The Joy and Agony of Owning a Dream Car: A Story of Love, Loss, and Letting Go

I still remember the excitement I felt when I first laid eyes on my dream car, the speciality of Pair Ton. It was love at first sight – the sleek design, the powerful V8 engine, and the prestige that came with owning such a rare and exclusive vehicle all combined to create an overwhelming sense of joy and happiness. But as time went on, the reality of owning this car began to set in, and I found myself consumed by anxiety and worry about its well-being.

The biggest concern was the mileage. As a Ferrari owner, I knew that the value of my car would depreciate significantly once it reached certain milestones – 10,000 miles being the most significant one. The thought of putting more than 10,000 miles on the car made me feel uneasy, and I found myself agonizing over every drive I took in it. Was it enough? Was it too much? Would I regret not having driven it more often? These questions haunted me, and I eventually became so anxious that I stopped driving the car altogether.

But that was just the beginning of my woes. The rear diffuser on my speciality Pair Ton was too low for everyday driving, making it a nightmare to navigate gas stations without scraping it. I would have to carefully plan out every route I took in the car, and even then, there was always a risk of damage. It was like having a ticking time bomb in the back of my mind, waiting to unleash its wrath on me at any moment.

Despite my love for driving cars, this anxiety became overwhelming. I realized that owning a collector's item like the speciality Pair Ton wasn't as enjoyable for me as I thought it would be. The constant worry and stress took away from the joy of driving, and I found myself feeling more anxious than exhilarated whenever I got behind the wheel.

In retrospect, I think I overestimated the value of owning a rare and exclusive car like the speciality Pair Ton. If I had purchased one, I estimate it would have been worth half as much money compared to what I paid for it. Some specialty Ferraris have way more miles on them, and they're not considered collector's items. The reality is that the market can fluctuate, and owning a rare car doesn't guarantee its value or desirability.

As I reflected on my experience with the speciality Pair Ton, I realized that I had been chasing a dream that wasn't truly fulfilling for me. I wanted every single car in my collection, but I was never happy driving them all frequently enough to truly enjoy their character and personality. It took a toll on me, and I began to question whether owning multiple cars was as enjoyable as I thought it would be.

The final straw came when I realized that the speciality Pair Ton wasn't the right car for me. It was a dream that had become a nightmare, and I couldn't bear the anxiety of owning it anymore. So, with a heavy heart, I decided to let it go and sell it.

The decision wasn't easy, but I knew it was necessary. As I looked at the speciality Pair Ton one last time, I felt a sense of sadness wash over me. It had been my dream car, and I would miss it dearly. But I also knew that letting it go was the right thing to do for me. I couldn't continue to live with the anxiety and stress of owning a rare car without enjoying its full potential.

As I move forward, I'm still figuring out what my next perfect car is. It's a learning experience, one that has taught me the importance of self-control and prioritizing my own happiness. The speciality Pair Ton may be gone, but it will never be forgotten – it was an incredible driving experience that I'll always treasure.

