I'll Be Honest with You: My Struggle with Miscarriages and Infertility

I'll never forget the feeling of hope and excitement that comes with trying to conceive. It's a journey that many women take, but for me, it was a rollercoaster ride of emotions and uncertainty. As I sat down to write about my experience, I realized that I'm not alone in my struggles with miscarriages and infertility.

I've had multiple miscarriages, something that shocked me at first because I'd always assumed that getting pregnant would be easy for me. In reality, it was a different story altogether. My body seemed to have other plans, making it difficult to carry a pregnancy to term. It's funny how life works out like this - we can get pregnant easily enough, but keeping the baby is a whole different ball game.

When my husband and I decided to seek medical help, we were relieved to find that I didn't need IVF or any other invasive treatments. Thankfully, our fertility specialist was able to monitor me regularly, ensuring that everything was progressing as it should. But what surprised me most was when I found out that I was pregnant again - just five weeks in! It was a moment of pure joy and shock all at once.

The following months were a blur of doctor's appointments, medication, and lifestyle adjustments. I had to make significant changes to my daily routine, from giving myself injections to taking multiple pills every day. My husband had to help me with the injections, which wasn't easy for him to do. We both felt like we were living on borrowed time, unsure of what the future held.

As the weeks passed, I began to feel more comfortable in my body and more confident about the possibility of carrying a healthy pregnancy. But just when I thought things were looking up, I had another miscarriage. It was a tough pill to swallow, but I refused to give up hope. I remember feeling frustrated and angry with myself for not being able to carry this pregnancy to term.

But then something amazing happened - we found out that our baby boy was healthy and thriving inside my womb! It was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and all the worry and uncertainty melted away. We were overjoyed at the prospect of welcoming our little one into the world.

Now, as I'm about to enter my 21st week of pregnancy, I can barely believe it. Our baby boy is growing and thriving every day, and we're just so grateful to be on this journey together. The news that our baby is a boy was like a dream come true - he's going to be such a precious little bundle of joy!

To all the women out there who have struggled with infertility or miscarriages, I see you. I hear you. And I want you to know that you're not alone in this journey. It may seem like a never-ending cycle of hope and disappointment, but trust me when I say that there's light at the end of the tunnel. Your body is capable of amazing things, and with patience, faith, and support, you can overcome even the toughest challenges.

I know it's hard to keep going when all feels lost. That's why I want to be honest about my struggles - not to make myself seem more relatable or to garner sympathy. It's because I've been there too, and I still am today. The emotional rollercoaster of trying to conceive is real, but so are the triumphs and joys that come with it.

As I move forward on this journey, I want to share my story with others who may be struggling with similar issues. I'm excited to continue sharing updates about our baby's growth and development on other platforms, and I hope that by doing so, I can help spread awareness and support for women who have faced similar challenges.

If you're struggling with infertility or miscarriages, know that you're not alone. Reach out to loved ones, seek medical help when needed, and hold onto hope - it's worth fighting for. And if you need someone to listen, I'm here for you too.

