I Felt Like I Was Hit by a Bus: A Long Day of Reading and Reflections

Hello everyone! This is going to be a very long video because I actually read a bunch this month, but it's also going to be a lot of me saying how incredibly sad I am. For those of you who would like a weather update, it's actually gorgeous out – the clouds, everything I see on my window right now is stunning. But it is wildly hot. Normally summers in Seoul are quite warm but this is just like, we're hitting this sweet spot of it being absolutely too hot to go outside and so actually yesterday the reason why I'm in like basically my jammies, is because yesterday I went out to read and I was out for not too long but it was just so hot and I came home and I was sitting at home for about 30 minutes and then I suddenly felt the beginning of not exactly heat stroke but like definitely overheating. So the whole day I had to be just like in bed.

So, I know that it's kind of hot everywhere in the northern hemisphere right now, so just a reminder to hydrate – pause this video if you can go get a drink. Don't coffee doesn't count! Drink water, okay? That was my bad. I just drank coffee. And also remember that your actions the previous day also affects the next day. You don't get a full do-over just because you go to sleep. Because I wasn't hydrating well the day before and then I just went out kind of on an empty stomach the next morning – bad news. Okay, so I don't know why I'm telling you this – the beginning of my videos, they're always a mess. But just look out for yourself! This is your reminder to hydrate today okay. I don't care if you're about to go to bed, have a sip!

Before we jump into how many books? Whoa 12 books! Before we jump into those I want to give a shout out to BOTM for sponsoring this video. BOTM, as you guys know is a service – hey – is a service that has a team of people that comb through all of the new releases and they pick between like five to seven of the best titles and you can, as a subscriber, get a book per month or more for one low controlled price. They're all going to be hard covers as well. If you want to use my code CARI, you can get your first book for $9.99. They also just started a podcast – now I guess it's been a while now – called the Virtual Book Tour where they actually interview one of the authors of the book of the month which is pretty exciting. They also have a live audience in New York City. Live audience – I'm going to circle back to that in a second so keep that in your brain.

But, before we get into all these amazing books, let me tell you about them first! The first one I chose for this month is Small Angels. These will be available for August. Small Angels is about like this town on the edge of the woods and something mysterious happens to these girls and one of these girls's brothers is getting married and so they come back to this town after not having been there for a while and the woods begin to wake up. I have no idea what it's about is what I'm saying basically. And then this one I'm very excited for and it surprised me – I got the Devil Takes You Home.

You get this full book of translations because a lot of it is in Spanish so they just give you a full – I mean it's like a thick book of translations. Of course, I opened to This book is about a man who is struggling with debt because of his daughter's illness and the only way he can see to get out of it is to become a hitman. When he decides that he wants to get out of that business, he has to take one more job and it's essentially a suicide mission so we kind of follow him and the other men who are going on this hit.

