A Conversation with [Name]: Behind the Scenes and Personal Insights

In this candid conversation, [Name] opens up about their personal life, relationships, and experiences. The interview, which took place on a beach vacation, provides a unique glimpse into their personality and thoughts.

On Differences in Opinion and Compassion

[Name] begins by expressing their desire for more compassion and understanding towards others who may hold different opinions. They acknowledge that not everyone will share the same views, and that's okay. "I love Lucy or Golden Girls," they say with a smile, "only one can be with you on an island." This lighthearted comment sets the tone for a relaxed and informal conversation.

A Touching Moment from Their Child

One of the most touching moments in the conversation comes when [Name] discusses their child's kind words about them. "It was very sweet," they say, "it's always really nice when your only child obviously says the nicest things about you." However, they also want to make it clear that their relationship with their child has not been without its challenges. "We have had our struggles," they explain, "I don't want anyone to ever think that we're perfect because we're not." Despite these struggles, [Name] is grateful for the love and support of their child.

The Power of Easter Eggs

[Name] also talks about how their children sometimes leave little "easter eggs" for them, comments or messages that show they've been paying attention to what their parents have said. When their child made a comment that was particularly sweet, [Name] was touched by the thought and realization that their child is listening and taking notes.

Q&A Session

The conversation takes a turn to Q&A as [Name] answers questions from their fans. "If I could have brunch with anyone dead or alive," they say, "I probably choose Robin Williams." They also confirm that they will be vlogging more on their beach vacation this year, and tease that Megan and Micah will be joining in.

Their Favorite Holiday

When asked about their favorite holiday, [Name] reveals that it's fall. "There's something incredibly magical about fall," they say. "It's like the gateway to nicer weather, Halloween, and Thanksgiving...it's just a fun time of year." They can't quite put into words what makes fall so special, but acknowledge that it's a feeling that many people understand.

Conclusion

As [Name] concludes their conversation, they express gratitude for the opportunity to share themselves with their fans. "I hope you guys enjoyed getting to know me a little bit better," they say. With a final farewell, [Name] promises to continue filming and sharing more content in the future. The audience is left with a sense of warmth and connection, having gained insight into the personality and thoughts of this fascinating individual.

"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enhi guys so today's video is going to be i mean dare i call it a rare q a i don't do very many of these at all i'm thinking at the top of my head i've probably done three i don't even know really what the number quite is because i haven't looked back but i'm going to do a q a today i took to my instagram and that's where i got these questions so i asked for those of you that follow me there what you want to know so i got quite a few so actually what you're going to find in this video is i actually already filmed this and i decided that i got even more questions i mean there's just so many and then there were i think as i went through the video after i filmed it there were some that was kind of like i don't know i thought it was kind of boring a little bit so i'm gonna kind of re-edit but there are some questions i'm gonna keep so you'll kind of see me go back and forth between this look and then a different look because it was you know filmed before this so that's what we're gonna do so let's get started i mean the first one is who's your favorite jay girl please you know who you are so i got asked uh what's the youngest and oldest range and age would you date and marry and if they had little kids is it a deal breaker i should have run away and fast that's actually a really good question so i'm actually attracted to older men i i feel like i kind of not real well in high school no because like my high school sweetheart and actually he was older by two weeks so there we go but no like i feel like once i kind of got into my 20s i kind of had like relationship like those early 20 relationships i yeah and then i think after those i started being more attracted to older men and i think the reason for that was because i was a young single mom and i the guys at in my age at that time just didn't seem mature enough for me and so i found myself just being attracted to older guys and i would say about like five five to seven years i think is like the range not too much older i feel like that's kind of actually pre probably pretty standard anyways um but i do like definitely prefer older guys and still still now i feel like i would um yeah if they had little kids would it be a deal breaker i've thought about this actually in the past a lot and i'd have to say yes it would be um love children i'm obsessed with my niece and nephew but you know this is a whole different ballpark of if it becomes serious you live with them um you know that's not the life that that's not where i'm at in my life i've my daughter's you know she's 21. um and that also answers that i've also been asked do i want any more kids and i think i've answered this before but the answer is no i do not for me it's not appealing at all to want to start over um as a matter of fact the thought alone i think traumatizes me a little bit like no and i've known this since she was like at the point where she reached 16 years old i was like there's no way i would want to do this all over again so i'm definitely a one one child um person but yeah i would definitely be a deal breaker i would um but like i would know that up front so knowing that up front like i i wouldn't even like go on a date you know and just disappoint or for both parties you know i wouldn't want to find myself falling for somebody to be like oh my gosh you have a kid you know um because again i'm just not i'm not in that time of my life and i don't think i'll i'll ever be i did not know she followed me lyric lover crafts i'm fangirling right now i love your channel so much um i will link it down below for you guys but she asked how did you take the leap of faith and leave your corporate job to do youtube full-time my dream too i um that's a hard one i feel like that's a different journey for everybody um if you are married and you have like two incomes that could be an easier transition for for the family um and then there there was just me at the time so i didn't have any kids in daycare so i didn't have like you know those typical expenses and things but honestly i pushed it off a lot longer than i should have i just i just kept doubting and i just didn't have the faith to be honest and it wasn't until i was run so ragged with my job that i was like i can't anymore and it i was literally pushed off the edge and it was like okay i'm just like i'm either gonna crash and burn but like i can't do both and if i have to choose i'm gonna choose the one that i feel like makes me the happiest so uh since we're on this topic i've gotten like what did you used to do before what's your occupation all those things so i do youtube full-time that's what i do um i run a crafty girl this channel you're watching on and i run crafty girl vlogs so that's what i do now um and when i was in the corporate world i really didn't like mentioning what i was doing i didn't think that it was honestly relevant at all it was private information it's been several years now and i what i did was a little complicated to talk about it was in the mortgage field but basically