**My Connection to Katara and Avatar Characters**

As I reflect on my personality and traits, I've often been told by friends since childhood that I'm literally just like Katara from the Avatar series. This comparison has stuck with me over the years, and I can see why. I relate to Katara's dedication, compassion, and strong sense of justice. Like her, I'm a natural caregiver and have a strong desire to help others. My friends often tease me about being the "rescuer" type, always trying to fix problems and make things right.

**Relating to Zuko**

However, my connection to Katara is not the only one that resonates with me. I also deeply relate to Zuko, another Avatar character who shares some of my personality traits. Like Zuko, I'm a bit of a perfectionist, which can sometimes be overwhelming and stressful. He's often described as a complex and multifaceted character, driven by a desire for honor and redemption. I, too, have struggled with feeling like I don't quite fit in or meet expectations. Zuko's struggles to balance his own ambitions with his sense of duty to others are something that I can definitely identify with.

**Finding Balance in Personality**

One aspect of Zuko's personality that I particularly resonate with is his tendency to be a bit of a jokester and comedic relief, despite the seriousness of his situation. Like him, I've found that humor is an important way for me to cope with difficult emotions or situations. However, I also appreciate his determination and focus on achieving his goals, even in the face of adversity. These traits are not always easy for me to exhibit, but they're definitely worth striving for.

**Bookshelf Organization and Perfectionism**

Despite my appreciation for Zuko's drive and sense of humor, there's one area where I struggle with his confidence: bookshelf organization. Like many creative types, I have a tendency to be overly perfectionistic when it comes to organizing my belongings. I often find myself getting caught up in the details, trying to make everything "just so" before moving on to other tasks. This can lead to frustration and burnout, as I realize that perfection is not always achievable – or even desirable.

**A New Approach**

To combat my tendency towards perfectionism, I've recently decided to adopt a more relaxed approach to organizing my bookshelves. Rather than trying to create an exact plan from the start, I'm going to leave some things open-ended and see what develops naturally. This might mean putting books on the shelf in a way that's not exactly symmetrical or aesthetically pleasing – but it will allow me to focus on other aspects of my life without getting bogged down in details. It's a process, and I'm excited to see where it takes me.

**Reorganizing My Bookshelves**

As I work on reorganizing my bookshelves, I'm finding that this new approach is helping me to stay focused and present. Rather than getting caught up in the desire for perfection, I'm able to enjoy the process of creating a space that feels like home. The shelves are slowly coming together, and while they're not yet perfect, they have a certain charm and character that I find delightful. It's funny how something as mundane as bookshelves can become a source of stress – but with patience and practice, even these tasks can be enjoyable.

**The Power of Progress**

As I look around my newly reorganized bookshelves, I'm reminded that progress is often the most important thing. Even if things aren't yet perfect, I can see how far I've come – and that's something to celebrate. It's not always easy to let go of perfectionism or accept that "good enough" will have to do at times, but it's worth learning to be kinder to myself and more patient with the process.

**Conclusion**

My journey towards embracing imperfection and finding a more relaxed approach to organizing my bookshelves has been an interesting one. It's not always easy to let go of perfectionism, especially when it comes to creative pursuits – but I'm learning that sometimes "good enough" really is good enough. With each step forward, I feel like I'm becoming a more patient and compassionate version of myself. And for that, I'm truly grateful.

**Final Thoughts**

As I wrap up this article, I want to thank all my viewers who have been following along on this journey with me. It's not always easy to be vulnerable and share our struggles – but I hope that by being open about my own imperfections, I can inspire others to do the same. Remember, perfection is not a fixed state – it's a process, just like creating a beautiful bookshelf.

