The Confusion of Hogwarts: A Personal Journey of Self-Discovery

As I sat on the deck of a ship, watching the title wave come over the horizon, I couldn't help but think about my own personal journey of self-discovery. Trapped in the attic as the house burns below me, I felt like I was lost and alone, searching for answers to questions I didn't even know how to ask. The rope bridge fraying over the canyon seemed like a metaphor for the fragile line between life and death, and I couldn't help but wonder what lay beyond.

I often think about why I do certain things, and whether I should do them or not. Why did I say those stupid things in that conversation? Why am I so dumb sometimes? The questions swirl in my head like a vortex, leaving me feeling dizzy and disoriented. But I've come to realize that it's okay to not have all the answers. It's okay to be unsure of what to do next.

As I walked away from the conversation, I couldn't help but think about why I was being so stupid. Why did I say those things? Why am I so dumb sometimes? The self-doubt creeps in like a thief in the night, stealing my confidence and leaving me feeling empty and hollow. But I've learned to acknowledge it, to accept that it's just a part of who I am.

I often wish I knew how to forget, to escape from the weight of my own thoughts. It feels like there's a dam in my mind, holding back all the emotions and memories that I don't want to deal with. But sometimes, it's necessary to face them head-on, to confront the demons that haunt me.

The concept of utilitarianism came to mind as I pondered whether to save a baby or a bottle of potion that could save 1,000 lives. What would be the greatest good for the greatest number of people? It's an ethical and moral conundrum that leaves me feeling stuck and unsure of what to do.

But then there was the "park wedgie" question, which seemed like a cruel joke at first. I wasn't sure what to make of it, but as I thought about it more, I realized that it might be the equivalent of being a Hufflepuff. It's not the most exciting or glamorous thing in the world, but sometimes, it's the little things that count.

Time has a way of messing with our heads, and I know this from experience. I've taken a Hogwarts personality quiz before, but my results were so obscure that I forgot what they even said. So, I decided to do the quiz again, hoping that maybe, just maybe, it would give me some insight into who I am.

The results were more confusing than I expected. Seventy-five point nine percent Ravenclaw, 14.8% Slytherin, and 9.2% Hufflepuff - what does it all mean? And why do I feel like I don't belong in any of them?

But then there was the Patronus quiz. What's my happiest memory? What am I most afraid of? The questions seemed simple enough, but as I thought about each one, I realized that they were anything but. It felt like trying to capture a ghost in a bottle - it was impossible.

And then, out of nowhere, I got the result. My Patronus is a husky, and also a ginger cat. Two animals, two different personalities, but both somehow connected to me. It's as if my soul has been trying to tell me something all along.

I've come to realize that it doesn't matter which house I'm in - Ravenclaw, Slytherin, Hufflepuff, or Gryffindor. It doesn't matter which animal is my Patronus. What matters is who I am, and what makes me unique. And if that means being a little bit of everything, then so be it.

I guess the best way to describe myself would be a combination of all four houses - Ravenclaw's love of learning, Slytherin's ambition, Hufflepuff's loyalty, and Gryffindor's bravery. But even that feels like an oversimplification.

The truth is, I don't know who I am. Not yet, at least. And maybe that's okay. Maybe it's enough to just be on a journey of self-discovery, to explore the depths of my own mind and heart. After all, as Dumbledore once said, "It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities."

And so, I'll continue on this journey, embracing the confusion and uncertainty. For in the end, it's not about which house I'm in or which animal is my Patronus - it's about being true to myself, no matter what that means.

