A Message from My Heart: An Update and Explanation
It's kind of hard to even write this video without getting emotional, but I'm going to try my best to get through it. I've been reading all the comments and like I can't respond to all of them because honestly, it's just kind of painful to read something like that. Um sometimes you have the best of intentions and things just don't work out for one reason or another. Um but yeah, um I honestly don't even know what else to say. Um but I just kind of wanted to explain what's going on. Guess.
Another Frequently Asked Question
Actually, other than like where I'll end up which once again I don't know, but I've also gotten asked a lot about the pets. Unfortunately, Sputnick uh Spud the cat and uh Archer our other dog are not mine so they won't be coming with me. But I do luckily have Charlie with me. So I'm going to try and find a place for the two of us. Um but yeah if you've ever considered getting back into my channel now would be a great time to do so honestly it would really mean the world to me. I could use the income, I could use the help, and also I will be having another launch of plushies um or bookshelf buddies on Stuffed Managerie on November 8th at 10:00 a.m. Eastern Standard time or Eastern time whatever you understand what I mean.
A Christmas Market Update
But I will be having that so it's going to be stuff that I was going to be selling at the Christmas Market that I was going to be doing um but this time it's like only bigger things that I'll have. Um but I do plan on trying to get to making smaller things again. But um yeah if you can and you've ever considered purchasing something now would be a really really great and helpful time to do so. I haven't made anything in a while, so I'm glad that I have the back stock because honestly like I have not wanted to pick it up at all right now. It just nothing really brings me joy right now.
Losing Everything
Um yeah I can't even describe how I'm feeling cuz it's literally horrible and I know I'm showing like no emotion right now but I feel like I just literally can't even cry anymore. Um but yeah, it's really hard. I'm losing everything that I've known, I'm losing a life that I've been building over the past almost six years um I'm losing someone that I really really care about um and really love but I know sorry that's my nephew um but I know that it's yeah I don't really know anything about it. I was going to say I know that it's for the best, but that's not something that I know um I'm just trying to move on um and just try and find some peace and happiness at a time that's really hard.
A Message of Gratitude
So like I said I really appreciate all of the kind words and everything that has come from you guys. It's really meant the world to me. Um there hasn't been you know there just hasn't been a lot of Joy basically um this is like the hardest thing that I've ever gone through and I've gone through a lot but nothing has been harder than this so and I'm still in it so um yeah I will get back to regular posting when I can um but for now it's going to be kind of I know it's been sporadic recently anyways but I just don't know what my life is going to look like um I don't know what the future looks like which is a really scary thing so I'm not entirely sure what to expect.
A Message from My Heart Continued
Um and I will get back to posting book videos um it's just I wanted to try something new and some things that I enjoy and I do plan on continuing that but I will start to sprinkle book videos back in there um reading is just kind of hard right now cuz anything where my mind like my mind can wander is kind of difficult so yeah um that is where we're at. So I'm sorry to keep asking for help um I'm sorry to kind of have a bummer of a video and like a random video like this I'm sure I will delete it soon after it's posted but um I just kind of wanted to give you guys a little bit of an update and let you know where I'm at and definitely thank you for all the love and support. As a reminder and I truly hate to do this, I do have the tip jar down below, just if you're able to or wanting to but all that money will be going toward uh moving expenses is finding a new place for Charlie and myself and um therapy sorry I forgot what the other thing was but yeah um I've started that already but it would help immensely.