"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enthis feels weird hello everyone and welcome to my floor so you might be wondering hannah why are you sitting on the floor in front of your bookshelves with a bunch of books on the ground and why is everything a mess and that's a valid question and that's because i really desperately need to reorganize my bookshelves and i've been meaning to do it for a very long time and i just haven't had the time or the motivation or just you know the general will to get out of my bed and actually function in life so i just haven't done it yet but recently i had this huge burst of motivation to just like completely redo my room and while i had to talk myself out of a lot of that because it was going to be way too much work and a lot of money that i did not want to spend for no reason i did decide to redo parts of my room so i like bought some new furniture bought myself a new duvet cover and stuff so my room has been spruced up a bit but my bookshelves are still an absolute disaster and they need a lot of help so this is what we're working on today as you can probably tell i've already started a little bit which is why there are some snacks on the floor here around me but there's a lot more work to be done and a lot of books i'm going to be unhauling because honestly my shelves are too full and i'm running out of space again even though i recently just unhauled a lot of books and truly there are just so many books on my shelves that i don't think i'm going to read anytime soon or ever if i'm being really honest not necessarily because there's anything wrong with them just because there are other books that are more of a priority for me at this point and the other thing is i didn't buy a lot of the books that are on my shelves a lot of them were gifted to me or sent for pr or something like that so yeah there are lots of books on these shelves that i just like don't have any interest in reading at the moment and while i still want my bookshelves to be like full and my library to be like fully stocked i want it to be more stocked with the books that i'm very excited about in books that i've really loved it makes me happy it makes me excited to read and i'm really excited to reorganize them because they've been a mess for like over a year and i haven't enjoyed looking at them for a while because they just stress me out so hopefully by the end of this video they will be nice and organized and pleasing to look at but anyway because i thought that for the majority of this video i would not be doing much talking and it would be kind of boring to watch i went on instagram and i asked you guys to ask me some questions so that i could answer them while i am you know reorganizing my bookshelves aka the most youtuberish thing anybody could do so yeah i'm just gonna answer a few of these questions while i reorganize my shelves and hopefully everything goes smoothly and hopefully it ends up looking nice i also have like absolutely no method um i don't know what i want it to look like i'm not gonna go by color i typically just like separate my books by genre and i think that's what i'm gonna continue to do but i don't know exactly how it's gonna be organized so yeah we'll see we'll just play it by ear and see how it goes but yeah let's just get started i'm gonna have to move the camera now so we're not gonna be on my floor anymore okay so you can't see the floor as much now but i had started kind of small piles of like books i want to donate and books that i'm considering still keeping so they're kind of like my maybes and then like advanced reader copies that i definitely don't want and i need to find a place to donate them or people to give them to or something i think i'm just going to start by taking off all of the books that i know that i don't want and then just like put those in a pile so i think i think we'll start there i think that'll be easiest because then i'll know what i don't want on my shelves and then we can work with what i do want the first question is a question i got like multiple times which is what is my curly hair routine and i've actually considered making an entire video on this because i get asked this question all the time and i recently kind of started to you know develop more of a routine and kind of care about my hair a little bit more and put more effort into it but just generally speaking i use a shampoo and conditioner that is specifically for curly hair and then i use a curl cream and a gel and i always air dry my hair and i sleep on a silk pillowcase which the silk pillowcase thing is actually new i didn't use to do that but it's actually been really really helpful so highly recommend that honestly for anybody i feel like it's better for anyone's hair the next question i also got multiple times is how is my mental health slash how are you doing are you okay i feel like it's actually pretty apparent considering the fact that i've been regularly uploading videos which is rare for me nowadays but i'm actually doing a lot better mental health-wise if you haven't been around for a while and you don't really know much about me and what's been going on um i've been struggling with my mental health very severely for the past like two years it's been very intense i was in treatment for my eating disorder for a really long time and i recently got out and since then have been trying to do my best to get better and like live in recovery and i'm doing a lot better i must say it was really rough for a while there and there are still days that are incredibly rough and just like times that are super difficult for me but the past like couple months or so i've noticed like a significant shift and change in the way that i think and the way that i'm feeling and just my motivation in general i've actually been wanting to make like a whole video about my recovery and like an update on my mental health and my recovery process and everything because i made my video about my eating disorder like almost two years ago at this point and i feel like it would be nice to like do an update i actually have like a whole thing planned so if that's something you guys would like to see definitely let me know but yeah just in general i'm doing a lot better which is super super nice and it feels really refreshing it doesn't mean that there aren't hard days i still struggle a lot all the time with a lot of things but overall i just cannot tell you how much better my quality of life has been since i have been starting to feel better it just feels good to like have hope and joy in things again um which i had lost for a really long time i think these shelves are okay for now gonna keep the majority of those now i gotta move over here and i feel like the majority of these i want to keep anyway because these are like all of my series and the last time i did an unhaul i basically got rid of the majority of the series that i don't like or don't want to read so i think we're actually pretty much good oh i think i am going to get rid of these am i i don't know do i want to get rid of these i don't know i'll keep these in my maybe pile actually i also already went through the majority of my arcs so i've gotten rid of i think all of the ones that i don't want anymore so i think for the most part we're actually pretty much done with all the books that i want to unhaul there are definitely still some more books on my shelves that like i feel really iffy about or i just don't feel enthusiastic about but for now i'm just gonna like keep them on because i never know when i want to read them and i don't want to just like get rid of everything but we'll see we'll see like as i'm going through if i feel like there's still too much of stuff i can always take it off question question question question question question oh okay i appreciate this question it says what is your go-to boba order if you didn't know i love boba i love boba a lot i actually don't really like drinks very much i basically only drink water and nothing else except for boba i could honestly live off of boba that's how much i like it and i feel like my answer is going to be super boring but truly my boba order is a black milk tea 30 sweetened with light ice like that's what i get every single time i've occasionally gotten like different types of tea but i don't really get anything else um i don't like anything that's like fruity i basically just like my classic black milk tea that's my favorite for sure and what i go with every single time but i actually didn't like boba for a really long time and then i went to school in berkeley and that changed everything because there was about a place on every corner and everyone drinks boba all the time so i got super into boba there and now i love it i live off of it oh these stacks are so heavy and then this is the maybe pile so we'll just put this off to the side for now okay so the rest of this is basically just gonna have to be me reorganizing all this now that we've taken everything i don't want off my shelves these other stacks that you see on the floor are books i'm still keeping i just took them off to create space i basically just have to rearrange everything now and again i really should have come up with a plan for this i've had my book series on this side and my standalones on this side for like i don't even know how many years at this point so i kind of want to switch things up so i might like flip-flop things or just mix some of the series more into the standalone side we'll see we'll we'll see do i know what i'm doing absolutely not i have no idea we're just winging it okay i got a lot of bts k-pop related questions so um i feel obligated to answer those i feel like most people who watch my channel don't care but i care because i love kpop so i'm gonna talk about it a question i got a lot was um what was my favorite song from the map of the soul seven album and my favorite song is either zero o'clock or my time honestly every song on that album is just so incredibly good but also uh because i listen to that one a lot too basically the vocal line in red what did i do vocal line or rap line songs usually tend to be my favorite but yeah zero o'clock and uh are probably my two favorite ones on the album but then the other question i got multiple times was if i listen to any other k-pop groups and i do i feel like the last time i answered this question i also said i do but now i like really listen to a lot of other kpop to be honest i listened to more kpop than i listened to anything else at this point but my other favorite boy group is still 17 i love 17. i also do occasionally listen to ats i like some of their songs a lot they're kind of like hit or miss for me musically but um i've only really listened to most of their title tracks but i really love their newest comeback inception is such a good song besides that though i don't really listen to many boy groups i mostly listen to girl groups i love red velvet i love a pink a pink is like probably my favorite girl group i love twice and i really like itsy i didn't think i would like itsy when i first heard some other songs but now i really like them but yeah that's pretty much the majority of the kpop that i listen to i do listen to other groups here and there i mostly just like listen to songs but the only groups i listen to like okay that was that attacked me but yeah the only like groups i listen to consistently are uh bts obviously and um 17 and like red velvet and a pink like they're the ones that i like will anticipate their music and like wait for the music video and stuff if you were an ice cream flavor which flavor would best represent your personality i actually really don't like ice cream very much of all dessert that's probably my least favorite except for like fruit tarts and stuff i don't like fruit in my desserts but there are some flavors that i do really like i like the peanut butter like cookie one that ben and jerry's has the vegan one is really good i also really love mint chocolate chip ice cream i feel like mint chocolate chip ice cream would be a good representation of my personality because like it doesn't have too much stuff mixed in there so it's like a little bit plain but like not completely boring it's not everyone's taste either you love it or you hate