"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enthis car is the coolest Road car I have ever driven in my entire life alright guys the time has come finally I'm going to address all of your questions about the four five eight special a aperto but before we get started I need to give a special shout-out to the sponsor of today's video movement watches movement watches has become the fastest growing watch company in the world for a good reason they have an incredible underdog story and produce exceptionally clean watches that won't break the bank they are completely disrupting the status quo with some of their new designs and have sold over 1.5 million watches worldwide because of their high quality and fair price this happens to be one of my favorite watches that they make and it's their first ever automatic watch the arc automatic the finish is absolutely stunning and it's designed based on 1960s experimental architecture but my favorite part is this gorgeous open case back traditionally reserved for more expensive watches you can see all of the beautiful inner workings of this arc automatic watch through that window absolutely love it I've been wearing this watch for a week now and have received tons of compliments you can even exchange the straps for different occasions the options are limitless movie watches start at just $95 and have the same quality as timepieces costing $400 or more if you're looking for a beautiful classy timepiece to complete your outfit or make a statement look no further than movement watches the best part is because you're a vehicle version subscriber you get 15% off free shipping and free returns all you have to do is go to MVM t.com slash vehicle virgins movement is launching new styles on their site at all times so make sure to head to MVM t.com slash vehicle versions link in the description below let's get on to the video well guys this is a long overdue video and I'm incredibly sorry that it has taken this long for me to create this there's a lot of reasons behind that one work at the house and two I really wanted to gather my thoughts and put together the most honest and accurate representation so you guys can understand what was going through my mind and the reasoning behind this decision but in this video I wanted to explain exactly why I sold the car and why it's been so crushing for me because I it truly was the most spectacular car that I have ever owned so let's rewind to the beginning I've always been a Lamborghini person in 2004 when the Guyardo came out my mind was blown I had my heart set I was 10 years old when it happened and I went I don't know how I don't know why but I'm going to do something I'm gonna work hard enough I'm not gonna quit when times get tough so that eventually doesn't matter if I'm 30 40 50 60 I can buy a 2004 Lamborghini Guyardo I love the design the giallo mitos color in particular I just had this vision you know what they say sometimes you visualize things hard enough and your dreams become your reality well eventually through this youtube channel I was able to buy that 2004 Lamborghini Gallardo Candace for those of you who remember have been with the channel for a very long time I thank you so much for sticking around that long so I got the Guyardo it was everything I wanted and it fulfilled my Lamborghini dreams but there always was this desire for Ferrari it was just a little bit off put by a couple of things that had happened to me for instance I went to a dealership once with the Guyardo and I was looking at a used Ferrari and I was told by one of the salespeople that they were sorry that I had a lesser brand car and when I wanted to step up into a real car to let him know and I thought that was like really offensive I get Ferraris amazing and all that but come on let's a brand car that's pretty brutal an offensive are you trying to sell a car or not so I was very off put by that experience and a couple owners that I hadn't met and I foolishly kind of wrote off the brand for a long time it wasn't until test driving a bunch of them for vehicle versions like a four five eight for 30 a three six the manual that I really started to get how amazing of a driving experience these cars provide f12 eight twelve driven a bunch of Ferraris at this point so fast forward to Pebble Beach Monterey car week last year actually two weeks before that I was at a watch shop in Newport Beach and I decided you know what I'm gonna pop across the street and I'm going to go to Ferrari of Newport Beach see you they got just stroll around something fun about going to dealerships and just window shopping anyways I saw a beautiful yellow Ferrari four or five eight speciality I went wow there's something about a yellow Ferrari that speaks to me in a way that the other colors don't they also had a black specially Ali a parrot although I didn't really love the spec on the speciality a parrot um but I was fixated on that yellow speciality right at that moment I fell in love with the car and I knew I was completely that I was going to be buying so I started doing more research on the cars figuring out what they traded for and something sparked in my mind that I wanted to do something crazy and that was get my first really limited edition car for a multitude of reasons I wanted to reach that next level you know I love the Huracan it is basically a perfect car especially with the supercharger it's amazing but there are a ton of Huracan so I wanted something just a little bit more special and