Not So July Wrap Up _ 2018

I'm just happy to be here and I've been zoning out watching TV for days yeah and as far as reading definitely check out my end-of-the-year TBR video which I will link on the screen though one of the books I'm going to be prioritizing in the end of the year and those are books I'm really excited about so I don't really have to talk about like the books that I want to get to because I already have talked about those but those are the things that are the highest on the list for me the things I'm really excited about and really want to get to so if you want to know what I'll be prioritizing for the end of the year go and check that video out.

As far as things on this channel my regular schedule content will continue to come out but things I'm really excited about our series that I've either started or planned to start on this channel so I'm really excited continue the trope talk series where I'm going into very like niche tropes of mine and talking about books that have those kinds of tropes and just my thoughts on them at Hakan and do it and all that kind of stuff. I have another series of IMPLAN for years that I think I'll finally be able to get to and it involves makeup and books I'm not gonna go into it because I don't want to steal it but I'm very excited about that it's gonna be great.

I am just so excited to get back just into the community fully immersed I feel like I've been here but I've also not been able to immerse myself in it I haven't had the emotional availability I haven't been able to get in on all the discussions I've wanted to get in I've still been here I've still been present I still talk to you guys but not in the way that I was want to and I'm just excited for that to come back again. So, I'm excited to be able to answer way more my comments I just have literally not been able to or had the time to I still answer comments just not as much as I would have liked to so I'm excited to get back to that.

I'm excited, especially with live shows, especially Instagram live that is the easiest for me to just pop on Instagram live whenever I want. Usually, I'm getting ready to film videos and stuff and talk to you guys and it's like a queue and I open format whatever so I love doing that so definitely go and follow me there if you don't already because I would posting a ton more of those just like updating you on life especially during this transition while things are still kind of happening. Definitely, plan on talking to you guys about some of that stuff and just like then think I'm just showing you you know like behind the scenes pulling back the curtain and all that.

I think we've met fast being at the start of all this like be my freedom at the start my freedom it's gonna be good for that because those reimbursing myself from the community is gonna be just like a warm warm hug and it's gonna be so necessary. I definitely plan on talking to you guys like about some of that stuff and just then think I'm like, being honest with them about what's going on behind the scenes. At the end of the year's vlog miss and that's really good with like engagement and stuff like that so I'm very excited for that and starting to plan and all of that because I think it's gonna be a really good time.

So, speaking of community engagement kind of with all let me there's anything that you really want to see for me and that's what we booked Co me to read because I you guys tell me that all the time and there's a lot of books I gotta read and read the books my TBR and like that's really not changing a ton so unless let my TV already like I'm probably not gonna get to anything specific but just like content you wanna see for me or things you think would be fun or things ideas for vlogmas or anything like that. Just, chat with me let me know if you're in this same kind of transition period and a lot of people are or if you can relate to that feeling or that feeling I'm sort of like right now currently I feel very stuck but I know that that's temporary.

I'm going to be doing a lot more and like forward moving progress is constantly happening I just don't feel that right now so let me know if you've kind of been in a similar state or if you have in the past or whatever. And, just chat with me about things that you're excited about to have any live life goals that you're accomplishing right now any things that are happening with you like leave me long paragraph comments please comment below let me know and we can just chat about it and like being our feelings I'm so looking forward to talking to you guys thank you all for watching.