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"WEBVTTKind: captionsLanguage: enAaron Italia and today I'm going to be finally sorting myself into a hogwarts house so I have never had a Hogwarts house where I feel like I belong this has been a long time dream that I never talk about because it's just really embarrassing so I just don't like to talk about it okay everyone who has a Hogwarts house where they fit in and I have nowhere I literally do not belong the thing is I taken the Pottermore quiz a bunch of times and I always end up with a different house that paired with the fact that any other quiz I always end up with random houses and I know part of it is like what you value the most but I value things from each of the houses so I'm actually just going to quickly Google some of the traits of each of the Hogwarts houses okay so I'm just gonna use this Etsy printable because it's the easiest thing that has everything that I need so Gryffindor is daring brave nerve and valiant that does not fit me at all that's definitely Gryffindor as the house that I feel like I identify with the least because I'm not brave I'm very nervous I'm not daring like I don't have nerve I don't really fit anything in Gryffindor I feel like so it's definitely the house that I feel like I definitely won't get next is Slytherin Slytherin is cunning ambitious creative and ingenious I feel like I'm in genius I'm just kidding but I do really like like I'm ambitious and I feel like I'm creative if also I try to be cunning so I don't know and then Hufflepuff is reliable loyal diligent and kind I'm definitely loyal and diligent I am like kind and reliable it depends on the situation and finally ravenclaw intelligent clever witty and creative I feel like Raven claw if I like had to had to had to narrow it down to one I think Raven claw is the house that I would go with but I do feel like I really identify with aspects of both Slytherin and Hufflepuff as well so I guess we shall see what Pottermore has to say so let's dive in and discover my Hogwarts house once and for all thirteen years it's been and I've never had a Hogwarts house so let's do it I will mention though that I am a late bloomer to the Harry Potter world my parents and my sisters would always read Harry Potter as the books were coming out I watched the movies but even then I was never a super fan I didn't finish the entire series until I was like 20 mom read the first three books to me I didn't like reading as a kid what if idiot but after the third book I was like these books are getting too big I don't have time for this I need to go and play with horses or somebody so I just never finished them until I was 20 and that resulted in me not having a Hogwarts house and missing the whole Harry Potter craze so I guess we'll see where I end up nap time sorry about the angle change there but we are back in business ready to go my camera battery was about to dies so I didn't want to start and then have my camera battery died and then that would be awful so let's begin okay so this is super nerve-wracking it's gonna be fine moon or stars stars I like them both but I'm gonna go stars which would you rather be envied imitated trusted praised liked feared I would say no imitated trusted yeah praised though I think is like liked I mean it's whatever feared no I'm gonna go with praised if you were attending Hogwarts which pet would you choose to take with you tabby cat Siamese cat ginger cat black cat white cat tawny owl screech owl brown owl snowy owl barn owl common toad Mader Jack toad dragon toad Harlequin toad three-toed tree toad whoa was that actually its name three-toed tree toad that is an amazing name bye I would like one of each but I'm gonna go with the ginger cat because Jackson would be adorable at Hogwarts which of the following would you most like to study Centaurs goblins merpeople ghosts vampires werewolves trolls I'm gonna go with centaurs one of your housemates has cheated in a hogwarts exam by using a self spelling quill now he has come top of the class in charms meeting you into second place Professor Flitwick is suspicious of what happened he draws you to one side after his lesson and asks you whether or not your classmate used a forbidden quill what would you do Lions say you don't know but hope that somebody else tells Professor Flitwick the truth tell Professor Flitwick that he ought to ask your classmate and resolve to tell your classmate that if he doesn't tell the truth you will tell Professor Flitwick the truth if your classmate is prepared to win by cheating he deserves to be found out also as you are both in the same house any points he loses will be regained by you for coming in his place first in his place Strauss or finally you would not wait to be asked to tell Professor Flitwick the truth if you knew that somebody was using a forbidden quill you would tell the teacher before the exam started I feel like on the one hand I would tell before the exam started because like that's some BS if I spent all that time studying I don't want someone else like just winning their way no thank you but I think I would tell him to ask the classmate himself and tell the classmate like if you don't tell the truth and I will because the classmate should be the one who's like confessing to this crime not me telling but like if I had to I would more boxes are placed before you which would you try and open the small tortoiseshell box embellished with gold inside which some small creature seems to be squeaking the gleaming jet box with a silver locking key marked with a mysterious room that you know to be the mark of Merlin the ornate golden casket standing on clawed feet whose inscription warns that both secret knowledge and unbearable temptation lie within or the small pewter box unassuming and plane with a scratched message upon it that reads I only opened for the worthy I would open the one with a small creature in