rare the speciality aperto they only made 499 of those now why is it cool that it's rare one you drive one around the road I have never been driving my speciality aperto and seen another person driving a speciality aperto on the road which isn't the case with the Huracan and to it it felt like I owned kind of this rare collectible piece of art that very importantly this is important part of the purchasing decision eventually most likely would go up in value especially alia parata's are very very expensive at the level where if I'm being honest it's a little bit too expensive for me to buy a car like that if it were to depreciate but the fact that they only made 499 and the fact that Ferrari is the brand ferrari and porsche for appreciating limited-edition cars i felt confident that if i bought the car had it for a while eventually sold it maybe didn't sell it that it would go up in value so it seemed like the perfect perfect combination of drive an amazing car build some really cool content for the channel and potentially make some money instead of having money in the stock market you have a little bit of the money in a ferrari that you can actually drive around and enjoy instead of just watching money go up or down on a computer screen so I bought the car the week of Monterey Car week had one of the best weeks of my life drove it in a convoy with friends to Pebble Beach drove it all around put about a thousand miles on the car within just a couple of days the driving experience was absolutely magical first time ever owning a convertible actually the first car I had ever purchased without driving it beforehand so I was a little bit nervous but I trusted in the fact knowing what a four five eight feels like how special that is and knowing Ferraris recipe for making a more hardcore vehicle I knew that it was gonna fit just perfectly in line with what kind of car that I would like and that I would love the driving experience and it turns out it is arguably the best Road car that I have ever driven the mix of that incredible naturally aspirated v8 highest horsepower per liter of any naturally aspirated engine ever created the steering feel is the most precise beautiful I mean it feels like you're driving a go on the road it feels like you're dancing with the car the way the chassis moves then the open-top experienced everything together was absolutely magical then I got home and reality started to set in not buyer's remorse just reality with what car I had actually purchased and this brought the most difficult realization I've had in cars I think it's important for you guys to understand too is that the perfect car is not necessarily the perfect car for you so I thought you know the speciality paired up it's perfect it's the perfect driving experience it sounds so good it's so beautiful it's the perfect color maize and blue I love this it's special it's gonna go up in value I can't think of a more perfect car I had thought of potentially a Carrera GT but the maintenance cost worried me knowing that the speciality aperto was a four or five eight at the end of the day it was going to be decently more reliable the biggest problem was I have never owned a car where I had to worry about mileage especially aperto I've never seen one with more than 6,000 miles on the clock I bought my car with I believe 1,400 miles knowing that I really didn't want to cross that 6,000 mile mark because the school is having the highest mileage car would be it also means you have the cheapest the least valuable car and I'm not there yet financially to where that's an acceptable thing and this is where it really dawned on me that I had to think long and hard about every single time I took the car out is it worth putting miles on the car it's gonna depreciate it this amount is it special enough and that started to drive me insane people requested that I took it to car shows and I'm Google Google Maps saying I want to take it down to Newport Beach but it's gonna be a 200 mile round-trip and do I really want to do that and I only get ten of those in the lifespan of the car and then I basically stopped driving the car which was unbelievably depressing having basically your dream sitting in the garage and being too afraid to drive it was the worst feeling in the world then there was one other issue and that was the rear diffuser is just too low for the kind of daily drivability that I wanted to do I realized that pulling into gas stations namely you had to be so careful and don't a specific gas station in order to actually get the car in without scraping the rear diffuser now if you had a route planned out and and you knew exactly where you're gonna take the car it wasn't a big deal but knowing that I like to just go out and drive with friends and go random places it was just too worrisome for me to deal with that rear diffuser and the mileage at the same time I guess it's that I don't know if it's a self-control thing or what but I love driving cars so much and I think that's obvious by the fact that I've got nearly 30,000 miles on my hurt on that I it just wasn't fun for me to have a garage Queen and unfortunately I have decided to sell the speciality of pair ton and yeah I can't believe I'm saying that it actually was the most amazing driving car that I've ever owned it was such a spectacular spectacular experience owning the car driving the car every time I drove it it gave me immense happiness and pleasure but there was this always this overarching worry about the