i was an architect i designed software so that's what i did and what's funny is i've never mentioned this i don't think i've mentioned this but i we like we have clients and i've had some clients recognize me i don't know if they still watch me or not like what goes on um obviously not my clients anymore but um that that was a kind of a tough one for me just because um what i did was very like serious and you know always busy and doing the things and then youtube was just my normal you know my normal self my normal so it's just like yeah it i guess i felt some type of way about it but in terms of like the question of you know going from corporate to this what ended up happening and i love my love my boss so much i respected him so much so what was happening was i could never say no um he just relied a lot on me and so they had me do not only my my designing work but it was like they wanted me to do project management and then all these other things for the client and um it outside of of what i was basically paid to do and it was just it was a lot i was spread too thin and um it was it was the right thing honestly just all the way around it was the right thing for me to go but because i respected my boss so much i think that's why i held on as long as i did because um i just did never want to let him down and but i was but i was taking the hit in the process so i was asked if i could only watch one movie for the rest of my life what would it be and then same for a book i've actually thought about this so sierra very good question love you too girl by the way um and i've thought long and hard about this and i thought okay one movie for the rest of my life what would that be and the answer is loki the answer is goonies now even though it's my favorite movie that doesn't necessarily mean like i would want to watch it for the rest of my life but the reason why i still picked it for that answer is because i feel like i get so much out of it i love the setting there's daytime shots there's nighttime shots and i love that i love when you know it's like there's just different weather and things going on i love that the ocean is in it i love that it's like fun and exciting i love the music i love the comedy i also really like the fact that it's kind of giving you somewhere between summer and fall vibes because they are kind of like going back to school or they're like in school um so yeah there's just something about like seasonal things being in movies and i just feel like goonies is a good all-around answer as far as books go i have not thought to be honest very hard about this i'm just gonna tell you the one at the top of my head and it's called the prize by julie garwood the concept is so cute and i kind of remember like gasping a little bit at like the plot of how she structured it basically this king is going to give his men the odd the ability to fight for this girl's hand she is the prize because she also comes with this like property essentially but then when she gets there she shows up she's really nervous she's already met this guy and she can't stand him but you know what i mean but she can and she ends up doing something for the king and then the king reverses the role and makes the men the prize and she gets to pick and i just like um are you still working on writing a novel the answer is yes um that is like my ultimate dream um it's been my dream since i was a little girl i've been writing since i was a little girl and i'm in a lot of ways i'm disappointed in myself i don't know why i haven't made it come to fruition i don't but i'm i'm working on it how many pounds do you think loki will be when full grown loki will most certainly reach 145 for sure if not 155 the next question is by ainsley were you nervous for people in your life to find your youtube channel when you first started yes and in a way i'm still kind of like that i've never really like offered the information per se but it's kind of like at this point my closest family know um but i i have not even like shared it with my dad so i yeah i don't know there's just something about it where it just didn't come so naturally for me to be like oh look at what i'm doing i think because of me coming from a different generation and i feel like it's a lot easier for like the younger kids kind of coming up you know they grew up around this technology around i grew up on a beeper okay i didn't get any beeps there were no beeps to be had because if you had to beep you had to use a landline or stop at a pay phone and not one of us you know what i'm saying so um but yeah so i mean the answer is yes i mean at this point i feel like people know and they know and it is what it is so i've def i've gotten used to it for sure uh why are you only focusing on junk journal i switching it with other interesting content would be good i sorry i don't don't know if i understand that last part um as some i'm how do i say this and because of that i go through different interests and different things and you watch me grow as a person and you can change you can change your mind different things can can become appealing or not appealing and i'm in this place where i'm really enjoying junk journaling and whatever you see is really you watching my way through life essentially you're watching what interests me what doesn't um so i i hope hopefully that answers it's not that i'm only focusing on junk journal for a specific reason it's just my current interest um like like for example you know i really stopped doing a lot of my planning videos they were not i wasn't inspired anymore i just they weren't compared to everything there was a lot that that factored into this decision i get asked all the time for planning videos and the amount of work that goes into them compared to like how i felt about doing it and compared to the views it just wasn't adding up i was having a lot more fun with the other videos that i do now and everything just like and you all seem to like it too so there's that um i've been asked am i dating anyone i've gotten a lot of those questions the answer is no i'm not dating anybody right now and um and i'm it's been a long time since i've officially dated someone um and it's kind of nuts i'm not gonna lie like in a lot of ways i can kind of separate myself and look look at myself kind of like how you're looking at me and i'm like you good like it has been a while but when i think about all the relationships i've been through and i just you know in my 20s i just wasn't good at them i really wasn't i was when i was younger i was very insecure argumentative probably a lot of that was maybe from postpartum i never really was checked or took care of myself after i had my daughter at 18 years old and taking care of her when i was sick when i had to go to work trying to get her to daycare trying to make sure we had food there were times we didn't like it was just and i i imagine that you know my body chemically was completely off and thus resulted in just really failed relationships um on both parts not just me by the way um but i had i would say like two decent relationships and um but i really wanted to just focus on me focus on my daughter that was actually one of the biggest reasons why i stopped dating after my last relationship i just looked back at my history and i was just like too much too much dating too much trying to find the right guy i just wanted to watch my daughter grow up i wanted to watch her go through high school and so i did that and then when she graduated i was just like i still don't care to date because what i learned in those four years was that i still needed more time to myself i liked being in my own space and maybe i'm better off this way not everyone is maybe meant to date and meant to marry and i think even god talks about like people that are meant to be single and maybe that's me maybe it's not i i'm sure that it would clearly