"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enI don't really know how to start a video like this one um but hi uh so I'm going to try and do this with minimal editing too but I wanted to just pop on to kind of explain what has been going on lately um yeah it feels like a very surreal situation so I apologize if um I'm not myself or whatever but um essentially my fiance and I uh have split up so yeah um doesn't it still doesn't really feel real so I'm sorry it's kind of it's hard for me to wrap my head around but um I wanted to make a video to explain why things are going to be different a little bit um and why I might not be posting um for the next little bit because I don't know where I'm going to end up up um I don't know where I'm going to end up living um and to kind of answer some frequently asked questions I guess um I can't move back with my parents because of the dog um there's just not space um I can like be there temporarily but um apartments around there are really expensive so I can't really find anything around there um so right now I'm staying with my sister but I will find a place place of my own eventually it's just hard to find somewhere that I can afford to be entirely honest um yeah I I do have a job but I don't make a ton um and with YouTube I honestly don't make anything really anymore um so you if you follow me on Instagram or you saw the community post like this is no surprise to you but um yeah I've been asking for your help a lot and I can't explain how much I appreciate that and how helpful it has been to me it has Honestly made like things a lot easier um and it's going to continue to do that but I do have a tip jar set up if you're able and I hate to ask this I honestly like it makes me feel sick to my stomach to ask this but um I really am not in a position to afford a sudden unexpected move I have to move everything I have to like find a place I have to just there are so many expenses that come with this um therapy being a big one of them so if you are in the position to tip anything like even a small small amount it's really appreciated so I'll have that linked down below for you guys um just if you're able to but honestly like watching my videos even helps but yeah um this has been really like I've never felt so low to be entirely honest um I've never really felt like this before I I don't even know how to describe it um but out of respect for someone who I spent six and a half years of my life with um I'm not going to get into like what happened and I do ask out of respect for myself and for that person that you don't speculate either I know like it's only natural speculate but please try not to um it's just kind of I've been reading all the comments and like I can't respond to all of them but I appreciate every single one but it's painful to read something like that um sometimes you have the best of intentions and things just don't work out for one one reason or another um but yeah um I I honestly don't even know what else to say um but I just kind of wanted to explain what's going on I guess um another frequently Asked question actually um other than like where I'll end up which once again I don't know um but I've also gotten asked a lot about the pets so unfortunately sputnick uh Spud the cat and uh Archer our other dog um they're not mine so they won't be coming with me but I do luckily have Charlie with me um so I'm going to try and find a place for the two of us um but yeah if you've ever considered getting back into my channel now would be a great time to do so honestly it would really mean the world to me um I could use the income I could use the help um and also I will be having another launch of plushies um or bookshelf buddies on stuffed managerie on November 8th at 10:00 a.m. Eastern Standard time or Eastern time whatever you understand what I mean um but I will be having that so it's going to be stuff that I was going to be selling at the Christmas Market that I was going to be doing um but this time it's like only bigger things that I'll have um but I do plan on trying to get to making smaller things again but um yeah if you can and you've ever considered purchasing something now would be a really really great and helpful time to do so um I haven't made anything in a while so I'm glad that I have the back stock because honestly like I have not wanted to pick it up at all right now it just nothing really brings me joy right now um yeah I can't even describe how I'm feeling cuz it's literally horrible and I know I'm showing like no emotion right now but I feel like I just literally can't even cry anymore um but yeah it's really hard I'm losing everything that I've known I'm losing a life that I've been building over the past almost six years um I'm losing someone that I really really care about um and really love but I know sorry that's my nephew um but I know that it's yeah I don't know I actually don't really know anything about it I was going to say I know that it's for the best but that's not something that I know um I'm just trying to move on um and just try and find some peace and happiness at a time that's really hard so like I said I really appreciate all of the kind words and everything that has come from you guys it's really meant the world to me um CU there hasn't been you know there just hasn't been a lot of Joy basically um this is like the hardest thing that I've ever gone through and I've gone through a lot but I like nothing has been harder than this so and I'm still in it so um yeah I will get back to regular posting when I can um but for now it's going to be kind of I know it's been sporadic recently anyways but I just don't know what my life is going to look like um I don't know what the future looks like which is a really scary thing so I'm not entirely sure what to expect um and I will get back to posting book videos um it's just I wanted to try something new and some things that I enjoy and I do plan on continuing that but I will start to sprinkle book videos back in there um reading is just kind of hard right now cuz anything where my mind like my mind can wander is kind of difficult so yeah um that is where we're at so I'm sorry to keep asking for help um I'm sorry to kind of have a bummer of a video and like a random video like this I'm sure I will delete it soon after it's posted but um I just kind of wanted to give you guys a little bit of an update and let you know where I'm at and definitely thank you for all the love and support um as a reminder and I truly hate to do this I do have the tip jar down below um just if you're able to or wanting to but all that money will be going toward uh moving expenses is finding a new place for Charlie and myself and um therapy sorry I forgot what the other thing was but yeah um I've started that already but it would help immensely So yeah thank you guys for being there for me and I'll see you guys again sometime