it i feel like that's kind of how i feel about my own personality a vegetarian food recommendation maybe even a persian one so if you didn't know i'm persian and i am a vegetarian well technically i'm a pescetarian but i eat vegetarian most of the time and actually my mom's sister and i are all vegetarian so we basically only eat vegetarian food in my house and my mom makes a lot of persian food but makes a vegetarian so i do have a few recommendations for you a few persian foods that i really love are florma sabzi which is basically like this stew with a bunch of vegetables in it and herbs and stuff honestly i don't really know what's in it it's just like very green usually you'd make it with meat in it but we don't put meat in it obviously we just eat it with beans and that gives you plenty of protein yeah you could make that without the meat in it they is another one of my favorite persian foods my mom made that for me recently and it's really good again you don't have to make it with the meat basically a lot of persian foods can be made vegetarian like really easily just like don't put the meat in them it's actually pretty easy to adjust a lot of those recipes to just make them vegetarian so yeah i would recommend trying those too there are plenty of recipes for them online i am just used to my mom's cooking so if you can get like traditional persian food obviously that's better but i'm sure you can easily make it yourself too all right so we have reached the i end up on the floor portion of my reorganization process because i am losing all motivation and inspiration i honestly like have no idea what to do with my shelves right now they're just such a mess the floor is such a mess you can't even see all of it this always happens to me it always takes me like 20 hours literally i'm not even being hyperbolic to actually rearrange my bookshelves but this time i was trying to get myself to do it in a less perfectionistic way which is why i decided to record it because i thought it would put pressure on me to like do it more quickly and it's kind of working but at the same time i'm still super overwhelmed anyway we're gonna take a quick answering questions break um and then i'm gonna go back to reorganizing some more oh what's the best tip that you have for journaling if i still do i do still journal i don't journal as often as i used to but i still journal but my biggest journaling tip would probably be just to not be too much of a perfectionist this is a problem that i very much have with almost everything that i do probably actually literally everything that i do but i think the thing that helped me with my journaling a lot and helped me like do it more consistently and feel like better about all of the journal spreads that i was doing was when i stopped trying to be so perfect about everything and just let myself have my own style and let myself like make ugly spreads because sometimes like you just will make an ugly spread and that's okay and then other times you're gonna make a really really nice spread that you'll really love so it just kind of depends i think just like letting yourself go through the process of like creating things that aren't perfect creating things that aren't beautiful is an important part of the creative process in general no matter what you're doing but i think it's also really beneficial to focus on that as well when you're journaling and i think that's definitely been the most helpful thing for me what's been the hardest part of quarantine for you i mean not being able to eat at restaurants is rough and i know you can technically still eat at restaurants but like i'm not about to go to a restaurant and risk other people's health as well as my own because it's not worth it sometimes we do order takeout but not very often because still we're trying to be safe but also support our local businesses it's difficult out here and it's also really hard to not see my friends especially since i've been feeling a lot better lately i've been like wanting to visit my friends or have them come down and visit and that's definitely the most difficult thing for me because i just miss them a lot and it's really hard to just not be able to spend time with the people i want to spend time with and it just makes me really sad uh we still have like zoom calls and stuff and it's fun we can hang out and play games and stuff but it's not the same as like seeing each other in person and we had so many plans to do so many different things and then all of that was just thrown out the window so yeah that's definitely been a bit rough but honestly like i'm adjusting i stay indoors most of the time anyway honestly so like it's not that different from my usual life and most of my friends don't even live around me anyway so we would have to like go for a pretty long drive in order to see each other so yeah it's it's difficult but you know it is what it is would you prefer to go on a trip on inej's ship or be able to meet daisy jones um i'm terrified of ships and boats so i don't want to go on one so my answer has to be meet daisy jones if it was meet daisy jones or me inej i'd probably want to meet anez but i don't want to go on her ship so i'm gonna have to say meet daisy jones okay answered a few questions i think i'm gonna get back to sorting through these again um because i just want to do it as quickly as possible and i feel like i've gotten at least a little bit of rest and i have a slightly better idea of what i want to do now so let's rearrange some things again also because i'm an indecisive i decided to just put my night circus shelf back exactly where it was exactly the way it was that's gonna be the case for probably a lot of this because i always end up doing this but yeah so that's the same this is the same but a lot of other stuff has changed a bit so it's it's still it's still coming together okay i like this question what was your journey with loving your nose loving non-eurocentric features is hard okay so not that long ago i posted a photo of myself on twitter and instagram that was mostly of my nose that said something along the lines of like western beauty standards your big nose is beautiful because for the longest time i have deeply deeply struggled with trying to like my nose i wanted a nose job for like years and years and years because i thought it was the worst nose on earth i thought it was like crooked and messed up and it had all these problems and i just like hated my nose so i hated my face because i thought it just like looked bad and i went to school in a very very white area so the majority of the people around me were all white and it was very difficult growing up when you're going through puberty and you're just like one of the few ethnic kids in school who doesn't have that like cute little white nose that all the white girls had and i wanted to look like them and i didn't look like them so it really really made me hate myself and it took me years like genuinely years and honestly a lot of therapy not specifically about this specific insecurity that i had but just a reframing of the way that i looked at beauty and i looked at myself and how i defined my own beauty and what that actually meant to me because i think i was putting so much weight on trying to look like someone that i'm not and putting just so much weight on trying to look a certain way that when i stopped focusing so much on what i actually look like and i just kind of adopted the like body neutrality mentality which obviously there is body positivity but for me it was more like a body neutrality like looking at my body and looking at my insecurities about my physical being as things that just exist things i have to accept but things i don't necessarily have to be pleased with i think my just thought process and my way of thinking started to change a bit after that i'm dropping books because when i wasn't focusing so much on trying to look a certain way or make myself look different or just focusing on the way that i look i think i slowly started to just accept and eventually i'm kind of at the point where i'm starting to like first it was just acceptance and dislike then it was just like acceptance and neutrality and now i'm getting to a place where it's acceptance and like obviously it shifts a lot of the time there are many many many days of the week of every hour honestly where i hate the way i look still that's not gone i don't think it'll ever be fully gone but i've gotten to a place where it's just a lot easier for me now to actually like these things because i'm not so focused on them anymore i don't know how much sense that makes but i feel like when you stop paying so much attention obsessing over them the way that i had been for sure i find it a lot easier to start just being okay with them and eventually even without realizing it start actually being happy with them and now i look at my nose and i love my nose i feel like it suits my face i would not change it at all unless like it broke or something and i feel like it just makes me look like me um and i wouldn't want to look a different way and i know i'm saying all this and you could be thinking like yeah sure it's just that easy you just feel that way now but like i don't feel that way and i'm never gonna feel that way i was right there with you i literally like you could have asked me honestly like six seven months ago if i would ever be confident in any part of my physical being and i would have told you no i'll never be happy with the way that i look like i'll never be okay with it at all and so honestly i can't even believe i'm at this point but i am so if you want to use me as any sort of proof it does work and you can get to this place eventually that doesn't mean you won't waver that doesn't mean it's not hard that doesn't mean that it's not going to be a really really really tough experience and journey but it is possible and if i hadn't done it for myself i would not have been able to believe it next question thoughts on netflix live action avatar and break leaving so if you don't know avatar the last airbender is being adapted into a live action tv series by netflix and brick aka brian and mike the two original creators of avatar the last airbender were originally signed on as i believe executive producers of the show or producers of the show i don't remember but they were heavily involved in making this live-action adaptation happen but recently they put out a statement saying that they have both decided to leave the production of the show and they're not involved with it anymore because of differences they both like put out very similar statements detailing why they were leaving and stuff and all my hope for the entire live-action series just completely left after that happened i trust absolutely no one on this earth to touch avatar the last airbender apart from breik they are the only two who know what this series is who understand what its heart is who understand what it has meant to people and they created it in the first place so clearly they have an understanding of its message and i do not trust netflix to one cast this show properly they're literally just gonna fill it with white people and nobody in that show is white so none of us want it and two they're just gonna make it weird and like dark and gritty which is what i've read and probably adding romance and stuff that's unnecessary and i'm just not here for it i was genuinely actually very excited for the live action because i knew that breck was working on it but now that they're not i don't care the original series exists and it is perfection and we really don't need anything else honestly it's going to be hard to make anything worse than the adaptation that we already got of that show but i believe that netflix has the capability of making this even worse than that even though that seems impossible so yeah i'm not gonna watch it i have no interest in watching it no i don't want it nobody wants it none of us asked for this this is not what anybody wanted another avatar related question which avatar character do you relate to the most for me it's probably katara which is what everyone tells me like all of my friends have always said ever since we were kids they're like you're literally just katara because i am in a lot of