The Beauty of Flexibility and Balance

As I reflect on my own work routine, I realize that one of the most beautiful aspects of being my own boss is the flexibility it offers. However, this same freedom can also make me quite hard on myself. I often find myself working excessively long hours, which ultimately leads to burnout and a lack of happiness.

To combat this, I've established a rule with myself where we're not going to work all day every day. This is a significant change from my past habits, where I would often work 16-hour days or more. While these extended work periods may have been necessary in the past, they are no longer sustainable for me, both physically and mentally.

I've come to appreciate the importance of balance in my life. As someone who was previously overworking myself, I now recognize that taking breaks and prioritizing self-care is essential for maintaining a healthy work-life balance. By not working all day, every day, I'm able to recharge and refocus, which ultimately benefits both my personal and professional well-being.

A Personal Story: How I Got My Dog Jupiter

One of the most significant changes in my life has been getting my dog, Jupiter. It's a story that I often share with others, as it highlights the importance of companionship and flexibility. A year ago, I was working excessively long hours, struggling to maintain a healthy work-life balance. I would spend most of my days stuck at home, working on my YouTube channel, and feeling anxious about leaving the house.

During this time, I had an experience where I met Clairebear, who runs a show dog place called Pinaka in Colombia. She has two beautiful golden retrievers that caught my attention, and I knew right then and there that I wanted to get a dog of my own. With some persuasion from my sister (who lived with me at the time), I convinced our parents to let us adopt one of the dogs.

After spending hours on the phone with Clairebear, we decided to bring Jupiter home. It was a momentous occasion, and I was excited to have a companion to share my life with. Having Jupiter has been a game-changer for me, as it's helped me relax and find more joy in life.

A Newfound Faith: Exploring Christianity

Recently, I've been exploring my faith again, which is something that I haven't touched on much on this channel before. This year has been a significant one for me, as I've been trying to get closer to God and reestablish my relationship with Him. While I don't often talk about religion on this channel, I feel it's essential to share my personal growth journey with you all.

Over the past few months, I've been praying more frequently and seeking guidance from scripture. Yesterday, I had an incredible experience where I felt a deep sense of connection with God again. It was as if He was speaking directly to me, reminding me of His promises and love for me.

I'm excited to share more about my faith journey with you in the coming months. For now, I just want to acknowledge that this year has been one of growth, renewal, and a deeper connection with God.

Goals and Resolutions for 2019

As we head into a new year, I've been reflecting on my personal goals and aspirations. In 2009, I created a vision board, which has become a symbol of my intentions for the future. This visual reminder helps me stay focused on what's truly important to me.

Some of my goals for 2019 include growing closer to God, nurturing meaningful relationships with family and friends, and exploring new hobbies. I've also been looking forward to taking Chinese classes, which will allow me to learn a new language and broaden my cultural understanding.

I'd love to hear from you! What are your goals and aspirations for the coming year? Do you have any exciting plans or projects that you're working on? Share them with us in the comments below.