maybe soon I don't know byeI don't really know how to start a video like this one um but hi uh so I'm going to try and do this with minimal editing too but I wanted to just pop on to kind of explain what has been going on lately um yeah it feels like a very surreal situation so I apologize if um I'm not myself or whatever but um essentially my fiance and I uh have split up so yeah um doesn't it still doesn't really feel real so I'm sorry it's kind of it's hard for me to wrap my head around but um I wanted to make a video to explain why things are going to be different a little bit um and why I might not be posting um for the next little bit because I don't know where I'm going to end up up um I don't know where I'm going to end up living um and to kind of answer some frequently asked questions I guess um I can't move back with my parents because of the dog um there's just not space um I can like be there temporarily but um apartments around there are really expensive so I can't really find anything around there um so right now I'm staying with my sister but I will find a place place of my own eventually it's just hard to find somewhere that I can afford to be entirely honest um yeah I I do have a job but I don't make a ton um and with YouTube I honestly don't make anything really anymore um so you if you follow me on Instagram or you saw the community post like this is no surprise to you but um yeah I've been asking for your help a lot and I can't explain how much I appreciate that and how helpful it has been to me it has Honestly made like things a lot easier um and it's going to continue to do that but I do have a tip jar set up if you're able and I hate to ask this I honestly like it makes me feel sick to my stomach to ask this but um I really am not in a position to afford a sudden unexpected move I have to move everything I have to like find a place I have to just there are so many expenses that come with this um therapy being a big one of them so if you are in the position to tip anything like even a small small amount it's really appreciated so I'll have that linked down below for you guys um just if you're able to but honestly like watching my videos even helps but yeah um this has been really like I've never felt so low to be entirely honest um I've never really felt like this before I I don't even know how to describe it um but out of respect for someone who I spent six and a half years of my life with um I'm not going to get into like what happened and I do ask out of respect for myself and for that person that you don't speculate either I know like it's only natural speculate but please try not to um it's just kind of I've been reading all the comments and like I can't respond to all of them but I appreciate every single one but it's painful to read something like that um sometimes you have the best of intentions and things just don't work out for one one reason or another um but yeah um I I honestly don't even know what else to say um but I just kind of wanted to explain what's going on I guess um another frequently Asked question actually um other than like where I'll end up which once again I don't know um but I've also gotten asked a lot about the pets so unfortunately sputnick uh Spud the cat and uh Archer our other dog um they're not mine so they won't be coming with me but I do luckily have Charlie with me um so I'm going to try and find a place for the two of us um but yeah if you've ever considered getting back into my channel now would be a great time to do so honestly it would really mean the world to me um I could use the income I could use the help um and also I will be having another launch of plushies um or bookshelf buddies on stuffed managerie on November 8th at 10:00 a.m. Eastern Standard time or Eastern time whatever you understand what I mean um but I will be having that so it's going to be stuff that I was going to be selling at the Christmas Market that I was going to be doing um but this time it's like only bigger things that I'll have um but I do plan on trying to get to making smaller things again but um yeah if you can and you've ever considered purchasing something now would be a really really great and helpful time to do so um I haven't made anything in a while so I'm glad that I have the back stock because honestly like I have not wanted to pick it up at all right now it just nothing really brings me joy right now um yeah I can't even describe how I'm feeling cuz it's literally horrible and I know I'm showing like no emotion right now but I feel like I just literally can't even cry anymore um but yeah it's really hard I'm losing everything that I've known I'm losing a life that I've been building over the past almost six years um I'm losing someone that I really really care about um and really love but I know sorry that's my nephew um but I know that it's yeah I don't know I actually don't really know anything about it I was going to say I know that it's for the best but that's not something that I know um I'm just trying to move on um and just try and find some peace and happiness at a time that's really hard so like I said I really appreciate all of the kind words and everything that has come from you guys it's really meant the world to me um CU there hasn't been you know there just hasn't been a lot of Joy basically um this is like the hardest thing that I've ever gone through and I've gone through a lot but I like nothing has been harder than this so and I'm still in it so um yeah I will get back to regular posting when I can um but for now it's going to be kind of I know it's been sporadic recently anyways but I just don't know what my life is going to look like um I don't know what the future looks like which is a really scary thing so I'm not entirely sure what to expect um and I will get back to posting book videos um it's just I wanted to try something new and some things that I enjoy and I do plan on continuing that but I will start to sprinkle book videos back in there um reading is just kind of hard right now cuz anything where my mind like my mind can wander is kind of difficult so yeah um that is where we're at so I'm sorry to keep asking for help um I'm sorry to kind of have a bummer of a video and like a random video like this I'm sure I will delete it soon after it's posted but um I just kind of wanted to give you guys a little bit of an update and let you know where I'm at and definitely thank you for all the love and support um as a reminder and I truly hate to do this I do have the tip jar down below um just if you're able to or wanting to but all that money will be going toward uh moving expenses is finding a new place for Charlie and myself and um therapy sorry I forgot what the other thing was but yeah um I've started that already but it would help immensely So yeah thank you guys for being there for me and I'll see you guys again sometime maybe soon I don't know bye\n"