ways so yeah katara is definitely one i absolutely relate to her a lot um but i also deeply relate to zuko which is one of the reasons why he's my favorite character i feel like with every rewatch i relate to saka more and more too i think it's just the way that he's like fed up with everybody else like just not doing what they need to be doing and goofing off that's like very much my personality i don't like goofing off i very much like to like stick to the plan and i know that he's obviously like comedic relief as well so he's very funny it's not like he's always serious but he always like has a plan and he's trying to stick to the plan and everyone else is like being a kid around him even though he's also a kid he's just way more mature than the rest of them and i deeply relate to that because i was always like the mature one in my friend group when we were like kids and stuff so i very much relate to that aspect of his personality a lot progress is being made i'm just like finally starting to see a little bit of a difference even though there's still so much to do oh what is your favorite article of clothing one sec let me go get it this dress this is my favorite article of clothing that i own i've worn it a million times and i feel like myself in it and i feel the best when i'm wearing it i also really like this dress that i'm wearing right now that i recently bought from my sister i have no idea where it's from but i really like it it's very comfortable and i feel like it's very me oh okay i'm not even near done i know i literally just talked about perfectionism earlier and how you shouldn't be so perfectionistic when you're doing creative things because it's a lot easier that way and it's really beneficial for you but i'm really being a perfectionist with these and it's really really stressing me out i know they're literally just bookshelves and i can redo them any day i want to but for some reason every time i try and do this i feel like it has to look absolutely perfect when it's finished the first time around and i know that's not true but it's really hard to just like let that actually register in my mind anyway to combat that i think i'm just going to put the rest of the books that are just on the ground and like just scattered on the shelves right now just on my bookshelves and just have them sit there and we'll see what it ends up looking like and then just like go from there and fix it if i need to but if i'm too tired we're just going to leave it because it doesn't have to be perfect it can be different from what i'm envisioning in my brain and that's okay it's okay it doesn't have to be perfect i wish that those words actually stuck with me okay so i think it's actually finally done it's not completely done at all not by any means i have a lot of reorganizing still to do on this side for sure and as you can see that shelf is completely empty i haven't decided what i want to put in there yet because i do want to display something but that's going to take like a lot out of me for the most part i'm really just needed to like unhaul some books and create enough space on my shelves to get the new books that i want and also just have my shelves be a bit more organized because they've been a disaster for like a whole year but anyway i hope you all enjoyed watching this video i hope this was somewhat fun for you i hope you enjoyed me answering a few of your questions while watching me reorganize all of this and also slowly have a meltdown like i said reorganizing my bookshelves always takes like the life out of me i always love the end product but it just takes so much work and so much creativity that i don't always have but i'm already feeling so much better about them and i know that there's still a long way to go but still so far they're looking pretty good but that is it for this video if you'd like to follow me on any of my social media all my links are in the description box as always thank you all so much for watching this video i hope you enjoyed and i will see you in my next video bye and before anyone asks me yes i will be doing a bookshelf tour when i'm completely done youthis feels weird hello everyone and welcome to my floor so you might be wondering hannah why are you sitting on the floor in front of your bookshelves with a bunch of books on the ground and why is everything a mess and that's a valid question and that's because i really desperately need to reorganize my bookshelves and i've been meaning to do it for a very long time and i just haven't had the time or the motivation or just you know the general will to get out of my bed and actually function in life so i just haven't done it yet but recently i had this huge burst of motivation to just like completely redo my room and while i had to talk myself out of a lot of that because it was going to be way too much work and a lot of money that i did not want to spend for no reason i did decide to redo parts of my room so i like bought some new furniture bought myself a new duvet cover and stuff so my room has been spruced up a bit but my bookshelves are still an absolute disaster and they need a lot of help so this is what we're working on today as you can probably tell i've already started a little bit which is why there are some snacks on the floor here around me but there's a lot more work to be done and a lot of books i'm going to be unhauling because honestly my shelves are too full and i'm running out of space again even though i recently just unhauled a lot of books and truly there are just so many books on my shelves that i don't think i'm going to read anytime soon or ever if i'm being really honest not necessarily because there's anything wrong with them just because there are other books that are more of a priority for me at this point and the other thing is i didn't buy a lot of the books that are on my shelves a lot of them were gifted to me or sent for pr or something like that so yeah there are lots of books on these shelves that i just like don't have any interest in reading at the moment and while i still want my bookshelves to be like full and my library to be like fully stocked i want it to be more stocked with the books that i'm very excited about in books that i've really loved it makes me happy it makes me excited to read and i'm really excited to reorganize them because they've been a mess for like over a year and i haven't enjoyed looking at them for a while because they just stress me out so hopefully by the end of this video they will be nice and organized and pleasing to look at but anyway because i thought that for the majority of this video i would not be doing much talking and it would be kind of boring to watch i went on instagram and i asked you guys to ask me some questions so that i could answer them while i am you know reorganizing my bookshelves aka the most youtuberish thing anybody could do so yeah i'm just gonna answer a few of these questions while i reorganize my shelves and hopefully everything goes smoothly and hopefully it ends up looking nice i also have like absolutely no method um i don't know what i want it to look like i'm not gonna go by color i typically just like separate my books by genre and i think that's what i'm gonna continue to do but i don't know exactly how it's gonna be organized so yeah we'll see we'll just play it by ear and see how it goes but yeah let's just get started i'm gonna have to move the camera now so we're not gonna be on my floor anymore okay so you can't see the floor as much now but i had started kind of small piles of like books i want to donate and books that i'm considering still keeping so they're kind of like my maybes and then like advanced reader copies that i definitely don't want and i need to find a place to donate them or people to give them to or something i think i'm just going to start by taking off all of the books that i know that i don't want and then just like put those in a pile so i think i think we'll start there i think that'll be easiest because then i'll know what i don't want on my shelves and then we can work with what i do want the first question is a question i got like multiple times which is what is my curly hair routine and i've actually considered making an entire video on this because i get asked this question all the time and i recently kind of started to you know develop more of a routine and kind of care about my hair a little bit more and put more effort into it but just generally speaking i use a shampoo and conditioner that is specifically for curly hair and then i use a curl cream and a gel and i always air dry my hair and i sleep on a silk pillowcase which the silk pillowcase thing is actually new i didn't use to do that but it's actually been really really helpful so highly recommend that honestly for anybody i feel like it's better for anyone's hair the next question i also got multiple times is how is my mental health slash how are you doing are you okay i feel like it's actually pretty apparent considering the fact that i've been regularly uploading videos which is rare for me nowadays but i'm actually doing a lot better mental health-wise if you haven't been around for a while and you don't really know much about me and what's been going on um i've been struggling with my mental health very severely for the past like two years it's been very intense i was in treatment for my eating disorder for a really long time and i recently got out and since then have been trying to do my best to get better and like live in recovery and i'm doing a lot better i must say it was really rough for a while there and there are still days that are incredibly rough and just like times that are super difficult for me but the past like couple months or so i've noticed like a significant shift and change in the way that i think and the way that i'm feeling and just my motivation in general i've actually been wanting to make like a whole video about my recovery and like an update on my mental health and my recovery process and everything because i made my video about my eating disorder like almost two years ago at this point and i feel like it would be nice to like do an update i actually have like a whole thing planned so if that's something you guys would like to see definitely let me know but yeah just in general i'm doing a lot better which is super super nice and it feels really refreshing it doesn't mean that there aren't hard days i still struggle a lot all the time with a lot of things but overall i just cannot tell you how much better my quality of life has been since i have been starting to feel better it just feels good to like have hope and joy in things again um which i had lost for a really long time i think these shelves are okay for now gonna keep the majority of those now i gotta move over here and i feel like the majority of these i want to keep anyway because these are like all of my series and the last time i did an unhaul i basically got rid of the majority of the series that i don't like or don't want to read so i think we're actually pretty much good oh i think i am going to get rid of these am i i don't know do i want to get rid of these i don't know i'll keep these in my maybe pile actually i also already went through the majority of my arcs so i've gotten rid of i think all of the ones that i don't want anymore so i think for the most part we're actually pretty much done with all the books that i want to unhaul there are definitely still some more books on my shelves that like i feel really iffy about or i just don't feel enthusiastic about but for now i'm just gonna like keep them on because i never know when i want to read them and i don't want to just like get rid of everything but we'll see we'll see like as i'm going through if i feel like there's still too much of stuff i can always take it off question question question question question question oh okay i appreciate this question it says what is your go-to boba order if you didn't know i love boba i love boba a lot i actually don't really like drinks very much i basically only drink water and nothing else except for boba i could honestly live off of boba that's how much i like it and i feel like my answer is going to be super boring but truly my boba order is a black milk tea 30 sweetened with light