprepared sorry then I had when the moon was ours by Anna Marie McLean more for a book that has five or more words in the title and then I've got a very large expansive sea by Tahereh Mafi which is the one that I'm using for the challenge of a book you wanted to read last year then I've got wicked Fox by cat show which I'm now using to complete the challenge of a book with a nonhuman main character then I ended up switching out the Fountains of silence by rudest Petty's for her other book between shades of grey because that one has a movie adaptation so I don't have a physical book I'm gonna listen to that one on audiobook and then watch the movie adaptation I am also considering reading The Great Gatsby or rereading The Great Gatsby and then watching the movie for that one too but we'll see which one I end up doing I don't know it's a little bit open-ended so I have like both of those options for read a book that has a movie adaptation and then watch the movie adaptation but then lastly I made a super last-minute decision that I want to read Wilder girls because everyone's been talking about it recently and I really want to read that book and it sounds like creepy everyone says it's really creepy and I want something kind of creepy right now I think that would be fun and I'm gonna use that one for the challenge of reading an author's first book I'm like a 99% sure that's her first book if not like it's fine I still want to read it and I think that's all of the challenges oh no there's one more and in the last challenge which i think is technically the first challenge um is to read a book with purple on the cover which I chose spinning by Tilly Walden which is other graphic novel that I wanted to read but I don't have a physical copy of that one either I have to go pick that one up from the bookstore at some point this week or maybe the library maybe I'll go to the library I don't know we'll see but that's definitely like a later book for later on in the week so yeah that's my updated TBR I've got two graphic novels three audiobooks oh I think I have three audiobooks now I don't know I might change one of those out because I don't think I want to listen to three audiobooks I think two is enough and then I do have these other two physical novels so yeah you know me you know it's gonna be pretty open-ended and that it could change at any point in time depending on what my mood is and what I feel like reading or don't feel like reading but for now at the start of this week those are my reading plans and hopefully I'm able to no matter what happens at least get through like a decent number of books I really do want to try and get through seven but I don't know if that's gonna be possible if I do three audiobooks I think it'll definitely be possible but still we shall see hopefully it all works out but my plans for the rest of the day are also somewhat open-ended right now I think I just want to plan out like what books I'm planning on reading for the day and I know I'm gonna continue listening to my audiobook of the wicked fox or wicked Fox is it the wicked fox or wicked fox I think it's just wicked Fox but apart from that I also do want to start reading a physical book as well so I think I'm going to start with when the moon was ours this also works for the challenge of reading a book that you wanted to read last year because both of these I wanted to read last year also both of them have more than five words in the title so it's great but this is what I've been wanting to read for a really really long time so I think that this is the one I'm gonna focus on today and for the rest of the day right now I'm gonna go downstairs and get some breakfast and then I think I'm probably gonna go swimming we have an indoor swimming pool in the house which is like honestly the greatest treasure of my life because I don't have to go outside in the 95 degree heat and burn to death or deal with mosquitoes and it's like private so I don't have to deal with other people like I just can't stand public pools I love swimming so much but I just don't like being around that many people in one single body of water unless it's the ocean so yeah I think that's one thing I'm gonna do today for sure I woke up this morning and I was like why are my shoulders and my arms so sore it's because I went swimming yesterday and I'm really weak so hopefully doing some more swimming gets my body used to it again and then later on in the day I do have to go to group therapy I don't think this is a thing I've mentioned on my channel and like I don't know what better time than 9 a.m. to start talking about it but I've gone back into treatment for my eating disorder and I'm basically in like an intensive outpatient program I know I've gotten like a lot of questions about like what I did for treatment and like what it was like which is something I can definitely talk about some more if you guys want me to UM but yeah for the past month or so I've been back in treatment for my eating disorder in this program which means I have group therapy for 3 hours a day 3 days a week plus like my individual therapy sessions so I'm gonna be like really busy for like 4 hours a day for like 3 days of this week which is gonna be like a lot of time that I could be using for reading and vlogging and editing