"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enif you hear any huffing puffing it's cuz you're beneath ullas right below me he's like it's just chilling dad of the camera okay we gotta get you out oh my my green juice this is just celery guys just celery taste it's healthy so today I wanted to do a Q&A video I promised myself this year was gonna be the year of kind of letting you guys get to know me a little bit more this is me challenging myself asked you guys on Instagram and on Twitter to ask me anything that you wanted and so we're about to answer some questions I'm gonna start on Twitter Croatia Ayesha Ayesha so you said you mentioned something about going to start work soon does that mean you will change when you upload your videos for those of you that aren't familiar tennis and I recently got a studio it's so exciting so when I mentioned that I am finally starting work is because I gave myself a really nice little break oh wait right so the reason we ended up getting a studio is because Deniz and I really felt that with YouTube and just like working from home when you are your own boss it's so easy to overwork yourself first of all but also to kind of not separate work and what is real life my home wasn't feeling like my home I was constantly stressed out it's just like everywhere I went to felt like work everywhere my house my bedroom in my dining table like those are the places I'm supposed to be relaxed you know who isn't enjoying my job that much anymore to be quite honest so for those of you who have been keeping up with us on our Instagram or our Twitter we moved all our work stuff from home to this place about three weeks ago now we're still kind of in the grind of things for the first time in over a year since Dennis and I got married hmm feels like home this has been a really positive switch and the best part is also you know we have a team of people that work with us so they're now not coming into our space which can also be a little bit uncomfortable it's like okay let's have a meeting and then the kitchen is a mess or I have like a song over there and I'm finally here I'm filming again I'm excited the studio is up let me know if you guys are interested in maybe a studio tour and I finally started decorating my house right so tips for someone struggling with insecurities I wish I could be comfortable in my own body PS I love you I love you too Julia one of the first things to understand is that being insecure or not fully content with yourself is a hundred percent normal is obviously I've had a lot of insecurities but like my body I feel like who doesn't is just seeing this as like the most incredible machinery of that God has created like we are so perfect everything in us like do you know how many how many like cells are going through us how much air we are so complex and so beautiful I try to see it in that way like maybe I'm not perfect or all mankind something that really helps is like personal affirmations telling yourself literally looking at yourself and being like your best friend look at yourself in the mirror being like girl you look beautiful today recently I've gotten a chance to like read ekor ate myself trying to look and feel my best whether it's like within food doing my hair doing your nails and self-care is really important and I think a lot of us take that for granted so prioritize yourself you are your biggest asset so I really like this question by Sunita why did you decide to stay in Florida and not move to California has been on the East Coast presented any challenges you guys would have known that Dennis and I were really really considering moving to California we have to travel to California for so many different things like I went on tour how to be there just like networking going to events and things like that it's really hard on us to have to be like living out of a suitcase at some point in time I personally love California I love everything about it now are there things I don't like about California yeah sure why not that is an I can't really see ourselves raising a family in California it's just like not really the environment it has a very different vibe than like for instance Florida where we're currently at we are like it would be too hard like sometimes he would start thinking about it like crying like then this is like this with his parents it'd probably become all about work in a way because my work is there so I think it's kind of nice that I have that separation my r over there I'd probably be saying yes to everything and just filling out my agenda with a bunch of things that isn't really what I want but what other people want for me so in the end we ended up staying here we could not be happier with our decision we're constantly like I think this is like that time where yeah our parents are getting a little old and stuff and I want to be able to spend as much time with them and I know Dennis feels the same way so who knows if the future or if God has anything plans for us to move out there then we will but for now we're in Florida kalenna asks are you planning on going on tour again but with different youtubers or with just Dennis PS thank you for all the amazing videos you have me thank you so much Helena I think honestly it's too soon to ask like I just went on tour even though it was in July or is just like another level of craziness like it is so amazing you're constantly challenging yourself to not only have energy but say hi to people smile all the time and while it was so incredible and so like beautifully impactful in my life it is too early to say whether I'd go on tour again it was definitely a handful for both Dennis and I for our team because we really didn't upload much going onstage to like a bunch of people right you have to be like a hundred percent with energy with everything and then you literally get on the bus will you sleep for a few hours then you're upright bright and early rehearsals blah blah blah and then it all starts over like it literally feels like Groundhog Day it starts all over again we'll see if the opportunity arises I might say yes if not then I feel like this year for me is all about balance I just want to be happy simple balanced and be able to understand that like work is very important but also what's my personal life like like