just take the right man for me and i'm not saying that i'm not gonna entertain that i will be completely open to that but i know that i don't want to sacrifice what has made me happy and the thing about relationships it's a compromise am i willing to compromise that's the thing i don't know i've been alone so long that now it's kind of like can i can i share my life i don't know i would say like probably the most ideal thing for me right now like thinking about at the top of my head would probably just be to date somebody who kind of has the same like feeling you know you necessarily don't want to like live together but you want to share time together that would probably be like the most ideal thing for me um so there's that answer currently not dating anybody i was asked by elizabeth can i put loki in the beginning of all of my dollar tree halls just asking you ask and you shall receive he's insane the question is do you want to see the items so a lot of these questions i've already been asked i think have been like answered in previous q a's i'm not sure you guys like you know my memory um i get asked all the time about like relationships my mom my dad like and i get it i think i think what happens is i do share so much of my life so when there are things on your end that you feel like oh you know this isn't mentioned i completely understand the curiosity um but i just simply don't mention absolutely everything you know but i also i do feel how you would want to know that on your end if that makes sense so but i think i've answered some of these i'll try to find my previous q as and link them down below um will i be decorating for summer and fall and answers yes i know you haven't seen it i didn't end up doing valentine's day spring i did like a couple of little things but what happened is that i redecorated my whole house which you guys saw like after christmas honestly i surprised myself i just started hitting every room and i was tired i was like i want to get this house done and i also changed my aesthetic a little bit um i i started adding some victorian things and stuff and i think i just wanted to simply enjoy you know all those things so but i but i will get right back into seasonal decorating holiday decorating because it's like my favorite thing and um dollar tree and decorating with you guys is like my most happiest thing ever why do you seem to not have a friend i don't know i don't know if that was an insult or not but um that's another thing too for me i i do i have i have my brother he is my best friend and for me it's quality over quantity uh there's a lot of people who have different personalities and i feel like and i could be wrong but reading your comment you probably have a few friends if not a lot of friends um so seeing somebody that doesn't it's kind of a hard concept to understand um like my for example my sister-in-law she is just the the sweetest person on the earth has so many friends i can see why she is a great hostess she loves that it's not my vibe personally um so me not having friends i feel like i do i just don't do my life the way other people do it i like being home i like doing these things i've been there done that i've had all the friends i've i've gone out and honestly even then i was just like i just want to go home um are you ever going to do videos again on crafting or planning i think i kind of answered that i am trying to figure out right now how i want to handle that um because what i don't want to do is start throwing in more variety of content i unless i feel like i just want to change everything that i'm doing which i can right like i talked about it's you're watching me go through my life and me go grow and you know i could change my mind and completely stop doing dollar tree hauls and and stuff and i could just end up doing all planner like if but i'm not there i love dollar tree so much so for me i'm still in that ballpark so in terms of planning i just don't think right now it's going to be on this channel so right now i'm trying to figure out how does it fit into my vlogs so i'm considering doing like a um like a patreon kind of thing where if you want to watch that content then you will exclusively get that content but you'd have to like have a subscription to it so that's kind of where i'm at what has been my favorite type of house decor that's a really good question and i actually i have an answer for you because i just really kind of said it to myself just the other day french country cottage have your thought of just meeting a guy for just coffee just to see if it's fun to get out and talk to people but the answer is no i've not thought of that um do you set up doggy play dates for loki we we have like a neighborhood thing um and i have a couple of like the mom's numbers but we also know that we'll all be there at the same time same day favorite 90s tv show that's a very good question i would say the one that just immediately pops in my head would probably be sabrina the teenage witch with melissa joan hart um uh yeah i'm i feel like i'm drawing a slight little blank but alt frazier frasier was 90s so frasier first yeah i don't know what just happened there frasier first but i also really like sabrina the teenage witch what am i most looking forward to in the future i'm looking forward to still sharing my journey with you guys and hoping that you still love the content um you know that's a thing you you wonder if if you'll still be relevant and entertaining and so i always think about how i would love to just say to you guys can you believe we've all been here for like 10 years 15 years like i think about that all the time um and hoping that you're there right along with me i also hope that i'm a writer will you be my bff yes i will apparently i need friends do i ever get scared in my home no i don't loki no not with loki and this neighborhood's very protected as a matter of fact while i was filming this cop rolled by twice they're always here patrolling um not security cops so um i'm camera security system no i don't get scared um how long have you lived in texas since i was six and a half ish years old i'm 40 now so do the math i was also asked do you tell your daughter not to get married young i'm not sure i understand her like if that was structured the wrong way um i do i do not tell my daughter um kind of like what she can and can't do i'm an advocate for telling her that she just it's her life and she needs to decide what that's going to look like i do lend the experience i have had and from what she has told me she wants to like live it up in her 20s and i'm like yes go for it but you know i didn't have that opportunity so for me it sounds appealing but i have to remember it's not about me it's about her so whether she wants to get married and sarah family do all those things like it's her life um that's actually something when she was younger i found myself putting her in soccer doing all the things that i used to do and then it it i don't know what happened i literally like i had a moment where everything switched i remember and i have a bad memory but i remember this i remember looking at her and thinking what am i doing like this isn't her she doesn't enjoy this she doesn't like this this isn't me this isn't me going through this this is her going through it and that's actually how she got into cheerleading because that's what she wanted to do so and i it was actually a really beautiful good moment where i was just like i let it go and i it clicked in my brain that she is her own person and you know so anyways i don't know if that makes sense all right let's get some juicy ones i hope you guys like the longer one the longer q a today what's something you should have gotten in trouble for but got away with i feel like as a kid i did everything that i was supposed to do essentially like overall i would say i was a very good kid raising