"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enwere you having a stroke yeah did you give up in the middle or beginning of the shopping list we will do our best to find the Mommy's got another massage we got caught in one of those subscription programs during Diana's pregnancy so a lot of massages stacked up yes I was asking everybody out there for their translation I still don't know what Diana wants apart from dish soap we took a guess and got Mommy a watermelon and Jedi wanted fish cookies yes Jedi you did a better job than your daddy did I was trying to put some of them into a bag that we can take in when we get FY ready so am I but we've got to wait for mommy to finish up she forgot her phone at home I should call her et today to see if she catches the reference my face always feels swollen in the morning and then as the day goes on it feels better hold on let me wake up I made my own coffee H I've got so many things running through my head right now because as I'm saying that I just realized I haven't told you guys that the other day I just told some more extended family yeah hold on I just I need to concentrate CU my emotions are just so high right now and they're high because of a comment I read such a good comment that it made me emo I know I know I cry when I'm happy I cry when I'm sad I cry when I'm mad he said Diana if you're not able to tell us in this universe then I'll use the string theory to travel to a parallel universe and find your doppelganger and see if maybe I can find out what's happening and that was just so sweet like H it touched my heart so much you can ask Chris I I I've talked about this I get sad when I think that the people I love are going to be gone one day or that I can be gone one day I said if you go before I do promise me that you're going to give me a sign I got so lucky with Chris's family I don't think I've actually processed it yet cuz when I feel anxious I just I try to stay so busy so I don't have to think about what I actually should think about all they said was we love you and to hear that was so great it's unconditional love I feel I'm so happy I'm happy I've said it so many times I need to do these talks before I do my makeup what if if I never got the chance to feel this I know someday I'll feel completely free and then you'll be able to ask me questions and I won't feel like like I have to watch what I say because I'm so used to that and it's one of the reasons why I struggle or struggled to have friends and even relationships before I met Chris and it sucks living that way it sucks and I cried because I feel guilty I didn't think I've told you this because I couldn't tell them and I feel guilty because I don't want them to think it was them I still remember a friend in college her name starts with an L I don't I don't think she watches these but I don't want to expose her name but she was so sweet and such a good friend and I I loved her you know and I cared about her so much that I didn't want to lie to her so I just I stopped answering her text and I stopped answering her calls and I remember she would ask people if I was mad at her and I'm sorry I'm sorry that's one of the people I want to share my video with but I can't just yet without family I don't think I would be as strong I wouldn't be as strong without you guys that's something I learned from Chris he said you got to give the other person a chance to decide whether they accept you or not and that's true Chris has a lot of life experience with it's funny is a lot of the times where he tells me he's going to he's going to hate this my therapist says the same thing I've told her you know my husband has said that and she said you know it sounds like he knows what he's talking about that oh Chris Chris is going to hold that against me I know oh I feel so much better thank you guys I always tell Chris I'm going to run up and get ready really fast okay cuz he has to get to work and then I end up talking for oh my goodness 42 minutes but it sounds like they're having fun oh my gosh the cutest thing happened this morning Jedi woke up and the first thing she did was turn around to Chris and she gave him a kiss it was so sweet oh yeah Chris is such a good dad that's what Daddy was afraid of that's a nice foot you've got there hi hello hello hello hi what do you want me to do direct me produce me hello world hello mama you finally learned where the record button is yes thanks for taking a second right now to tap the like button before you watch our next story and for interacting with us across social every day your support is always appreciated and if you'd like for us to keep sharing our daily story with you we hope you Pledge on geekfam fund.com you'll get even more of what you love from us Advanced screenings behind the scenes and most importantly you'll ensure that we can keep doing this for you see you tomorrowwere you having a stroke yeah did you give up in the middle or beginning of the shopping list we will do our best to find the Mommy's got another massage we got caught in one of those subscription programs during Diana's pregnancy so a lot of massages stacked up yes I was asking everybody out there for their translation I still don't know what Diana wants apart from dish soap we took a guess and got Mommy a watermelon and Jedi wanted fish cookies yes Jedi you did a better job than your daddy did I was trying to put some of them into a bag that we can take in when we get FY ready so am I but we've got to wait for mommy to finish up she forgot her phone at home I should call her et today to see if she catches the reference my face always feels swollen in the morning and then as the day goes on it feels better hold on let me wake up I made my own coffee H I've got so many things running through my head right now because as I'm saying that I just realized I haven't told you guys that the other day I just told some more extended family yeah hold on I just I need to concentrate CU my emotions are just so high right now and they're high because of a comment I read such a good comment that it made me emo I know I know I cry when I'm happy I cry when I'm sad I cry when I'm mad he said Diana if you're not able to tell us in this universe then I'll use the string theory to travel to a parallel universe and find your doppelganger and see if maybe I can find out what's happening and that was just so sweet like H it touched my heart so much you can ask Chris I I I've talked about this I get sad when I think that the people I love are going to be gone one day or that I can be gone one day I said if you go before I do promise me that you're going to give me a sign I got so lucky with Chris's family I don't think I've actually processed it yet cuz when I feel anxious I just I try to stay so busy so I don't have to think about what I actually should think about all they said was we love you and to hear that was so great it's unconditional love I feel I'm so happy I'm happy I've said it so many times I need to do these talks before I do my makeup what if if I never got the chance to feel this I know someday I'll feel completely free and then you'll be able to ask me questions and I won't feel like like I have to watch what I say because I'm so used to that and it's one of the reasons why I struggle or struggled to have friends and even relationships before I met Chris and it sucks living that way it sucks and I cried because I feel guilty I didn't think I've told you this because I couldn't tell them and I feel guilty because I don't want them to think it was them I still remember a friend in college her name starts with an L I don't I don't think she watches these but I don't want to expose her name but she was so sweet and such a good friend and I I loved her you know and I cared about her so much that I didn't want to lie to her so I just I stopped answering her text and I stopped answering her calls and I remember she would ask people if I was mad at her and I'm sorry I'm sorry that's one of the people I want to share my video with but I can't just yet without family I don't think I would be as strong I wouldn't be as strong without you guys that's something I learned from Chris he said you got to give the other person a chance to decide whether they accept you or not and that's true Chris has a lot of life experience with it's funny is a lot of the times where he tells me he's going to he's going to hate this my therapist says the same thing I've told her you know my husband has said that and she said you know it sounds like he knows what he's talking about that oh Chris Chris is going to hold that against me I know oh I feel so much better thank you guys I always tell Chris I'm going to run up and get ready really fast okay cuz he has to get to work and then I end up talking for oh my goodness 42 minutes but it sounds like they're having fun oh my gosh the cutest thing happened this morning Jedi woke up and the first thing she did was turn around to Chris and she gave him a kiss it was so sweet oh yeah Chris is such a good dad that's what Daddy was afraid of that's a nice foot you've got there hi hello hello hello hi what do you want me to do direct me produce me hello world hello mama you finally learned where the record button is yes thanks for taking a second right now to tap the like button before you watch our next story and for interacting with us across social every day your support is always appreciated and if you'd like for us to keep sharing our daily story with you we hope you Pledge on geekfam fund.com you'll get even more of what you love from us Advanced screenings behind the scenes and most importantly you'll ensure that we can keep doing this for you see you tomorrow\n"