ice like that's what i get every single time i've occasionally gotten like different types of tea but i don't really get anything else um i don't like anything that's like fruity i basically just like my classic black milk tea that's my favorite for sure and what i go with every single time but i actually didn't like boba for a really long time and then i went to school in berkeley and that changed everything because there was about a place on every corner and everyone drinks boba all the time so i got super into boba there and now i love it i live off of it oh these stacks are so heavy and then this is the maybe pile so we'll just put this off to the side for now okay so the rest of this is basically just gonna have to be me reorganizing all this now that we've taken everything i don't want off my shelves these other stacks that you see on the floor are books i'm still keeping i just took them off to create space i basically just have to rearrange everything now and again i really should have come up with a plan for this i've had my book series on this side and my standalones on this side for like i don't even know how many years at this point so i kind of want to switch things up so i might like flip-flop things or just mix some of the series more into the standalone side we'll see we'll we'll see do i know what i'm doing absolutely not i have no idea we're just winging it okay i got a lot of bts k-pop related questions so um i feel obligated to answer those i feel like most people who watch my channel don't care but i care because i love kpop so i'm gonna talk about it a question i got a lot was um what was my favorite song from the map of the soul seven album and my favorite song is either zero o'clock or my time honestly every song on that album is just so incredibly good but also uh because i listen to that one a lot too basically the vocal line in red what did i do vocal line or rap line songs usually tend to be my favorite but yeah zero o'clock and uh are probably my two favorite ones on the album but then the other question i got multiple times was if i listen to any other k-pop groups and i do i feel like the last time i answered this question i also said i do but now i like really listen to a lot of other kpop to be honest i listened to more kpop than i listened to anything else at this point but my other favorite boy group is still 17 i love 17. i also do occasionally listen to ats i like some of their songs a lot they're kind of like hit or miss for me musically but um i've only really listened to most of their title tracks but i really love their newest comeback inception is such a good song besides that though i don't really listen to many boy groups i mostly listen to girl groups i love red velvet i love a pink a pink is like probably my favorite girl group i love twice and i really like itsy i didn't think i would like itsy when i first heard some other songs but now i really like them but yeah that's pretty much the majority of the kpop that i listen to i do listen to other groups here and there i mostly just like listen to songs but the only groups i listen to like okay that was that attacked me but yeah the only like groups i listen to consistently are uh bts obviously and um 17 and like red velvet and a pink like they're the ones that i like will anticipate their music and like wait for the music video and stuff if you were an ice cream flavor which flavor would best represent your personality i actually really don't like ice cream very much of all dessert that's probably my least favorite except for like fruit tarts and stuff i don't like fruit in my desserts but there are some flavors that i do really like i like the peanut butter like cookie one that ben and jerry's has the vegan one is really good i also really love mint chocolate chip ice cream i feel like mint chocolate chip ice cream would be a good representation of my personality because like it doesn't have too much stuff mixed in there so it's like a little bit plain but like not completely boring it's not everyone's taste either you love it or you hate it i feel like that's kind of how i feel about my own personality a vegetarian food recommendation maybe even a persian one so if you didn't know i'm persian and i am a vegetarian well technically i'm a pescetarian but i eat vegetarian most of the time and actually my mom's sister and i are all vegetarian so we basically only eat vegetarian food in my house and my mom makes a lot of persian food but makes a vegetarian so i do have a few recommendations for you a few persian foods that i really love are florma sabzi which is basically like this stew with a bunch of vegetables in it and herbs and stuff honestly i don't really know what's in it it's just like very green usually you'd make it with meat in it but we don't put meat in it obviously we just eat it with beans and that gives you plenty of protein yeah you could make that without the meat in it they is another one of my favorite persian foods my mom made that for me recently and it's really good again you don't have to make it with the meat basically a lot of persian foods can be made vegetarian like really easily just like don't put the meat in them it's actually pretty easy to adjust a lot of those recipes to just make them vegetarian so yeah i would recommend trying those too there are plenty of recipes for them online i am just used to my mom's cooking so if you can get like traditional persian food obviously that's better but i'm sure you can easily make it yourself too all right so we have reached the i end up on the floor portion of my reorganization process because i am losing all motivation and inspiration i honestly like have no idea what to do with my shelves right now they're just such a mess the floor is such a mess you can't even see all of it this always happens to me it always takes me like 20 hours literally i'm not even being hyperbolic to actually rearrange my bookshelves but this time i was trying to get myself to do it in a less perfectionistic way which is why i decided to record it because i thought it would put pressure on me to like do it more quickly and it's kind of working but at the same time i'm still super overwhelmed anyway we're gonna take a quick answering questions break um and then i'm gonna go back to reorganizing some more oh what's the best tip that you have for journaling if i still do i do still journal i don't journal as often as i used to but i still journal but my biggest journaling tip would probably be just to not be too much of a perfectionist this is a problem that i very much have with almost everything that i do probably actually literally everything that i do but i think the thing that helped me with my journaling a lot and helped me like do it more consistently and feel like better about all of the journal spreads that i was doing was when i stopped trying to be so perfect about everything and just let myself have my own style and let myself like make ugly spreads because sometimes like you just will make an ugly spread and that's okay and then other times you're gonna make a really really nice spread that you'll really love so it just kind of depends i think just like letting yourself go through the process of like creating things that aren't perfect creating things that aren't beautiful is an important part of the creative process in general no matter what you're doing but i think it's also really beneficial to focus on that as well when you're journaling and i think that's definitely been the most helpful thing for me what's been the hardest part of quarantine for you i mean not being able to eat at restaurants is rough and i know you can technically still eat at restaurants but like i'm not about to go to a restaurant and risk other people's health as well as my own because it's not worth it sometimes we do order takeout but not very often because still we're trying to be safe but also support our local businesses it's difficult out here and it's also really hard to not see my friends especially since i've been feeling a lot better lately i've been like wanting to visit my friends or have them come down and visit and that's definitely the most difficult thing for me because i just miss them a lot and it's really hard to just not be able to spend time with the people i want to spend time with and it just makes me really sad uh we still have like zoom calls and stuff and it's fun we can hang out and play games and stuff but it's not the same as like seeing each other in person and we had so many plans to do so many different things and then all of that was just thrown out the window so yeah that's definitely been a bit rough but honestly like i'm adjusting i stay indoors most of the time anyway honestly so like it's not that different from my usual life and most of my friends don't even live around me anyway so we would have to like go for a pretty long drive in order to see each other so yeah it's it's difficult but you know it is what it is would you prefer to go on a trip on inej's ship or be able to meet daisy jones um i'm terrified of ships and boats so i don't want to go on one so my answer has to be meet daisy jones if it was meet daisy jones or me inej i'd probably want to meet anez but i don't want to go on her ship so i'm gonna have to say meet daisy jones okay answered a few questions i think i'm gonna get back to sorting through these again um because i just want to do it as quickly as possible and i feel like i've gotten at least a little bit of rest and i have a slightly better idea of what i want to do now so let's rearrange some things again also because i'm an indecisive i decided to just put my night circus shelf back exactly where it was exactly the way it was that's gonna be the case for probably a lot of this because i always end up doing this but yeah so that's the same this is the same but a lot of other stuff has changed a bit so it's it's still it's still coming together okay i like this question what was your journey with loving your nose loving non-eurocentric features is hard okay so not that long ago i posted a photo of myself on twitter and instagram that was mostly of my nose that said something along the lines of like western beauty standards your big nose is beautiful because for the longest time i have deeply deeply struggled with trying to like my nose i wanted a nose job for like years and years and years because i thought it was the worst nose on earth i thought it was like crooked and messed up and it had all these problems and i just like hated my nose so i hated my face because i thought it just like looked bad and i went to school in a very very white area so the majority of the people around me were all white and it was very difficult growing up when you're going through puberty and you're just like one of the few ethnic kids in school who doesn't have that like cute little white nose that all the white girls had and i wanted to look like them and i didn't look like them so it really really made me hate myself and it took me years like genuinely years and honestly a lot of therapy not specifically about this specific insecurity that i had but just a reframing of the way that i looked at beauty and i looked at myself and how i defined my own beauty and what that actually meant to me because i think i was putting so much weight on trying to look like someone that i'm not and putting just so much weight on trying to look a certain way that when i stopped focusing so much on what i actually look like and i just kind of adopted the like body neutrality mentality which obviously there is body positivity but for me it was more like a body neutrality like looking at my body and looking at my insecurities about my physical being as things that just exist things i have to accept but things i don't necessarily have to be pleased with i think my just thought process and my way of thinking started to change a bit after that i'm dropping books because when i wasn't focusing so much on trying to look a certain way or make myself look different or just focusing on the way that i look i think i slowly started to just accept and eventually i'm kind of at the point where i'm starting to like first it was just acceptance and dislike then it was just like acceptance and neutrality and now i'm