I'm very interested, it takes place kind of on the Mexican border I believe. Those two and quite a few other titles are available for August if you want to check them out. Once again

"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enSort of. Is it? No, actually that's not how it goes.I felt like I was hit by a bus.but it's sort of supposed to belike a not spicy Bridgerton, but with fairies...Hello everyone! This is going to befirst of all a very long video because I actually read a bunch this month, but it's also going to be  a lot of me saying how incredibly sad I am. For those of you who would like a weather update, it's  actually gorgeous out - the clouds, everything I see on my window right now is stunning.  But it is wildly hot. Normally summers in Seoul are quite warm but this is just like, we're hitting  this sweet spot of it being absolutely too hot to go outside and so actually yesterday the reason  why I'm in like basically my jammies, is because yesterday I went out to read and I was out for  not too long but it was just so hot and I came home and I was sitting at home for about 30  minutes and then I suddenly felt the beginning of not exactly heat stroke but like definitely  overheating. So the whole day I had to be just like in bed. So I know that it's kind of hot everywhere  in the northern hemisphere right now, so just a reminder to hydrate - pause this video if you can go  get a drink. Don't - coffee doesn't count! Drink water, okay? That was my bad. I just drank coffee. And also  remember that your actions the previous day also affects the next day. You don't get a full do-over  just because you go to sleep. Because I wasn't hydrating well the day before and then I just went  out kind of on an empty stomach the next morning.... bad news. Okay so I don't know why I'm telling you  this - the beginning of my videos, they're always a mess. But just look out for yourself! This is your  reminder to hydrate today okay. I don't care if you're about to go to bed, have a sip! Before we  jump into - how many books? Whoa 12 books! Before we jump into those I want to give a shout out to  BOTM for sponsoring this video.BOTM, as you guys know is a service -  hey - is a service that has a team of people that comb through all of the new releases and they  pick between like five to seven of the best titles and you can, as a subscriber, get a book per month  or more for one low controlled price. They're all going to be hard covers as well. If you want to  use my code CARI, you can get your first book for $9.99. They also just started  a podcast - now I guess it's been a while now -called the Virtual Book Tour where they actually  interview one of the authors of the book of the month which is pretty exciting. They also have a  live audience in New York City. Live audience - I'm gonna circle back to that in a second so keep that  in your brain. But I chose two different books for this month and the first one is Small Angels. These  will be available for August. Small Angels is about like this town on the edge of the woods  and something mysterious happens to these girls and one of these girls's brothers is getting  married and so they come back to this town after not having been there for a while and  the woods begin to wake up. I have no idea what it's about is what I'm saying basically. And then  this one I'm very excited for and it surprised me - I got the Devil Takes You Home. You get this full  book of translations because a lot of it is in Spanish so they just give you a full - I  mean it's like a thick book of translations. Of course I opened to This book is about  a man who is struggling with debt because of his daughter's illness and the only way he can see  to get out of it is to become a hitman. When he decides that he wants to get out of that business,  he has to take one more job and it's essentially a suicide mission so we kind of follow him and the  other men who are going on this hit. I'm very interested, it takes place kind  of on the Mexican border I believe. Those two and quite a few other titles are available for  August if you want to check them out. Once again \"CARI\" - use my code get your first book for  $9.99 okay? Thank you BOTM so much even though you ruined my life last month. I'm going to  talk about it but July - I read a book that BOTM sent me and I will never be the same.So that comes later. One thing that I do want to say, talking about live audiences, is that  two weeks ago now, I did actually a book sale, book exchange, book meetup kind of event  here in Seoul. A lot of people came, it was really fun. Just obviously because of covid and  everything, we haven't done events or anything like that in a really long time and it was just so -  I forgot how exciting it is to meet new people who love the things that you love. So  everybody there was just hanging out, talking about books - a lot of people were selling books so like  you could just easily point and be like oh my god I read that, I love it or oh my god I wanted that  blah blah blah. And you could just so easily make friends and as an introvert and as - I feel like a  lot of bookish people tend to be introverts - it's really hard to meet people like us, I guess, so  that was just a really wonderful experience so if you are kind of struggling like I am  to