I'm married everyone's been asking like when are you having babies Tim asks how many babies would you like if so how many girls or boys would it be lol god bless you Natalie so how many babies would I like I feel like everyone's pregnant on YouTube nowadays this year or like the end of last year like everyone is pregnant and I have been so entertained looking at pregnancy videos and just like the beautiful side of it which they make it look very glamorous but then I've also been seeing some birth videos and I'm like oh wow this body can probably push out two babies I don't know we shall see it's always been me and my sister I've always wanted more than just one sister or one brother one sibling I've been seeking God's plans for us to have more kids than we shall but in terms of boys or girls I've always wanted boys weird I don't know so we'll see Joshu asks what would you say to yourself in the future if you had the opportunity with that how you doing to be quite honest I don't know because I feel like my my present self would be afraid if my past self came to me and asked me something - what the heck is going on - I don't think my future self would really appreciate that I don't think I'd want to know anything just hey how you doing I guess and then run away and erase my memory because I'd probably be too scared to do so new sraw asks what are some of your favorite ways to relieve stress I love you so much I love you too some of my favorite ways to release stress honestly is to be with my dog I love Jupiter there's something about dogs and just like cuddling like finding their hairs and everything and they're like slobber I don't mind I love it it's literally like my favorite pastime aside from that taking baths and reading like picking up a good book and bursting yourself in literature and it has been so nice I've been reading books every single night I have like a little ritual now that I've been doing so it's been a really nice healthy nighttime routine by the way thank you guys so much it's been nice to just kind of connect with you I really like this one it's kind of funny it's by slimes bye bye in how old were you when you got your bra your first broth Oh God I was a late bloomer honey these little buoys were not sprouting not even nipples like it was nada and all my friends were like already in their training bras and they had like nice little boobies and I was like and they wouldn't grow and I remember going to Walmart one day okay I don't know if you guys ever watched ilysm aguar one of my favorite like TV shows on Disney Channel I remember there was this one episode where she's like asking her mom having attitude and being all crazy with her mom and then her moms like sweetie what do you want she's like I could relate to that so bad because my mom she wanted find me abroad and so I had that same thing with her right cuz I remember going to Walmart was it Walmart Target whatever and I asked her so what do you think is like a good age when I to get you know a little bra cuz I wanted a bra and she was like you don't need it right now when you have boobs and I was like after she said that I like cried and I was like mom I just want a bra please and she was like okay here we go I think I was like 12 10 11 I don't know I had a cute little bra it's fine I love bras or Daini rocking asked when do you start a bolo journal maybe you guys saw that I posted that I got my first bullet journal and I'm super inspired by Amanda Rachel Leigh here on youtubes I'm getting a silver bullet journal I did want the original like black was like this is kind of fun and they didn't have the black one so I got this one I haven't started bullet journaling yet but I'm so excited to start bullet journaling if you know anything about me sweetie you know that I literally so I was thinking you know what why not design my own that fits my needs and what I want I bought a bunch of like markers and pens and more markers I just hope I start so if you guys are interested in seeing something around that let me know down below I'm super excited I just don't have a bullet journal I just have a bunch of papers everywhere and that's just not really productive so I'm excited a lot of you are asking about dogs and whether Dennis and I are planning on getting new pets yes Dennis and I have been thinking about this and he was actually the one that brought it up and I was like oh my god thank god because I've been wanting to put her have a fall and it's just kind of sad like what do you have on one dog you want them to have like a companion I feel like Cooper's kind of like lonely sometimes and but make me feel better whenever I have to go somewhere and leave him home of course my dream would be to have another golden retriever because they're my favorite in the world but Dennis says no no no no no more golden retrievers they shed a lot if you see me my pants always covered in hairs do I mind no cuz I love my dog but Dennis minds he wants another dog that sheds a puck little derpy little fat pug which I do not mind that are so cute it took me a little bit of time to like get with the idea because I love bigger dogs there's more of a medium sized dog the thing with pugs is that I feel like they have a lot of health issues and so unless you get a good breeder or you get one that has like a good list of a family history then it's kind of tough to they know whether you're getting a good healthy dog that's like my main concern I really like this question this is by DJ 68 you asked what made you realize that you needed self-love I don't know what it is recently but a lot of you have been like I'm so proud of you for like incorporating more self-care and like more self-love I don't know if it's like the quotes I'm putting on like my insta story I'm very active with you guys on there or just like showing you guys everything that I've been doing to take care of myself but I think like self-love goes in with self-care what inspired me to do that is that you know for my first 3 4 years of doing YouTube I really didn't do any of that all I did and all I focused on was work I was very distant from like my family if shoes with people very like stressed all the time I was having health issues I wasn't sleeping at all I was an eating right I was just like not taking care of myself at all