and stuff so that's gonna be interesting to balance that with the reading rush but we'll see how it goes but yeah I have not mentioned that I've been back in treatment at all anywhere so yeah there you go it's not like a very easy thing to talk about but I know it's something that like I need to talk about and it could be helpful for other people so I can't like bring you guys with me obviously but I can talk about my experience a little bit so if that is something you guys want me to talk about some more I can definitely do that I will say that every time I come back I'm very very exhausted so I don't know how much a reading I'm gonna be able to get done because like I'm there until like 8 p.m. and then I get home by like 9:00 8:30 9 and I'm just like wiped out so I may just like lay down and listen to my audio book I think that'll be like the only thing I'll be capable of doing so yeah my basic general plans for the day are to listen to some more of the audio book and start reading when the moon was ours and go swimming and then go to group therapy in between Matt we'll see how much reading I get done we'll see if there's anything else I want to do I do have to clean my room a little bit it's kind of a disaster so I may do that as well but for now let's get some breakfast to get the day started and we'll see where the day goes hey baby why is your over you can't see them in the shop that I have some flowers right here and they make me so happy alright everybody let me introduce you to the dogs because I don't think I've ever done that so let's meet the dogs here we have Rufus he is the baby boy he is so innocent he has a lot of anxiety issues relatable and a lot of attachment issues he gets very sad and scared if you leave him alone he's terrified of wind rain and thunder and he'll come sit on your lap even though he doesn't really fit because he's scared and I love him with my whole heart he's also very sleepy right now and not energetic but usually he's super energetic here we have lucky hi lucky you respond to your name because you're the best I love you yeah she's gentle she's the mom she's also a grumpy old woman who gets really annoyed when the children play and all she wants to do is sleep and be calm but they don't let her rest and lastly we have Aria whom you cannot see too well in the Sun there we go hi baby she's a baby puppy she's like seven months old and she's a Rottweiler and she's adorable and I love her with my whole heart she's super hyper but she's also really gentle and she looks like the puppy is puppy ever and I love her and she's really good at doing tricks she also always low-key looks like she's broken because her limbs are too long for her body and it's cute I love her she also kind of looks like a dragon do you look like a dragon baby I love you and that was my dog tour hello everyone as you can tell my bed is made I cleaned my room a little bit I had breakfast did some reading got a few things to update you on I had breakfast and I made a bit of progress in when the moon was ours I only read about like five or six pages honestly because it's really hard for me to eat while I'm reading it's actually really helpful for me to listen to audio books while I'm reading but for some reason reading physical books like while I'm trying to eat is a stressful time for me so I can't really do it unless I'm like in the middle of a book at like a climactic point or something and like there's a lot of momentum going but starting off a new book while I'm also trying to have breakfast is not an easy time so yeah didn't make too much progress but I definitely do want to continue with the book today so as you just saw I did clean my room so that's good I like having a clean space it helps my headspace a lot too but right now I'm also warming up the pool a little bit cuz I do want to go swimming soon but in the current moment I have been listening to my audiobook a wicked Fox while I am doing some rough cut edits on today's vlog because I have to get ahead of editing otherwise I will genuinely never be able to get this vlog up and already I didn't check the actual like raw footage but I have like 41 minutes of vlog footage I need a little bit early 10:42 a.m. on the first day so yeah I definitely have to like go through this and like cut some stuff I know a lot of it is just like montage footage so it'll be like sped up so it'll be a lot shorter anyway but still like there's a lot of work to do and I really got to get ahead so I'm listening to my audio book while I do my rough cut edits and that's been good and productive so I think I'm just gonna sit here for like maybe 15 more minutes I'll wait until 11:00 do some more editing and then go swimming so I'll update you guys once I have finished this and I'm heading to the pool it's time for swimming I'm at the pool it's warmed up a little bit it's still pretty cold but like I don't care we just want to swim I've got my speaker got my audiobook setup I'm all good and I'm really excited it's still cold also it's kind of loud in here to listen to my audio books I'm gonna listen to music is this a reading blog not really so much closer than I anticipated I don't think I'm gonna be able to stay in here for very long but it's okay it's even fun for a little bit hello everyone so as you can