**My Journey through Life's Ups and Downs**

As I sit here reflecting on my life, I realize that there have been moments where I wasn't as compassionate with myself as I could have been. At a young age, I didn't fully understand the implications of certain experiences and how they would play out in the long run. But, having children has taught me to be more self-aware and to learn from my mistakes.

Recently, something unexpected happened that hit me deeply. While I won't go into details about what it was, let's just say that it forced me to re-evaluate certain aspects of my life. As a result, I've been taking some time to reflect on what's truly important to me and how I can move forward in a positive direction.

One thing that's become more apparent to me is the importance of self-care. With three baths a week, I've found that this simple ritual brings me a sense of relaxation and rejuvenation. And, when I'm feeling stressed or overwhelmed, I turn to face masks like the glitter eye mask that I absolutely adore. Not only do they make me feel pampered, but they also provide excellent hydration and plumping benefits.

I've been using these masks for years now, and I can honestly say that they're a game-changer. And, recently, I discovered an exfoliating pad from Shay Shay Whitney that has become a staple in my morning skincare routine. The glycolic acid helps to remove any remaining makeup or skin care residue from the night before, while also reducing bacteria under the arms and preventing body odor.

I'm thrilled to be using these products, not just for their benefits but also because they've helped me develop a more positive relationship with self-care. And, as my friend Shay Whitney always says, "Taking care of yourself is not selfish; it's essential." I couldn't agree more.

**My Cat Update**

One of the highlights of my recent life has been my adorable kitties. They've doubled in size, and their colors and coats are changing in the most beautiful ways. It's been a joy to watch them grow and thrive under my care.

To keep my little furballs entertained and stimulated, I've started using cat puzzles that dispense treats. These toys provide mental stimulation and challenge my kitties to figure out how to get the rewards inside. They're absolutely delightful to watch in action, and they bring me so much joy every day.

**Finding Happiness in Small Joys**

As someone who's experienced a significant amount of pain and loss recently, I've come to realize that happiness is not something that can be taken away from us; it's something we have the power to create for ourselves. My friend gave me some sage advice about finding ways to be happy every day, even in difficult times.

I'd like to share a little secret with you: my book club has become one of my favorite things to do in life. Not only do I get to read amazing books and discuss them with fellow book lovers, but it's also become a way for me to connect with others and take my mind off the stressors in my life.

If you're interested in joining our book club, I invite you to join us live at the end of the month. We'll be discussing "Is Bride," which is an amazing read that I think you'll all love. And, as a special treat, we have a 20% off code for all new members.

**A Self-Care Routine**

Another way I prioritize self-care is by taking time to pamper myself every day. In the mornings, before I start my day, I like to use the glycolic acid exfoliating pad under my arms and face. This helps to remove any bacteria that may be causing body odor and leaves my skin feeling smooth and refreshed.

After that, I'll apply a hydrating face mask that's designed to provide long-lasting moisture and plumpness. And, when it's time for the final touches, I'll use an electric gacha to give myself a radiant glow.

It's not about being perfect; it's about taking care of myself in whatever way feels nourishing and enjoyable to me. And, let's be real – who doesn't love a good face mask?