through life and through you know people and just myself I started to realize like you know this is great and everything but I have to have the balance I was like that's it we need to take care of it I've seen the importance of it I've prayed upon it for just like a little bit more like relaxing time for me to just realize like this is great but this isn't my everything nee metcon asked what is the worst and best thing about being married and living with your significant other the best thing about being married is course it's kind of cliche but you know you are living with like your best friend you're living with this person that you love so much you get to grow with it's really nice to look back on everything you get to accomplish together and how you grow as a person our relationship we've been together for I think eight years I don't know I honestly lose calm but it's like we're totally different people in a way like from what we started we've grown we've developed we've changed gotten better we've improved and I think that's such a beautiful thing to see overall it's amazing right worst thing about being married like in any relationship you can butt heads with each other a lot learning how to listen to the other person and and understand what their needs are and what your needs are right one of our issues that we have is that I like to be in bed by 12:30 p.m. because I like to get a little bit of sleep here and there right I actually don't enjoy sleep very much but recently I've been incorporating it more into my self-care and what goes along with that is I would like to have my husband in bed with me by 12:30 but Dennis loves to be playing video games and stuff like that so we've come to an agreement that you know 12:30 is our time of just like relaxation we get to spend time with one another especially if you work together and especially if you work from home establishing boundaries is so important how many hours are we gonna work today like truly how many hours from 95 this to that I mean the beauty of our job is that we can be very flexible with it but at the same time when you are your own boss you are so hard on yourself so yeah so now we have a rule where it's like we're not gonna be working all day because we used to have like oh gosh 16-hour days like crazy like just crazy crazy crazy and that's not sustainable it healthy and no one's happy I love this one cuz I love talking about Jupiter what is the story behind Jupiter how did you get him and what made you get him by clairebear seven one six oh five I was in Columbia where my parents are from I went into this it's like a show dog place called pinaka if you guys ever go it's like it's near a tomainia and whatnot I was recording like the the show which by the way there's like some crazy stuff that happens in the show they grab like this little dog and they kind of like make him fly and that poor dog's tail is like so bent and like poor little thing I think the guy that hosts the entire thing walks in with two beautiful golden retrievers a magical angelic music playing like oh I told my sister that is going to be mine still living with my parents at the time so it's very much up to them whether we could I mean I was gonna pay for it but they were gonna have to let me live with Jupiter in the house so I convinced them oh so extra did a PowerPoint I pretty much gambled beard with my on for her to call the place and ask how much she was but in the end we ended up getting him I mean I really truly felt like I needed a companion was kind of in that time of YouTube where I was really overworking myself too much I had so much anxiety because I was constantly stuck at home and I wouldn't allow myself to like get out of the house and I was actually having anxiety to like leave and be in public I feel like he's really gonna help me just relax myself I really want a golden retriever and I want this dog please allow me to have it they did I promised them I would take it care of him and so Jupiter was are you a Christian and this interesting question I don't really touch on religion a lot on this channel but this year for me is all about being transparent yes I am I'm currently trying to get closer to the law and trying to go to church I actually had an experience yesterday where I just felt like I reconnected with God it's been something that I've really been wanting I've been praying on it's such a beautiful thing and I hope to talk about it more on this channel it almost makes me emotional I don't know it's very interesting but I've been needing this for a while in my life and I'm happy that it is here again I'm happy to talk to you guys more about things I have had incredible things in my life that God has given me and promises that he has made to me it's something I've never shared I can't believe it's something that I've really I haven't really worked for again to receive and I'm just I'm all in again I'm super excited do you have any new plans or goals for 2019 I have so many plans so many goals for 2009 literally created my vision board it just something I'm so happy to be able to look at it every day to just be able to find myself and visualize the things I want to create in my life if you guys would like another video on this I just want to get more in depth on like the things that I want to do but just like right off the bat you know I want to go grow closer to God well sort of my family to my friends again I want to have more balance with word want to learn Chinese because I was taking Chinese classes and I want to be able to explore more of the world explore more of myself create new hobbies for myself invest in myself and nurture those interests and yeah those are some of my my goals I would love to know what your new year's resolutions are or just some of your goals are down below in the comments I hope you guys enjoyed this little Q&A with me it was something that definitely gave me a little bit of like butterflies and nerves but I'm happy that I finally get to sit down with you guys I'm seeing life in a different way I want to grow closer to you all to show you more a little bit of behind the scenes of my life if you enjoyed to this video make sure you give it a thumbs-up if you'd like to connect with me outside of YouTube I'm always on Instagram on Twitter peace to the