like get back into meeting friends or even just like meeting friends in the first place - I've never  been really good at that, I like need school or like work and stuff to make friends - so if you're  like kind of struggling I definitely suggest if you are a book person, if that's why you're here,  look at events at your local bookstores and like for example if you're in New York City, going  to a recording of this podcast would be really cool. So I'll have that info down below as well but  yeah I just wanted to encourage you. I know that it's scary, I know that in a lot of places right  now it's still not very safe - make the call for how you feel - but I just highly recommend  going for it and like meeting people like us. It was so invigorating to talk, like obviously  I can talk to you guys but it's kind of a delayed thing because I have to now edit this, you know,and we can talk in the comments but it was just so cool to talk to people in real time about  books so really recommend it. Even if you don't necessarily love or know anything about  the book or person they're talking about - give it a go, I would say. I recommend, I recommend.But anyway, let's get started - the first book I read in July was The Beautiful Ones. This is by  the same author who wrote Mexican Gothic. Mexican Gothic was one of, I think the first reading vlogs  I ever did. And I wasn't like the biggest fan of Mexican Gothic mainly just because of certain  themes that were kind of touched on at the end I guess. But I enjoyed it enough that I was  gonna give her another try and so The Beautiful Ones also didn't necessarily hit the mark for me  but it wasn't bad. How do I describe it? We're following a girl from the countryside who has  come to the big city for the like social season, to live with her cousin and his wife to hopefully  find a husband basically is what she's doing. She wants to live in the city, right? She wants to  see the world. Then we meet a man named Hector who is like a traveling magician kind of thing,  a performer let's say. And he has been abroad, elsewhere, for a very long time and he's now making  his comeback. There is romance, people falling in love, falling out of love, falling in love, there  is betrayal, there's this that and the other thing - and the weirdest part of it is that there's  magic involved? Our main girl, along with the performer Hector, have powers to move things  around? Like it's not a big deal. She can just kind of like make things float? It threw off the whole  story for me because I thought that it would have a bigger thing but it's just sort of there  to be like something that's not ladylike that she shouldn't be doing, you know. There are so many  things that are unladylike that women shouldn't do that she could - why did she make her randomly have  magical powers that don't do anything else? I don't - it was so strange. So I was interested in  the beginning, super bored in the middle, and then I thought the ending...ah, you know? It did - eh. You know  it was fine. It was really hard to push through the middle but at the end of the day as a  whole it was just meh. I don't - I really don't know why there was magic. If you can tell me like  if I missed something, if there was some symbolism there, let me know. But it was just like an odd  book. Sort of like with Mexican Gothic, I was sort of like why did she take that turn of all the  turns you could take, why'd you take that turn? But I'm not giving up on her because she has another  book that sounds very interesting so I'm gonna try again. So that was The Beautiful Ones. Very odd.  Give it a try if you like kind of - I wouldn't say forbidden love but like hmmm - complicated love, right?  And speaking of \"meh.\" The next book I read was Cleopatra and Frankenstein and I hadn't heard  anything about it other than the cover was really cool and it was like in a bunch of people's summer  reading lists and I don't understand the hype at all. I feel like this was a story that I have read  so many times and it was a really popular way of writing maybe 10 years ago.  So it is about a woman named Cleo who is very young, she's British, she just moved to  New York City. And as she's leaving a New Year's Eve party, another person is in the elevator  leaving at the same time as her and it is a man named Frank and they just immediately hit  it off. He's significantly older than her and they just have perfect banter and I will say  the first page, the first - I guess like their the scene of them meeting - I guess the first chapter,  I really enjoyed it. I was immediately pulled in, I thought I was really gonna like this book because  of the way that they spoke to each other and then it just shows them very quickly getting married  (it's not a spoiler it's like literally the second chapter) they get married and it follows kind  of the disintegration of their relationship and also the relationships of everybody around them  and everything. And it just didn't do anything for me, at all. I liked the ending, I will say. That's why  I posted on instagram that I liked the first page and the last page. I would be like a solid  pass on Cleopatra and Frankenstein. I didn't enjoy it. That's literally all I've got to say, I really  had no, no feelings. Go into a bookstore and read the first page I would