A Fan's Reaction to the Conclusion of the Series

In this emotional response, the author shares their excitement and satisfaction with the conclusion of the series they've been following. They express their love for the complexity of the relationship between the main character and her mother, particularly in regards to the mother's abandonment and sacrifice. The author praises the author's handling of this plot point, stating that it was a beautiful and satisfying ending to the series.

The author also discusses their favorite moments from the book, including the conclusion of Harper's story arc and the ultimate fate of certain characters. They acknowledge the tragic nature of some events in the series, particularly the death of Daryn and Elias/Lya's brothers, but still find satisfaction in the resolution of these plot threads.

One of the most striking aspects of this response is the author's personal connection to the series. They confess that they're already missing the characters and are eager to reread the entire series from start to finish. This sentiment is underscored by their enthusiasm for re-reading the first book, which has created a lasting impression on them.

The author does acknowledge some criticisms of the book, specifically its length. While they still found it engaging, they felt that certain sections dragged on slightly too long. However, this criticism is minor compared to their overall praise for the series and its conclusion.

Ultimately, the author's response reflects their deep affection for the series and its characters. They express gratitude for the author's skillful handling of complex plot threads and appreciate the emotional resonance of the book's conclusion. As they reflect on their experience with this series, it's clear that the author holds a special place in their heart for these stories.

Reading Experience: A Personal Reflection

As the author read through the book, they found themselves constantly thinking about the first book and their memories associated with it. They couldn't help but feel nostalgic for the time they spent reading the initial novel, which had left such a lasting impression on them. This nostalgia drove their desire to re-read the entire series, as they felt that they needed to recapture the magic of their experience.

This response is remarkable for its level of introspection and personal connection to the story. The author's emotional investment in the series is palpable, and their enthusiasm for re-reading it is infectious. By sharing their thoughts on this book, the author invites readers to join them in revisiting these beloved characters and stories.

Series Conclusion: A Masterful Finale

The author believes that the conclusion of the series was a masterful finale, tying together loose ends and providing closure for the characters. They appreciate how the author handled complex plot threads, particularly those related to Harper's backstory and her relationships with certain characters. This thoughtful handling of these storylines created a sense of satisfaction and completion in the book.

One of the aspects that resonated most with the author was the resolution of Harper's character arc. Despite facing numerous challenges throughout the series, she emerged as a strong and determined individual, capable of growth and change. The author finds this transformation to be inspiring and heartening, highlighting their own admiration for the series' ability to create well-rounded characters.

While some readers may find certain aspects of the book frustrating or unsatisfying, the author's praise is sincere and heartfelt. They acknowledge that not every character lived to see the end of the series, but still found closure in the storylines that did. This acknowledgment serves as a testament to their emotional investment in the characters, who have become an integral part of their lives.

Personal Connection: Why This Series Matters

For the author, this series represents more than just a collection of books – it's a personal and emotional connection. They feel a deep affection for the characters, particularly those they've come to know as beloved family members. The relationships between these characters are authentic and heartwarming, making their interactions all the more poignant.

The author believes that this series has become an essential part of their life, influencing their perspectives on relationships, growth, and personal development. They recognize that other readers may not experience the same level of emotional investment, but for them, this series is a source of comfort and inspiration.

Recommendation: For Fans of Complex Characters and Storylines

The author wholeheartedly recommends this series to anyone who enjoys complex characters, intricate storylines, and emotional depth. While some sections might be lengthy or slow-paced at times, the overall narrative is engaging and immersive. Readers who appreciate character development, nuanced relationships, and surprising plot twists will find themselves swept up in this series.

Ultimately, this response showcases the author's passion for storytelling and their appreciation for the creators behind these books. By sharing their thoughts on this book, they invite readers to join them on a journey of discovery and exploration. Whether you're an existing fan or new to the world of this series, their enthusiasm is infectious – inviting you to explore the stories that have captured their heart.