it after you have died what would you most like people to do when I hear your name miss you but smile ask for more stories about your adventures think with admiration on your achievements I don't care what people think of me after I'm dead it's what they think of me well I'm alive that counts I'm torn between the middle two so ask for more stories about my adventures or think with admiration on my achievements I'm going to go with achievements heads or tails heads what I'm so confused Gryffindor I just I don't get it okay so what I'm gonna do is I'm going to do the ilver morning house quiz and see what house I end up in there and see like if it's the equivalent to Gryffindor still or whatever Hogwarts equivalent it is we will see what's your preference ply or explore explore my greatest weakness is and nobody's business but mine what makes me me the source of my greatest strength something I must change I would say something I must change think of the question you would most like answered by a person or an all-knowing being or device which of the following most closely resembles the answer you'd like to hear without a shadow of a doe never very soon it is impossible yes I will show you everything only if you agree if you come with me no I didn't you are yes you may only once if you want to forever not for many years so the question I'm thinking of is will I become a best-selling author because obviously super on-brand also that's just a lifelong dream and I'm gonna my answer I would like to be without a shadow of a doubt obviously where would you least like to find yourself imprisoned alone in a silent dungeon walked in a crowded cave standing-room-only in the dock in court accused of a crime you did not commit on the deck of a ship as the title wave comes over the horizon trapped in the Attic as the house burns below you on the rope bridge fraying over the canyon lost in the forest at night eyes staring at you through the dark move that one gave me chills so I guess I'm gonna go with that one I often think why did I do that why can't I do that I wish I had done that I wonder whether I should do that all of the above please I'm gonna say why did I do that no because like whenever I'm walking away from like a conversation I'm like dear God why did you say stupid things why are you so dumb so we'll go with that I wish I knew how to forget when escape get through I'm going to say uh I don't actually know for this one get through I guess whose judgment do you most fear nobody's my own my friends my family's the world's histories I'm going to go with my families you can rescue a baby or the only bottle of a potion that could save 1,000 lives which do you save okay this is utilitarianism which I learned about in my Victorian Lit classes and money that I took so it's the concept of trying to find the greatest good for the greatest number of people so like if you have to let one die so then so many can live it's such like an ethical and moral conundrum Oh God but I'm gonna go with the bottle park wedgie okay so what stuck wedgie so the equivalent is Hufflepuff what okay there's one more quiz that I want to do so time has a Hogwarts percentage quiz I've definitely done it before but I don't remember what I got on it so I'm just gonna do this one really quickly I'm not going to talk through it I'm just gonna do the answers and then I guess where is it there we go and then I guess we will see where I end up fitting in okay so I've got my results I'm like thoroughly confused I don't think I'm going to show you me doing that quiz just because the questions were like really beat also my neighbors started cutting his grass fellows doing that so I'm sorry if you can hear that but this says that I'm seventy five point nine percent Ravenclaw 14.8% Slytherin and 9.2 percent Hufflepuff in 0.1 percent Gryffindor I don't get it do you see it why I never know this is so confusing so I guess while we're here I might as well discover my Patronus because what the heck let's just go wild all right let's begin think of my happiest memory I don't know what my happiest memory is it's not that I don't have happy memories I just don't know what my happiest memory would be Sun wind or rain Sun the graphics though bright or shadow bright lead save or escape say actually lead but I mean it's too late now and you're supposed to go with your instincts Oh a little thingy free or safe safe mind heart or spirit spirit I don't know these are such hard questions I think it's time nevel um kyv what is that oh my god this looks like my old cats nickel friends oh my god this is definitely the breathe on my old cat snicklefritz was but I never knew what kind he was oh also yes my old cat's name is snicklefritz it's from the big comfy couch I think that's just a Canadian show if you don't know what I'm talking about then google it but oh my god that's amazing so I gotten I've done the Patronus quiz before the first time I got a husky then I got a ginger cat once which was really exciting because Jackson's so I'm gonna go with both of these eyes my Patronus because like that's amazing so I hope you guys enjoyed this video I think at this point I'm going to just identify as a slither claw puff I don't even know a Huff raver enslave even puff I don't even know but please let me know what Hogwarts house you guys are in let me know what Hogwarts house you think I belong in because I don't even know anymore but I hope you guys like this video I hope it helped you to understand my Hogwarts house conundrum and it gave you a little insight into my personality bye if you did enjoy this video don't forget to subscribe I put out new videos every Monday Wednesday and Friday you can also click that little bell icon so you'll be notified whenever I post you can also follow me on all my social media handles all of my links and handles and all that stuff will be down below for you guys so thank you so much for watching and