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**Announcing My Divorce: A Personal Journey**
In an emotional and raw video shared on my YouTube channel, I open up about one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make. After spending almost eight years in marriage and being a mother to two young children, I have decided to get divorced. The pain of this decision is indescribable, but I feel it’s important to share my story with you directly.
**Sharing My Story**
To those who know me well or have followed my channel over the years, this video is a way for me to address the situation head-on. I’ve always strived to be authentic and transparent with my audience, sharing both the highs and lows of my journey. However, I understand that this particular announcement might come as a shock to some who may only know me through my polished, value-add content.
**Understanding My Content**
I want to clarify that this video is not representative of the kind of content I typically create. For nearly ten years, I’ve been consistent in posting weekly videos, often focusing on positive and uplifting topics. While I used to share more personal and vlog-style content, my recent focus has shifted due to various reasons, which you might now understand.
**The Struggle Behind the Scenes**
Like many of you, I’ve been in a situation where I’m struggling internally but still need to put on a brave face for work and family. This is exactly where I find myself right now. Announcing this divorce feels like lifting a heavy weight off my chest, even though the decision itself has been months or years in the making.
**Why We’re Divorcing**
The reality is that our marriage didn’t work out. After nearly ten years together and eight years of marriage, we’ve decided to move forward separately. This decision is heart-wrenching and devastating, as I’m currently going through a cycle of grief almost daily. While I’m receiving the support I need, I know many of you are wondering: *Why?* Why did this happen?
**Reflecting on My Marriage**
As someone who has always admired strong marriages, I understand the curiosity behind this question. We’ve tried everything—couples therapy, communication, and all the tools available to us. However, despite our best efforts, we’ve reached a point where continuing as husband and wife is no longer feasible.
**Prioritizing My Kids**
The biggest factor in this decision revolves around my children. Having experienced the impact of divorce firsthand as a child myself, I am acutely aware of how it can affect them. My six-year-old son, Carter, who shares many traits with me, including sensitivity, will undoubtedly feel the effects deeply. While he is young and may not fully grasp the situation yet, his memory and emotions might be affected as he grows older.
**Supporting My Kids**
In an effort to mitigate these challenges, I’ve sought out a therapist specializing in children of divorce. This professional will work with both Carter and my three-year-old daughter, Capri, to help them navigate this new reality. While Capri is young and may not fully understand the changes, Carter’s sensitivity makes him more vulnerable to the emotional turmoil.
**The Difficulties of Co-Parenting**
One of the most challenging aspects of this decision is the fact that I won’t be able to spend 50% of my children’s lives with them. This reality hits me hard as a mother, knowing I’ll miss out on half of their upbringing. However, I also know from personal experience that sometimes, seeing parents find happiness post-divorce can be healthier for the family as a whole.
**Learning from My Past**
Looking back at my own childhood, when my parents divorced when I was 13, I saw them become happier individuals after finding new partners and moving on with their lives. This gave me hope that, despite the pain, this decision might ultimately be better for all of us in the long run.
**Navigating Grief and Judgment**
As someone who values social media as a highlight reel of life, I know many people may judge my choice to divorce. There’s a common perception that choosing divorce is giving up or failing as a parent. While I struggle with these feelings daily, I firmly believe that prioritizing one’s own happiness isn’t a failure but rather a necessary step toward living a fulfilling life.
**The Reality of Social Media**
It’s important to recognize that social media often only shows the best parts of someone’s life. Most of us share moments we want to remember or highlight, not the struggles we face behind the scenes. This is why I’ve always tried to be open with my audience about the challenges I’ve faced, such as crippling anxiety and fertility struggles.
**Looking Ahead**
Moving forward, this decision marks a new chapter in my life. While I’m not sure what the future holds or how long this process will take, I plan to continue creating content as usual. I may also share more vlog-style videos about my journey and plans for the future. I hope to address some of your questions in an upcoming Q&A video.
**Gratitude to My Audience**
Throughout this entire journey—being single, finding love, getting engaged, experiencing infertility, and now facing divorce—you’ve been with me every step of the way. Your support means more to me than words can express. I’m grateful for your understanding, even if some of you may morally or personally disagree with my decision.
**Final Thoughts**
Life is unpredictable, and things don’t always go as planned. While this is an incredibly hard path to take, I remain motivated to provide the best life possible for my children. Everything I do is for them, and I hope they will one day understand that this decision was made with their well-being in mind.
As I navigate this new chapter, I ask for your continued support and understanding. Thank you for being a part of my journey—through the good times and the bad. Together, we’ll move forward, knowing that life continues to move on.
Bye, everyone.