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"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enhello everybody welcome today is the day and by the day i mean the day that i finally finally read the last book in what is probably my favorite series i have several favorite series but i'd like to consider this one of my all-time favorite series and that is of course none other than the number in the ashes series so today i'm going to be reading a sky beyond the storm which is the final book the fourth book in this series it's the finale and i have been putting this off this book came out in like early december it's now early january and to be fair i have put other books off for much longer than that but i know i need to read this book immediately because i have been trying to avoid spoilers for long enough and at this point i know i'm just gonna get spoiled and it's just gonna be really bad and i'm gonna be really sad about it so i have to finally just sit down and read this book so that's my plan for the day and i plan on vlogging the entire experience and journey and uh probably all the tears i'm going to cry while i read this book like i mentioned it is one of my all-time favorite series i would call it like my favorite series it's up there it's in the category with like all the other favorite series so they're all favorites so they're all my all-time favorite don't judge me this is how i rank things but anyway i love this series with my whole heart i love these characters so much they are some of my all-time favorite fictional characters that i feel very deep attachments to so i'm very sad to see this story come to an end obviously it has to end at some point and i just feel like this is just gonna be sadness from chapter to chapter and i'm not prepared for it but i can't wait to just sob i made a video very similar to this one when i read chain of gold by cassandra clare last year and i basically just vlogged my entire experience of reading the book hence they're gonna be a lot of spoilers in this video so if you've never read the ember in the ashes series first of all go fix that go read the entire series uh because it's so good but if you don't feel like reading it if you have no intention of reading this series but you just want to see me like cry and probably just lose my mind slowly over these characters and whatever's gonna happen to them probably a lot of death then feel free to stay tuned but just know you've been warned the entire video is gonna be completely spoiler filled for the entire series but even if you do end up watching this entire video and just like seeing me cry and none of it makes sense to you i still recommend you go and read the series because i think it's really good and absolutely worth everyone's time and one of the best why a series out there so yes but before we get any further into this video i do quickly want to thank today's sponsor which is skillshare skillshare is an online learning platform with thousands of different classes on pretty much any subject you can 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free trial of skillshare premium membership and after that it's only around 10 a month so once again a huge thank you to skillshare for sponsoring this video and without any further ado let's get back into the vlog so i quite honestly have little memory of what happened in the last bug reaper at the gates because it's been like two plus years at this point it's been some time i did a whole book review for it so i know i like took a lot of notes and like had a lot of in-depth thoughts on it but i don't remember anything because um my memory sucks at this point i remember finding out the truth about cook being lya's mom i remember that elias has essentially like entirely become a grim reaper or whatever it is and helene tore her mask off and the mask was like last key to the thing that the nightbringer is trying to like put together i don't remember exactly can you tell that like i've lost a lot of this it's been a while but i do remember at least some major plot points and i remember being heartbroken and i feel like that's just gonna happen all over again in this one except ten times worse so uh without any further ado let's just start reading the book so the thing is i don't have a physical copy of the book i'm gonna end up having to listen to this entire thing on audiobook which makes me sad cause i ordered my book and then it didn't come um and i was gonna order another one but i was just like too upset about the other book not arriving to me and i didn't have time to order a second one so i ended up just downloading the audiobook instead so i've got the audiobook so we're just gonna listen to this book instead which i'm okay with i've listened to parts of the audiobooks for the other ones before and i like the narrator so i'm excited to start it this way anyway it'll be a different experience unfortunately i won't be able to read it as quickly which is a little bit frustrating because i read faster than i can listen to an audiobook but nonetheless it's still gonna be fine i can't wait i just can't wait i just i need to know what's gonna happen to elias and lya like as we all know they're what i'm here for they're what i've always been here for i love them so much if they don't get a happy ending you're just gonna watch me sob for like an hour anyway um it's about lunchtime right now and i'm really hungry so i'm gonna go and get some food and start listening to the book while i do that so let's go let's start let's start this emotional journey of me losing my mind slowly i can't wait okay so i have listened to about an hour of the audiobook so far and it's 17 hours which is really long i thought i'd be able to finish this today definitely not gonna be able to finish this today considering it's already 2pm so it's gonna take me probably at least another day i'll probably finish it tomorrow so far not a lot has happened since i'm like only a few chapters in anyway but the main thing that has happened is that i now remember things elias has completely become the soul catcher that was the word i could not remember earlier because it had been too long um but he has like completely become the soul catcher now and he has forgotten that he was elias elias is dead because he technically is dead but keenan came back aka the nightbringer came back but came back as keenan and she had some like mixed feelings about that my feelings are that he's the nightbringer and uh he needs to die but he came back as keenan like not as the nightbringer and that was like the first time we've seen him as keenan since torch i think since torch against the night i think so and now we're not exactly sure what's going on there who's gonna die is anyone gonna die i don't know my bet's on no one yet because we're way too early on in the story but then with elias we have one of the augers i can't remember exactly how you pronounce it he's like talking to him and he's telling like the soul catcher you are elias victorious you have to remember who you are we need you for this war so like i'm really hoping that he remembers early on i really don't want to spend this entire book waiting for elias to like realize he's still elias and like come back to life i really don't know how this is going to work because like he's dead kind of basically he's not elias so like how is he going to remember that he's elias i need him to remember that he's elias and i need him and maya to be reunited that's what i need so yeah that's basically all that's happened so far like i said just an hour into it so far still got a long way to go and we'll see we'll see what happens hopefully some big things start happening soon hello everyone good morning so it's actually the next day um i didn't make too much progress with my reading yesterday because i ended up filming my other video and editing that and stuff super late last night so i was up pretty late doing a lot of work but i did make a little bit more progress and we have finally reached what i have been waiting for well kind of what i've been waiting for elias and lia are finally reunited except he's still the soul catcher and like doesn't really remember his old self and she's just like trying to convince herself that like he is the soul catcher elias is dead elias is dead like this is the soul catcher it's not elias and i'm suffering a little uh a lot because it's making me super sad because i just want them to be happy and i want them to be together as themselves but who knows if that's gonna happen um but at least for now they are like kind of reunited so that's the point that i'm at right now i don't know what chapter that is i think i just started part two of the book to be honest so far um the book has been a little bit slow i'm still like not super super far into it with the speed i'm listening at 6 hours and 37 minutes left so like still a long way to go but so far i'm about like three hours into the book my plan is to finish this 100 finish this book by tonight so that i can finally know what actually happens and as for like what i'm going to be doing um mostly just like cleaning my room and stuff which i feel like i do this in every single vlog and you're probably thinking like hannah how's your room this messy all the time i don't know i don't go anywhere or do anything but yet there's like a stack of clothes on my chair like every other day i also need to upload the video that i um finished editing yesterday so i've got to do that which is good because i finished like editing so like don't have to listen to myself talking so um while i do like all of that other stuff um respond to some emails and stuff i can just listen to the book and i feel like i'll definitely be able to finish it today so uh yeah i'm just gonna bring you along as i do all of that and i am super super excited so yeah i'll update you once i get to another exciting part of the book once something major happens again and let you know how things are going so let's go read some more let's find out what happens to my favorite characters let's see how much i cry maybe i won't cry like maybe this will end up being okay because like so far it's making me like a little emotional because like i care about the characters but like no tears yet no tears but i'm probably jinxing myself we'll see okay i just got to chapter or part two of the book and read chapter 15 the soulcatcher chapter okay that is what i've been waiting for for our like first step to getting back to elias and lia and it was so satisfying angst that's what i'm here for the whole like satisfy you conversation i wow elias is like slowly kind of starting to remember things and then like pushing