clearly tell I'm finished swimming I took a shower changed my clothes so with swimming I didn't end up listening to any of the audiobook because it was like too loud in there would like the fan and stuff on to like properly hear the audiobook so I just listened to BTS instead and I was in the pool for about like an hourish and then take a shower and stuff so and now it is 1217 right now I am just going to continue to edit some more of the vlog and listen to my audio book while I do that and in probably like 15-20 minutes I'm gonna go have lunch so yeah for now I'm just gonna sit here and edit for a little while and listen to my book and make some more progress on that but yeah so far it's been a good day it's like only noon and I feel like I've done a lot of productive things so yeah I'm having a good day hello friends it's a lot later it's currently 322 p.m. I've basically just been sitting here editing my vlog and I listen to some of the audiobook but then I got to a point where like I had to start listening to the vlog so I couldn't like listen to the audiobook so I haven't made that much progress but I'm just feeling like a bit overwhelmed at the moment I was editing some clips and I started having just like some negative thoughts and I just I'm not feeling too great about things myself I guess at the moment I know I have group later tonight and I'm kind of like stressing about that I feel stressed out because I feel like I've read nothing today even though I technically finished one book and I started two more which I know should make me feel productive but I don't I'm just trying really really hard not to like shut down right now um and I don't really know what to do to prevent that from happening I think I just need to like slow down a bit I feel like I have to do like everything all at once and that's not the way things have to be I can take things one step at a time I do not have to be reading a hundred percent of the day I don't have to be vlogging a hundred percent of the day and editing all day yeah I just like me to slow down a little bit I do also have to go and get my snack um so yeah there's just like a lot going through my head at the moment I got chocolate-covered pretzels basically I don't want to be eating this snack um I don't feel like going to group tonight and I just like I'm feeling super super stressed and overwhelmed for quite literally no reason I've expressed this before but I just have a very difficult time being like comfortable and like in a good place and in a happy place I just like don't really know how to function in that space or in that environment and so when things are going well or when I'm having a good day it's sometimes hard for me to like genuinely take it in and accept it and go with it like I feel like I should be upset or I should be stressed or I should be anxious or something so then I just like become anxious or stressed and that's kind of like where I'm at today my brain just decides to fixate on something and tell me that that thing is bad or wrong or I'm not good enough or something like that um that's kind of like what's happening at the moment um and I don't really know what saying this out loud is going to do maybe just vocalizing it will be helpful for me to just recognize that I do this and just like acknowledge that this is where my brain has gone it doesn't mean it's the truth it doesn't mean I have to do anything about it I just got to do what I got to do I got to eat my snack um and sit here and relax I'm just gonna eat my chocolate covered pretzels and not worry about the vlog just listen to some more of my audiobook and literally just sit here and chill not think about things just listen and be calm so I'm gonna try that out and hopefully it helps me to do stress a little bit and hopefully some of what I said made a little bit of sense I'm trying to speak from like a logical place where my mind is not an ideological place so I'm sorry if it's coming out jumbled but I'm gonna go do that now and I will update you guys probably before I leave for group because I have to leave in about half an hour you hello so it is time for me to head to group so I will not be back until like 8 p.m. it's for right now so I won't be able to check in for a while but when I get back I'm going to do the video challenge for the day and also continue listening to my audiobook because I have made some progress now which is good so yeah I'm gonna head to group and I will check in with you guys in a few hours oh hello I am home so I just got back from group and I am very tired today was really good I don't feel as emotionally drained or even physically drained as I do some days when I get back which is a good thing that means I have more energy tonight to continue reading and editing and vlogging which I'm happy about but even though I'm not as drained as I usually am I am still so exhausted group just takes so much out of me so I know that I'm just gonna need the rest of this night to just sit down and listen to my audio book and do absolutely nothing else I am though before this day ends going to do the video challenge for the day which is to basically I think you're supposed to like pick a book off of your bookshelf and then turn to a random page like a book that you've read turn to a random page and