raising micah i mean i didn't have time to really like get myself into trouble you know or um so i oh i wish i had a juicy answer for this you know what one time here we go one time my best friend and i in high school we got dressed up like we were in clueless that was the that was the vibe then the the pleated plaid skirts the thigh highs or the knee highs the mary janes oh what a time of course it was all her outfits because i didn't i didn't get clothes like that but um we i think we went to like a field behind her house i think we tried to let light it on fire i just said i was a good kid and didn't do anything it didn't catch fire have i ever performed stand-up comedy or considered it i am not that funny absolutely not people would have to be refunded best memory ever with my daughter i would say hands down this one comes to my mind immediately and we also cats out of the bag i said this the other day but um i've tried i've kept her name literally a secret for the longest time i did not ever release where she went to college although a lot of people just had to like snoop and know but like whatever um obviously for security reasons and i could get into some of the crazy things where the campus like had to know and like protect all that stuff but anyways um texas tech and we had to move her out i'm trying to remember though was it freshman year was it move out of her freshman year it wasn't her sophomore year i don't know what we're doing but we went there we drove there and came back in one day it's like a five hour drive did the drive there back by the time we were going we were coming back home we were looney tunes we laughed so hard on that drive back it was the best time of our lives i will never forget it i will i need to call micah down here let me let me let me call her down here for this um but i would say that was just the best memory just like being in the car and laughing we were i think there was a point where we were um dancing to music and oh i wish i could find these videos because i don't think i ever released them how do i feel about her being the public guy now oh man a part of me is relieved because the thing is is that i feel like when you don't want to share something people automatically assume that you're like hiding something and you're not you just want to be protective and you want to be private and um and but i'm also watching myself you know i'm watching what i'm saying and it's just it's kind of nice like i'm filming i'm filming my q a and somebody asked what was the best memory we had and the first one that came to mind what do you think it was i want to know what if it was for you i don't know it was when we drove to lubbock and came back in the same day oh yeah that was intense that was hilarious but like you i told them about the bottle cap but like i was wondering where it went i got that on camera because we were singing weren't we we were like singing and dancing and you were like why and i stopped i was like what is it and micah goes i was looking for that hey here she is but like what happened on that trip was it freshman year move out yeah okay but like what else happened on that tr on the ride home we kept wanting to drive an atmosphere like that's the state we were in we were just we were done then another question i got asked was from one gen x to another how do you really feel about millennials nowadays i actually think i'm a millennial um i don't because i think my daughter and i are actually in the same like ballpark according to our age i think 1980 is like the end of gen x right and 81 and up is millennial so i think i'm technically a millennial i don't know someone correct me but i'm wrong but i'm 9 i was born 1981 so but essentially um in terms of maybe just like the kids like in her age range you know that's a very personal question because what i'm learning nowadays is it's kind of like you can't really say anything and because it's gonna be offensive and i and i'm and it's like it's a sad thing um that you kind of wonder is there free speech without like the backlash and the consequences um i think that we're all here on earth all trying to go through it as best as we can and making mistakes and learning hopefully and growing i've made a lot of the same mistakes over and over that's a lot of reasons why i keep myself so closed in and closed off because if you really start to like talk about what you think you get attacked if it's not the same if it's not the same as the other person like you know everyone's going to have like a different point of view and the reason for that is because everyone has a different walk of life and you can only see life from your perspective from the footprints of your life you don't understand life from somebody else's footprints and i like me too you know i can only understand from what i've been through um but also at the end of the day we're also human it's hard not to like have an opinion or kind of have judgment it is a it is a generation that i think needs a little bit more um compassion for people having difference of opinions and not being so like wired and uh you know if everything doesn't match up oh wow you this one asked a lot of questions um frasier i love lucy or golden girls only one can be with you on an island that's you're doing me dirty that's a dirty question um because you know i can't answer that but frasier i love lucy or golden girls only one can be on an island am i getting off the island eventually or is like that it like i'm on an island i'm not getting off kind of thing if that's the case i would say i love lucy if there's a potential for me to get off the island i would say frasier this next question said i just saw megan's video where micah called you a queen what is your response to that um it was very sweet it's always really nice when like your only child obviously says the nicest things about you um i want it to be known though like just to keep it on the real real you know we have had our struggles i don't want anyone to ever think that we're perfect because we're not um but we do have a very good fun dynamic together and her calling me that i mean it's it kind of makes me emotional a little bit too just because she's not very like sappy in a way and so for her to say that was really sweet but she's also been very supportive of me so i know i know that she looks up to me and that she she sees my independence so and whenever your kids do say stuff like that and and in that moment when i watched her and the way she was talking about me what ends up happening at least in my brain i don't know if any other mother can attest to this but when they say little easter eggs like that i guess you could say you really you really see how you've raised them i guess what i'm trying to say is you kind of wonder if they're paying attention if they're listening to you when you are giving them advice you know because you don't know if it's going through one ear and out the other so when they make comments like that it's one of those moments where not only is the comment very nice but it's even more so like they've been listening all right i'm just gonna rapid fire a couple of them um if i could have brunch with anyone dead or alive who would you choose i probably choose robin williams will you vlog more on your beach vacay this year i absolutely will and guess who else is going to be vlogging megan micah i'm sure you're going to have all kinds of content um so very excited to share that with you guys what's the story with your parents you don't talk about that much again i i explain that it's not so much of um hiding it i'm just by nature a more private person there are things i'm comfortable talking about and there are things that i just don't mention and not for any particular reason other than some things just don't seem relevant um maybe in this part of my life that i i need to share that if that makes