everything else down because he's supposed to just be the soul catcher and like not remember these things and it's killing me and i just want him to remember she ended up leaving her brother and everyone else to follow elias because everyone was like elias is like essential to this we need him to help defeat the nightbringer like we need to figure out what this whole like secret is with the nightbringer and why he needs elias and maya knows that she like cares too much about him too to not help him and not try and get him back and like try and get him to remember so yeah she ends up following him and now she's with him in the waiting place i think that's what it's called hopefully he starts to get some of his memories back and starts to become more elias and less soul catcher we'll see now i've moved on to a blood strike chapter so let's see what's up with helene last we saw her she was getting like shot at with heroes or something so um hopefully she's okay i do want to say i feel like i've mentioned in like previous videos where i've talked about number in the ashes helene is like not my favorite character i know a lot of people love helene i like loki hate helene it's like not even low-key i like kind of hate her but since i reapered the gates i have been more partial to her like i do like her a bit more than i used to and in this one so far she hasn't been in it too much but in this one so far i do like helene a bit more so um she is growing on me slightly i don't want anything bad to happen to her but like i'm hoping she continues to improve i'm going to continue reading i just needed to update about that specific chapter chapter 15 was a lot and i'm so excited to keep going uh yeah i can't wait to just cry some more and i'm currently just working on exporting my video and making my thumbnail and stuff so that i can upload it soon so yeah multitasking we love that yeah anyway i'm gonna get back to reading and i'll update again soon okay literally right as they get reunited they spend like some time together maybe a week and he leaves her again i hate this so something happens while they're in the waiting place and lia's like there's something wrong with the waiting place and the ghosts are trying to tell you that it's me but it's not me and then there's like a gin or something that shows up and there's something going on with the waiting place like the ghosts are scared everyone's like freaking out and elias the soul catcher is like no you have to go so he takes liar out of the waiting place and like leaves her on some street corner basically and then he's like there's nothing wrong with the waiting place but the voice inside his head is like if you leave lyah there she's just gonna die like you have to go save her and he's like no i'm the soul catcher until he finally realizes that there is literally something wrong with the waiting place and she was right she wasn't just like making that up so now he has to figure out what it is but again they were reunited for like three seconds like three seconds and now they're separated again i just i know that this is a number in the ashes book and like i have to suffer and there has to be pain but i just like want them to be happy and together for more than like five seconds and together when they both like remember each other you know when they're both elias and lia not when he's the soul catcher and she's like stop being the soul catcher you know you know why can't we just have nice things that's what i want anyway i have to go back to another helene chapter i know i'm literally only talking about what's going on with elias and leia but like i have my priorities in this series and that is elias and lia's well-being so like you can take that up with um no one because i will not be taking any comments also at one point in this like her sister was like remember when i freed all the scholar slaves and then you were mad at me and um she was like yeah like i feel like everyone else forgets that like remember when helene's sister freed all the slaves and helene was mad at her because she didn't want to free the slaves like why do people like helene so much that's my question i just i want to know all right we just had our first major-ish not major but like named character death ferris just died um i mean i think he died i don't think he's gonna come back to life i don't think that's gonna be some kind of like plot twist or something and helene's trying to not die right now and hopefully she makes it out of this but yeah ferris just died also quickly wanted to check in because i just like had this epiphany that i like completely forgot about i forgot that harper is elias his half brother i forgot that we found that out in the last book and i just remembered that right now so yeah i'm wondering what's going to happen with that i'm wondering where that's gonna go elias currently has been trying to figure out what's going on with the waiting place and what's going on with the gin and stuff and the gin have like kidnapped um lya as well and they're holding her hostage so there's like a lot going on at once like i feel like everybody is like in the middle of some separate battle like there are multiple different battles happening at once some multiple different like major problems like kidnapping war escaping death so much is happening at once i feel like the beginning of this book started off like a little bit slow and now we've just gotten into like chaos mode and i'm not even halfway through so like i don't even know where we're gonna go from here anyway just wanted to mention we've had our first death and now i'm concerned for what's to come i feel like we're going to enter like a little bit of a slow period and then something else is going to happen i just don't know what that's going to be yet i don't know what it's going to be and it better not be the death of one of my favorite characters otherwise i'm going to be so sad okay okay okay okay elias was like the nightbringer must be using the ghosts from the waiting place for something he's using them for something and i have to figure out why so i'm gonna go find the nightbringer and he finds the nightbringer and who does the nightbringer have lia and he is like holding her hostage and then elias is like well i have to save her but then the soulcatcher part of him is like why she's just some random girl and then the loyalized part of him is like no she's not she's lyia and he's just like fighting with himself and he has finally made the decision he made the decision to save her he made the decision to save her because she is lyia and i think i think i think he's finally gonna become elias again we're still so early on in this book and i just i just need it to happen okay i just need it to happen i have been crying about the fact that elias turned into the soul catcher for like three years two years when did the last book come out two years ago and i love elias and i have just wanted him to be happy for so long and he's been so miserable since like book one they've all been miserable since book one to be fair but like if he finally becomes elias again and stops being the soul catcher i'm gonna be so happy i'm gonna be so happy it's all i want it's all i want okay anyway i'm going back to listening i just i want to finish this like immediately and i'm still not even halfway through i just want my favorite characters to be okay why is that too much to ask for sorry quick update i'm listening to the helene chapter and helene literally just just just this is why i don't understand why people like her just now realized that maybe the empire was bad maybe everything that they did caused people so much pain like maybe lyah was right this entire time that enslaving her people was wrong and she finally like fully had this epiphany she's like laya understood this pain lyan understood what this was like and she was right about it all along took you long enough it literally took this girl three books three and almost a half books to finally understand that enslaving people abusing power colonizing land is wrong someone explained to me why everyone likes helene so much someone explained to me why everyone was rooting for helene this entire time because she has always been self-righteous and she's always been part of the evil of this story like i know she like kind of starts getting her redemption arc and that's like nice and everything but why was everyone always on her side like i don't hate her as much now like i'm glad she's like learning things and progressing like took you long enough i don't know why it took you so long to understand that enslaving people is wrong but i'm glad you finally did i just don't get what's so appealing about a self-righteous person in a position of power abusing that power and not believing that it's wrong and like yeah you can say she was like brainwashed by the empire but like how brainway elias figured out that enslaving people is wrong very quickly in the beginning of book one he already thought that what the empire was doing was wrong and he was the son of the commandant so like helene has no excuse she has no excuses anyway that's my rant about helene that's just how i feel that's how i feel glad the girl finally came to her senses glad she finally agrees that enslaving people is wrong but it took her so long it took her so long anyway it's just that she's literally like dying and she's like wow maybe everything i was taught was wrong maybe i wasn't the hero maybe we were the villains the entire time you maybe maybe i i just i don't get it i don't get it i'll never get it anyway i i don't think she's gonna die but at least she finally learned her lesson at least she learned her lesson elias is like low-key elias again hold on hold on hold on hold on hold on hold on i had to pause my chapter because i literally just i can't emotionally prepare myself for this he's kind of elias again and he's regretting it and trying to go back to being the soul catcher and trying to go back to the waiting place and like get away from lya even though he just saved her from the nightbringer and he doesn't like know what to do with himself and like i said i paused big chapter because i just like needed to pace around my room for a second because oh my god this is what i have been waiting for what i've been waiting for okay i need to go back i need to go back to it and see when it happens i'm so upset he became elias again and they had their moment they kissed for the first time in like 84 years and then he just became this whole catcher again i i can't do this i can't do this the number of times they have been separated it's killing me i just want them to be happy i just want them to be happy