then draw the first character whose name you see and then like if you don't know what they look like you can turn to a different page and find me like the next character that you do know what they look like I'm gonna do that so let's prepare for that let's do that before I do anything else alright so here is my bookshelf I'm just gonna focus on these top two shelves cuz these are the shelves that like actually have my books on them and like the ones I've read on them for the most part mostly gonna pick from this middle shelf because this has like most of the books that I have read and most of my favorite books of all time so we have a lot of good choices I could pick the seven husbands of Evelyn Hugo could also pick Daisy Jones could also pick the Night Circus or an ember in the ashes but I don't know which one to do like which one would be the most entertaining I'm like leaning towards the Night Circus but at the same time there are like so many characters in the Night Circus where I'm like I have no idea like how I could even begin to draw you um so I think I kind of want to go with Daisy Jones yeah that's what I'm gonna do this one's gonna be kind of interesting because since it's written in an interview format like every character's name is on every single page well like almost every character's name is on almost every page so like finding character names and this is gonna be super super easy it's just a matter of who I find first so let's do it all right I've got the book I'm gonna open to a random page close my eyes and like point and then we'll see which name I'm closest to all right my eyes are closed I promise who is that nobody Daisy okay Daisy is the first name that I see on this page time to draw Daisy Jo all right hello I'm sitting on my floor cuz I can't think of a better way to do this but I have my paper and my pen and I think I'm supposed to do this in 30 seconds I don't know I like did not fully watch the video and I'm also like way too tired right now to go back and watch it but I'm pretty sure you're supposed to do it in 30 seconds I'm gonna do it in 30 seconds it's fine I make my own rules so I have my timer I've got my paper I'm gonna attempt to draw Daisy Jones I'm not looking at the cover also it's like over there on my bed so okay Ready Set start oh this is already so bad oh my god how does one draw people oh my god oh my god oh my god why is this so bad oh my god this is this is the worst this is the how to draw people please don't judge my drawing skills based on this alone wait she doesn't wear denim shoot jeans she wears cutoff shorts why is this so bad oh my god oh my god oh my god I'm dying why is she so uh I'm so sorry Daisy you deserve better than this is thirty-seconds taking so long oh my god oh my god oh my god did I not press the timer I swear oh whatever I don't care like I decided I make my own rules and that took forever but this is my drawing of Davy Jones you can see her hoop earrings she's supposed to be wearing cutoff shorts but I accidentally drew jeans um and you can't tell that she's wearing a white tank top that she is wearing a white tank top so there you have it that's the easy choice and my failed attempt at this challenge I don't really tired guys all right so there you all have it that is my failed attempt at today's video challenge but for the rest of the night I am just going to get into my pajamas brush my teeth wash my face lie down and listen to my audio book until I pass out actually that's a lie because I have to finish editing my video so I'm gonna listen to my audio book as I edit my video and then pass out I'm just totally wiped out I feel like I just did a lot today and I was just on all day which takes a lot out of me as well and then group always takes a lot out of me too so it's just been an emotionally exhausting day but in a very positive way however I am pretty much logged out so I think I'm actually gonna end this vlog here I made do like a quick update after I read some more of the book if I'm like still awake let you guys know like where I'm at with it how many more pages I've read not pages since it's an audiobook how many hours I have left I think right now I have like nine hours left but yeah I might update you guys I might just fall asleep I don't know but just in case I'm gonna end the vlog here I hope you all enjoyed my day 1 vlog I'm very excited for the rest of this week I know I didn't do like too much reading today like I mostly just finished my graphic novel like last night and then read a little bit today hopefully tomorrow is more of a productive reading day I don't know group tomorrow so I'm basically free all day and I think I'm just gonna sit and try and read maybe two books hopefully finish two books that's my goal yeah thank you all so much for watching this video if you would like to follow me on any of my social media keep up with like my reading rush updates in real time you can follow me on Instagram or Twitter at clockwerk underscore reads you can update me on how you're reading rush is going but yeah I'm very excited for the rest of this week I'm excited for tomorrow but I definitely need to get some rest I'm gonna go do that now but thank you all so much for watching this video I hope you enjoyed and I will see you tomorrow in my next video I\n"