I will see you guys in my next video byeAaron Italia and today I'm going to be finally sorting myself into a hogwarts house so I have never had a Hogwarts house where I feel like I belong this has been a long time dream that I never talk about because it's just really embarrassing so I just don't like to talk about it okay everyone who has a Hogwarts house where they fit in and I have nowhere I literally do not belong the thing is I taken the Pottermore quiz a bunch of times and I always end up with a different house that paired with the fact that any other quiz I always end up with random houses and I know part of it is like what you value the most but I value things from each of the houses so I'm actually just going to quickly Google some of the traits of each of the Hogwarts houses okay so I'm just gonna use this Etsy printable because it's the easiest thing that has everything that I need so Gryffindor is daring brave nerve and valiant that does not fit me at all that's definitely Gryffindor as the house that I feel like I identify with the least because I'm not brave I'm very nervous I'm not daring like I don't have nerve I don't really fit anything in Gryffindor I feel like so it's definitely the house that I feel like I definitely won't get next is Slytherin Slytherin is cunning ambitious creative and ingenious I feel like I'm in genius I'm just kidding but I do really like like I'm ambitious and I feel like I'm creative if also I try to be cunning so I don't know and then Hufflepuff is reliable loyal diligent and kind I'm definitely loyal and diligent I am like kind and reliable it depends on the situation and finally ravenclaw intelligent clever witty and creative I feel like Raven claw if I like had to had to had to narrow it down to one I think Raven claw is the house that I would go with but I do feel like I really identify with aspects of both Slytherin and Hufflepuff as well so I guess we shall see what Pottermore has to say so let's dive in and discover my Hogwarts house once and for all thirteen years it's been and I've never had a Hogwarts house so let's do it I will mention though that I am a late bloomer to the Harry Potter world my parents and my sisters would always read Harry Potter as the books were coming out I watched the movies but even then I was never a super fan I didn't finish the entire series until I was like 20 mom read the first three books to me I didn't like reading as a kid what if idiot but after the third book I was like these books are getting too big I don't have time for this I need to go and play with horses or somebody so I just never finished them until I was 20 and that resulted in me not having a Hogwarts house and missing the whole Harry Potter craze so I guess we'll see where I end up nap time sorry about the angle change there but we are back in business ready to go my camera battery was about to dies so I didn't want to start and then have my camera battery died and then that would be awful so let's begin okay so this is super nerve-wracking it's gonna be fine moon or stars stars I like them both but I'm gonna go stars which would you rather be envied imitated trusted praised liked feared I would say no imitated trusted yeah praised though I think is like liked I mean it's whatever feared no I'm gonna go with praised if you were attending Hogwarts which pet would you choose to take with you tabby cat Siamese cat ginger cat black cat white cat tawny owl screech owl brown owl snowy owl barn owl common toad Mader Jack toad dragon toad Harlequin toad three-toed tree toad whoa was that actually its name three-toed tree toad that is an amazing name bye I would like one of each but I'm gonna go with the ginger cat because Jackson would be adorable at Hogwarts which of the following would you most like to study Centaurs goblins merpeople ghosts vampires werewolves trolls I'm gonna go with centaurs one of your housemates has cheated in a hogwarts exam by using a self spelling quill now he has come top of the class in charms meeting you into second place Professor Flitwick is suspicious of what happened he draws you to one side after his lesson and asks you whether or not your classmate used a forbidden quill what would you do Lions say you don't know but hope that somebody else tells Professor Flitwick the truth tell Professor Flitwick that he ought to ask your classmate and resolve to tell your classmate that if he doesn't tell the truth you will tell Professor Flitwick the truth if your classmate is prepared to win by cheating he deserves to be found out also as you are both in the same house any points he loses will be regained by you for coming in his place first in his place Strauss or finally you would not wait to be asked to tell Professor Flitwick the truth if you knew that somebody was using a forbidden quill you would tell the teacher before the exam started I feel like on the one hand I would tell before the exam started because like that's some BS if I spent all that time studying I don't want someone else like just winning their way no thank you but I think I would tell him to ask the classmate himself and tell the classmate like if you don't tell the truth and I will because the classmate should be the one who's like confessing to this crime not me telling but like if I had to I would more boxes are placed before you which would you try and open the small tortoiseshell box embellished with gold inside which some small creature seems to be squeaking the gleaming jet box with a silver locking key marked with a mysterious room that you know to be the mark of Merlin the ornate golden casket standing on clawed feet whose inscription warns that both secret knowledge and unbearable temptation lie within or the small pewter box unassuming and plane with a scratched message upon it that reads I only opened for the worthy I would open the one with a small creature in it after you have died what would you most