why why are we here just to suffer i'm gonna go back to reading all right hello so we are in my kitchen now i ended up taking a little bit of a break from reading because i just needed to do some last minute like sound editing on my video and stuff so i had to pause the audiobook for a minute um but my video is finally exporting which is great i'm doing things i'm getting things done today while also reading this book it's so nice but it is now 1 pm and i'm very hungry so i'm gonna make lunch while i listen to some more of the book i'm about halfway through at this point a lot of things are starting to happen things are falling into place i feel like we're gearing up for war at this point i mean that's what everyone keeps telling elias as well the augurs the gym they're like war is your past present and future so like we've seen his past and his presence so like war is the only inevitable outcome so can't wait for that um it's gonna be a bloodbath but yeah i'm very excited to continue i'm really enjoying it right now i haven't been like this invested in a book in a while which is so nice and so refreshing i'm gonna make myself some lunch continue to listen and i will update once some more intense things happening all right so important plot developments we have learned the nightbringer was in love with the queen of the gin but she betrayed him and that's why he's trying to get revenge on everyone so like that's why the nightbringer is doing everything from what i understand so far so things are starting to make a bit more sense and laia is currently talking to the queen of the gin former queen of the gin um and like figuring out this entire situation so yeah just general plot developments that i have now learned that um i have cleared things up a little bit because i have been so confused about the nightbringers plan this entire time everything he does makes literally no sense now it makes a little bit more sense at least for now we'll see i feel like there's still so much that he's planning that we like don't even know about and i'm concerned for everyone's sake chapter 39 what kind of call me by your name is this that mango scene that killed me i don't think i can eat a mango again what the why is it that every single time they kiss though elias just like has to leave he just leaves he just becomes the soul catcher again entirely and he's like no peace bye i'm going i'm leaving i'm gone i just i just want him to be elias again why is this so hard that was a lot though that was really good that scene was really good i'm i don't think i need a mango again though okay some updates helene and harper finally got together that took so long um but i'm glad they both have some happiness that's good but i spoke too soon because um livia just died and i was not expecting that and i wasn't expecting to feel as sad about it as i am because as we know i'm not helene's biggest fan but i do love her sister because she was great she freed all the scholar slaves and like now she's dead and helene's gonna lose it helene's like not gonna be able to handle this um and i don't know what this is gonna lead to but there's so much drama i feel like this entire book so far every chapter has literally just been like battle after battle after battle like every single chapter ends with one of the characters getting wounded for some reason or another and it just like hasn't stopped like no joke the past like 10 chapters in a row at least like they have all ended with someone getting like hurt almost fatally and it's a lot like so much is happening i'm sad i'm so sad i didn't think she would die i have no faith that like anyone's gonna survive this like i'm just convinced everyone's gonna die so i'm just like living in denial right now while they're still alive i'll take like any little bit i can get of them being happy there haven't been that many scenes besides that one mango scene elias remembered what he said to her that night chapter 55 holy you are my temple you are my priest you are my prayer you are my release he said it and i am deceased dude dude chapter 55 and 56 this is insane this is insanity goodbye um have i been waiting literally the past three books for this moment yes i have been i had to pause it because i just i know that this is just gonna end with one of them disappearing having to run away getting nearly killed or actually killed and i just i want to savor this moment i need to savor this moment right now cause like we're not gonna get it back we're still far enough away from the end like there's too much left for nothing major to happen so i just i don't trust it i don't trust any of this i don't trust the happiness that we feel in this moment because it's just gonna be taken away they love each other so much and they have for so long and quite literally every possible obstacle you can think of including a shape-shifting demon has prevented them from being together and i just they deserve this and i know that we're gonna have it ripped away from us i hate it i'm gonna finish this i don't want to finish it but god this scene is so good she just said we have to win because this cannot be the only night we spend together i i love lya i love her i love her and she's so right like girl you have to win you have to win because you guys do deserve to have a life together what was all the pain for if you don't get to enjoy something you know i just i'm so upset okay i'm gonna go back to reading i need to finish this it's killing me this is literally like the fifth time i've paused on these chapters elias knows that after this he has to go back to being the soul catcher and that this is all that they can have and that last case was so desperate it was so desperate i got the pain i am feeling right now this is what i wanted this is what i signed up for i know but i'm still regretting my decisions why did i ever read this book in the first place i wanna be like everything's gonna be okay it's all gonna be fine but like it's not gonna be fine like i know it's not gonna be fine i'm here to suffer you know i'm literally just here to suffer it's fine it's not it's not fine at all but i'm gonna keep going okay hold on did harper just die is that what just happened i i think he just died hold on okay but like harper and lean just got together and like for the first time i like actually wanted good things for helene and now harper's gonna die please tell me he doesn't die i'm gonna be so sad no no did harper really just die he has to be okay colleen's like not gonna recover from this i mean she's already got like a lot of issues but like this is like gonna kill her wow i really didn't think i'd be this sad over harper dying but like i'm really sad about it i have to keep going i have to know what happens hold on hold on i need to pause i need to pause did darn just i do are you kidding me the nightbreaker just snapped his neck snapped his neck i can't i can't you can't no no no no what oh my god oh my god i need like several moments hold on i once again ended up on the floor in my room because this is just where i always end up when things get too dramatic but oh my god hold on you can't kill darren and harper i i can't do that why why it's just because like this whole series started with lyah trying to save her brother and now her brother dies and i i'm so upset i'm so sad i have to keep listening i hate this i have so little left of this book there are 48 minutes left what the hell is supposed to happen in the next 48 minutes this like isn't this is not gonna end well this isn't gonna end well i i can't do this i can't do it i can't do it but i'm gonna do it okay let's go and now lya's going to do it why is going to kill the nightbringer even though she shouldn't kill the nightbringer oh she's going to kill him oh she's going to kill him this is going to kill me lyah just takes the side and slashes the nightbringer that's incredible oh my god it's not going to lead to good things but it's incredible oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god didn't hear of sarah lya's mother just kill charis i'm screaming oh my god hold on she literally just stabbed her through the throat an icon a queen i wow wow wow unbelievable unreal i don't hold on i was about to start crying because elias and lia were about to say goodbye and she was like wherever i am in the world i'll always be with you or whatever some sappy that was like gonna be tragic and sad and then her mom her dead mom is not dead hello why is cook slash mirror of sarah the icon of this entire series why is she the greatest character literally shows up to kill kara saturius and then shows up to prevent elias and leia from being separated i think that's what's about to happen a queen a queen i love her i i have to keep reading hold on i'm losing my mind hold on hold on hold on hold on hold on hold on she's gonna take elias's place as the soul catcher is that what's about to happen is she gonna sacrifice yourself one last time for lya oh my gosh oh my god a few months of training for my future son-in-law we're to turn on some lights it's getting it's getting dark in here helene learn colleen learned and they're making her the empress helene is becoming the empress and she is trying to undo everything that the martial empire did because she learned the satisfaction i feel right now this is what i wanted for her this was the redemption she needed for me to like actually like her and now i actually like her oh my god the she has been through in this book alone is just so sad she has lost everyone she cares about besides elias and lia harper is gone her sister is gone literally her whole family like i this is so sad this is so sad i feel so much for her right now which is the biggest turn of events for me because i really didn't think that would happen but i feel so much for her right now it's just so satisfying because like this is like the redemption that i wanted for her it's a satisfying redemption because like she faced the consequences of her actions like she actually had to face the consequences of her actions and her beliefs and like who she was and what she stood for and now she understands the repercussions of that and she understands like everything she's done and she is actively working towards fixing some of the harm that she has caused and i just i love a satisfying redemption arc a good redemption arc is just so hard to pull off i feel like but this one's so good i love it we're on the last three chapters and the last three chapters are called elias helene and lia he's not the soul catcher anymore he's elias and she's not the blood strike anymore she's helene oh i'm emotional okay i only have three chapters left i have to finish it