say, is  all that I have to say about that book. And then I read the 22 Murders of Madison May and that's  so strange that I did it because that same day I watched Everywhere and Everything All At Once -  Everyone and Everything All At Once? What's that - anyway, that movie is about the idea of the  multiverse and how there are different versions of you everywhere. And also that had kind of happened  in Notes on an Execution, which I had read the previous month and so it was weird to go from  Notes on an Execution talking about it, to watching a movie about it, and then suddenly reading another  book about it. So the 22 Murders of Madison May involves that idea of the multiverse and how there  are many different versions of us and there are people who have learned how to go in between the  multiverses, they can travel. And it actually follows a journalist who gets involved in a case  of a murder and she's like \"that's really weird\" and she starts to dig into it and she digs a  little too deep and gets herself wrapped up in the multiverse. And I thought it was actually  really interesting, it wasn't like incredible but I had a good time reading it. It was thriller-esque.It was just a book that I needed after reading two books that were very not great. It was just like  hit the spot of what I needed it to and I thought that it pulled you in in a really exciting way so  definitely the 22 Murders of Madison May - if you are just kind of stuck, I thought this was a very  good read. 22 Murders of Madison May. Oh my god and now we have to talk about it. Then I read Tomorrow  and Tomorrow and Tomorrow. So this was a BOTM pick, totally a - whoa that cloud's crazy!  I'm sorry hold on look at what I'm looking at right now. Oh my god okay anyway. It took me  completely by surprise and ripped my heart out and like threw it on the ground and jumped on  it a bunch of times. So what is it about without spoiling it, because I think it's for me, it was  really important to go in without spoilers. It is about two people who met when they were younger  because our main girl, her sister had cancer and so she spent a lot of time in the hospital  and she met this boy who was in a really traumatic car accident and he wasn't doing well like he  wasn't talking to anybody, and she just randomly sits down and starts playing video games with him  because they're the same age and he really comes out of his shell and so they kind of  develop this friendship just like in the hospital. They have kind of a falling out um in childhood  and they end up going to school in the same area, at different schools, but they're both in  Boston I believe. They kind of pick up where they left off and our main girl is like a game  programmer and designer - and that's really what they've always connected over is video games.  And as someone who has done zero gaming in her life, I'm talking about like sometimes  I'd go to my friend's house and we'd maybe play super mario brothers? And so I wasn't  sure if this book was gonna be for me but the way that these things are described...  I mean I've really tried to get into gaming, I promise you I've tried, it's really just not for me,  but talking about the development of stories and like all of the decisions that are made, it was so  so interesting. I really loved that. And then we go further into their game has great success and they  start a company and we meet some new characters and it just follows their life through probably  a few decades. Oh my god it was just so good. I think there were parts where it was kind of  frustrating just because everybody is just like imperfect human beings, you know? I wouldn't say  the characters are like 100% likeable or something like that but it was so good. And then there's  something that just comes out of the blue that I literally had to put the book down and just like  take deep breaths. Ruined my night. So that's just definitely a book I would absolutely recommend to  anyone but be in the right mindset to just - like it gets unexpectedly really heavy sothink about that. Oh even, god, even thinking about it, my mood just like plummeted.  Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow. After that really quickly I read the Missing of Claire de  Lune, which is the sequel to A Winter's Promise. So I don't want to say too much because it would  be spoilery but the first book is about a girl who is living kind of in like this post-apocalyptic  earth - it's in like the very very far future, I don't know. The earth is kind of broken into  these weird different \"arks\" they call them, the only pieces of land that like survived  whatever explosion occurred - we don't know - everybody has a little bit of magic but she,  very early in the story, finds out that she has been arranged in a marriage with a person from  another ark and this ark is known to be like dangerous and scary and it's in the arctic  and stuff like that. So she's not super excited about that but she goes and they quickly realize  that there's this weird - there's gotta be some weird political reason behind this match. And  she's trying to figure it out, it's very whimsical magical. I thought that the world building was  so cool but the story was just not there. I think I said this last week but like I felt my brain  actively trying to