sense what is my most favorite holiday and why what do you like to do during that season i have to say and i feel like this is probably a big chunk of a lot of people but there's something incredibly magical about fall i'm gonna say it again but i think the reason for that is it's like the gateway it's like the gates into the just such nice weather and then you get into all the holidays fall you know just fall in general and then you've got halloween and thanksgiving and um you know it's like it's just such a fun time it's a bunch of the it's a couple months where so much is packed into it and um just it's fall there's something so magical about it um just so cozy you know why can't we put into words what fall is because i feel like a lot of you know exactly what i'm talking about it's just you can't explain it's just magical so i feel like i'm probably going to end up filming a part two to this because there's a bunch of other questions that i could do and i need to get like these clips edited into the first clips and that video that i'm looking at right now is already 40 minutes long so i'm going to try to like condense it a little bit but i do hope you guys enjoyed kind of getting to know me a little bit better thank you so much for being here for again being supportive i hope you guys love the q a i'm gonna continue filming after this but this will be like kind of the part two um so that's that i'll see you guys next time byehi guys so today's video is going to be i mean dare i call it a rare q a i don't do very many of these at all i'm thinking at the top of my head i've probably done three i don't even know really what the number quite is because i haven't looked back but i'm going to do a q a today i took to my instagram and that's where i got these questions so i asked for those of you that follow me there what you want to know so i got quite a few so actually what you're going to find in this video is i actually already filmed this and i decided that i got even more questions i mean there's just so many and then there were i think as i went through the video after i filmed it there were some that was kind of like i don't know i thought it was kind of boring a little bit so i'm gonna kind of re-edit but there are some questions i'm gonna keep so you'll kind of see me go back and forth between this look and then a different look because it was you know filmed before this so that's what we're gonna do so let's get started i mean the first one is who's your favorite jay girl please you know who you are so i got asked uh what's the youngest and oldest range and age would you date and marry and if they had little kids is it a deal breaker i should have run away and fast that's actually a really good question so i'm actually attracted to older men i i feel like i kind of not real well in high school no because like my high school sweetheart and actually he was older by two weeks so there we go but no like i feel like once i kind of got into my 20s i kind of had like relationship like those early 20 relationships i yeah and then i think after those i started being more attracted to older men and i think the reason for that was because i was a young single mom and i the guys at in my age at that time just didn't seem mature enough for me and so i found myself just being attracted to older guys and i would say about like five five to seven years i think is like the range not too much older i feel like that's kind of actually pre probably pretty standard anyways um but i do like definitely prefer older guys and still still now i feel like i would um yeah if they had little kids would it be a deal breaker i've thought about this actually in the past a lot and i'd have to say yes it would be um love children i'm obsessed with my niece and nephew but you know this is a whole different ballpark of if it becomes serious you live with them um you know that's not the life that that's not where i'm at in my life i've my daughter's you know she's 21. um and that also answers that i've also been asked do i want any more kids and i think i've answered this before but the answer is no i do not for me it's not appealing at all to want to start over um as a matter of fact the thought alone i think traumatizes me a little bit like no and i've known this since she was like at the point where she reached 16 years old i was like there's no way i would want to do this all over again so i'm definitely a one one child um person but yeah i would definitely be a deal breaker i would um but like i would know that up front so knowing that up front like i i wouldn't even like go on a date you know and just disappoint or for both parties you know i wouldn't want to find myself falling for somebody to be like oh my gosh you have a kid you know um because again i'm just not i'm not in that time of my life and i don't think i'll i'll ever be i did not know she followed me lyric lover crafts i'm fangirling right now i love your channel so much um i will link it down below for you guys but she asked how did you take the leap of faith and leave your corporate job to do youtube full-time my dream too i um that's a hard one i feel like that's a different journey for everybody um if you are married and you have like two incomes that could be an easier transition for for the family um and then there there was just me at the time so i didn't have any kids in daycare so i didn't have like you know those typical expenses and things but honestly i pushed it off a lot longer than i should have i just i just kept doubting and i just didn't have the faith to be honest and it wasn't until i was run so ragged with my job that i was like i can't anymore and it i was literally pushed off the edge and it was like okay i'm just like i'm either gonna crash and burn but like i can't do both and if i have to choose i'm gonna choose the one that i feel like makes me the happiest so uh since we're on this topic i've gotten like what did you used to do before what's your occupation all those things so i do youtube full-time that's what i do um i run a crafty girl this channel you're watching on and i run crafty girl vlogs so that's what i do now um and when i was in the corporate world i really didn't like mentioning what i was doing i didn't think that it was honestly relevant at all it was private information it's been several years now and i what i did was a little complicated to talk about it was in the mortgage field but basically i was an architect i designed software so that's what i did and what's funny is i've never mentioned this i don't think i've mentioned this but i we like we have clients and i've had some clients recognize me i don't know if they still watch me or not like what goes on um obviously not my clients anymore but um that that was a kind of a tough one for me just because um what i did was very like serious and you know always busy and doing the things and then youtube was just my normal you know my normal self my normal so it's just like yeah it i guess i felt some type of way about it but in terms of like the question of you know going from corporate to this what ended up happening and i love my love my boss so much i respected him so much so what was happening was i could never say no um he just relied a lot on me and so they had me do not only my my designing work but it was like they wanted me to do project management and then all these other things for the client and um it outside of of what i was basically paid to do and it was just it was a lot i was spread too thin and um it was it was the right thing honestly just all the way around it was the right thing for me to go but because i respected my boss so much i think that's why i held on as long as i did because um i just did never want to let him down and but i was but i was taking the hit in the process so i was asked if i could only watch one movie for the rest of my life what