world for generations butif you hear any huffing puffing it's cuz you're beneath ullas right below me he's like it's just chilling dad of the camera okay we gotta get you out oh my my green juice this is just celery guys just celery taste it's healthy so today I wanted to do a Q&A video I promised myself this year was gonna be the year of kind of letting you guys get to know me a little bit more this is me challenging myself asked you guys on Instagram and on Twitter to ask me anything that you wanted and so we're about to answer some questions I'm gonna start on Twitter Croatia Ayesha Ayesha so you said you mentioned something about going to start work soon does that mean you will change when you upload your videos for those of you that aren't familiar tennis and I recently got a studio it's so exciting so when I mentioned that I am finally starting work is because I gave myself a really nice little break oh wait right so the reason we ended up getting a studio is because Deniz and I really felt that with YouTube and just like working from home when you are your own boss it's so easy to overwork yourself first of all but also to kind of not separate work and what is real life my home wasn't feeling like my home I was constantly stressed out it's just like everywhere I went to felt like work everywhere my house my bedroom in my dining table like those are the places I'm supposed to be relaxed you know who isn't enjoying my job that much anymore to be quite honest so for those of you who have been keeping up with us on our Instagram or our Twitter we moved all our work stuff from home to this place about three weeks ago now we're still kind of in the grind of things for the first time in over a year since Dennis and I got married hmm feels like home this has been a really positive switch and the best part is also you know we have a team of people that work with us so they're now not coming into our space which can also be a little bit uncomfortable it's like okay let's have a meeting and then the kitchen is a mess or I have like a song over there and I'm finally here I'm filming again I'm excited the studio is up let me know if you guys are interested in maybe a studio tour and I finally started decorating my house right so tips for someone struggling with insecurities I wish I could be comfortable in my own body PS I love you I love you too Julia one of the first things to understand is that being insecure or not fully content with yourself is a hundred percent normal is obviously I've had a lot of insecurities but like my body I feel like who doesn't is just seeing this as like the most incredible machinery of that God has created like we are so perfect everything in us like do you know how many how many like cells are going through us how much air we are so complex and so beautiful I try to see it in that way like maybe I'm not perfect or all mankind something that really helps is like personal affirmations telling yourself literally looking at yourself and being like your best friend look at yourself in the mirror being like girl you look beautiful today recently I've gotten a chance to like read ekor ate myself trying to look and feel my best whether it's like within food doing my hair doing your nails and self-care is really important and I think a lot of us take that for granted so prioritize yourself you are your biggest asset so I really like this question by Sunita why did you decide to stay in Florida and not move to California has been on the East Coast presented any challenges you guys would have known that Dennis and I were really really considering moving to California we have to travel to California for so many different things like I went on tour how to be there just like networking going to events and things like that it's really hard on us to have to be like living out of a suitcase at some point in time I personally love California I love everything about it now are there things I don't like about California yeah sure why not that is an I can't really see ourselves raising a family in California it's just like not really the environment it has a very different vibe than like for instance Florida where we're currently at we are like it would be too hard like sometimes he would start thinking about it like crying like then this is like this with his parents it'd probably become all about work in a way because my work is there so I think it's kind of nice that I have that separation my r over there I'd probably be saying yes to everything and just filling out my agenda with a bunch of things that isn't really what I want but what other people want for me so in the end we ended up staying here we could not be happier with our decision we're constantly like I think this is like that time where yeah our parents are getting a little old and stuff and I want to be able to spend as much time with them and I know Dennis feels the same way so who knows if the future or if God has anything plans for us to move out there then we will but for now we're in Florida kalenna asks are you planning on going on tour again but with different youtubers or with just Dennis PS thank you for all the amazing videos you have me thank you so much Helena I think honestly it's too soon to ask like I just went on tour even though it was in July or is just like another level of craziness like it is so amazing you're constantly challenging yourself to not only have energy but say hi to people smile all the time and while it was so incredible and so like beautifully impactful in my life it is too early to say whether I'd go on tour again it was definitely a handful for both Dennis and I for our team because we really didn't upload much going onstage to like a bunch of people right you have to be like a hundred percent with energy with everything and then you literally get on the bus will you sleep for a few hours then you're upright bright and early rehearsals blah blah blah and then it all starts over like it literally feels like Groundhog Day it starts all over again we'll see if the opportunity arises I might say yes if not then I feel like this year for me is all about balance I just want to be happy simple balanced and be able to understand that like work is very important but also what's my personal life like like I'm married everyone's been