getting to a place where it's acceptance and like obviously it shifts a lot of the time there are many many many days of the week of every hour honestly where i hate the way i look still that's not gone i don't think it'll ever be fully gone but i've gotten to a place where it's just a lot easier for me now to actually like these things because i'm not so focused on them anymore i don't know how much sense that makes but i feel like when you stop paying so much attention obsessing over them the way that i had been for sure i find it a lot easier to start just being okay with them and eventually even without realizing it start actually being happy with them and now i look at my nose and i love my nose i feel like it suits my face i would not change it at all unless like it broke or something and i feel like it just makes me look like me um and i wouldn't want to look a different way and i know i'm saying all this and you could be thinking like yeah sure it's just that easy you just feel that way now but like i don't feel that way and i'm never gonna feel that way i was right there with you i literally like you could have asked me honestly like six seven months ago if i would ever be confident in any part of my physical being and i would have told you no i'll never be happy with the way that i look like i'll never be okay with it at all and so honestly i can't even believe i'm at this point but i am so if you want to use me as any sort of proof it does work and you can get to this place eventually that doesn't mean you won't waver that doesn't mean it's not hard that doesn't mean that it's not going to be a really really really tough experience and journey but it is possible and if i hadn't done it for myself i would not have been able to believe it next question thoughts on netflix live action avatar and break leaving so if you don't know avatar the last airbender is being adapted into a live action tv series by netflix and brick aka brian and mike the two original creators of avatar the last airbender were originally signed on as i believe executive producers of the show or producers of the show i don't remember but they were heavily involved in making this live-action adaptation happen but recently they put out a statement saying that they have both decided to leave the production of the show and they're not involved with it anymore because of differences they both like put out very similar statements detailing why they were leaving and stuff and all my hope for the entire live-action series just completely left after that happened i trust absolutely no one on this earth to touch avatar the last airbender apart from breik they are the only two who know what this series is who understand what its heart is who understand what it has meant to people and they created it in the first place so clearly they have an understanding of its message and i do not trust netflix to one cast this show properly they're literally just gonna fill it with white people and nobody in that show is white so none of us want it and two they're just gonna make it weird and like dark and gritty which is what i've read and probably adding romance and stuff that's unnecessary and i'm just not here for it i was genuinely actually very excited for the live action because i knew that breck was working on it but now that they're not i don't care the original series exists and it is perfection and we really don't need anything else honestly it's going to be hard to make anything worse than the adaptation that we already got of that show but i believe that netflix has the capability of making this even worse than that even though that seems impossible so yeah i'm not gonna watch it i have no interest in watching it no i don't want it nobody wants it none of us asked for this this is not what anybody wanted another avatar related question which avatar character do you relate to the most for me it's probably katara which is what everyone tells me like all of my friends have always said ever since we were kids they're like you're literally just katara because i am in a lot of ways so yeah katara is definitely one i absolutely relate to her a lot um but i also deeply relate to zuko which is one of the reasons why he's my favorite character i feel like with every rewatch i relate to saka more and more too i think it's just the way that he's like fed up with everybody else like just not doing what they need to be doing and goofing off that's like very much my personality i don't like goofing off i very much like to like stick to the plan and i know that he's obviously like comedic relief as well so he's very funny it's not like he's always serious but he always like has a plan and he's trying to stick to the plan and everyone else is like being a kid around him even though he's also a kid he's just way more mature than the rest of them and i deeply relate to that because i was always like the mature one in my friend group when we were like kids and stuff so i very much relate to that aspect of his personality a lot progress is being made i'm just like finally starting to see a little bit of a difference even though there's still so much to do oh what is your favorite article of clothing one sec let me go get it this dress this is my favorite article of clothing that i own i've worn it a million times and i feel like myself in it and i feel the best when i'm wearing it i also really like this dress that i'm wearing right now that i recently bought from my sister i have no idea where it's from but i really like it it's very comfortable and i feel like it's very me oh okay i'm not even near done i know i literally just talked about perfectionism earlier and how you shouldn't be so perfectionistic when you're doing creative things because it's a lot easier that way and it's really beneficial for you but i'm really being a perfectionist with these and it's really really stressing me out i know they're literally just bookshelves and i can redo them any day i want to but for some reason every time i try and do this i feel like it has to look absolutely perfect when it's finished the first time around and i know that's not true but it's really hard to just like let that actually register in my mind anyway to combat that i think i'm just going to put the rest of the books that are just on the ground and like just scattered on the shelves right now just on my bookshelves and just have them sit there and we'll see what it ends up looking like and then just like go from there and fix it if i need to but if i'm too tired we're just going to leave it because it doesn't have to be perfect it can be different from what i'm envisioning in my brain and that's okay it's okay it doesn't have to be perfect i wish that those words actually stuck with me okay so i think it's actually finally done it's not completely done at all not by any means i have a lot of reorganizing still to do on this side for sure and as you can see that shelf is completely empty i haven't decided what i want to put in there yet because i do want to display something but that's going to take like a lot out of me for the most part i'm really just needed to like unhaul some books and create enough space on my shelves to get the new books that i want and also just have my shelves be a bit more organized because they've been a disaster for like a whole year but anyway i hope you all enjoyed watching this video i hope this was somewhat fun for you i hope you enjoyed me answering a few of your questions while watching me reorganize all of this and also slowly have a meltdown like i said reorganizing my bookshelves always takes like the life out of me i always love the end product but it just takes so much work and so much creativity that i don't always have but i'm already feeling so much better about them and i know that there's still a long way to go but still so far they're looking pretty good but that is it for this video if you'd like to follow me on any of my social media all my links are in the description box as always thank you all so much for watching this video i hope you enjoyed and i will see you in my next video bye and before anyone asks me yes i will be doing a bookshelf tour when i'm completely done youthis feels weird hello everyone and welcome to my floor so you might be wondering hannah why are you sitting on the floor in front of your bookshelves with a bunch of books on the ground and why is everything a mess and that's a valid question and that's because i really desperately need to reorganize my bookshelves and i've been meaning to do it for a very long time and i just haven't had the time or the motivation or just you know the general will to get out of my bed and actually function in life so i just haven't done it yet but recently i had this huge burst of motivation to just like completely redo my room and while i had to talk myself out of a lot of that because it was going to be way too much work and a lot of money that i did not want to spend for no reason i did decide to redo parts of my room so i like bought some new furniture bought myself a new duvet cover and stuff so my room has been spruced up a bit but my bookshelves are still an absolute disaster and they need a lot of help so this is what we're working on today as you can probably tell i've already started a little bit which is why there are some snacks on the floor here around me but there's a lot more work to be done and a lot of books i'm going to be unhauling because honestly my shelves are too full and i'm running out of space again even though i recently just unhauled a lot of books and truly there are just so many books on my shelves that i don't think i'm going to read anytime soon or ever if i'm being really honest not necessarily because there's anything wrong with them just because there are other books that are more of a priority for me at this point and the other thing is i didn't buy a lot of the books that are on my shelves a lot of them were gifted to me or sent for pr or something like that so yeah there are lots of books on these shelves that i just like don't have any interest in reading at the moment and while i still want my bookshelves to be like full and my library to be like fully stocked i want it to be more stocked with the books that i'm very excited about in books that i've really loved it makes me happy it makes me excited to read and i'm really excited to reorganize them because they've been a mess for like over a year and i haven't enjoyed looking at them for a while because they just stress me out so hopefully by the end of this video they will be nice and organized and pleasing to look at but anyway because i thought that for the majority of this video i would not be doing much talking and it would be kind of boring to watch i went on instagram and i asked you guys to ask me some questions so that i could answer them while i am you know reorganizing my bookshelves aka the most youtuberish thing anybody could do so yeah i'm just gonna answer a few of these questions while i reorganize my shelves and hopefully everything goes smoothly and hopefully it ends up looking nice i also have like absolutely no method um i don't know what i want it to look like i'm not gonna go by color i typically just like separate my books by genre and i think that's what i'm gonna continue to do but i don't know exactly how it's gonna be organized so yeah we'll see we'll just play it by ear and see how it goes but yeah let's just get started i'm gonna have to move the camera now so we're not gonna be on my floor anymore okay so you can't see the floor as much now but i had started kind of small piles of like books i want to donate and books that i'm considering still keeping so they're kind of like my maybes and then like advanced reader copies that i definitely don't want and i need to find a place to donate them or people to give them to or something i think i'm just going to start by taking off all of the books that i know that i don't want and then just like put those in a pile so i think i think we'll start there i think that'll be easiest because then i'll know what i don't want on my shelves and then we can work with what i do want the first question is a question i got like multiple times which is what is my curly hair routine and i've actually