"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enhey guys it's Sam and this is my not-so July wrap-up so this month the only book that I read was the gentleman's guide to vice and virtue by Mackenzie Lee since I've already done a review on this I will link that on the screen and I'm not going to talk about this right now so I want to talk about kind of my feelings about that and the fact that this is the lowest amount that I've ever read in the entire history of my channel and then something that I'm not necessarily like disappointed in myself by like I have a lot of feelings around it and that's kind of and why I want to talk about this in general I was actually on instagram live before trying to film that's kind of talking about this as well that I am at a point right now in life where I am emotionally empty I am at a negative like my well is below zero there is a lot going on with life with grad school finishing up it finishes up August 20th so it's right around the corner and I know that and all of you guys are being very motivating about that and being like you can do it you can do it the thing is is that there's a lot of other things happening in life that aren't just school related so while school will take a burden off of me it's not like my life just suddenly opens up and gets easier then there's a lot of other things that could fall in place with life so that is a little but I do think that by the fall all that will be arranged as well and so I'm excited for that point in life and I kinda want to talk about the things that I'm excited about you know this is a transitionary period in my life with a lot of things that are happening and I'm excited about a lot of things moving forward but right now I'm so stuck in like just getting through school and getting through some of the other things and planning and all the stuff that I just can't even see or feel the fact that there's a light at the end of the tunnel very very soon like mere weeks away and just seeing the fact that like I only read one book this month is discouraging but not surprising like I said I've had emotionally 0 like the breeding isn't even fun for me right now so I'm not going to force myself to do that it just sucks because usually I'm in reading slump I'm doing other things that I enjoy so I'm doing another hobby like I'm watching TV or I'm playing video games or something and I haven't able to do any of that I have only been able to do like work related things whether that's like professional work whether that's like life work or whether that is you know school work so I've just been going going going and it's going to eventually stop and I'll get through this time but it hasn't quite happened yet so this is not like an asking for pity or anything like I know you guys sometimes are like Oh hugs whatever which is very nice and thank you but like I know it's just a matter of getting through it and that once I'm through it it'll be it'll be okay and the things will be positive and everything that's happening is very positive it's just really exhausting at the same time you know like it one doesn't have to exist separately from the other like things can be both at the same time yeah I want to talk about some of the things that I'm really excited about after this transition and kind of during this transition so the first thing is obviously booking that fast and my vacation for book net Fest so Sarah Jane for the book life is coming over along with Sean commuters rambles and they are gonna be here for a longer time so I'm actually going to get to go down and have like a ten-day vacation down in Florida instead of just going for walking that fast and that's gonna be highly highly needed because gonna be a chance to vacation but also relaxed and just completely recharge because like I said below zero and something I'm really excited about related to my channel for that is the book net fest and vacation vlogs so I'm really glad to film things Sara J and I and the rest of us and all of us are gonna be filming like collab videos there's going to be vlogs up looking at faster than me vlog so it's like vacation things going to the parks all of that stuff so I'm really excited for that and I'm also excited because that's just gonna kind of roll over into travel vlogs so one of the things I want to do and something that I think like recharges me that I want to do more of in my life now that I have the opportunity to is to travel more so not so much on this channel but on my other channel when I do travel I want to do travel e-type vlogs so this is kind of the intro to that with the book net fest and whole vacation vlogs because that's gonna be like 10 days of vacationing and putting vlogs together and stuff so look forward to not like back to back I'm not gonna be like a traveler that's all I do going backpacking like I have to have a job in a career and everything like that's very important to me but I do plan on taking more trips throughout the year that aren't just bookish trips and I'm gonna be vlogging as my personal channel if you guys on a follow personal channel and you don't know about it already I'll put a link down below I talked about like makeup stuff Fitness food now travel and just like life stuff video games all of it speaking of video games the next thing I want to talk about is video games because I think although I'd love to just jump back into reading I don't think I'm even gonna have the emotional capacity for that right after I'm done I think my reading will pick back up right before the holidays like mid-october once everything really gets settled and everything then I can really start getting into reading again and being motivated for it but right now like I said below zero so I just want to veg out and do like video games and TV I'm kind of gonna lean into that and not beat myself up for that I'm still gonna read I think I'll go back to reading my like three or four books a month like I've been doing for a while now but I'm not gonna beat myself up for like playing video games or doing other things instead of reading even more so some video games I'm excited about I'm currently playing through Mass Effect again I just finished Mass Effect one again and I'm gonna play two and three right after and just like live in my feelings about that series and I also plan on replaying Dragon Age so I've never actually played Dragon Age Origins before I've only played to an inquisition so I plan on going back playing origins and then playing through with that world state all the way through which will be very exciting and then maybe by that time we'll have like announcements for Dragon Age 4 maybe I also really want to play Detroit