"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enhello welcome back to my Channel with another Vlog Style video I had no video planned this week I wasn't going to post because I have been a mess like this has been one of the worst weeks and surprisingly has nothing to do with the fact that it was Valentine's Day on Wednesday uh my first Valentine's Day single in a very long time I was not sad about that it's more so to do with some other things that have transpired recently and I will update you as much as I can like at a high enough level that I don't get in trouble for anything but I do want to update and share cuz I know unfortunately a lot of you out there are going through something similar I have a bunch of random stuff to get done around the house today so I figured we can chat and I can update you right now I'm just styling my hair I did cut it a bit shorter if you follow me on Instagram stories I cut it about 2 more inches and I got more layers so you'll see that when it's fully styled so I had assumed with divorce the hardest part would be you know deal dealing with the situation leading up to the divorce making that really difficult decision then progressively things would get easier better um and in my case that is not what's happening it's actually getting worse because you really don't know who and what you're dealing with until you start to go through the process I'm an emotional and sensitive person as it is and there's only so much one person can take and then I remember what I tell Carter is is whatever you tell yourself is true so I telling myself you are strong enough I am strong enough to get through this and I will get through this okay now I'm going to do a little at home workout I use the tempo trainer machine I got during Co that I haven't used in years but now I'm using it again because it's so convenient so the next update that is really upsetting not ideal is I have an optimistic hoping that we could settle out of court go to mediation figure things out sign it off and then be done and move on with our lives and so that is still scheduled for March 11th however based on recent correspondence um I don't believe that is going to happen and it is very much most likely going to end up in court which is not only incredibly expensive um it's going to take potentially years like one two three years and I trust I want this to be done but I'm also not going to roll over and you know pay him out a lot of money that he wants specifically for my YouTube channel and that's kind of the big issue at play here um he thinks he's entitled to a lot of money from my YouTube channel and I just disagree like he considers my YouTube channel a traditional business and that's not the way my side sees it nor does legal precedent because um even though my YouTube channel does generate income uh it's not transferable there's no value it could not be sold to someone else because it's just me it's all based on my individual Goodwill if I gave this channel to some random person who bought it for me probably very much most likely would not continue to watch but that all has to be proven in court unfortunately next thing doing my nails I have been giving my nails a break for quite a while I'm back to the Press on just because they're so easy and fast and I do the glamnetic still so let's try and chat well I do my nails because this next update this is the one that really has hurt me the most personally emotionally cuz it has to do with my kids so he started dating like on all the apps and stuff immediately like within a week it's never something you want to see where I'm like watching him go on dates and see this all go down that in itself was hard so on Saturday I was out at a friend's birthday party I get an email saying that he will be introducing the kids to his new girlfriend the next day not asking not letting me know who this person is and asking if I want to meet her first so I wrote back like as composed as I can be saying you know I understand you have moved on and you are excited about your new girlfriend but I just really do not think this is appropriate for the sake of the kids I'm a child of divorce and that was one of the hardest things for me and these kids they don't even understand fully what's going on they understand I mean Carter understands a little now um but he's still living in the house like how hard and how confusing for them and just not necessary it's a very new relationship and so I even had done a bunch of research and sent that over showing that experts recommend that you not do that early on you wait until you're in a long established serious relationship um if you do want to introduce a new partner and the next morning he takes them out with the new new girlfriend and not only that this girl decides that it's appropriate to take pictures with my kids and post them publicly on social media and those photos were sent to me so you're meeting my kids without the mother's approval permission without me even knowing who this person is and you think it's appropriate to take pictures and post that publicly and then Carter came back and was like I'm so excited I get to have two mommies now yeah that's like a dagger to my heart like I'm just there's only so much I can take and I'm I've been trying and I've been way way way too nice in this whole process I am beyond like I am so tired of being walked over being a doormat being disrespected you guys have no idea one day I'll share but um I'm done like I will do anything in my power I will spend every last dollar I have now all that's happened is I'm angry and maybe I needed to be this angry to fight to the level that I need to yeah and I'm not trying to victimize myself here or get anyone to feel sorry for me because I will say this like I take full responsibility for everything that has happened because there were red flags early on that I chose to ignore and I have compassion for myself because at the time I was young and I did not fully understand the implication and how bad some of these things were and how it would play out um and I do have my kids so I can't have any regrets I can just really learn from the experience so yeah that that update just happened a couple days ago and that one has hit me pretty deep okay here are the final Nails I cut them short so they look a little weird but I'm into the short nails right now it's just so much easier having shorter Nails Kitty update look how big the girls are you guys they've like doubled in size their colors and their coats are changing and they're just so sweet I'm obsessed with them so I was doing some research on like cat activities and things to do so these are cat puzzles to give them some mental stimulation so you put treats in here and then this is like a ball you put treats in and