considered making an entire video on this because i get asked this question all the time and i recently kind of started to you know develop more of a routine and kind of care about my hair a little bit more and put more effort into it but just generally speaking i use a shampoo and conditioner that is specifically for curly hair and then i use a curl cream and a gel and i always air dry my hair and i sleep on a silk pillowcase which the silk pillowcase thing is actually new i didn't use to do that but it's actually been really really helpful so highly recommend that honestly for anybody i feel like it's better for anyone's hair the next question i also got multiple times is how is my mental health slash how are you doing are you okay i feel like it's actually pretty apparent considering the fact that i've been regularly uploading videos which is rare for me nowadays but i'm actually doing a lot better mental health-wise if you haven't been around for a while and you don't really know much about me and what's been going on um i've been struggling with my mental health very severely for the past like two years it's been very intense i was in treatment for my eating disorder for a really long time and i recently got out and since then have been trying to do my best to get better and like live in recovery and i'm doing a lot better i must say it was really rough for a while there and there are still days that are incredibly rough and just like times that are super difficult for me but the past like couple months or so i've noticed like a significant shift and change in the way that i think and the way that i'm feeling and just my motivation in general i've actually been wanting to make like a whole video about my recovery and like an update on my mental health and my recovery process and everything because i made my video about my eating disorder like almost two years ago at this point and i feel like it would be nice to like do an update i actually have like a whole thing planned so if that's something you guys would like to see definitely let me know but yeah just in general i'm doing a lot better which is super super nice and it feels really refreshing it doesn't mean that there aren't hard days i still struggle a lot all the time with a lot of things but overall i just cannot tell you how much better my quality of life has been since i have been starting to feel better it just feels good to like have hope and joy in things again um which i had lost for a really long time i think these shelves are okay for now gonna keep the majority of those now i gotta move over here and i feel like the majority of these i want to keep anyway because these are like all of my series and the last time i did an unhaul i basically got rid of the majority of the series that i don't like or don't want to read so i think we're actually pretty much good oh i think i am going to get rid of these am i i don't know do i want to get rid of these i don't know i'll keep these in my maybe pile actually i also already went through the majority of my arcs so i've gotten rid of i think all of the ones that i don't want anymore so i think for the most part we're actually pretty much done with all the books that i want to unhaul there are definitely still some more books on my shelves that like i feel really iffy about or i just don't feel enthusiastic about but for now i'm just gonna like keep them on because i never know when i want to read them and i don't want to just like get rid of everything but we'll see we'll see like as i'm going through if i feel like there's still too much of stuff i can always take it off question question question question question question oh okay i appreciate this question it says what is your go-to boba order if you didn't know i love boba i love boba a lot i actually don't really like drinks very much i basically only drink water and nothing else except for boba i could honestly live off of boba that's how much i like it and i feel like my answer is going to be super boring but truly my boba order is a black milk tea 30 sweetened with light ice like that's what i get every single time i've occasionally gotten like different types of tea but i don't really get anything else um i don't like anything that's like fruity i basically just like my classic black milk tea that's my favorite for sure and what i go with every single time but i actually didn't like boba for a really long time and then i went to school in berkeley and that changed everything because there was about a place on every corner and everyone drinks boba all the time so i got super into boba there and now i love it i live off of it oh these stacks are so heavy and then this is the maybe pile so we'll just put this off to the side for now okay so the rest of this is basically just gonna have to be me reorganizing all this now that we've taken everything i don't want off my shelves these other stacks that you see on the floor are books i'm still keeping i just took them off to create space i basically just have to rearrange everything now and again i really should have come up with a plan for this i've had my book series on this side and my standalones on this side for like i don't even know how many years at this point so i kind of want to switch things up so i might like flip-flop things or just mix some of the series more into the standalone side we'll see we'll we'll see do i know what i'm doing absolutely not i have no idea we're just winging it okay i got a lot of bts k-pop related questions so um i feel obligated to answer those i feel like most people who watch my channel don't care but i care because i love kpop so i'm gonna talk about it a question i got a lot was um what was my favorite song from the map of the soul seven album and my favorite song is either zero o'clock or my time honestly every song on that album is just so incredibly good but also uh because i listen to that one a lot too basically the vocal line in red what did i do vocal line or rap line songs usually tend to be my favorite but yeah zero o'clock and uh are probably my two favorite ones on the album but then the other question i got multiple times was if i listen to any other k-pop groups and i do i feel like the last time i answered this question i also said i do but now i like really listen to a lot of other kpop to be honest i listened to more kpop than i listened to anything else at this point but my other favorite boy group is still 17 i love 17. i also do occasionally listen to ats i like some of their songs a lot they're kind of like hit or miss for me musically but um i've only really listened to most of their title tracks but i really love their newest comeback inception is such a good song besides that though i don't really listen to many boy groups i mostly listen to girl groups i love red velvet i love a pink a pink is like probably my favorite girl group i love twice and i really like itsy i didn't think i would like itsy when i first heard some other songs but now i really like them but yeah that's pretty much the majority of the kpop that i listen to i do listen to other groups here and there i mostly just like listen to songs but the only groups i listen to like okay that was that attacked me but yeah the only like groups i listen to consistently are uh bts obviously and um 17 and like red velvet and a pink like they're the ones that i like will anticipate their music and like wait for the music video and stuff if you were an ice cream flavor which flavor would best represent your personality i actually really don't like ice cream very much of all dessert that's probably my least favorite except for like fruit tarts and stuff i don't like fruit in my desserts but there are some flavors that i do really like i like the peanut butter like cookie one that ben and jerry's has the vegan one is really good i also really love mint chocolate chip ice cream i feel like mint chocolate chip ice cream would be a good representation of my personality because like it doesn't have too much stuff mixed in there so it's like a little bit plain but like not completely boring it's not everyone's taste either you love it or you hate it i feel like that's kind of how i feel about my own personality a vegetarian food recommendation maybe even a persian one so if you didn't know i'm persian and i am a vegetarian well technically i'm a pescetarian but i eat vegetarian most of the time and actually my mom's sister and i are all vegetarian so we basically only eat vegetarian food in my house and my mom makes a lot of persian food but makes a vegetarian so i do have a few recommendations for you a few persian foods that i really love are florma sabzi which is basically like this stew with a bunch of vegetables in it and herbs and stuff honestly i don't really know what's in it it's just like very green usually you'd make it with meat in it but we don't put meat in it obviously we just eat it with beans and that gives you plenty of protein yeah you could make that without the meat in it they is another one of my favorite persian foods my mom made that for me recently and it's really good again you don't have to make it with the meat basically a lot of persian foods can be made vegetarian like really easily just like don't put the meat in them it's actually pretty easy to adjust a lot of those recipes to just make them vegetarian so yeah i would recommend trying those too there are plenty of recipes for them online i am just used to my mom's cooking so if you can get like traditional persian food obviously that's better but i'm sure you can easily make it yourself too all right so we have reached the i end up on the floor portion of my reorganization process because i am losing all motivation and inspiration i honestly like have no idea what to do with my shelves right now they're just such a mess the floor is such a mess you can't even see all of it this always happens to me it always takes me like 20 hours literally i'm not even being hyperbolic to actually rearrange my bookshelves but this time i was trying to get myself to do it in a less perfectionistic way which is why i decided to record it because i thought it would put pressure on me to like do it more quickly and it's kind of working but at the same time i'm still super overwhelmed anyway we're gonna take a quick answering questions break um and then i'm gonna go back to reorganizing some more oh what's the best tip that you have for journaling if i still do i do still journal i don't journal as often as i used to but i still journal but my biggest journaling tip would probably be just to not be too much of a perfectionist this is a problem that i very much have with almost everything that i do probably actually literally everything that i do but i think the thing that helped me with my journaling a lot and helped me like do it more consistently and feel like better about all of the journal spreads that i was doing was when i stopped trying to be so perfect about everything and just let myself have my own style and let myself like make ugly spreads because sometimes like you just will make an ugly spread and that's okay and then other times you're gonna make a really really nice spread that you'll really love so it just kind of depends i think just like letting yourself go through the process of like creating things that aren't perfect creating things that aren't beautiful is an important part of the creative process in general no matter what you're doing but i think it's also really beneficial to focus on that as well when you're journaling and i think that's definitely been the most helpful thing for me what's been the hardest part of quarantine for you i mean not being able to eat at restaurants is rough and i know you can technically still eat at restaurants but like i'm not about to go to a restaurant and risk other people's health as well as my own because it's not worth it sometimes we do order takeout but not very often because still we're trying to be safe but also support our local businesses it's difficult out here and it's also really hard to not see my friends especially since i've been feeling a lot better lately i've been like wanting to visit my friends or have them come down and visit and that's definitely the most difficult thing for me because i just miss