i'm gonna finish it and then i'll come back and update you all on my final thoughts proposed to her i finished it and he proposed to her with an armlet with the names of her entire family inscribed on it and he says i wish i could live a thousand lives so i could fall in love with you a thousand times goodbye just that's it for me all right yeah peace bye i'm done help that was the perfect ending it was the perfect ending it literally what a perfect ending they just they're happy the biggest plot twist in this book is that liar and elias are happy and alive i'm so emotional i just can't believe it's over i've been reading these books for so many years this series has taken like i think five years or so and i just can't believe it's over that was so good that was so satisfying everything that happened with um her mom the lioness incredible incredible i love the like theme of motherhood in this entire series and especially in like the last two books i loved the complexity of her relationship with her mother because well she didn't know she was her mother at first and when she finds out there's so much complex emotion there because she kind of abandoned her and she wasn't necessarily a good mother because she wasn't present but she also sacrificed like everything for her daughter and it's just so beautiful it's so good oh my god i i just i don't have words i'm just so happy it was just such a satisfying ending i feel like that's what i just keep going back to it was such a satisfying finale to a series it's been a while since i've had this much satisfaction from like the last book in a series where it felt like it was a good conclusion where i didn't feel like something was missing or that it was just like kind of dragging out the story or something like that this just tied everything together so perfectly and i'm happy like i'm so happy like i'm sad because daryn did die which was so depressing so did harper like literally both elias and lya's brothers die which is so tragic and helene got the worst end of everything like everyone she cares about is dead which is so depressing but she still had such a satisfying like redemption arc and like i actually like her now who would have thought but oh my god i just i feel so much about these characters i love this series so much i want to reread it entirely like from the beginning right now as i was reading this book all i could think about was how much i love the first book and like my experience of reading the first book and my memories that i have attached to the time i read it and everything and now i just want to go back and reread the entire series because i i missed the characters already like i literally just finished it and i missed the characters already i uh i'm so emo but yeah as for this book specifically i think i'm gonna give this probably it's not five star for me because i think a number in the ashes and torch against the night are still my two favorites in the series those are definitely five stars for me i think this one is gonna be four and a half so still very close i still really really loved it but it's definitely more of like four and a half stars and that's only because i think it was like a little bit too long there were just parts of it where it dragged out a little bit too much i think not that it was slow by any means because it was just like constant action from like chapter to chapter non-stop but it did like drag out a little bit more i feel like it could have been a little bit shorter but besides that i have no complaints i am so happy that my favorite characters are alive first of all and that they're getting married and they're happy like what what more could i ask for but yeah i loved this i'm so glad i read it i am so glad that this series exists i love leia she's still one of my favorite main characters in all of why a elias is also one of my favorite main characters in all of why a and i think they forever will be they hold such a special place in my heart and they forever will i just i love this series and if you haven't read it um i can't imagine that you'd still be watching this video but if you happen to be read the series i know i just like spoiled everything for you but like still read the series if you haven't read it yet or go reread the series which is what i really want to do right now but um i think that's where i'm gonna end this video i am very emotional i feel like i need to sit in these feelings and process some of what i'm feeling right now for a little while and i don't know how long it's gonna take me to be able to read another book because i'm gonna be like hungover from this one for a while because it made me feel so much but nonetheless i hope you all enjoyed watching this video um and watching me just slowly lose my mind and then regain it back throughout the process of reading this book i hope that it was entertaining for you even if you haven't read this book series if you really haven't read this book series and you watched this whole video please let me know because i'd find that so amusing if you just wanted to see me like slowly lose it because like i feel like i'd watch someone slowly lose it i feel like that'd be pretty entertaining but if you'd like to follow me on any of my social media all of my links are in the description box as always but thank you all so much for watching i hope you enjoyed and i will see you in my next video bye youhello everybody welcome today is the day and by the day i mean the day that i finally finally read the last book in what is probably my favorite series i have several favorite series but i'd like to consider this one of my all-time favorite series and that is of course none other than the number in the ashes series so today i'm going to be reading a sky beyond the storm which is the final book the fourth book in this series it's the finale and i have been putting this off this book came out in like early december it's now early january and to be fair i have put other books off for much longer than that but i know i need to read this book immediately because i have been trying to avoid spoilers for long enough and at this point i know i'm just gonna get spoiled and it's just gonna be really bad and i'm gonna be really sad about it so i have to finally just sit down and read this book so that's my plan for the day and i plan on vlogging the entire experience and journey and uh probably all the tears i'm going to cry while i read this book like i mentioned it is one of my all-time favorite series i would call it like my favorite series it's up there it's in the category with like all the other favorite series so they're all favorites so they're all my all-time favorite don't judge me this is how i rank things but anyway i love this series with my whole heart i love these characters so much they are some of my all-time favorite fictional characters that i feel very deep attachments to so i'm very sad to see this story come to an end obviously it has to end at some point and i just feel like this is just gonna be sadness from chapter to chapter and i'm not prepared for it but i can't wait to just sob i made a video very similar to this one when i read chain of gold by cassandra clare last year and i basically just vlogged my entire experience of reading the book hence they're gonna be a lot of spoilers in this video so if you've never read the ember in the ashes series first of all go fix that go read the entire series uh because it's so good but if you don't feel like reading it if you have no intention of reading this series but you just want to see me like cry and probably just lose my mind slowly over these characters and whatever's gonna happen to them probably a lot of death then feel free to stay tuned but just know you've been warned the entire video is gonna be completely spoiler filled for the entire series but even if you do end up watching this entire video and just like seeing me cry and none of it makes sense to you i still recommend you go and read the series because i think it's really good and absolutely worth everyone's time and one of the best why a series out there so yes but before we get any further into this video i do quickly want to thank today's sponsor which is skillshare skillshare is an online learning platform with thousands of different classes on pretty much any subject you can think of if you have any new year's resolutions or goals to learn something new or to develop a skill that you already have or to just structure your time a bit better taking a skillshare class can definitely help with that and can help give you the structure that you'll need at the beginning of the 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gates because it's been like two plus years at this point it's been some time i did a whole book review for it so i know i like took a lot of notes and like had a lot of in-depth thoughts on it but i don't remember anything because um my memory sucks at this point i remember finding out the truth about cook being lya's mom i remember that elias has essentially like entirely become a grim reaper or whatever it is and helene tore her mask off and the mask was like last key to the thing that the nightbringer is trying to like put together i don't remember exactly can you tell that like i've lost a lot of this it's been a while but i do remember at least some major plot points and i remember being heartbroken and i feel like that's just gonna happen all over again in this one except ten times worse so uh without any further ado let's just start reading the book so the thing is i don't have a physical copy of the book i'm gonna end up having to listen to this entire thing on audiobook which makes me sad cause i ordered my book and then it didn't come um and i was gonna order another one but i was just like too upset about the other book not arriving to me and i didn't have time to order a second one so i ended up just downloading the audiobook instead so i've got the audiobook so we're just gonna listen to this book instead which i'm okay with i've listened to parts of the audiobooks for the other ones before and i like the narrator so i'm excited to start it this way anyway it'll be a different experience unfortunately i won't be able to read it as quickly which is a little bit frustrating because i read faster than i can listen to an audiobook but nonetheless it's still gonna be fine i can't wait i just can't wait i just i need to know what's gonna happen to elias and lya like as we all know they're what i'm here for they're what i've always been here for i love them so much if they don't get a happy ending you're just gonna watch me sob for like an hour anyway um it's about lunchtime right now and