asking like when are you having babies Tim asks how many babies would you like if so how many girls or boys would it be lol god bless you Natalie so how many babies would I like I feel like everyone's pregnant on YouTube nowadays this year or like the end of last year like everyone is pregnant and I have been so entertained looking at pregnancy videos and just like the beautiful side of it which they make it look very glamorous but then I've also been seeing some birth videos and I'm like oh wow this body can probably push out two babies I don't know we shall see it's always been me and my sister I've always wanted more than just one sister or one brother one sibling I've been seeking God's plans for us to have more kids than we shall but in terms of boys or girls I've always wanted boys weird I don't know so we'll see Joshu asks what would you say to yourself in the future if you had the opportunity with that how you doing to be quite honest I don't know because I feel like my my present self would be afraid if my past self came to me and asked me something - what the heck is going on - I don't think my future self would really appreciate that I don't think I'd want to know anything just hey how you doing I guess and then run away and erase my memory because I'd probably be too scared to do so new sraw asks what are some of your favorite ways to relieve stress I love you so much I love you too some of my favorite ways to release stress honestly is to be with my dog I love Jupiter there's something about dogs and just like cuddling like finding their hairs and everything and they're like slobber I don't mind I love it it's literally like my favorite pastime aside from that taking baths and reading like picking up a good book and bursting yourself in literature and it has been so nice I've been reading books every single night I have like a little ritual now that I've been doing so it's been a really nice healthy nighttime routine by the way thank you guys so much it's been nice to just kind of connect with you I really like this one it's kind of funny it's by slimes bye bye in how old were you when you got your bra your first broth Oh God I was a late bloomer honey these little buoys were not sprouting not even nipples like it was nada and all my friends were like already in their training bras and they had like nice little boobies and I was like and they wouldn't grow and I remember going to Walmart one day okay I don't know if you guys ever watched ilysm aguar one of my favorite like TV shows on Disney Channel I remember there was this one episode where she's like asking her mom having attitude and being all crazy with her mom and then her moms like sweetie what do you want she's like I could relate to that so bad because my mom she wanted find me abroad and so I had that same thing with her right cuz I remember going to Walmart was it Walmart Target whatever and I asked her so what do you think is like a good age when I to get you know a little bra cuz I wanted a bra and she was like you don't need it right now when you have boobs and I was like after she said that I like cried and I was like mom I just want a bra please and she was like okay here we go I think I was like 12 10 11 I don't know I had a cute little bra it's fine I love bras or Daini rocking asked when do you start a bolo journal maybe you guys saw that I posted that I got my first bullet journal and I'm super inspired by Amanda Rachel Leigh here on youtubes I'm getting a silver bullet journal I did want the original like black was like this is kind of fun and they didn't have the black one so I got this one I haven't started bullet journaling yet but I'm so excited to start bullet journaling if you know anything about me sweetie you know that I literally so I was thinking you know what why not design my own that fits my needs and what I want I bought a bunch of like markers and pens and more markers I just hope I start so if you guys are interested in seeing something around that let me know down below I'm super excited I just don't have a bullet journal I just have a bunch of papers everywhere and that's just not really productive so I'm excited a lot of you are asking about dogs and whether Dennis and I are planning on getting new pets yes Dennis and I have been thinking about this and he was actually the one that brought it up and I was like oh my god thank god because I've been wanting to put her have a fall and it's just kind of sad like what do you have on one dog you want them to have like a companion I feel like Cooper's kind of like lonely sometimes and but make me feel better whenever I have to go somewhere and leave him home of course my dream would be to have another golden retriever because they're my favorite in the world but Dennis says no no no no no more golden retrievers they shed a lot if you see me my pants always covered in hairs do I mind no cuz I love my dog but Dennis minds he wants another dog that sheds a puck little derpy little fat pug which I do not mind that are so cute it took me a little bit of time to like get with the idea because I love bigger dogs there's more of a medium sized dog the thing with pugs is that I feel like they have a lot of health issues and so unless you get a good breeder or you get one that has like a good list of a family history then it's kind of tough to they know whether you're getting a good healthy dog that's like my main concern I really like this question this is by DJ 68 you asked what made you realize that you needed self-love I don't know what it is recently but a lot of you have been like I'm so proud of you for like incorporating more self-care and like more self-love I don't know if it's like the quotes I'm putting on like my insta story I'm very active with you guys on there or just like showing you guys everything that I've been doing to take care of myself but I think like self-love goes in with self-care what inspired me to do that is that you know for my first 3 4 years of doing YouTube I really didn't do any of that all I did and all I focused on was work I was very distant from like my family if shoes with people very like stressed all the time I was having health issues I wasn't sleeping at all I was an eating right I was just like not taking care of myself at all through life and through you