miles and the rear diffuser it just didn't make it fun for me and I ended up taking out the Huracan going yeah it's not a special of a car doesn't drive quite as well but I don't have to care as much so there's some carefree fun element of that the reality of the situation is I probably should have just purchased a speciality if I had purchase especially la there about half as much money some of them have way more miles they're less of a collector car they made more of them and it wouldn't have been nearly as big of a deal the reason I thought the speciality of Parenteau was such a brilliant decision was last naturally aspirated mid-engine special-edition v8 Ferrari so they made the speciality and the speciality of Parrott especially Holley wasn't all that limited I believe they made three or four thousand of them instead of four hundred and ninety nine of the aperto then when they made the 488 pista also not really that limited twin turbocharged and then they made the pista spider which also was nowhere near as limited didn't have that special a pair two name I went I think this car is going to be a gold mine and also something incredibly fun to hold on to and drive at the exact same time now am I gonna be kicking myself ten years from now and the cars are worth significantly more probably but I'd rather have that extra money to be honest for a million different things especially for a car that I could drive all the time there is a period where collecting as many cars as possible seemed like the ultimate goal for me I wanted every single car and you just take them out when you felt like it but now I'm realizing that it doesn't provide that much enjoyment for me personally I like to get everything the most and really bond with a specific car and I can't do that if I'm just driving it a couple of miles you really don't learn the full character and personality of a car with just driving it briefly so there's the deal guys I have my speciality a pair two up for sale at San Francisco Ferrari I've got a link in the description below if you want to check it out please only serious inquiries don't email them with a bunch of random questions if you are interested it is an absolutely pristine incredible fun to drive car it just wasn't the right car for me still figuring out what the next right perfect car for me is it's a learning experience I'm growing I'm maturing and it sucks to let this car go it really does but I hope you guys understand the reason why I couldn't keep the car it just was painful to sit there and look at it and be afraid to drive it it's just not what cars are about well with that that was a sad depressing video I hope you guys enjoyed this video like always please browse the channel and subscribe I look forward to seeing you next videothis car is the coolest Road car I have ever driven in my entire life alright guys the time has come finally I'm going to address all of your questions about the four five eight special a aperto but before we get started I need to give a special shout-out to the sponsor of today's video movement watches movement watches has become the fastest growing watch company in the world for a good reason they have an incredible underdog story and produce exceptionally clean watches that won't break the bank they are completely disrupting the status quo with some of their new designs and have sold over 1.5 million watches worldwide because of their high quality and fair price this happens to be one of my favorite watches that they make and it's their first ever automatic watch the arc automatic the finish is absolutely stunning and it's designed based on 1960s experimental architecture but my favorite part is this gorgeous open case back traditionally reserved for more expensive watches you can see all of the beautiful inner workings of this arc automatic watch through that window absolutely love it I've been wearing this watch for a week now and have received tons of compliments you can even exchange the straps for different occasions the options are limitless movie watches start at just $95 and have the same quality as timepieces costing $400 or more if you're looking for a beautiful classy timepiece to complete your outfit or make a statement look no further than movement watches the best part is because you're a vehicle version subscriber you get 15% off free shipping and free returns all you have to do is go to MVM t.com slash vehicle virgins movement is launching new styles on their site at all times so make sure to head to MVM t.com slash vehicle versions link in the description below let's get on to the video well guys this is a long overdue video and I'm incredibly sorry that it has taken this long for me to create this there's a lot of reasons behind that one work at the house and two I really wanted to gather my thoughts and put together the most honest and accurate representation so you guys can understand what was going through my mind and the reasoning behind this decision but in this video I wanted to explain exactly why I sold the car and why it's been so crushing for me because I it truly was the most spectacular car that I have ever owned so let's rewind to the beginning I've always been a Lamborghini person in 2004 when the Guyardo came out my mind was blown I had my heart set I was 10 years old when it happened and I went I don't know how I don't know why but I'm going to do something I'm gonna work hard enough I'm not gonna quit when times get tough so that eventually doesn't matter