i'm really hungry so i'm gonna go and get some food and start listening to the book while i do that so let's go let's start let's start this emotional journey of me losing my mind slowly i can't wait okay so i have listened to about an hour of the audiobook so far and it's 17 hours which is really long i thought i'd be able to finish this today definitely not gonna be able to finish this today considering it's already 2pm so it's gonna take me probably at least another day i'll probably finish it tomorrow so far not a lot has happened since i'm like only a few chapters in anyway but the main thing that has happened is that i now remember things elias has completely become the soul catcher that was the word i could not remember earlier because it had been too long um but he has like completely become the soul catcher now and he has forgotten that he was elias elias is dead because he technically is dead but keenan came back aka the nightbringer came back but came back as keenan and she had some like mixed feelings about that my feelings are that he's the nightbringer and uh he needs to die but he came back as keenan like not as the nightbringer and that was like the first time we've seen him as keenan since torch i think since torch against the night i think so and now we're not exactly sure what's going on there who's gonna die is anyone gonna die i don't know my bet's on no one yet because we're way too early on in the story but then with elias we have one of the augers i can't remember exactly how you pronounce it he's like talking to him and he's telling like the soul catcher you are elias victorious you have to remember who you are we need you for this war so like i'm really hoping that he remembers early on i really don't want to spend this entire book waiting for elias to like realize he's still elias and like come back to life i really don't know how this is going to work because like he's dead kind of basically he's not elias so like how is he going to remember that he's elias i need him to remember that he's elias and i need him and maya to be reunited that's what i need so yeah that's basically all that's happened so far like i said just an hour into it so far still got a long way to go and we'll see we'll see what happens hopefully some big things start happening soon hello everyone good morning so it's actually the next day um i didn't make too much progress with my reading yesterday because i ended up filming my other video and editing that and stuff super late last night so i was up pretty late doing a lot of work but i did make a little bit more progress and we have finally reached what i have been waiting for well kind of what i've been waiting for elias and lia are finally reunited except he's still the soul catcher and like doesn't really remember his old self and she's just like trying to convince herself that like he is the soul catcher elias is dead elias is dead like this is the soul catcher it's not elias and i'm suffering a little uh a lot because it's making me super sad because i just want them to be happy and i want them to be together as themselves but who knows if that's gonna happen um but at least for now they are like kind of reunited so that's the point that i'm at right now i don't know what chapter that is i think i just started part two of the book to be honest so far um the book has been a little bit slow i'm still like not super super far into it with the speed i'm listening at 6 hours and 37 minutes left so like still a long way to go but so far i'm about like three hours into the book my plan is to finish this 100 finish this book by tonight so that i can finally know what actually happens and as for like what i'm going to be doing um mostly just like cleaning my room and stuff which i feel like i do this in every single vlog and you're probably thinking like hannah how's your room this messy all the time i don't know i don't go anywhere or do anything but yet there's like a stack of clothes on my chair like every other day i also need to upload the video that i um finished editing yesterday so i've got to do that which is good because i finished like editing so like don't have to listen to myself talking so um while i do like all of that other stuff um respond to some emails and stuff i can just listen to the book and i feel like i'll definitely be able to finish it today so uh yeah i'm just gonna bring you along as i do all of that and i am super super excited so yeah i'll update you once i get to another exciting part of the book once something major happens again and let you know how things are going so let's go read some more let's find out what happens to my favorite characters let's see how much i cry maybe i won't cry like maybe this will end up being okay because like so far it's making me like a little emotional because like i care about the characters but like no tears yet no tears but i'm probably jinxing myself we'll see okay i just got to chapter or part two of the book and read chapter 15 the soulcatcher chapter okay that is what i've been waiting for for our like first step to getting back to elias and lia and it was so satisfying angst that's what i'm here for the whole like satisfy you conversation i wow elias is like slowly kind of starting to remember things and then like pushing everything else down because he's supposed to just be the soul catcher and like not remember these things and it's killing me and i just want him to remember she ended up leaving her brother and everyone else to follow elias because everyone was like elias is like essential to this we need him to help defeat the nightbringer like we need to figure out what this whole like secret is with the nightbringer and why he needs elias and maya knows that she like cares too much about him too to not help him and not try and get him back and like try and get him to remember so yeah she ends up following him and now she's with him in the waiting place i think that's what it's called hopefully he starts to get some of his memories back and starts to become more elias and less soul catcher we'll see now i've moved on to a blood strike chapter so let's see what's up with helene last we saw her she was getting like shot at with heroes or something so um hopefully she's okay i do want to say i feel like i've mentioned in like previous videos where i've talked about number in the ashes helene is like not my favorite character i know a lot of people love helene i like loki hate helene it's like not even low-key i like kind of hate her but since i reapered the gates i have been more partial to her like i do like her a bit more than i used to and in this one so far she hasn't been in it too much but in this one so far i do like helene a bit more so um she is growing on me slightly i don't want anything bad to happen to her but like i'm hoping she continues to improve i'm going to continue reading i just needed to update about that specific chapter chapter 15 was a lot and i'm so excited to keep going uh yeah i can't wait to just cry some more and i'm currently just working on exporting my video and making my thumbnail and stuff so that i can upload it soon so yeah multitasking we love that yeah anyway i'm gonna get back to reading and i'll update again soon okay literally right as they get reunited they spend like some time together maybe a week and he leaves her again i hate this so something happens while they're in the waiting place and lia's like there's something wrong with the waiting place and the ghosts are trying to tell you that it's me but it's not me and then there's like a gin or something that shows up and there's something going on with the waiting place like the ghosts are scared everyone's like freaking out and elias the soul catcher is like no you have to go so he takes liar out of the waiting place and like leaves her on some street corner basically and then he's like there's nothing wrong with the waiting place but the voice inside his head is like if you leave lyah there she's just gonna die like you have to go save her and he's like no i'm the soul catcher until he finally realizes that there is literally something wrong with the waiting place and she was right she wasn't just like making that up so now he has to figure out what it is but again they were reunited for like three seconds like three seconds and now they're separated again i just i know that this is a number in the ashes book and like i have to suffer and there has to be pain but i just like want them to be happy and together for more than like five seconds and together when they both like remember each other you know when they're both elias and lia not when he's the soul catcher and she's like stop being the soul catcher you know you know why can't we just have nice things that's what i want anyway i have to go back to another helene chapter i know i'm literally only talking about what's going on with elias and leia but like i have my priorities in this series and that is elias and lia's well-being so like you can take that up with um no one because i will not be taking any comments also at one point in this like her sister was like remember when i freed all the scholar slaves and then you were mad at me and um she was like yeah like i feel like everyone else forgets that like remember when helene's sister freed all the slaves and helene was mad at her because she didn't want to free the slaves like why do people like helene so much that's my question i just i want to know all right we just had our first major-ish not major but like named character death ferris just died um i mean i think he died i don't think he's gonna come back to life i don't think that's gonna be some kind of like plot twist or something and helene's trying to not die right now and hopefully she makes it out of this but yeah ferris just died also quickly wanted to check in because i just like had this epiphany that i like completely forgot about i forgot that harper is elias his half brother i forgot that we found that out in the last book and i just remembered that right now so yeah i'm wondering what's going to happen with that i'm wondering where that's gonna go elias currently has been trying to figure out what's going on with the waiting place and what's going on with the gin and stuff and the gin have like kidnapped um lya as well and they're holding her hostage so there's like a lot going on at once like i feel like everybody is like in the middle of some separate battle like there are multiple different battles happening at once some multiple different like major problems like kidnapping war escaping death so much is happening at once i feel like the beginning of this book started off like a little bit slow