know people and just myself I started to realize like you know this is great and everything but I have to have the balance I was like that's it we need to take care of it I've seen the importance of it I've prayed upon it for just like a little bit more like relaxing time for me to just realize like this is great but this isn't my everything nee metcon asked what is the worst and best thing about being married and living with your significant other the best thing about being married is course it's kind of cliche but you know you are living with like your best friend you're living with this person that you love so much you get to grow with it's really nice to look back on everything you get to accomplish together and how you grow as a person our relationship we've been together for I think eight years I don't know I honestly lose calm but it's like we're totally different people in a way like from what we started we've grown we've developed we've changed gotten better we've improved and I think that's such a beautiful thing to see overall it's amazing right worst thing about being married like in any relationship you can butt heads with each other a lot learning how to listen to the other person and and understand what their needs are and what your needs are right one of our issues that we have is that I like to be in bed by 12:30 p.m. because I like to get a little bit of sleep here and there right I actually don't enjoy sleep very much but recently I've been incorporating it more into my self-care and what goes along with that is I would like to have my husband in bed with me by 12:30 but Dennis loves to be playing video games and stuff like that so we've come to an agreement that you know 12:30 is our time of just like relaxation we get to spend time with one another especially if you work together and especially if you work from home establishing boundaries is so important how many hours are we gonna work today like truly how many hours from 95 this to that I mean the beauty of our job is that we can be very flexible with it but at the same time when you are your own boss you are so hard on yourself so yeah so now we have a rule where it's like we're not gonna be working all day because we used to have like oh gosh 16-hour days like crazy like just crazy crazy crazy and that's not sustainable it healthy and no one's happy I love this one cuz I love talking about Jupiter what is the story behind Jupiter how did you get him and what made you get him by clairebear seven one six oh five I was in Columbia where my parents are from I went into this it's like a show dog place called pinaka if you guys ever go it's like it's near a tomainia and whatnot I was recording like the the show which by the way there's like some crazy stuff that happens in the show they grab like this little dog and they kind of like make him fly and that poor dog's tail is like so bent and like poor little thing I think the guy that hosts the entire thing walks in with two beautiful golden retrievers a magical angelic music playing like oh I told my sister that is going to be mine still living with my parents at the time so it's very much up to them whether we could I mean I was gonna pay for it but they were gonna have to let me live with Jupiter in the house so I convinced them oh so extra did a PowerPoint I pretty much gambled beard with my on for her to call the place and ask how much she was but in the end we ended up getting him I mean I really truly felt like I needed a companion was kind of in that time of YouTube where I was really overworking myself too much I had so much anxiety because I was constantly stuck at home and I wouldn't allow myself to like get out of the house and I was actually having anxiety to like leave and be in public I feel like he's really gonna help me just relax myself I really want a golden retriever and I want this dog please allow me to have it they did I promised them I would take it care of him and so Jupiter was are you a Christian and this interesting question I don't really touch on religion a lot on this channel but this year for me is all about being transparent yes I am I'm currently trying to get closer to the law and trying to go to church I actually had an experience yesterday where I just felt like I reconnected with God it's been something that I've really been wanting I've been praying on it's such a beautiful thing and I hope to talk about it more on this channel it almost makes me emotional I don't know it's very interesting but I've been needing this for a while in my life and I'm happy that it is here again I'm happy to talk to you guys more about things I have had incredible things in my life that God has given me and promises that he has made to me it's something I've never shared I can't believe it's something that I've really I haven't really worked for again to receive and I'm just I'm all in again I'm super excited do you have any new plans or goals for 2019 I have so many plans so many goals for 2009 literally created my vision board it just something I'm so happy to be able to look at it every day to just be able to find myself and visualize the things I want to create in my life if you guys would like another video on this I just want to get more in depth on like the things that I want to do but just like right off the bat you know I want to go grow closer to God well sort of my family to my friends again I want to have more balance with word want to learn Chinese because I was taking Chinese classes and I want to be able to explore more of the world explore more of myself create new hobbies for myself invest in myself and nurture those interests and yeah those are some of my my goals I would love to know what your new year's resolutions are or just some of your goals are down below in the comments I hope you guys enjoyed this little Q&A with me it was something that definitely gave me a little bit of like butterflies and nerves but I'm happy that I finally get to sit down with you guys I'm seeing life in a different way I want to grow closer to you all to show you more a little bit of behind the scenes of my life if you enjoyed to this video make sure you give it a thumbs-up if you'd like to connect with me outside of YouTube I'm always on Instagram on Twitter peace to the world for generations but\n"