if I'm 30 40 50 60 I can buy a 2004 Lamborghini Guyardo I love the design the giallo mitos color in particular I just had this vision you know what they say sometimes you visualize things hard enough and your dreams become your reality well eventually through this youtube channel I was able to buy that 2004 Lamborghini Gallardo Candace for those of you who remember have been with the channel for a very long time I thank you so much for sticking around that long so I got the Guyardo it was everything I wanted and it fulfilled my Lamborghini dreams but there always was this desire for Ferrari it was just a little bit off put by a couple of things that had happened to me for instance I went to a dealership once with the Guyardo and I was looking at a used Ferrari and I was told by one of the salespeople that they were sorry that I had a lesser brand car and when I wanted to step up into a real car to let him know and I thought that was like really offensive I get Ferraris amazing and all that but come on let's a brand car that's pretty brutal an offensive are you trying to sell a car or not so I was very off put by that experience and a couple owners that I hadn't met and I foolishly kind of wrote off the brand for a long time it wasn't until test driving a bunch of them for vehicle versions like a four five eight for 30 a three six the manual that I really started to get how amazing of a driving experience these cars provide f12 eight twelve driven a bunch of Ferraris at this point so fast forward to Pebble Beach Monterey car week last year actually two weeks before that I was at a watch shop in Newport Beach and I decided you know what I'm gonna pop across the street and I'm going to go to Ferrari of Newport Beach see you they got just stroll around something fun about going to dealerships and just window shopping anyways I saw a beautiful yellow Ferrari four or five eight speciality I went wow there's something about a yellow Ferrari that speaks to me in a way that the other colors don't they also had a black specially Ali a parrot although I didn't really love the spec on the speciality a parrot um but I was fixated on that yellow speciality right at that moment I fell in love with the car and I knew I was completely that I was going to be buying so I started doing more research on the cars figuring out what they traded for and something sparked in my mind that I wanted to do something crazy and that was get my first really limited edition car for a multitude of reasons I wanted to reach that next level you know I love the Huracan it is basically a perfect car especially with the supercharger it's amazing but there are a ton of Huracan so I wanted something just a little bit more special and rare the speciality aperto they only made 499 of those now why is it cool that it's rare one you drive one around the road I have never been driving my speciality aperto and seen another person driving a speciality aperto on the road which isn't the case with the Huracan and to it it felt like I owned kind of this rare collectible piece of art that very importantly this is important part of the purchasing decision eventually most likely would go up in value especially alia parata's are very very expensive at the level where if I'm being honest it's a little bit too expensive for me to buy a car like that if it were to depreciate but the fact that they only made 499 and the fact that Ferrari is the brand ferrari and porsche for appreciating limited-edition cars i felt confident that if i bought the car had it for a while eventually sold it maybe didn't sell it that it would go up in value so it seemed like the perfect perfect combination of drive an amazing car build some really cool content for the channel and potentially make some money instead of having money in the stock market you have a little bit of the money in a ferrari that you can actually drive around and enjoy instead of just watching money go up or down on a computer screen so I bought the car the week of Monterey Car week had one of the best weeks of my life drove it in a convoy with friends to Pebble Beach drove it all around put about a thousand miles on the car within just a couple of days the driving experience was absolutely magical first time ever owning a convertible actually the first car I had ever purchased without driving it beforehand so I was a little bit nervous but I trusted in the fact knowing what a four five eight feels like how special that is and knowing Ferraris recipe for making a more hardcore vehicle I knew that it was gonna fit just perfectly in line with what kind of car that I would like and that I would love the driving experience and it turns out it is arguably the best Road car that I have ever driven the mix of that incredible naturally aspirated v8 highest horsepower per liter of any naturally aspirated engine ever created the steering feel is the most precise beautiful I mean it feels like you're driving a go on the road it feels like you're dancing with the car the way the chassis moves then the open-top experienced everything together was absolutely magical then I got home and reality started to set in not buyer's remorse just reality with what car I had actually purchased and this brought the most difficult realization I've had in cars I think it's important for you guys to understand too is that the perfect car is not necessarily the perfect car for you so I thought you know the speciality paired up it's perfect it's the perfect driving experience