would it be and then same for a book i've actually thought about this so sierra very good question love you too girl by the way um and i've thought long and hard about this and i thought okay one movie for the rest of my life what would that be and the answer is loki the answer is goonies now even though it's my favorite movie that doesn't necessarily mean like i would want to watch it for the rest of my life but the reason why i still picked it for that answer is because i feel like i get so much out of it i love the setting there's daytime shots there's nighttime shots and i love that i love when you know it's like there's just different weather and things going on i love that the ocean is in it i love that it's like fun and exciting i love the music i love the comedy i also really like the fact that it's kind of giving you somewhere between summer and fall vibes because they are kind of like going back to school or they're like in school um so yeah there's just something about like seasonal things being in movies and i just feel like goonies is a good all-around answer as far as books go i have not thought to be honest very hard about this i'm just gonna tell you the one at the top of my head and it's called the prize by julie garwood the concept is so cute and i kind of remember like gasping a little bit at like the plot of how she structured it basically this king is going to give his men the odd the ability to fight for this girl's hand she is the prize because she also comes with this like property essentially but then when she gets there she shows up she's really nervous she's already met this guy and she can't stand him but you know what i mean but she can and she ends up doing something for the king and then the king reverses the role and makes the men the prize and she gets to pick and i just like um are you still working on writing a novel the answer is yes um that is like my ultimate dream um it's been my dream since i was a little girl i've been writing since i was a little girl and i'm in a lot of ways i'm disappointed in myself i don't know why i haven't made it come to fruition i don't but i'm i'm working on it how many pounds do you think loki will be when full grown loki will most certainly reach 145 for sure if not 155 the next question is by ainsley were you nervous for people in your life to find your youtube channel when you first started yes and in a way i'm still kind of like that i've never really like offered the information per se but it's kind of like at this point my closest family know um but i i have not even like shared it with my dad so i yeah i don't know there's just something about it where it just didn't come so naturally for me to be like oh look at what i'm doing i think because of me coming from a different generation and i feel like it's a lot easier for like the younger kids kind of coming up you know they grew up around this technology around i grew up on a beeper okay i didn't get any beeps there were no beeps to be had because if you had to beep you had to use a landline or stop at a pay phone and not one of us you know what i'm saying so um but yeah so i mean the answer is yes i mean at this point i feel like people know and they know and it is what it is so i've def i've gotten used to it for sure uh why are you only focusing on junk journal i switching it with other interesting content would be good i sorry i don't don't know if i understand that last part um as some i'm how do i say this and because of that i go through different interests and different things and you watch me grow as a person and you can change you can change your mind different things can can become appealing or not appealing and i'm in this place where i'm really enjoying junk journaling and whatever you see is really you watching my way through life essentially you're watching what interests me what doesn't um so i i hope hopefully that answers it's not that i'm only focusing on junk journal for a specific reason it's just my current interest um like like for example you know i really stopped doing a lot of my planning videos they were not i wasn't inspired anymore i just they weren't compared to everything there was a lot that that factored into this decision i get asked all the time for planning videos and the amount of work that goes into them compared to like how i felt about doing it and compared to the views it just wasn't adding up i was having a lot more fun with the other videos that i do now and everything just like and you all seem to like it too so there's that um i've been asked am i dating anyone i've gotten a lot of those questions the answer is no i'm not dating anybody right now and um and i'm it's been a long time since i've officially dated someone um and it's kind of nuts i'm not gonna lie like in a lot of ways i can kind of separate myself and look look at myself kind of like how you're looking at me and i'm like you good like it has been a while but when i think about all the relationships i've been through and i just you know in my 20s i just wasn't good at them i really wasn't i was when i was younger i was very insecure argumentative probably a lot of that was maybe from postpartum i never really was checked or took care of myself after i had my daughter at 18 years old and taking care of her when i was sick when i had to go to work trying to get her to daycare trying to make sure we had food there were times we didn't like it was just and i i imagine that you know my body chemically was completely off and thus resulted in just really failed relationships um on both parts not just me by the way um but i had i would say like two decent relationships and um but i really wanted to just focus on me focus on my daughter that was actually one of the biggest reasons why i stopped dating after my last relationship i just looked back at my history and i was just like too much too much dating too much trying to find the right guy i just wanted to watch my daughter grow up i wanted to watch her go through high school and so i did that and then when she graduated i was just like i still don't care to date because what i learned in those four years was that i still needed more time to myself i liked being in my own space and maybe i'm better off this way not everyone is maybe meant to date and meant to marry and i think even god talks about like people that are meant to be single and maybe that's me maybe it's not i i'm sure that it would clearly just take the right man for me and i'm not saying that i'm not gonna entertain that i will be completely open to that but i know that i don't want to sacrifice what has made me happy and the thing about relationships it's a compromise am i willing to compromise that's the thing i don't know i've been alone so long that now it's kind of like can i can i share my life i don't know i would say like probably the most ideal thing for me right now like thinking about at the top of my head would probably just be to date somebody who kind of has the same like feeling you know you necessarily don't want to like live together but you want to share time together that would probably be like the most ideal thing for me um so there's that answer currently not dating anybody i was asked by elizabeth can i put loki in the beginning of all of my dollar tree halls just asking you ask and you shall receive he's insane the question is do you want to see the items so a lot of these questions i've already been asked i think have been like answered in previous q a's i'm not sure you guys like you know my memory um i get asked all the time about like relationships my mom my dad like and i get it i think i think what happens is i do share so much of my life so when there are things on your end that you feel like oh you know this isn't mentioned i completely understand the curiosity um but i just simply don't mention absolutely everything you know but i also