like the book but there was just an element missing. And so when I mentioned  that in my previous video, I got comments that were on one side: this is my favorite series on earth, I  can't live without it, it's the best thing ever. And then everybody on this side they were like: Yeah I  wanted to like it too but the ending of the series is horrible, I hate how it ended, it ends in a very  unexpected unsatisfying way, I didn't like it... We start to talk a lot more - it's kind  of hinted at in the first one but we get a lot more into talking about god,  and who is god? There's a part of me that really wants to know how it ends but I also don't want  to have to read two more books because it's - there are four books in the series. I don't know,  convince me in the comments, what do you think? Is it worth pushing through to know the ending  or should I just look it up? Let me know your thoughts down below. That is the Missing of Claire  de Lune. Okay so I needed to take a break to let my camera cool off and as if I wasn't distracted  enough by the clouds, as I was uploading this footage to make sure my camera didn't overheat  somebody is on my roof (I live in an apartment building it's normal for people to be on my roof)  blowing bubbles! Suddenly it was just raining bubbles from above! So if you see me start to go  like again - bubbles. I also needed to take a break to mentally prepare myself to talk about this book.  I'm going to talk about - How High We Go In The Dark. And this book was maybe the saddest book  I've read in recent memory, and this is coming off of reading Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow. I  think what hit me really really hard about this book is that I didn't know anything about it  so if you don't want to know anything, I'm going to give you like a snippet and then I'm going to ask  you to leave. So the book is told, it's a collection of stories going from what kind of feels like  present day and then heading towards the very very distant future - it actually covers like  hundreds of years. It is I would say definitely science fiction and it is - just it gets so  sad. But I do think that the ending at least gave me a touch of hope, and I actually think - I actually  think that the fact that it spanned so long was really helpful in my mindset right now, I think  and yeah I don't I - oh I can't tell you anymore but the first story is not what the rest of the book  is about. Like it is but it's not. The feelings you get when you read that first story...  the second one, I felt like I was hit by a bus. I was reading it in a cafe and I literally had to  stop and go for a walk and like go to a thrift store to take my mind off of it because I was  so incredibly sad. So that's your warning, I'll give you a little time stamp - you can skip  to here if you don't want to hear any more about this book. The next book is not sad, oh it's a cute book,  okay so you can skip here if you want to go to a cute book, all right bye okay? So this book, again,  I'm not going to spoil it but it does deal with a pandemic. Not our current pandemic but a pandemic  that could happen in the future. Horrifically sad, it goes through kind of how it is discovered, it  talks about ways that people start dealing with death, especially because this really affects  children in particular. Scientists trying out new things to cure it, everybody is kind of tied  together through like the hundreds of years. So if you aren't okay with death, I mean this was bleak  really really sad. Have I said sad enough? It was yeah just like the - I would say the first three or  four stories were just like devastating. It gets a little bit easier to handle when you continue  and I think that that was really good for me to read is that and ironically actually another book  that I read later in the month kind of talked about this but I feel like right now it just  feels like the end of the world, like it really feels like we are not coming back from where  we are like I just don't see a way to fix like not only just related to covid, the pandemic and  everything like that but like society as a whole. Like how do we - ah it just, like not to be totally  bleak, but it feels like the end of the world. And this book, because we go so far into the future,  it really puts into perspective that like people right before world war one thought that this was  the end of the world, people before world war ii thought that this was the end of the world,  I mean so many - if you're living through something, that is the only reference that you have, it's the  most clear and in front of you thing that you've ever experienced. So it does feel like the end of  the world, like our feelings are totally valid, it is the end of our world in a way. But having this  book cover hundreds of years and having people look back and talk about a pandemic that happened  so long ago just really kind of helped me like I do know that the human race will continue in one  way or the other to think that this will be like an incomprehensible memory to some people someday  and it will still have a huge effect on the world but it's not the end of it.  