become human and God of War the new god of war I will play the most recent Assassin's Creed that came out last year and then the new one that's coming out this year the last years old was Egypt this year's one is going to be or is it next year I forget it's gonna be Sparta so I'm very excited for those I'm gonna finish up final fantasy 15 which I started playing and never was really able to continue so I have a lot of video games and then some other video games are just older that I want to play that I never got a chance to so I'm just gonna really lean into the video games these days and enjoy that which means again they'll be discussions of video games my other channel I typically do get ready with me and talk about video games either ranting about them or raving about them so that'll be something to look forward to as well if you enjoy my gaming related content I also I'm so gonna lean into the TV so I can feel the need for a Grey's Anatomy rewatch ivory watch Grey's Anatomy like four or five times and I have not in a while and it's literally it's self-care for me like I need it sometimes it's stuff that I'm familiar with that gives me emotions and lets me like feel feelings and I am very much interested in doing a rewatch of that at least like the first four seasons maybe five I don't need to watch all of that I'm not even all we caught up on that series I gave up after Christina left because it started going downhill but I just want to watch it the first fibers maybe even six seasons and really enjoy my time with that then I want to finish up some series that I've already started but just haven't completed so like Downton Abbey Jessica Jones the 100 finally finished the Vampire Diaries it should be great because I get to rewatch it again but the Vampire Diaries black sails which I started wasn't able to finish because I was in school Outlander and then I also want to completely start like sense8 and the magician's and the crown so a lot of these shows I just haven't had a chance to even try because I've been in school and so busy and doing all these things in life has been crazy so your girl's gonna watch a ton of TV I'm gonna be jest about it and again I'll talk about with you guys if you want me to talk about it with you so yeah I'm looking I'm just I'm happy I'm like oh zoning out watching TV for days yeah and as far as reading definitely check out my end-of-the-year TBR video which I will link on the screen though one of the books I'm going to be prioritizing in the end of the year and those are books I'm really excited about so I don't really have to talk about like the books that I want to get to because I already have talked about those but those are the things that are the highest on the list for me the things I'm really excited about and really want to get to so if you want to know what I'll be prioritizing for the end of the year go and check that video out as far as things on this channel my regular schedule content will continue to come out but things I'm really excited about our series that I've either started or planned to start on this channel so I'm really excited continue the trope talk series where I'm going into very like niche tropes of mine and talking about books that have those kinds of tropes and just my thoughts on them at Hakan and do it and all that kind of stuff I have another series of IMPLAN for years that I think I'll finally be able to get to and it involves makeup and books I'm not gonna go into it because I don't want to steal it but I'm very excited about that it's gonna be great and I am just so excited to get back just into the community fully immersed I feel like I've been here but I've also not been able to immerse myself in it I haven't had the emotional availability I haven't been able to get in on all the discussions I've wanted to get in I've still been here I've still been present I still talk to you guys but not in the way that I was want to and I'm just excited for that to come back again so I'm excited to be able to answer way more my comments I just have literally not been able to or had the time to I still answer comments just not as much as I would have liked to so I'm excited to get back to that I'm excited I do live live shows especially Instagram live that is the easiest for me to just pop on Instagram live whenever I want I usually do I'm getting ready to film videos and stuff and talk to you guys and it's like a queue and I open format whatever so I love doing that so definitely go and follow me there if you don't already because I would posting a ton more of those just like updating you on life especially during this transition while things are still kind of happening I definitely plan on talking to you guys like about some of that stuff and just like then think I'm just showing you you know like behind the scenes pulling back the curtain and all that I think we've met fast being at the start of all this like be my freedom at the start my freedom it's gonna be good for that because those reimbursing myself from the community is gonna be just like a warm warm hug and it's gonna be so necessary and at the end of the year's vlog miss and that's really good with like engagement and stuff like that so I'm very excited for that and starting to plan and all of that because I think it's gonna be a really good time so speaking of community engagement kind of with all let me there's anything that you really want to see for me and that's what we booked Co me to read because I you guys tell me that all the time and there's a lot of books I gotta read and read the books my TBR and like that's really not changing a ton so unless let my TV already like I'm probably not gonna get to anything specific but just like content you wanna see for me or things you think would be fun or things ideas for vlogmas or anything like that just like chat with me let me know if you're in this same kind of transition period and a lot of people are or if you can relate to that feeling or that feeling I'm sort of like right now currently I feel very stuck but I know that that's temporary I'm going to be doing a lot more and like forward moving progress is constantly happening I just don't feel that right now so let me know if you've kind of been in a similar state or if you have in the past or whatever and just chat with me about things that you're excited about to have any live life goals that you're accomplishing right now any things that are happening with you like leave me long paragraph comments please comment below let me know and we can just chat about it and like being our feelings it's something feeling right now so looking forward to talking to you guys thank you all for watching and