and now we've just gotten into like chaos mode and i'm not even halfway through so like i don't even know where we're gonna go from here anyway just wanted to mention we've had our first death and now i'm concerned for what's to come i feel like we're going to enter like a little bit of a slow period and then something else is going to happen i just don't know what that's going to be yet i don't know what it's going to be and it better not be the death of one of my favorite characters otherwise i'm going to be so sad okay okay okay okay elias was like the nightbringer must be using the ghosts from the waiting place for something he's using them for something and i have to figure out why so i'm gonna go find the nightbringer and he finds the nightbringer and who does the nightbringer have lia and he is like holding her hostage and then elias is like well i have to save her but then the soulcatcher part of him is like why she's just some random girl and then the loyalized part of him is like no she's not she's lyia and he's just like fighting with himself and he has finally made the decision he made the decision to save her he made the decision to save her because she is lyia and i think i think i think he's finally gonna become elias again we're still so early on in this book and i just i just need it to happen okay i just need it to happen i have been crying about the fact that elias turned into the soul catcher for like three years two years when did the last book come out two years ago and i love elias and i have just wanted him to be happy for so long and he's been so miserable since like book one they've all been miserable since book one to be fair but like if he finally becomes elias again and stops being the soul catcher i'm gonna be so happy i'm gonna be so happy it's all i want it's all i want okay anyway i'm going back to listening i just i want to finish this like immediately and i'm still not even halfway through i just want my favorite characters to be okay why is that too much to ask for sorry quick update i'm listening to the helene chapter and helene literally just just just this is why i don't understand why people like her just now realized that maybe the empire was bad maybe everything that they did caused people so much pain like maybe lyah was right this entire time that enslaving her people was wrong and she finally like fully had this epiphany she's like laya understood this pain lyan understood what this was like and she was right about it all along took you long enough it literally took this girl three books three and almost a half books to finally understand that enslaving people abusing power colonizing land is wrong someone explained to me why everyone likes helene so much someone explained to me why everyone was rooting for helene this entire time because she has always been self-righteous and she's always been part of the evil of this story like i know she like kind of starts getting her redemption arc and that's like nice and everything but why was everyone always on her side like i don't hate her as much now like i'm glad she's like learning things and progressing like took you long enough i don't know why it took you so long to understand that enslaving people is wrong but i'm glad you finally did i just don't get what's so appealing about a self-righteous person in a position of power abusing that power and not believing that it's wrong and like yeah you can say she was like brainwashed by the empire but like how brainway elias figured out that enslaving people is wrong very quickly in the beginning of book one he already thought that what the empire was doing was wrong and he was the son of the commandant so like helene has no excuse she has no excuses anyway that's my rant about helene that's just how i feel that's how i feel glad the girl finally came to her senses glad she finally agrees that enslaving people is wrong but it took her so long it took her so long anyway it's just that she's literally like dying and she's like wow maybe everything i was taught was wrong maybe i wasn't the hero maybe we were the villains the entire time you maybe maybe i i just i don't get it i don't get it i'll never get it anyway i i don't think she's gonna die but at least she finally learned her lesson at least she learned her lesson elias is like low-key elias again hold on hold on hold on hold on hold on hold on i had to pause my chapter because i literally just i can't emotionally prepare myself for this he's kind of elias again and he's regretting it and trying to go back to being the soul catcher and trying to go back to the waiting place and like get away from lya even though he just saved her from the nightbringer and he doesn't like know what to do with himself and like i said i paused big chapter because i just like needed to pace around my room for a second because oh my god this is what i have been waiting for what i've been waiting for okay i need to go back i need to go back to it and see when it happens i'm so upset he became elias again and they had their moment they kissed for the first time in like 84 years and then he just became this whole catcher again i i can't do this i can't do this the number of times they have been separated it's killing me i just want them to be happy i just want them to be happy why why are we here just to suffer i'm gonna go back to reading all right hello so we are in my kitchen now i ended up taking a little bit of a break from reading because i just needed to do some last minute like sound editing on my video and stuff so i had to pause the audiobook for a minute um but my video is finally exporting which is great i'm doing things i'm getting things done today while also reading this book it's so nice but it is now 1 pm and i'm very hungry so i'm gonna make lunch while i listen to some more of the book i'm about halfway through at this point a lot of things are starting to happen things are falling into place i feel like we're gearing up for war at this point i mean that's what everyone keeps telling elias as well the augurs the gym they're like war is your past present and future so like we've seen his past and his presence so like war is the only inevitable outcome so can't wait for that um it's gonna be a bloodbath but yeah i'm very excited to continue i'm really enjoying it right now i haven't been like this invested in a book in a while which is so nice and so refreshing i'm gonna make myself some lunch continue to listen and i will update once some more intense things happening all right so important plot developments we have learned the nightbringer was in love with the queen of the gin but she betrayed him and that's why he's trying to get revenge on everyone so like that's why the nightbringer is doing everything from what i understand so far so things are starting to make a bit more sense and laia is currently talking to the queen of the gin former queen of the gin um and like figuring out this entire situation so yeah just general plot developments that i have now learned that um i have cleared things up a little bit because i have been so confused about the nightbringers plan this entire time everything he does makes literally no sense now it makes a little bit more sense at least for now we'll see i feel like there's still so much that he's planning that we like don't even know about and i'm concerned for everyone's sake chapter 39 what kind of call me by your name is this that mango scene that killed me i don't think i can eat a mango again what the why is it that every single time they kiss though elias just like has to leave he just leaves he just becomes the soul catcher again entirely and he's like no peace bye i'm going i'm leaving i'm gone i just i just want him to be elias again why is this so hard that was a lot though that was really good that scene was really good i'm i don't think i need a mango again though okay some updates helene and harper finally got together that took so long um but i'm glad they both have some happiness that's good but i spoke too soon because um livia just died and i was not expecting that and i wasn't expecting to feel as sad about it as i am because as we know i'm not helene's biggest fan but i do love her sister because she was great she freed all the scholar slaves and like now she's dead and helene's gonna lose it helene's like not gonna be able to handle this um and i don't know what this is gonna lead to but there's so much drama i feel like this entire book so far every chapter has literally just been like battle after battle after battle like every single chapter ends with one of the characters getting wounded for some reason or another and it just like hasn't stopped like no joke the past like 10 chapters in a row at least like they have all ended with someone getting like hurt almost fatally and it's a lot like so much is happening i'm sad i'm so sad i didn't think she would die i have no faith that like anyone's gonna survive this like i'm just convinced everyone's gonna die so i'm just like living in denial right now while they're still alive i'll take like any little bit i can get of them being happy there haven't been that many scenes besides that one mango scene elias remembered what he said to her that night chapter 55 holy you are my temple you are my priest you are my prayer you are my release he said it and i am deceased dude dude chapter 55 and 56 this is insane this is insanity goodbye um have i been waiting literally the past three books for this moment yes i have been i had to pause it because i just i know that this is just gonna end with one of them disappearing having to run away getting nearly killed or actually killed and i just i want to savor this moment i need to savor this moment right now cause like we're not gonna get it back we're still far enough away from the end like there's too much left for nothing major to happen so i just i don't trust it i don't trust any of this i don't trust the happiness that we feel in this moment because it's just gonna be taken away they love each other so much and they have for so long and quite literally every possible obstacle you can think of including a shape-shifting demon has prevented them from being together and i just they deserve this and i know that we're gonna have it ripped away from us i hate it i'm gonna finish this i don't want to finish it but god this scene is so good she just said we have to win because this cannot be the only night we spend together i i love lya i love her i love her and she's so right like girl you have to win you have to win because you guys do deserve to have a life together what was all the pain for if you don't get to enjoy something you know i just i'm so upset