it sounds so good it's so beautiful it's the perfect color maize and blue I love this it's special it's gonna go up in value I can't think of a more perfect car I had thought of potentially a Carrera GT but the maintenance cost worried me knowing that the speciality aperto was a four or five eight at the end of the day it was going to be decently more reliable the biggest problem was I have never owned a car where I had to worry about mileage especially aperto I've never seen one with more than 6,000 miles on the clock I bought my car with I believe 1,400 miles knowing that I really didn't want to cross that 6,000 mile mark because the school is having the highest mileage car would be it also means you have the cheapest the least valuable car and I'm not there yet financially to where that's an acceptable thing and this is where it really dawned on me that I had to think long and hard about every single time I took the car out is it worth putting miles on the car it's gonna depreciate it this amount is it special enough and that started to drive me insane people requested that I took it to car shows and I'm Google Google Maps saying I want to take it down to Newport Beach but it's gonna be a 200 mile round-trip and do I really want to do that and I only get ten of those in the lifespan of the car and then I basically stopped driving the car which was unbelievably depressing having basically your dream sitting in the garage and being too afraid to drive it was the worst feeling in the world then there was one other issue and that was the rear diffuser is just too low for the kind of daily drivability that I wanted to do I realized that pulling into gas stations namely you had to be so careful and don't a specific gas station in order to actually get the car in without scraping the rear diffuser now if you had a route planned out and and you knew exactly where you're gonna take the car it wasn't a big deal but knowing that I like to just go out and drive with friends and go random places it was just too worrisome for me to deal with that rear diffuser and the mileage at the same time I guess it's that I don't know if it's a self-control thing or what but I love driving cars so much and I think that's obvious by the fact that I've got nearly 30,000 miles on my hurt on that I it just wasn't fun for me to have a garage Queen and unfortunately I have decided to sell the speciality of pair ton and yeah I can't believe I'm saying that it actually was the most amazing driving car that I've ever owned it was such a spectacular spectacular experience owning the car driving the car every time I drove it it gave me immense happiness and pleasure but there was this always this overarching worry about the miles and the rear diffuser it just didn't make it fun for me and I ended up taking out the Huracan going yeah it's not a special of a car doesn't drive quite as well but I don't have to care as much so there's some carefree fun element of that the reality of the situation is I probably should have just purchased a speciality if I had purchase especially la there about half as much money some of them have way more miles they're less of a collector car they made more of them and it wouldn't have been nearly as big of a deal the reason I thought the speciality of Parenteau was such a brilliant decision was last naturally aspirated mid-engine special-edition v8 Ferrari so they made the speciality and the speciality of Parrott especially Holley wasn't all that limited I believe they made three or four thousand of them instead of four hundred and ninety nine of the aperto then when they made the 488 pista also not really that limited twin turbocharged and then they made the pista spider which also was nowhere near as limited didn't have that special a pair two name I went I think this car is going to be a gold mine and also something incredibly fun to hold on to and drive at the exact same time now am I gonna be kicking myself ten years from now and the cars are worth significantly more probably but I'd rather have that extra money to be honest for a million different things especially for a car that I could drive all the time there is a period where collecting as many cars as possible seemed like the ultimate goal for me I wanted every single car and you just take them out when you felt like it but now I'm realizing that it doesn't provide that much enjoyment for me personally I like to get everything the most and really bond with a specific car and I can't do that if I'm just driving it a couple of miles you really don't learn the full character and personality of a car with just driving it briefly so there's the deal guys I have my speciality a pair two up for sale at San Francisco Ferrari I've got a link in the description below if you want to check it out please only serious inquiries don't email them with a bunch of random questions if you are interested it is an absolutely pristine incredible fun to drive car it just wasn't the right car for me still figuring out what the next right perfect car for me is it's a learning experience I'm growing I'm maturing and it sucks to let this car go it really does but I hope you guys understand the reason why I couldn't keep the car it just was painful to sit there and look at it and be afraid to drive it it's just not what cars are about well with that that was a sad depressing video I hope you guys enjoyed this video like always please browse the channel and subscribe I look forward to seeing you next video\n"