I'll see all of you guys soonhey guys it's Sam and this is my not-so July wrap-up so this month the only book that I read was the gentleman's guide to vice and virtue by Mackenzie Lee since I've already done a review on this I will link that on the screen and I'm not going to talk about this right now so I want to talk about kind of my feelings about that and the fact that this is the lowest amount that I've ever read in the entire history of my channel and then something that I'm not necessarily like disappointed in myself by like I have a lot of feelings around it and that's kind of and why I want to talk about this in general I was actually on instagram live before trying to film that's kind of talking about this as well that I am at a point right now in life where I am emotionally empty I am at a negative like my well is below zero there is a lot going on with life with grad school finishing up it finishes up August 20th so it's right around the corner and I know that and all of you guys are being very motivating about that and being like you can do it you can do it the thing is is that there's a lot of other things happening in life that aren't just school related so while school will take a burden off of me it's not like my life just suddenly opens up and gets easier then there's a lot of other things that could fall in place with life so that is a little but I do think that by the fall all that will be arranged as well and so I'm excited for that point in life and I kinda want to talk about the things that I'm excited about you know this is a transitionary period in my life with a lot of things that are happening and I'm excited about a lot of things moving forward but right now I'm so stuck in like just getting through school and getting through some of the other things and planning and all the stuff that I just can't even see or feel the fact that there's a light at the end of the tunnel very very soon like mere weeks away and just seeing the fact that like I only read one book this month is discouraging but not surprising like I said I've had emotionally 0 like the breeding isn't even fun for me right now so I'm not going to force myself to do that it just sucks because usually I'm in reading slump I'm doing other things that I enjoy so I'm doing another hobby like I'm watching TV or I'm playing video games or something and I haven't able to do any of that I have only been able to do like work related things whether that's like professional work whether that's like life work or whether that is you know school work so I've just been going going going and it's going to eventually stop and I'll get through this time but it hasn't quite happened yet so this is not like an asking for pity or anything like I know you guys sometimes are like Oh hugs whatever which is very nice and thank you but like I know it's just a matter of getting through it and that once I'm through it it'll be it'll be okay and the things will be positive and everything that's happening is very positive it's just really exhausting at the same time you know like it one doesn't have to exist separately from the other like things can be both at the same time yeah I want to talk about some of the things that I'm really excited about after this transition and kind of during this transition so the first thing is obviously booking that fast and my vacation for book net Fest so Sarah Jane for the book life is coming over along with Sean commuters rambles and they are gonna be here for a longer time so I'm actually going to get to go down and have like a ten-day vacation down in Florida instead of just going for walking that fast and that's gonna be highly highly needed because gonna be a chance to vacation but also relaxed and just completely recharge because like I said below zero and something I'm really excited about related to my channel for that is the book net fest and vacation vlogs so I'm really glad to film things Sara J and I and the rest of us and all of us are gonna be filming like collab videos there's going to be vlogs up looking at faster than me vlog so it's like vacation things going to the parks all of that stuff so I'm really excited for that and I'm also excited because that's just gonna kind of roll over into travel vlogs so one of the things I want to do and something that I think like recharges me that I want to do more of in my life now that I have the opportunity to is to travel more so not so much on this channel but on my other channel when I do travel I want to do travel e-type vlogs so this is kind of the intro to that with the book net fest and whole vacation vlogs because that's gonna be like 10 days of vacationing and putting vlogs together and stuff so look forward to not like back to back I'm not gonna be like a traveler that's all I do going backpacking like I have to have a job in a career and everything like that's very important to me but I do plan on taking more trips throughout the year that aren't just bookish trips and I'm gonna be vlogging as my personal channel if you guys on a follow personal channel and you don't know about it already I'll put a link down below I talked about like makeup stuff Fitness food now travel and just like life stuff video games all of it speaking of video games the next thing I want to talk about is video games because I think although I'd love to just jump back into reading I don't think I'm even gonna have the emotional capacity for that right after I'm done I think my reading will pick back up right before the holidays like mid-october once everything really gets settled and everything then I can really start getting into reading again and being motivated for it but right now like I said below zero so I just want to veg out and do like video games and TV I'm kind of gonna lean into that and not beat myself up for that I'm still gonna read I think I'll go back to reading my like three or four books a month like I've been doing for a while now but I'm not gonna beat myself up for like playing video games or doing other things instead of reading even more so some video games I'm excited about I'm currently playing through Mass Effect again I just finished Mass Effect one again and I'm gonna play two and three right after and just like live in my feelings about that series and I also plan on replaying Dragon Age so I've never actually played Dragon Age Origins before I've only played to an inquisition so I plan on going back playing origins and then playing through with that world state all the way through which will be very exciting and then maybe by that time we'll have like announcements for Dragon Age 4 maybe I also really want to play Detroit become human and God of War the