them a lot and it's really hard to just not be able to spend time with the people i want to spend time with and it just makes me really sad uh we still have like zoom calls and stuff and it's fun we can hang out and play games and stuff but it's not the same as like seeing each other in person and we had so many plans to do so many different things and then all of that was just thrown out the window so yeah that's definitely been a bit rough but honestly like i'm adjusting i stay indoors most of the time anyway honestly so like it's not that different from my usual life and most of my friends don't even live around me anyway so we would have to like go for a pretty long drive in order to see each other so yeah it's it's difficult but you know it is what it is would you prefer to go on a trip on inej's ship or be able to meet daisy jones um i'm terrified of ships and boats so i don't want to go on one so my answer has to be meet daisy jones if it was meet daisy jones or me inej i'd probably want to meet anez but i don't want to go on her ship so i'm gonna have to say meet daisy jones okay answered a few questions i think i'm gonna get back to sorting through these again um because i just want to do it as quickly as possible and i feel like i've gotten at least a little bit of rest and i have a slightly better idea of what i want to do now so let's rearrange some things again also because i'm an indecisive i decided to just put my night circus shelf back exactly where it was exactly the way it was that's gonna be the case for probably a lot of this because i always end up doing this but yeah so that's the same this is the same but a lot of other stuff has changed a bit so it's it's still it's still coming together okay i like this question what was your journey with loving your nose loving non-eurocentric features is hard okay so not that long ago i posted a photo of myself on twitter and instagram that was mostly of my nose that said something along the lines of like western beauty standards your big nose is beautiful because for the longest time i have deeply deeply struggled with trying to like my nose i wanted a nose job for like years and years and years because i thought it was the worst nose on earth i thought it was like crooked and messed up and it had all these problems and i just like hated my nose so i hated my face because i thought it just like looked bad and i went to school in a very very white area so the majority of the people around me were all white and it was very difficult growing up when you're going through puberty and you're just like one of the few ethnic kids in school who doesn't have that like cute little white nose that all the white girls had and i wanted to look like them and i didn't look like them so it really really made me hate myself and it took me years like genuinely years and honestly a lot of therapy not specifically about this specific insecurity that i had but just a reframing of the way that i looked at beauty and i looked at myself and how i defined my own beauty and what that actually meant to me because i think i was putting so much weight on trying to look like someone that i'm not and putting just so much weight on trying to look a certain way that when i stopped focusing so much on what i actually look like and i just kind of adopted the like body neutrality mentality which obviously there is body positivity but for me it was more like a body neutrality like looking at my body and looking at my insecurities about my physical being as things that just exist things i have to accept but things i don't necessarily have to be pleased with i think my just thought process and my way of thinking started to change a bit after that i'm dropping books because when i wasn't focusing so much on trying to look a certain way or make myself look different or just focusing on the way that i look i think i slowly started to just accept and eventually i'm kind of at the point where i'm starting to like first it was just acceptance and dislike then it was just like acceptance and neutrality and now i'm getting to a place where it's acceptance and like obviously it shifts a lot of the time there are many many many days of the week of every hour honestly where i hate the way i look still that's not gone i don't think it'll ever be fully gone but i've gotten to a place where it's just a lot easier for me now to actually like these things because i'm not so focused on them anymore i don't know how much sense that makes but i feel like when you stop paying so much attention obsessing over them the way that i had been for sure i find it a lot easier to start just being okay with them and eventually even without realizing it start actually being happy with them and now i look at my nose and i love my nose i feel like it suits my face i would not change it at all unless like it broke or something and i feel like it just makes me look like me um and i wouldn't want to look a different way and i know i'm saying all this and you could be thinking like yeah sure it's just that easy you just feel that way now but like i don't feel that way and i'm never gonna feel that way i was right there with you i literally like you could have asked me honestly like six seven months ago if i would ever be confident in any part of my physical being and i would have told you no i'll never be happy with the way that i look like i'll never be okay with it at all and so honestly i can't even believe i'm at this point but i am so if you want to use me as any sort of proof it does work and you can get to this place eventually that doesn't mean you won't waver that doesn't mean it's not hard that doesn't mean that it's not going to be a really really really tough experience and journey but it is possible and if i hadn't done it for myself i would not have been able to believe it next question thoughts on netflix live action avatar and break leaving so if you don't know avatar the last airbender is being adapted into a live action tv series by netflix and brick aka brian and mike the two original creators of avatar the last airbender were originally signed on as i believe executive producers of the show or producers of the show i don't remember but they were heavily involved in making this live-action adaptation happen but recently they put out a statement saying that they have both decided to leave the production of the show and they're not involved with it anymore because of differences they both like put out very similar statements detailing why they were leaving and stuff and all my hope for the entire live-action series just completely left after that happened i trust absolutely no one on this earth to touch avatar the last airbender apart from breik they are the only two who know what this series is who understand what its heart is who understand what it has meant to people and they created it in the first place so clearly they have an understanding of its message and i do not trust netflix to one cast this show properly they're literally just gonna fill it with white people and nobody in that show is white so none of us want it and two they're just gonna make it weird and like dark and gritty which is what i've read and probably adding romance and stuff that's unnecessary and i'm just not here for it i was genuinely actually very excited for the live action because i knew that breck was working on it but now that they're not i don't care the original series exists and it is perfection and we really don't need anything else honestly it's going to be hard to make anything worse than the adaptation that we already got of that show but i believe that netflix has the capability of making this even worse than that even though that seems impossible so yeah i'm not gonna watch it i have no interest in watching it no i don't want it nobody wants it none of us asked for this this is not what anybody wanted another avatar related question which avatar character do you relate to the most for me it's probably katara which is what everyone tells me like all of my friends have always said ever since we were kids they're like you're literally just katara because i am in a lot of ways so yeah katara is definitely one i absolutely relate to her a lot um but i also deeply relate to zuko which is one of the reasons why he's my favorite character i feel like with every rewatch i relate to saka more and more too i think it's just the way that he's like fed up with everybody else like just not doing what they need to be doing and goofing off that's like very much my personality i don't like goofing off i very much like to like stick to the plan and i know that he's obviously like comedic relief as well so he's very funny it's not like he's always serious but he always like has a plan and he's trying to stick to the plan and everyone else is like being a kid around him even though he's also a kid he's just way more mature than the rest of them and i deeply relate to that because i was always like the mature one in my friend group when we were like kids and stuff so i very much relate to that aspect of his personality a lot progress is being made i'm just like finally starting to see a little bit of a difference even though there's still so much to do oh what is your favorite article of clothing one sec let me go get it this dress this is my favorite article of clothing that i own i've worn it a million times and i feel like myself in it and i feel the best when i'm wearing it i also really like this dress that i'm wearing right now that i recently bought from my sister i have no idea where it's from but i really like it it's very comfortable and i feel like it's very me oh okay i'm not even near done i know i literally just talked about perfectionism earlier and how you shouldn't be so perfectionistic when you're doing creative things because it's a lot easier that way and it's really beneficial for you but i'm really being a perfectionist with these and it's really really stressing me out i know they're literally just bookshelves and i can redo them any day i want to but for some reason every time i try and do this i feel like it has to look absolutely perfect when it's finished the first time around and i know that's not true but it's really hard to just like let that actually register in my mind anyway to combat that i think i'm just going to put the rest of the books that are just on the ground and like just scattered on the shelves right now just on my bookshelves and just have them sit there and we'll see what it ends up looking like and then just like go from there and fix it if i need to but if i'm too tired we're just going to leave it because it doesn't have to be perfect it can be different from what i'm envisioning in my brain and that's okay it's okay it doesn't have to be perfect i wish that those words actually stuck with me okay so i think it's actually finally done it's not completely done at all not by any means i have a lot of reorganizing still to do on this side for sure and as you can see that shelf is completely empty i haven't decided what i want to put in there yet because i do want to display something but that's going to take like a lot out of me for the most part i'm really just needed to like unhaul some books and create enough space on my shelves to get the new books that i want and also just have my shelves be a bit more organized because they've been a disaster for like a whole year but anyway i hope you all enjoyed watching this video i hope this was somewhat fun for you i hope you enjoyed me answering a few of your questions while watching me reorganize all of this and also slowly have a meltdown like i said reorganizing my bookshelves always takes like the life out of me i always love the end product but it just takes so much work and so much creativity that i don't always have but i'm already feeling so much better about them and i know that there's still a long way to go but still so far they're looking pretty good but that is it for this video if you'd like to follow me on any of my social media all my links are in the description box as always thank you all so much for watching this video i hope you enjoyed and i will see you in my next video bye and before anyone asks me yes i will be doing a bookshelf tour when i'm completely done you\n"