then they roll it around and the treats come out and it gives them something to do so my mom gave me the best advice and she was like Britney you have to find a way to be happy through this like you can't let this take years of your life being sad down miserable so I am trying my very best like it is my job every single day I'm like I have to find things to be happy about I need to find small Joys every day my kids my kitties um another thing that makes me happy everyday reading as you guys know and I did actually finally start a book club so if you want to read with me I'm going to do a live stream at the end of the month and we will discuss the first book Is bride it's free to join so I will link it down below I'm very excited about my book club um and the book is good so far I'm really liking it and then the other thing is I take my selfcare very seriously so I'm going to do a little self-care right now I try and do three baths a week which I know might sound excessive but it really is so relaxing if you've ever done a facial mask and you're kind of like eh kind of a let down this one when I tell you my skin feels so soft after doing this you guys know how I love the glitter eye mask like how fun are these and they're so hydrating and Plumping and cooling so I've been using these for years now this one is something Shay Shay Whitney I know you guys probably all follow her she's one of my very good friends now she was raving about this it's their glycolic acid exfoliating pads and I had tried using exfoliating pads by LMS these I believe are $60 and they dried me out and I was peely and Flaky so I couldn't use these I saw her talking about these saying that these did not irritate her skin so I was like all right you guys oh my goodness I'm obsessed so I use these as the first step of my morning skincare routine so I don't wash my face in the morning I just now use these and it removes any little traces left over makeup or skinc care from the night before then here's the hack okay so I use one side of my face the other side I turn it over and I use it under my arms and the glycolic acid kills bacteria so it's good to do that before applying your deodorant because it's the bacteria that leads to body odor and the glycolic acid also helps reduce any pigmentation under your arms so to give you nice smooth bright underarms so I love that I can use it for multiple things does not irritate my skin I have very sensitive skin 10 out of 10 and this is not sponsored by the way but I do have a 20% off code I think it works on all of their stuff if there's anything you try you must try these first St in your am skincare and the glycolic acid is really good for just giving the glow and removing any like dirt debris in your pores so grab one of the pads and then I flip it over use the underside under my arms then apply deodorant and now for the face mask but this gives you hydration like no other and because it's so wet it like sticks onto your face really well then I use my electric gacha and I do it on top oh my goodness this is like a facial this is the closest I'm going to get to a facial at home and this my friends is top tier selfcare thanks for hanging out here with me me today for a vlog Style video again I had no video planned I wasn't going to post anything thank you so much for watching thank you for being here with me through this so with all that said I will see you soon with another videohello welcome back to my Channel with another Vlog Style video I had no video planned this week I wasn't going to post because I have been a mess like this has been one of the worst weeks and surprisingly has nothing to do with the fact that it was Valentine's Day on Wednesday uh my first Valentine's Day single in a very long time I was not sad about that it's more so to do with some other things that have transpired recently and I will update you as much as I can like at a high enough level that I don't get in trouble for anything but I do want to update and share cuz I know unfortunately a lot of you out there are going through something similar I have a bunch of random stuff to get done around the house today so I figured we can chat and I can update you right now I'm just styling my hair I did cut it a bit shorter if you follow me on Instagram stories I cut it about 2 more inches and I got more layers so you'll see that when it's fully styled so I had assumed with divorce the hardest part would be you know deal dealing with the situation leading up to the divorce making that really difficult decision then progressively things would get easier better um and in my case that is not what's happening it's actually getting worse because you really don't know who and what you're dealing with until you start to go through the process I'm an emotional and sensitive person as it is and there's only so much one person can take and then I remember what I tell Carter is is whatever you tell yourself is true so I telling myself you are strong enough I am strong enough to get through this and I will get through this okay now I'm going to do a little at home workout I use the tempo trainer machine I got during Co that I haven't used in years but now I'm using it again because it's so convenient so the next update that is really upsetting not ideal is I have an optimistic hoping that we could settle out of court go to mediation figure things out sign it off and then be done and move on with our lives and so that is still scheduled for March 11th however based on recent correspondence um I don't believe that is going to happen and it is very much most likely going to end up in court which is not only incredibly expensive um it's going to take potentially years like one two three years and I trust I want this to be done but I'm also not going to roll over and you know pay him out a lot of money that he wants specifically for my YouTube channel and that's kind of the big issue at play here um he thinks he's entitled to a lot of money from my YouTube channel and I just disagree like he considers my YouTube channel a traditional business and that's not the way my side sees it nor does legal precedent because um even though my YouTube channel does generate income uh it's not transferable there's no value it could not be sold to someone else because it's just me it's all based on my individual Goodwill if I gave this channel to some random person who bought it for me probably very much most likely would not continue to watch but that all has to be proven in court unfortunately next thing doing my nails I have been giving my nails a break for quite a while I'm back to the Press on just because they're so easy and fast and I do the glamnetic still so let's try and chat well I do my nails because this next update this is the one that really has hurt me the