Why am I tearing up? Oh my god. It broke me down but it gave me a little semblance of  hope if that makes sense? But yeah it was just likekind of book so if you would like to cry a lot - How High We Go in the Dark. Okay so the  next book that I finally read is The Girl Who Fell Beneath the Sea. This is kind of a retelling of a  Korean legend and it is about a girl who lives in a seaside village and this village believes in  a bunch of different gods but their main god is the god of the sea. Every once in  a while he gets real angry and he sends all of these big storms and it's just really bad and  so they have to sacrifice a young girl, send her into the sea to be taken by the sea god as his  bride. They hope that if they send the right girl, eventually these storms will  end. And the book opens with our main girl running to stop the sacrifice from happening because the  girl that they're going to sacrifice, is the girl that her brother is in love with and she can't  let that happen. And so she does what she can to stop it of course things go haywire - she ends up  in the spirit realm. I thought that it was a really good story for what it was, it was just like this  fairytale, there is romance. I thought that a lot of the characters were just so endearing.  I thought that the actual, in the like - I got very confused by the actual issue because she  obviously has to solve this problem, something is wrong in the spirit realm - I got a little confused  by that as a whole but then the ending like wrapped it up and I got it and the ending grabbed  me and I cried and yeah so if you're just looking for a very sweet fairy tale-esque feeling,  it was just really wonderful. It helped heal me from the two books that just wanted  to ruin my life. So I'm very thankful for this book. It was also a very visual book, like I  really saw everything really happening while I was reading it so that is The Girl Who Fell Beneath  the Sea. After that I read Half a Soul which was recommended by a lot of you guys. This is part of a  series that I think is - you don't need to read them in any order - it's called like the Regency  Fairy Series? But it's sort of supposed to be like a not spicy Bridgeton but with fairies?  So the one that I read, like I said, was Half a Soul. Actually you know what I took a screenshot  of the first line because I liked it so much, so this is how our book starts - this is the  prologue. \"Theodora Eloisa Charity Ettings is a very long name for a very small girl.  This, her aunt liked to say, was probably why she was such a handful. By the time  one had fully shouted the words 'Theodora Eloisa Charity Ettings, you get back here this instant!'  the 10 year old girl was almost always long gone.\" And so it's just, it's kind of that writing - borderline fairy tale, really charming. And it starts with our girl Theodora aka Dora - she  has a run-in with a fairy, he tries to take her soul but luckily her cousin helps save her and  so he only gets half of it. And so Dora grows up without the ability to feel very  sudden emotions. She says that she can feel kind of long-winded ones like she understands  kind of disappointment or like guilt or something like that but she might not be able to feel shock  or something you know? So she's just considered very odd but her cousin, who is a little bit  younger than her, is being launched onto society in a Bridgeton-esque way so they go to London  to find her a match. And she has a very hard time finding a match because she wants to find a man  who will live with Theodora as well, because like due to just the way that she acts, Dora  isn't really welcomed in society at all. She's seen as very strange. Dora does feel very bad  about this, but she also just like can't change the way that she is. So we go on this little adventure,  we end up running into a few new characters, we learn about this strange curse that has befallen  a lot of children, and we try to solve it. I just thought it was cute, it was like a quick  standalone - mainly romance with the backdrop of like regency era London and fairies?  I don't know, it was just like a good thing to read. I don't know what else to tell you.  I think I will try and pick up other ones, I'm not - so I'm not in any rush to but like I know that  there are other books in that series that if I'm looking for just kind of a palette cleanser kind  of thing, I could read it so yeah that is Half a Soul. Next up, I actually have the physical - this is  cursed Bunny by Bora Chung. It's a collection of short stories - weird as hell. The first one,  the first story is about literally a poop monster, like this woman throughout her life uses her house  toilet and a monster - not a monster that's I'm, not a monster - a thing grows using all of the stuff  she's ever dumped in the toilet. That's the tone, all right. That's what you're getting yourself into  when you're reading this. There weren't things that kind of like shook me like a lot of short story  authors can do, I think that hers were stories that I had to like read and be disturbed by  and then just kind of sit there and think about what it could possibly mean. It didn't have  like stunning prose or something that I wanted to underline a bunch in this book, it was just very  gruesome - even Cursed Bunny, the story that this collection is named for. It's just very  dark, it talks a lot about bodily fluids and like feces. It's funny how different media that gets  kind of shipped off