"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enhello everyone today's gonna be a different type of video if that's okay it's kind of like a vlog and update about my life and stuff so hope that's okay i don't think i've ever done one of these before so we'll just see how it goes i'm sure you guys remember back in probably like february march i think i was very like non on the internet i didn't have a lot of videos up i wasn't keeping up with twitter or any kind of social network i didn't read at all and i said it was for reasons and now i'm gonna explain to you what those reasons were so the reasons i was in mia for those months is because i found out that i was pregnant and before you comment like holy crap um you know i'm 25 i will be 26 in a few months i have been married for almost six years so yeah i just want to put that out there because a lot of people comment on videos and say i cannot believe you're making like you're 17. i'm not 17 but thanks um so yeah i just want to throw that out there so the reason why i was so not active is because that's when i first learned i was pregnant and i really had to go through a lot and um everything's totally okay i am about five months pregnant right now and i'm expecting me and matt are expecting our first child and it's going to be a boy hence why i'm wearing blue and we're both very excited for that because we really wanted a boy to be our first child and yeah so before i go into this anymore this will probably be the only video i will talk about my pregnancy and i will explain that in a minute i just want to throw that out there so every video you're not going to hear me be like then i'm pregnant and i'm pregnant i'm i'm not going to do that so this is hard to be the only one besides probably like me you know maybe showing you the baby then i'm going to talk about being pregnant and the reason for that is because i've had a very rocky rocky past with pregnancies i have had three miscarriages in the past three years and god bless anyone that can go through that because that is a horrible thing to go through for any of you guys that are watching have been through that i i've been there with you my friend and it's very rough because it feels like a piece of your heart just breaks and you never give it back so i'm gonna explain a little bit about that so if you don't wanna watch anymore i totally understand this is a personal video not book related so i get that this is going to be like once in a blue moon i do this so um i had a lot of miscarriages and stuff like that i have i learned that i have quite a few problems with my body i was able to get pregnant easy breezy but keeping the baby was something my body is just was not like coping with so i me and my husband went to a fertility specialist we didn't have to do ivf or anything like anything like that because like i said i can get pregnant easily it's just you know when i get pregnant i have to so i was pregnant within like when i was five weeks which surprised me because i i had it's weird to say i had to go to the doctor every time i got that time of the month so they could track things and in december i totally forgot to do that and that's when like that happened so getting pregnant totally surprised me because we weren't planning on it at that month because of technical crap if you're a woman and you've been through this you understand um but yeah and so when we went for our first um visit i was for sure i was miscarrying because of different things but i was surprised to find that there was a little baby if you if you are able to go when you first get pregnant that is how tiny a baby is like that tiny it's like that like isn't that crazy but um so they monitored me every week blah blah i was on so many different medicines it was crazy i was on i had to give myself a shot every day in the stomach my husband had to give me a shot like near my back area every three days i was on like seven different types of pills i'm not on any of that now thankfully but oh it was horrible but everything is totally good now like i said i'm five months so i'm about like 20 what am i 20 21 weeks something like that so um we just had an ultrasound when we revealed that it's a boy like it's it's um that's what it looks like now you can't barely see but i'm just so excited i just want to put it out there for anyone that's have problems conceiving or have problems with infertility and miscarriages like it can happen just you have to have patience and faith and i could i i out of everyone understand that because there was very many times i was like well yeah i just want a little update i'm not going to talk about it anymore pretty much um maybe in comments people ask or something like that and the reason for that is because as a woman that's been through miscarriages you know there's such thing called facebook where you have friends and they talk every day about their pregnancy and they complain about it and they complain about having a kid and there's all these women over there like myself who have problems like trying to get pregnant trying to keep a baby and you're like man if i had that i would not even be complaining at all and that just i don't like that so i don't want to come across like pregnant pregnant no because there are women out there that are struggling and they don't want to hear that and i understand that because i was one of them and you know i just wanna say there's a light at the end of the tunnel and you know it'll happen one day it will it will so anyway that was the update just let you guys know that's what's been going on my life that's why those months i wasn't reading because i was on all that freaking medication and i couldn't do anything i you know i had to leave my part-time job because i it was just it's stressful and i can't have any stress in my life i still can't lift certain things and i can't do any really a lot of stuff i'm super happy to be having my first baby baby boy and he will be here in september and i'm super excited about that because september is when i was born september is when my best friends were born september is just a very popular month because i guess january's very popular conception month but yeah that's just about what's going on in my life and i just wanted to finally let you guys know i've been holding this in for forever it feels like and i'm excited to go on this journey and yeah you know maybe i'll do videos about baby stuff on my other channel even though it's kind of fun to lisa but you know whatever i just want to let you know what's going on and yeah to all you guys out there that have problems and anything if you ever feel like you need to message me and talk i'm always there to listen and help you out because i've been there it's rough still rough and you know yeah anyway that's all i will