like people to do when I hear your name miss you but smile ask for more stories about your adventures think with admiration on your achievements I don't care what people think of me after I'm dead it's what they think of me well I'm alive that counts I'm torn between the middle two so ask for more stories about my adventures or think with admiration on my achievements I'm going to go with achievements heads or tails heads what I'm so confused Gryffindor I just I don't get it okay so what I'm gonna do is I'm going to do the ilver morning house quiz and see what house I end up in there and see like if it's the equivalent to Gryffindor still or whatever Hogwarts equivalent it is we will see what's your preference ply or explore explore my greatest weakness is and nobody's business but mine what makes me me the source of my greatest strength something I must change I would say something I must change think of the question you would most like answered by a person or an all-knowing being or device which of the following most closely resembles the answer you'd like to hear without a shadow of a doe never very soon it is impossible yes I will show you everything only if you agree if you come with me no I didn't you are yes you may only once if you want to forever not for many years so the question I'm thinking of is will I become a best-selling author because obviously super on-brand also that's just a lifelong dream and I'm gonna my answer I would like to be without a shadow of a doubt obviously where would you least like to find yourself imprisoned alone in a silent dungeon walked in a crowded cave standing-room-only in the dock in court accused of a crime you did not commit on the deck of a ship as the title wave comes over the horizon trapped in the Attic as the house burns below you on the rope bridge fraying over the canyon lost in the forest at night eyes staring at you through the dark move that one gave me chills so I guess I'm gonna go with that one I often think why did I do that why can't I do that I wish I had done that I wonder whether I should do that all of the above please I'm gonna say why did I do that no because like whenever I'm walking away from like a conversation I'm like dear God why did you say stupid things why are you so dumb so we'll go with that I wish I knew how to forget when escape get through I'm going to say uh I don't actually know for this one get through I guess whose judgment do you most fear nobody's my own my friends my family's the world's histories I'm going to go with my families you can rescue a baby or the only bottle of a potion that could save 1,000 lives which do you save okay this is utilitarianism which I learned about in my Victorian Lit classes and money that I took so it's the concept of trying to find the greatest good for the greatest number of people so like if you have to let one die so then so many can live it's such like an ethical and moral conundrum Oh God but I'm gonna go with the bottle park wedgie okay so what stuck wedgie so the equivalent is Hufflepuff what okay there's one more quiz that I want to do so time has a Hogwarts percentage quiz I've definitely done it before but I don't remember what I got on it so I'm just gonna do this one really quickly I'm not going to talk through it I'm just gonna do the answers and then I guess where is it there we go and then I guess we will see where I end up fitting in okay so I've got my results I'm like thoroughly confused I don't think I'm going to show you me doing that quiz just because the questions were like really beat also my neighbors started cutting his grass fellows doing that so I'm sorry if you can hear that but this says that I'm seventy five point nine percent Ravenclaw 14.8% Slytherin and 9.2 percent Hufflepuff in 0.1 percent Gryffindor I don't get it do you see it why I never know this is so confusing so I guess while we're here I might as well discover my Patronus because what the heck let's just go wild all right let's begin think of my happiest memory I don't know what my happiest memory is it's not that I don't have happy memories I just don't know what my happiest memory would be Sun wind or rain Sun the graphics though bright or shadow bright lead save or escape say actually lead but I mean it's too late now and you're supposed to go with your instincts Oh a little thingy free or safe safe mind heart or spirit spirit I don't know these are such hard questions I think it's time nevel um kyv what is that oh my god this looks like my old cats nickel friends oh my god this is definitely the breathe on my old cat snicklefritz was but I never knew what kind he was oh also yes my old cat's name is snicklefritz it's from the big comfy couch I think that's just a Canadian show if you don't know what I'm talking about then google it but oh my god that's amazing so I gotten I've done the Patronus quiz before the first time I got a husky then I got a ginger cat once which was really exciting because Jackson's so I'm gonna go with both of these eyes my Patronus because like that's amazing so I hope you guys enjoyed this video I think at this point I'm going to just identify as a slither claw puff I don't even know a Huff raver enslave even puff I don't even know but please let me know what Hogwarts house you guys are in let me know what Hogwarts house you think I belong in because I don't even know anymore but I hope you guys like this video I hope it helped you to understand my Hogwarts house conundrum and it gave you a little insight into my personality bye if you did enjoy this video don't forget to subscribe I put out new videos every Monday Wednesday and Friday you can also click that little bell icon so you'll be notified whenever I post you can also follow me on all my social media handles all of my links and handles and all that stuff will be down below for you guys so thank you so much for watching and I will see you guys in my next video bye\n"