most personally emotionally cuz it has to do with my kids so he started dating like on all the apps and stuff immediately like within a week it's never something you want to see where I'm like watching him go on dates and see this all go down that in itself was hard so on Saturday I was out at a friend's birthday party I get an email saying that he will be introducing the kids to his new girlfriend the next day not asking not letting me know who this person is and asking if I want to meet her first so I wrote back like as composed as I can be saying you know I understand you have moved on and you are excited about your new girlfriend but I just really do not think this is appropriate for the sake of the kids I'm a child of divorce and that was one of the hardest things for me and these kids they don't even understand fully what's going on they understand I mean Carter understands a little now um but he's still living in the house like how hard and how confusing for them and just not necessary it's a very new relationship and so I even had done a bunch of research and sent that over showing that experts recommend that you not do that early on you wait until you're in a long established serious relationship um if you do want to introduce a new partner and the next morning he takes them out with the new new girlfriend and not only that this girl decides that it's appropriate to take pictures with my kids and post them publicly on social media and those photos were sent to me so you're meeting my kids without the mother's approval permission without me even knowing who this person is and you think it's appropriate to take pictures and post that publicly and then Carter came back and was like I'm so excited I get to have two mommies now yeah that's like a dagger to my heart like I'm just there's only so much I can take and I'm I've been trying and I've been way way way too nice in this whole process I am beyond like I am so tired of being walked over being a doormat being disrespected you guys have no idea one day I'll share but um I'm done like I will do anything in my power I will spend every last dollar I have now all that's happened is I'm angry and maybe I needed to be this angry to fight to the level that I need to yeah and I'm not trying to victimize myself here or get anyone to feel sorry for me because I will say this like I take full responsibility for everything that has happened because there were red flags early on that I chose to ignore and I have compassion for myself because at the time I was young and I did not fully understand the implication and how bad some of these things were and how it would play out um and I do have my kids so I can't have any regrets I can just really learn from the experience so yeah that that update just happened a couple days ago and that one has hit me pretty deep okay here are the final Nails I cut them short so they look a little weird but I'm into the short nails right now it's just so much easier having shorter Nails Kitty update look how big the girls are you guys they've like doubled in size their colors and their coats are changing and they're just so sweet I'm obsessed with them so I was doing some research on like cat activities and things to do so these are cat puzzles to give them some mental stimulation so you put treats in here and then this is like a ball you put treats in and then they roll it around and the treats come out and it gives them something to do so my mom gave me the best advice and she was like Britney you have to find a way to be happy through this like you can't let this take years of your life being sad down miserable so I am trying my very best like it is my job every single day I'm like I have to find things to be happy about I need to find small Joys every day my kids my kitties um another thing that makes me happy everyday reading as you guys know and I did actually finally start a book club so if you want to read with me I'm going to do a live stream at the end of the month and we will discuss the first book Is bride it's free to join so I will link it down below I'm very excited about my book club um and the book is good so far I'm really liking it and then the other thing is I take my selfcare very seriously so I'm going to do a little self-care right now I try and do three baths a week which I know might sound excessive but it really is so relaxing if you've ever done a facial mask and you're kind of like eh kind of a let down this one when I tell you my skin feels so soft after doing this you guys know how I love the glitter eye mask like how fun are these and they're so hydrating and Plumping and cooling so I've been using these for years now this one is something Shay Shay Whitney I know you guys probably all follow her she's one of my very good friends now she was raving about this it's their glycolic acid exfoliating pads and I had tried using exfoliating pads by LMS these I believe are $60 and they dried me out and I was peely and Flaky so I couldn't use these I saw her talking about these saying that these did not irritate her skin so I was like all right you guys oh my goodness I'm obsessed so I use these as the first step of my morning skincare routine so I don't wash my face in the morning I just now use these and it removes any little traces left over makeup or skinc care from the night before then here's the hack okay so I use one side of my face the other side I turn it over and I use it under my arms and the glycolic acid kills bacteria so it's good to do that before applying your deodorant because it's the bacteria that leads to body odor and the glycolic acid also helps reduce any pigmentation under your arms so to give you nice smooth bright underarms so I love that I can use it for multiple things does not irritate my skin I have very sensitive skin 10 out of 10 and this is not sponsored by the way but I do have a 20% off code I think it works on all of their stuff if there's anything you try you must try these first St in your am skincare and the glycolic acid is really good for just giving the glow and removing any like dirt debris in your pores so grab one of the pads and then I flip it over use the underside under my arms then apply deodorant and now for the face mask but this gives you hydration like no other and because it's so wet it like sticks onto your face really well then I use my electric gacha and I do it on top oh my goodness this is like a facial this is the closest I'm going to get to a facial at home and this my friends is top tier selfcare thanks for hanging out here with me me today for a vlog Style video again I had no video planned I wasn't going to post anything thank you so much for watching thank you for being here with me through this so with all that said I will see you soon with another video\n"