i do feel how you would want to know that on your end if that makes sense so but i think i've answered some of these i'll try to find my previous q as and link them down below um will i be decorating for summer and fall and answers yes i know you haven't seen it i didn't end up doing valentine's day spring i did like a couple of little things but what happened is that i redecorated my whole house which you guys saw like after christmas honestly i surprised myself i just started hitting every room and i was tired i was like i want to get this house done and i also changed my aesthetic a little bit um i i started adding some victorian things and stuff and i think i just wanted to simply enjoy you know all those things so but i but i will get right back into seasonal decorating holiday decorating because it's like my favorite thing and um dollar tree and decorating with you guys is like my most happiest thing ever why do you seem to not have a friend i don't know i don't know if that was an insult or not but um that's another thing too for me i i do i have i have my brother he is my best friend and for me it's quality over quantity uh there's a lot of people who have different personalities and i feel like and i could be wrong but reading your comment you probably have a few friends if not a lot of friends um so seeing somebody that doesn't it's kind of a hard concept to understand um like my for example my sister-in-law she is just the the sweetest person on the earth has so many friends i can see why she is a great hostess she loves that it's not my vibe personally um so me not having friends i feel like i do i just don't do my life the way other people do it i like being home i like doing these things i've been there done that i've had all the friends i've i've gone out and honestly even then i was just like i just want to go home um are you ever going to do videos again on crafting or planning i think i kind of answered that i am trying to figure out right now how i want to handle that um because what i don't want to do is start throwing in more variety of content i unless i feel like i just want to change everything that i'm doing which i can right like i talked about it's you're watching me go through my life and me go grow and you know i could change my mind and completely stop doing dollar tree hauls and and stuff and i could just end up doing all planner like if but i'm not there i love dollar tree so much so for me i'm still in that ballpark so in terms of planning i just don't think right now it's going to be on this channel so right now i'm trying to figure out how does it fit into my vlogs so i'm considering doing like a um like a patreon kind of thing where if you want to watch that content then you will exclusively get that content but you'd have to like have a subscription to it so that's kind of where i'm at what has been my favorite type of house decor that's a really good question and i actually i have an answer for you because i just really kind of said it to myself just the other day french country cottage have your thought of just meeting a guy for just coffee just to see if it's fun to get out and talk to people but the answer is no i've not thought of that um do you set up doggy play dates for loki we we have like a neighborhood thing um and i have a couple of like the mom's numbers but we also know that we'll all be there at the same time same day favorite 90s tv show that's a very good question i would say the one that just immediately pops in my head would probably be sabrina the teenage witch with melissa joan hart um uh yeah i'm i feel like i'm drawing a slight little blank but alt frazier frasier was 90s so frasier first yeah i don't know what just happened there frasier first but i also really like sabrina the teenage witch what am i most looking forward to in the future i'm looking forward to still sharing my journey with you guys and hoping that you still love the content um you know that's a thing you you wonder if if you'll still be relevant and entertaining and so i always think about how i would love to just say to you guys can you believe we've all been here for like 10 years 15 years like i think about that all the time um and hoping that you're there right along with me i also hope that i'm a writer will you be my bff yes i will apparently i need friends do i ever get scared in my home no i don't loki no not with loki and this neighborhood's very protected as a matter of fact while i was filming this cop rolled by twice they're always here patrolling um not security cops so um i'm camera security system no i don't get scared um how long have you lived in texas since i was six and a half ish years old i'm 40 now so do the math i was also asked do you tell your daughter not to get married young i'm not sure i understand her like if that was structured the wrong way um i do i do not tell my daughter um kind of like what she can and can't do i'm an advocate for telling her that she just it's her life and she needs to decide what that's going to look like i do lend the experience i have had and from what she has told me she wants to like live it up in her 20s and i'm like yes go for it but you know i didn't have that opportunity so for me it sounds appealing but i have to remember it's not about me it's about her so whether she wants to get married and sarah family do all those things like it's her life um that's actually something when she was younger i found myself putting her in soccer doing all the things that i used to do and then it it i don't know what happened i literally like i had a moment where everything switched i remember and i have a bad memory but i remember this i remember looking at her and thinking what am i doing like this isn't her she doesn't enjoy this she doesn't like this this isn't me this isn't me going through this this is her going through it and that's actually how she got into cheerleading because that's what she wanted to do so and i it was actually a really beautiful good moment where i was just like i let it go and i it clicked in my brain that she is her own person and you know so anyways i don't know if that makes sense all right let's get some juicy ones i hope you guys like the longer one the longer q a today what's something you should have gotten in trouble for but got away with i feel like as a kid i did everything that i was supposed to do essentially like overall i would say i was a very good kid raising raising micah i mean i didn't have time to really like get myself into trouble you know or um so i oh i wish i had a juicy answer for this you know what one time here we go one time my best friend and i in high school we got dressed up like we were in clueless that was the that was the vibe then the the pleated plaid skirts the thigh highs or the knee highs the mary janes oh what a time of course it was all her outfits because i didn't i didn't get clothes like that but um we i think we went to like a field behind her house i think we tried to let light it on fire i just said i was a good kid and didn't do anything it didn't catch fire have i ever performed stand-up comedy or considered it i am not that funny absolutely not people would have to be refunded best memory ever with my daughter i would say hands down this one comes to my mind immediately and we also cats out of the bag i said this the other day but um i've tried i've kept her name literally a secret for the longest time i did not ever release where she went to college although a lot of people just had to like snoop and know but like whatever um obviously for security reasons and i could get into some of the crazy things where the campus like had to know and like protect all that stuff but anyways um texas tech and we had to move her out i'm trying to remember though was it freshman year was it move out of her freshman year it wasn't her sophomore year i don't know what