see you guys next time byehello everyone today's gonna be a different type of video if that's okay it's kind of like a vlog and update about my life and stuff so hope that's okay i don't think i've ever done one of these before so we'll just see how it goes i'm sure you guys remember back in probably like february march i think i was very like non on the internet i didn't have a lot of videos up i wasn't keeping up with twitter or any kind of social network i didn't read at all and i said it was for reasons and now i'm gonna explain to you what those reasons were so the reasons i was in mia for those months is because i found out that i was pregnant and before you comment like holy crap um you know i'm 25 i will be 26 in a few months i have been married for almost six years so yeah i just want to put that out there because a lot of people comment on videos and say i cannot believe you're making like you're 17. i'm not 17 but thanks um so yeah i just want to throw that out there so the reason why i was so not active is because that's when i first learned i was pregnant and i really had to go through a lot and um everything's totally okay i am about five months pregnant right now and i'm expecting me and matt are expecting our first child and it's going to be a boy hence why i'm wearing blue and we're both very excited for that because we really wanted a boy to be our first child and yeah so before i go into this anymore this will probably be the only video i will talk about my pregnancy and i will explain that in a minute i just want to throw that out there so every video you're not going to hear me be like then i'm pregnant and i'm pregnant i'm i'm not going to do that so this is hard to be the only one besides probably like me you know maybe showing you the baby then i'm going to talk about being pregnant and the reason for that is because i've had a very rocky rocky past with pregnancies i have had three miscarriages in the past three years and god bless anyone that can go through that because that is a horrible thing to go through for any of you guys that are watching have been through that i i've been there with you my friend and it's very rough because it feels like a piece of your heart just breaks and you never give it back so i'm gonna explain a little bit about that so if you don't wanna watch anymore i totally understand this is a personal video not book related so i get that this is going to be like once in a blue moon i do this so um i had a lot of miscarriages and stuff like that i have i learned that i have quite a few problems with my body i was able to get pregnant easy breezy but keeping the baby was something my body is just was not like coping with so i me and my husband went to a fertility specialist we didn't have to do ivf or anything like anything like that because like i said i can get pregnant easily it's just you know when i get pregnant i have to so i was pregnant within like when i was five weeks which surprised me because i i had it's weird to say i had to go to the doctor every time i got that time of the month so they could track things and in december i totally forgot to do that and that's when like that happened so getting pregnant totally surprised me because we weren't planning on it at that month because of technical crap if you're a woman and you've been through this you understand um but yeah and so when we went for our first um visit i was for sure i was miscarrying because of different things but i was surprised to find that there was a little baby if you if you are able to go when you first get pregnant that is how tiny a baby is like that tiny it's like that like isn't that crazy but um so they monitored me every week blah blah i was on so many different medicines it was crazy i was on i had to give myself a shot every day in the stomach my husband had to give me a shot like near my back area every three days i was on like seven different types of pills i'm not on any of that now thankfully but oh it was horrible but everything is totally good now like i said i'm five months so i'm about like 20 what am i 20 21 weeks something like that so um we just had an ultrasound when we revealed that it's a boy like it's it's um that's what it looks like now you can't barely see but i'm just so excited i just want to put it out there for anyone that's have problems conceiving or have problems with infertility and miscarriages like it can happen just you have to have patience and faith and i could i i out of everyone understand that because there was very many times i was like well yeah i just want a little update i'm not going to talk about it anymore pretty much um maybe in comments people ask or something like that and the reason for that is because as a woman that's been through miscarriages you know there's such thing called facebook where you have friends and they talk every day about their pregnancy and they complain about it and they complain about having a kid and there's all these women over there like myself who have problems like trying to get pregnant trying to keep a baby and you're like man if i had that i would not even be complaining at all and that just i don't like that so i don't want to come across like pregnant pregnant no because there are women out there that are struggling and they don't want to hear that and i understand that because i was one of them and you know i just wanna say there's a light at the end of the tunnel and you know it'll happen one day it will it will so anyway that was the update just let you guys know that's what's been going on my life that's why those months i wasn't reading because i was on all that freaking medication and i couldn't do anything i you know i had to leave my part-time job because i it was just it's stressful and i can't have any stress in my life i still can't lift certain things and i can't do any really a lot of stuff i'm super happy to be having my first baby baby boy and he will be here in september and i'm super excited about that because september is when i was born september is when my best friends were born september is just a very popular month because i guess january's very popular conception month but yeah that's just about what's going on in my life and i just wanted to finally let you guys know i've been holding this in for forever it feels like and i'm excited to go on this journey and yeah you know maybe i'll do videos about baby stuff on my other channel even though it's kind of fun to lisa but you know whatever i just want to let you know what's going on and yeah to all you guys out there that have problems and anything if you ever feel like you need to message me and talk i'm always there to listen and help you out because i've been there it's rough still rough and you know yeah anyway that's all i will see you guys next time bye\n"