new god of war I will play the most recent Assassin's Creed that came out last year and then the new one that's coming out this year the last years old was Egypt this year's one is going to be or is it next year I forget it's gonna be Sparta so I'm very excited for those I'm gonna finish up final fantasy 15 which I started playing and never was really able to continue so I have a lot of video games and then some other video games are just older that I want to play that I never got a chance to so I'm just gonna really lean into the video games these days and enjoy that which means again they'll be discussions of video games my other channel I typically do get ready with me and talk about video games either ranting about them or raving about them so that'll be something to look forward to as well if you enjoy my gaming related content I also I'm so gonna lean into the TV so I can feel the need for a Grey's Anatomy rewatch ivory watch Grey's Anatomy like four or five times and I have not in a while and it's literally it's self-care for me like I need it sometimes it's stuff that I'm familiar with that gives me emotions and lets me like feel feelings and I am very much interested in doing a rewatch of that at least like the first four seasons maybe five I don't need to watch all of that I'm not even all we caught up on that series I gave up after Christina left because it started going downhill but I just want to watch it the first fibers maybe even six seasons and really enjoy my time with that then I want to finish up some series that I've already started but just haven't completed so like Downton Abbey Jessica Jones the 100 finally finished the Vampire Diaries it should be great because I get to rewatch it again but the Vampire Diaries black sails which I started wasn't able to finish because I was in school Outlander and then I also want to completely start like sense8 and the magician's and the crown so a lot of these shows I just haven't had a chance to even try because I've been in school and so busy and doing all these things in life has been crazy so your girl's gonna watch a ton of TV I'm gonna be jest about it and again I'll talk about with you guys if you want me to talk about it with you so yeah I'm looking I'm just I'm happy I'm like oh zoning out watching TV for days yeah and as far as reading definitely check out my end-of-the-year TBR video which I will link on the screen though one of the books I'm going to be prioritizing in the end of the year and those are books I'm really excited about so I don't really have to talk about like the books that I want to get to because I already have talked about those but those are the things that are the highest on the list for me the things I'm really excited about and really want to get to so if you want to know what I'll be prioritizing for the end of the year go and check that video out as far as things on this channel my regular schedule content will continue to come out but things I'm really excited about our series that I've either started or planned to start on this channel so I'm really excited continue the trope talk series where I'm going into very like niche tropes of mine and talking about books that have those kinds of tropes and just my thoughts on them at Hakan and do it and all that kind of stuff I have another series of IMPLAN for years that I think I'll finally be able to get to and it involves makeup and books I'm not gonna go into it because I don't want to steal it but I'm very excited about that it's gonna be great and I am just so excited to get back just into the community fully immersed I feel like I've been here but I've also not been able to immerse myself in it I haven't had the emotional availability I haven't been able to get in on all the discussions I've wanted to get in I've still been here I've still been present I still talk to you guys but not in the way that I was want to and I'm just excited for that to come back again so I'm excited to be able to answer way more my comments I just have literally not been able to or had the time to I still answer comments just not as much as I would have liked to so I'm excited to get back to that I'm excited I do live live shows especially Instagram live that is the easiest for me to just pop on Instagram live whenever I want I usually do I'm getting ready to film videos and stuff and talk to you guys and it's like a queue and I open format whatever so I love doing that so definitely go and follow me there if you don't already because I would posting a ton more of those just like updating you on life especially during this transition while things are still kind of happening I definitely plan on talking to you guys like about some of that stuff and just like then think I'm just showing you you know like behind the scenes pulling back the curtain and all that I think we've met fast being at the start of all this like be my freedom at the start my freedom it's gonna be good for that because those reimbursing myself from the community is gonna be just like a warm warm hug and it's gonna be so necessary and at the end of the year's vlog miss and that's really good with like engagement and stuff like that so I'm very excited for that and starting to plan and all of that because I think it's gonna be a really good time so speaking of community engagement kind of with all let me there's anything that you really want to see for me and that's what we booked Co me to read because I you guys tell me that all the time and there's a lot of books I gotta read and read the books my TBR and like that's really not changing a ton so unless let my TV already like I'm probably not gonna get to anything specific but just like content you wanna see for me or things you think would be fun or things ideas for vlogmas or anything like that just like chat with me let me know if you're in this same kind of transition period and a lot of people are or if you can relate to that feeling or that feeling I'm sort of like right now currently I feel very stuck but I know that that's temporary I'm going to be doing a lot more and like forward moving progress is constantly happening I just don't feel that right now so let me know if you've kind of been in a similar state or if you have in the past or whatever and just chat with me about things that you're excited about to have any live life goals that you're accomplishing right now any things that are happening with you like leave me long paragraph comments please comment below let me know and we can just chat about it and like being our feelings it's something feeling right now so looking forward to talking to you guys thank you all for watching and I'll see all of you guys soon\n"