we're doing but we went there we drove there and came back in one day it's like a five hour drive did the drive there back by the time we were going we were coming back home we were looney tunes we laughed so hard on that drive back it was the best time of our lives i will never forget it i will i need to call micah down here let me let me let me call her down here for this um but i would say that was just the best memory just like being in the car and laughing we were i think there was a point where we were um dancing to music and oh i wish i could find these videos because i don't think i ever released them how do i feel about her being the public guy now oh man a part of me is relieved because the thing is is that i feel like when you don't want to share something people automatically assume that you're like hiding something and you're not you just want to be protective and you want to be private and um and but i'm also watching myself you know i'm watching what i'm saying and it's just it's kind of nice like i'm filming i'm filming my q a and somebody asked what was the best memory we had and the first one that came to mind what do you think it was i want to know what if it was for you i don't know it was when we drove to lubbock and came back in the same day oh yeah that was intense that was hilarious but like you i told them about the bottle cap but like i was wondering where it went i got that on camera because we were singing weren't we we were like singing and dancing and you were like why and i stopped i was like what is it and micah goes i was looking for that hey here she is but like what happened on that trip was it freshman year move out yeah okay but like what else happened on that tr on the ride home we kept wanting to drive an atmosphere like that's the state we were in we were just we were done then another question i got asked was from one gen x to another how do you really feel about millennials nowadays i actually think i'm a millennial um i don't because i think my daughter and i are actually in the same like ballpark according to our age i think 1980 is like the end of gen x right and 81 and up is millennial so i think i'm technically a millennial i don't know someone correct me but i'm wrong but i'm 9 i was born 1981 so but essentially um in terms of maybe just like the kids like in her age range you know that's a very personal question because what i'm learning nowadays is it's kind of like you can't really say anything and because it's gonna be offensive and i and i'm and it's like it's a sad thing um that you kind of wonder is there free speech without like the backlash and the consequences um i think that we're all here on earth all trying to go through it as best as we can and making mistakes and learning hopefully and growing i've made a lot of the same mistakes over and over that's a lot of reasons why i keep myself so closed in and closed off because if you really start to like talk about what you think you get attacked if it's not the same if it's not the same as the other person like you know everyone's going to have like a different point of view and the reason for that is because everyone has a different walk of life and you can only see life from your perspective from the footprints of your life you don't understand life from somebody else's footprints and i like me too you know i can only understand from what i've been through um but also at the end of the day we're also human it's hard not to like have an opinion or kind of have judgment it is a it is a generation that i think needs a little bit more um compassion for people having difference of opinions and not being so like wired and uh you know if everything doesn't match up oh wow you this one asked a lot of questions um frasier i love lucy or golden girls only one can be with you on an island that's you're doing me dirty that's a dirty question um because you know i can't answer that but frasier i love lucy or golden girls only one can be on an island am i getting off the island eventually or is like that it like i'm on an island i'm not getting off kind of thing if that's the case i would say i love lucy if there's a potential for me to get off the island i would say frasier this next question said i just saw megan's video where micah called you a queen what is your response to that um it was very sweet it's always really nice when like your only child obviously says the nicest things about you um i want it to be known though like just to keep it on the real real you know we have had our struggles i don't want anyone to ever think that we're perfect because we're not um but we do have a very good fun dynamic together and her calling me that i mean it's it kind of makes me emotional a little bit too just because she's not very like sappy in a way and so for her to say that was really sweet but she's also been very supportive of me so i know i know that she looks up to me and that she she sees my independence so and whenever your kids do say stuff like that and and in that moment when i watched her and the way she was talking about me what ends up happening at least in my brain i don't know if any other mother can attest to this but when they say little easter eggs like that i guess you could say you really you really see how you've raised them i guess what i'm trying to say is you kind of wonder if they're paying attention if they're listening to you when you are giving them advice you know because you don't know if it's going through one ear and out the other so when they make comments like that it's one of those moments where not only is the comment very nice but it's even more so like they've been listening all right i'm just gonna rapid fire a couple of them um if i could have brunch with anyone dead or alive who would you choose i probably choose robin williams will you vlog more on your beach vacay this year i absolutely will and guess who else is going to be vlogging megan micah i'm sure you're going to have all kinds of content um so very excited to share that with you guys what's the story with your parents you don't talk about that much again i i explain that it's not so much of um hiding it i'm just by nature a more private person there are things i'm comfortable talking about and there are things that i just don't mention and not for any particular reason other than some things just don't seem relevant um maybe in this part of my life that i i need to share that if that makes sense what is my most favorite holiday and why what do you like to do during that season i have to say and i feel like this is probably a big chunk of a lot of people but there's something incredibly magical about fall i'm gonna say it again but i think the reason for that is it's like the gateway it's like the gates into the just such nice weather and then you get into all the holidays fall you know just fall in general and then you've got halloween and thanksgiving and um you know it's like it's just such a fun time it's a bunch of the it's a couple months where so much is packed into it and um just it's fall there's something so magical about it um just so cozy you know why can't we put into words what fall is because i feel like a lot of you know exactly what i'm talking about it's just you can't explain it's just magical so i feel like i'm probably going to end up filming a part two to this because there's a bunch of other questions that i could do and i need to get like these clips edited into the first clips and that video that i'm looking at right now is already 40 minutes long so i'm going to try to like condense it a little bit but i do hope you guys enjoyed kind of getting to know me a little bit better thank you so much for being here for again being supportive i hope you guys love the q a i'm gonna continue filming after this but this will be like kind of the part two um so that's that i'll see you guys next time bye\n"