okay i'm gonna go back to reading i need to finish this it's killing me this is literally like the fifth time i've paused on these chapters elias knows that after this he has to go back to being the soul catcher and that this is all that they can have and that last case was so desperate it was so desperate i got the pain i am feeling right now this is what i wanted this is what i signed up for i know but i'm still regretting my decisions why did i ever read this book in the first place i wanna be like everything's gonna be okay it's all gonna be fine but like it's not gonna be fine like i know it's not gonna be fine i'm here to suffer you know i'm literally just here to suffer it's fine it's not it's not fine at all but i'm gonna keep going okay hold on did harper just die is that what just happened i i think he just died hold on okay but like harper and lean just got together and like for the first time i like actually wanted good things for helene and now harper's gonna die please tell me he doesn't die i'm gonna be so sad no no did harper really just die he has to be okay colleen's like not gonna recover from this i mean she's already got like a lot of issues but like this is like gonna kill her wow i really didn't think i'd be this sad over harper dying but like i'm really sad about it i have to keep going i have to know what happens hold on hold on i need to pause i need to pause did darn just i do are you kidding me the nightbreaker just snapped his neck snapped his neck i can't i can't you can't no no no no what oh my god oh my god i need like several moments hold on i once again ended up on the floor in my room because this is just where i always end up when things get too dramatic but oh my god hold on you can't kill darren and harper i i can't do that why why it's just because like this whole series started with lyah trying to save her brother and now her brother dies and i i'm so upset i'm so sad i have to keep listening i hate this i have so little left of this book there are 48 minutes left what the hell is supposed to happen in the next 48 minutes this like isn't this is not gonna end well this isn't gonna end well i i can't do this i can't do it i can't do it but i'm gonna do it okay let's go and now lya's going to do it why is going to kill the nightbringer even though she shouldn't kill the nightbringer oh she's going to kill him oh she's going to kill him this is going to kill me lyah just takes the side and slashes the nightbringer that's incredible oh my god it's not going to lead to good things but it's incredible oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god didn't hear of sarah lya's mother just kill charis i'm screaming oh my god hold on she literally just stabbed her through the throat an icon a queen i wow wow wow unbelievable unreal i don't hold on i was about to start crying because elias and lia were about to say goodbye and she was like wherever i am in the world i'll always be with you or whatever some sappy that was like gonna be tragic and sad and then her mom her dead mom is not dead hello why is cook slash mirror of sarah the icon of this entire series why is she the greatest character literally shows up to kill kara saturius and then shows up to prevent elias and leia from being separated i think that's what's about to happen a queen a queen i love her i i have to keep reading hold on i'm losing my mind hold on hold on hold on hold on hold on hold on she's gonna take elias's place as the soul catcher is that what's about to happen is she gonna sacrifice yourself one last time for lya oh my gosh oh my god a few months of training for my future son-in-law we're to turn on some lights it's getting it's getting dark in here helene learn colleen learned and they're making her the empress helene is becoming the empress and she is trying to undo everything that the martial empire did because she learned the satisfaction i feel right now this is what i wanted for her this was the redemption she needed for me to like actually like her and now i actually like her oh my god the she has been through in this book alone is just so sad she has lost everyone she cares about besides elias and lia harper is gone her sister is gone literally her whole family like i this is so sad this is so sad i feel so much for her right now which is the biggest turn of events for me because i really didn't think that would happen but i feel so much for her right now it's just so satisfying because like this is like the redemption that i wanted for her it's a satisfying redemption because like she faced the consequences of her actions like she actually had to face the consequences of her actions and her beliefs and like who she was and what she stood for and now she understands the repercussions of that and she understands like everything she's done and she is actively working towards fixing some of the harm that she has caused and i just i love a satisfying redemption arc a good redemption arc is just so hard to pull off i feel like but this one's so good i love it we're on the last three chapters and the last three chapters are called elias helene and lia he's not the soul catcher anymore he's elias and she's not the blood strike anymore she's helene oh i'm emotional okay i only have three chapters left i have to finish it i'm gonna finish it and then i'll come back and update you all on my final thoughts proposed to her i finished it and he proposed to her with an armlet with the names of her entire family inscribed on it and he says i wish i could live a thousand lives so i could fall in love with you a thousand times goodbye just that's it for me all right yeah peace bye i'm done help that was the perfect ending it was the perfect ending it literally what a perfect ending they just they're happy the biggest plot twist in this book is that liar and elias are happy and alive i'm so emotional i just can't believe it's over i've been reading these books for so many years this series has taken like i think five years or so and i just can't believe it's over that was so good that was so satisfying everything that happened with um her mom the lioness incredible incredible i love the like theme of motherhood in this entire series and especially in like the last two books i loved the complexity of her relationship with her mother because well she didn't know she was her mother at first and when she finds out there's so much complex emotion there because she kind of abandoned her and she wasn't necessarily a good mother because she wasn't present but she also sacrificed like everything for her daughter and it's just so beautiful it's so good oh my god i i just i don't have words i'm just so happy it was just such a satisfying ending i feel like that's what i just keep going back to it was such a satisfying finale to a series it's been a while since i've had this much satisfaction from like the last book in a series where it felt like it was a good conclusion where i didn't feel like something was missing or that it was just like kind of dragging out the story or something like that this just tied everything together so perfectly and i'm happy like i'm so happy like i'm sad because daryn did die which was so depressing so did harper like literally both elias and lya's brothers die which is so tragic and helene got the worst end of everything like everyone she cares about is dead which is so depressing but she still had such a satisfying like redemption arc and like i actually like her now who would have thought but oh my god i just i feel so much about these characters i love this series so much i want to reread it entirely like from the beginning right now as i was reading this book all i could think about was how much i love the first book and like my experience of reading the first book and my memories that i have attached to the time i read it and everything and now i just want to go back and reread the entire series because i i missed the characters already like i literally just finished it and i missed the characters already i uh i'm so emo but yeah as for this book specifically i think i'm gonna give this probably it's not five star for me because i think a number in the ashes and torch against the night are still my two favorites in the series those are definitely five stars for me i think this one is gonna be four and a half so still very close i still really really loved it but it's definitely more of like four and a half stars and that's only because i think it was like a little bit too long there were just parts of it where it dragged out a little bit too much i think not that it was slow by any means because it was just like constant action from like chapter to chapter non-stop but it did like drag out a little bit more i feel like it could have been a little bit shorter but besides that i have no complaints i am so happy that my favorite characters are alive first of all and that they're getting married and they're happy like what what more could i ask for but yeah i loved this i'm so glad i read it i am so glad that this series exists i love leia she's still one of my favorite main characters in all of why a elias is also one of my favorite main characters in all of why a and i think they forever will be they hold such a special place in my heart and they forever will i just i love this series and if you haven't read it um i can't imagine that you'd still be watching this video but if you happen to be read the series i know i just like spoiled everything for you but like still read the series if you haven't read it yet or go reread the series which is what i really want to do right now but um i think that's where i'm gonna end this video i am very emotional i feel like i need to sit in these feelings and process some of what i'm feeling right now for a little while and i don't know how long it's gonna take me to be able to read another book because i'm gonna be like hungover from this one for a while because it made me feel so much but nonetheless i hope you all enjoyed watching this video um and watching me just slowly lose my mind and then regain it back throughout the process of reading this book i hope that it was entertaining for you even if you haven't read this book series if you really haven't read this book series and you watched this whole video please let me know because i'd find that so amusing if you just wanted to see me like slowly lose it because like i feel like i'd watch someone slowly lose it i feel like that'd be pretty entertaining but if you'd like to follow me on any of my social media all of my links are in the description box as always but thank you all so much for watching i hope you enjoyed and i will see you in my next video bye you\n"