to the rest of the world is so different - like I feel like kpop gives you a  certain vision of what Korea is and then kdramas gives you a totally different vision but Korean  literature, the stuff that gets translated, is always like the darkest. So yeah I would say  if you are interested in Korean literature, this gives you one hell of a taste for it,  for what's been translated for the world so yeah, Cursed Bunny by Bora Chung. After that I read  These Twisted Bonds which is the sequel to These Hollow Vows. I don't have much to say about it  because I didn't read it because I was interested - I read it because I just wanted to finish  the duology for you guys. I read it last year. I have two reading vlogs about it, so if you want to  watch it was the most recent video that I've posted. And then the final book that I read  in July was Sea of Tranquility by the same author that wrote Station Eleven. It was not what I expected  at all. It actually felt very much like the Cloud Atlas in a way because it's written - and this isn't  a spoiler, it's written kind of like this - where we go from, we have a bunch of different points  of view and we go from like person one two three four, three two one kind of thing. Sort of. Is it?  No, actually that's not how it goes. Cloud Atlas is very like this, but this was more like this...  does that? - anyway, we go forward and then we go back and then we go sideways is basically how this  the timeline of this plot goes... What is it about without spoiling it? Station Eleven was a really  interesting kind of post-apocalyptic book and this is kind of the same, if it was a lot more  futuristic sci-fi. How do I explain it? You read it and you get this feeling of dread, just dread dread  dread dread dread. You figure out what you know is gonna happen, what that feeling in your gut is  right? It tells you what actually happens and then we start working on solving it. So the beginning  of the book I was - I just felt very curious and I love how the author writes so I was drawn in and  I was just confused and curious. And kind of like with the Cloud Atlas, every time it changed POV,  I had enjoyed the previous point of view so much that I was kind of like, oh bummer  I don't want to start with a new person and then I would love that point of view and then  it'd be like oh bummer I don't want to - you know? I thought it was great, I thought how it ended  was really interesting - it brings up the question of simulation theory  and it never really gives us an answer to it but I just thought that that was interesting if  you're interested in simulation theory it talks about it in this book. It's very futuristic like we  have colonies on the moon, we have colonies on the \"far colonies\" like the moons of Jupiter and stuff,  so it's very far in the future but it also takes us all the way back to like the 1910s  and stuff like that so overall I just - it wasn't necessarily as gripping as Station Eleven was, like I  remember reading Station Eleven and wanting to like go get canned food at the grocery store just in case  and this felt strangely slow? It also kind of talks about the end of the world and maybe how it's not  just gonna be a one-shot like boom - maybe the end of the world is just kind of always happening, you  know? I don't know, it was one of those books that was also quite dark and quite bleak but at the  end of it, I felt this kind of sense of hope and wonder shall we say? That was Sea of Tranquility.I think that was a good way to end the month. And I'm currently reading Strange the Dreamer. I  know, finally, and I'm doing a reading vlog of that I'm taking you on that journey with me so I will  let you know my thoughts on that as well. Okay anyway it's getting very hot and I'm so scared of  my poor little camera overheating so I'm going to end the video here. If you're interested  in my meet up I've got a couple...oh couple announcements! If you're interested in my meetup, Iactually posted a vlog about it if you want to watch it on my main channel which is cari cakes  and I will link it down below, we also had... we also made a little box of everybody's  book recommendations and I typed them up so if you want to look at that I will also have that  down below. Also if you're interested - I randomly get questions about my skincare. I get it more on  my other channel but if you would like to get my full all-time favorite skincare products - I've  been using these products for years so if you are interested, there will also be a link down below.  It is 45% off, free shipping and you will get a 20% off coupon for your next purchase! So that will  be down below as well. Anything else? No? Okay so thank you again to BOTM - you can use  my code CARI to get your first book for $9.99, check out all of the August books. I hope that you -  let me know if you go to one of the recordings of the podcast, I'd be so interested in hearing  your thoughts and yes, oh my god I'm gonna turn the AC on and sorry if the sound is a little funky - not  to throw him under the bus, but Kurt lost the puffy part of my microphone. Yeah, he's in trouble. Yeah  I apologize - that will be remedied hopefully in my next video, so alrighty I will see you  next time! Stay cool, stay warm wherever you are. Stay happy healthy safe. See you later bye :)\n"